I don't know why, though... Just because Pallavi doesn't talk much about her emotions doesn't mean she's not burning inside with pain. She mentioned it briefly today but when you think about how she must have tried to be brave and move on after Mandaar's death, it can't have been easy. Also on the day when she told Raghav she had made him her priority she was telling him how people would try to mistreat her and how she had to toughen up to not let them get to her. Still, doesn't mean her feelings weren't hurt. On top of that the toxic atmosphere in the D-house can't have been easy to deal with all the time.
She has every right to find out what happened and get justice for not just Mandaar but for herself and for at least Ayi and the other Ds she cares about. Heck, even if she's not on good terms with Sanki, when it comes to truth and justice she will still help him get his 'rights' in this matter.
People like her are still waters that run deep. The depth of her pain has hardly been shown so far vs. Raghav's which we have seen and heard explicitly in many forms so far. Maybe they are trying to show her character learn to express herself more and not bottle things up? I don't know, but sometimes the audience needs an in-your-face approach so that these things hit home, as not everyone understands these subtleties. Otherwise, if you see the expression on her face at the end of episode 1, when she's standing a the veranda with that forlorn look, or the way she expressed her thought process to Krishna before the wedding, you can tell there's so much under the surface that's waiting to jump up when the right triggers are activated. I guess we are starting to see that now through this track, and I expect more of it. The last time she was so outspoken was more for Raghav's behalf, in front of the Ds. This time it's about her own feelings too and I'm glad she's talking about it so openly. No more bottling up or people assume you are find with everything just because you don't show a sign of 'weakness'.
She's emotionally vulnerable at this point so I don't expect her to see the other side of the coin, but when she calms down she will. She's hurt by Raghav's decision but her understanding of it is based on the assumption that he's doing this only for Keerti, and not considering her. For her own sake, that's the only part I want her to get clarity on that Raghav is thinking about her too, not just about Keerti, that he's hurting because his actions are hurting her, that he's foreseen all this hence tried to avoid getting her involved. It's not because I think the onus is on her to be understanding re:her husband but to understand her own place in his life so that she doesn't feel like she's unimportant in his life, 'cause clearly that's hurting her a lot based on what we hear in her outbursts.
@ bold- you're right here. I've personally loved seeing Pallavