Chapter 9
They had driven for about two miles when Anokhiās car pulled over at the side of the road. Shaurya stopped his car behind them.
All of a sudden a group of children came from nowhere and surrounded her car like a swarm of bees around a honeypot. Their tattered clothes and dishevelled appearance told a lot about their economic condition.
Anokhi came out of her car. The helper handed the food packets to her as she distributed them among the kids. Shaurya too got out of his car and walked up to her.
āSo these are your kids.ā
Anokhi smiled, āYesā.
The children sat down on the footpath itself and started devouring the food with relish. Soon some adults also came there and Anokhi handed over food packets to them as well.
āDo you come here everyday?ā
āYes. We cannot waste the food that our students prepare with so much effort. This way we bring some happiness to the faces of these unfortunate kids.ā
Just then the cries of one kid interrupted their conversation. They went to him to find out what happened. Apparently, he had dropped food and soiled his only good shirt. His mother lost her cool because of this and rained slaps and abuses on him. Anokhi went and stood between them to guard the child. She then handed over some money to the mother and asked her to buy a new shirt for the kid. The womanās anger evaporated within a second and she happily lifted her child in her arms and wiped his face affectionately.
After everyone had finished eating and left, Shaurya and Anokhi started walking towards their cars. As Shaurya saw the helper putting the bags back in the car, he asked hesitantly, āAre there any food packets left?ā
āYes, I think four to five are still left with us, but why are you asking?ā
āNo, nothing.ā
āOh, come on. Tell me.ā
āCan I have one?ā
āSure. Why not? Do you want to give them to anyone?ā
āI will tell you but please donāt make me wait longer, else you will have to carry me to my house.ā
Anokhi went and brought a food packet. Shaurya took it and sat down on the edge of the footpath. He frantically opened the boxes and started gobbling the food.
āWhat are you doing? You can sit in your car and eat.ā
āI am sorry. I cannot control anymore.ā Shaurya said, as he continued eating. It looked as if he hadn't eaten for days. Anokhi then took another packet and sat by his side.
āMay I join you?ā She asked.
āSure. You are most welcome.ā Shaurya said, with his mouth full of food.
Anokhi chuckled looking at him.
āYou can laugh all you want.ā
āNo, but you are looking like a five year old with food smeared all over his face. She then brought her fingers towards his lips. Shaurya suddenly became conscious. He watched in silence as she gently removed the food from the corner of his lips. Then she wiped his face with her dupatta.
After they were done, Shaurya walked her to her car.
āSo, did you like my kids?ā Anokhi asked.
āWhat you are doing is very noble indeed. And these kids are helpless, I get it. But their parents, they seemed perfectly fit to do a job and earn their own living. Getting everything for free is going to spoil them. They encroach the public land and live there permanently, they get food and clothes from kindhearted people like you. This is the problem of our country, people donāt work hard enough to earn their living.ā
āIt is not that they donāt want to work hard. They are not given the opportunity to work hard. You were born rich. You donāt know how hard it is even for a middle class person to get a job, forget about those belonging to the lowest strata.ā
āBut I have seen how lazy and unambitious some of them are. I think you are too naive and idealistic to understand that. You couldnāt even see that the kid and his mother bluffed you into giving them money. I am sure she made her child drop that food and then deliberately created a scene. I was half expecting others to follow suit.ā
āHmm. I donāt completely dismiss your apprehension. But we shouldnāt stop being kind to people out of the fear that a handful of them might take undue advantage of our kindness. You seem to hold a very cynical view of the world.ā
āThatās because I have seen more of this world than you. You are yet to see how cruel it can be. I have experienced at a very young age how even the people closest to you can ruin your life for their own selfish needs.ā
āTrust me, Mr. Sabharwal, I have seen my fair share of this big bad world. It is bound to show its fangs to a woman, sometimes even before she steps out of the supposedly sweet and carefree age of childhood.ā
Shaurya looked at her face. There was a smile on her lips but her soulful eyes were filled with gloom. The dim light of the streetlamps illuminated part of her face, hiding the rest in shadows. Her hair was untied, an unruly strand falling over her face and teasing it. She looked almost unreal, no, ethereal. At that moment he wanted hold her tight and protect her from all dangers of the world.
āMam, we are getting late. Aastha Mam wonāt say anything to you but I am definitely going to be at the receiving end of her anxious outbursts.ā
That name was enough to bring Shaurya out of his reverie. For a moment his mind deviated from his mission. He should be careful not to let his feelings shake his resolve.
āDonāt worry, when I tell her what I was doing, she wonāt get mad.ā Anokhi assured the helper. Then she looked at Shaurya and said, āGood night, Mr. Sabharwal. Our paths diverge from here.ā
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Aastha realised after marriage how patriarchal the Sabharwals were. They never gave importance to a womanās opinion. Aastha was taught by her parents and circumstances to do things on her own. She always took her own decisions but now even the clothes she would wear needed to be approved by Devi. The women needed permission from the men for going out, even for using the telephone.
What surprised her the most though was Shaanās aloofness. She felt as if he was trying to avoid her as much as possible. She made herself understand that perhaps this was how men behaved after marriage. She took life as it came to her, without counting what she gained or lost on the way. But one thing she could never compromise on was her self respect. She raised her voice whenever she found any injustice being done. But Shaan would always sidestep the issue and asked her to keep quiet for the sake of peace in the family.
Shaan on the other hand was finding it difficult to face Aastha. He was not really running away from her, but from himself. Everytime he would look into her big, kind eyes, he would see a reflection of his ugly self in them. He tried his best to be a good husband. He looked after all her needs. Her material demands were few. It was not difficult to fulfill them. But her fiercely independent nature often put her at loggerheads with his family. Shaan couldn't openly support her even when he knew she was right. And this made him curse himself even more.
One place where Aastha could forget all her problems was the kitchen. She had to cook for everyone in the house. But she didnāt complain as she loved cooking. The kitchen was her own world. Time and again Tej would ask her if she had come up with something new. Some of the recipes he would praise and some he would reject. Though a certain sum of money was regularly deposited into her account.
Within a year of her marriage, Shaurya was born. Now her time was divided between her child and her passion. Aastha became so busy that she almost lost connection with the outside world. She didnāt even realize that the Sabharwals had trapped her in a cage until one day. There was a party at their restaurant. Aastha and Devi were sitting at a table with one of the guests.
āMrs. Sabharwal, I have tasted palak paneer at so many restaurants but nothing compares to this. What would you take for giving me the recipe for this?ā
āWhy would we take anything? It is nothing special. The trick is to soak the paneerā¦ā
Devi held Aasthaās hand and muttered, āYou donāt leave any opportunity to brag about your skills. Do you?ā
Then she said to the guest, āMrs. Gupta, she was joking with you. Those recipes are a secret and even us women of the house are not aware of them.ā
That night there was a big argument in the Sabharwal house.
āYou should keep one thing in mind, Aastha. As a bahu of this house, it is your duty to preserve our honour and traditions. You should only think about our prosperity. What you were about to do today would have resulted in a big loss for our business. Those recipes are our trade secret. They should not be revealed to anyone else.ā Tej said, gravely.
āBut that palak paneer was not a secret recipe. It was just a technique I discovered while experimenting. And I often used to share my recipes with those interested but that never led to our restaurant losing business.
āThis girl has a habit of arguing on every matter. Donāt compare Sabharwal Kitchen with your small roadside dhaba. I have made Sabharwal KItchen is the biggest restaurant brand in the region. So donāt try to teach me how to do business. You are a part of this family and so are your creations. If you care a little bit about us, you should remember not to divulge any of our recipes to outsiders. Am I clear?ā Tej left angrily from there without waiting for an answer.
āI donāt understand the need for this.ā
āYou donāt have to understand. Just do what Tej says. Women donāt understand business so they should also not interfere in itā, Devi said. Then with a condescending glance at Aastha, she followed her husband.
Aastha dropped herself on the couch and held her head with her hands.
āAastha.ā She looked up hearing Shaanās voice.
āI am such a fool, Shaan. What was I thinking when I agreed to your brotherās conditions? He is right. In order to succeed in this business you must keep your recipes a secret. Only then can you become such a big restaurant brand. But I never wanted to be a part of this. I didnāt want to reserve my work for the privileged few. This is not me. Why didnāt you tell me that becoming a Sabharwal bahu means losing your identity, giving up on everything you stand for?ā
āCome on Aastha. To live in a family we have to make such small sacrifices. And you are getting much more than the other Sabharwal bahus. You are getting to earn for yourself. Tej Bhaisahab has made all the necessary arrangements so that you can work comfortably.ā
āSo I should be grateful for being allowed my basic right?ā Aastha gave him a scornful look.
āLook at me Aastha.ā Shaan held her and made her stand. āIs my love not enough? Is the beautiful angel who is a sign of our love not enough? As long as we are together, such minor things shouldnāt matter to you.ā
āYou are right.ā Aastha said nodding her head. āI shouldnāt complain. I am becoming very demanding, isnāt it? I apologise for that.ā Saying this, she released herself from his embrace and walked out of the room.
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āMr. Sabharwal, what are you doing here? Aastha Mamās class is there in five minutes. Come, let's go.
āI will have to excuse myself. If you donāt want last dayās incident to be repeated, just let me be.ā
āThat is what I am not getting. If you have come to learn something here, Aastha Mamās class is the best place for it.ā
āI donāt like her classes. I donāt find them interesting.ā
āAre you serious? No one here is as good as Aastha Mam. I myself have been learning under her for six years and yet I feel there is so much more to learn.ā
Shaurya lost his patience and got up, āIn what language do I have to make you understand?ā
āWell, I have been trying hard to be civil with you. But you donāt seem to understand. Now come with me.ā
āWhere?ā
āJust do as I say.ā Saying this, Anokhi started walking. On the way, they came across Aastha.
āI was coming to you Mam.ā
āBut why? Am I late for the class?ā
āNo, but I want you to suspend this student. He refuses to follow the rules of the institute.ā Anokhi said, showing Shaurya.
āBut what has he done?ā
āAs a student, he is supposed to attend all the classes but he doesnāt want to go to your class.ā
āThatās fine. I donāt think it is that big an issue over which we suspend a student. He definitely doesnāt find my classes worthwhile. That is my shortcoming, not his.ā
āHow can you always be blind to his mistakes? You can forgive him once, but if he keeps repeating themā¦ā
āHe is not a child, Anokhi. I believe he very well understands the difference between right and wrong. Giving punishments will be like forcing him to do things against his will.ā
āCan you cut this crap? I really canāt put up with this act of being oh so considerate and supportive. Just go ahead and sign my suspension papers.ā
āAre you still going to remain quiet after this? Why do you have to tolerate all his wrongdoings?ā
āTalking about wrongdoings, why not ask your Mam about her share of wrongdoings? Perhaps, she doesnāt even remember them. Let me help. How about leaving your only child and running away?ā
Seeing Anokhiās shocked expression, he said, āI think I couldnāt make it clear to you. Look at me. I am the person who she gave birth to but after some time found my responsibilities to be too much of a burden. Therefore one fine day she just left. I am sorry but I have no respect for such a heartless woman who abandons her own child.ā
āEnough. Aastha Mam can never do such a thing.ā
āHe is right, Anokhi.ā Aastha said, looking down.
āSee, right from the horseās mouth. Anyways, give me my suspension letter so I can leave.ā
āWe will talk about it later. You may go now if you want.ā
After Shaurya left, Anokhi looked at Aastha and said, āI know you are not heartless. I am myself proof of that. I am sure he is having some misunderstanding.ā
āMisunderstanding or not, the truth is that his mother left him when he was just a little child. I was not there for him when he really needed me, and he has every right to be mad at me for that.ā Aastha said. She paused a bit to straighten herself up and said, āCome, we are getting late for class.The students must be getting impatient.ā
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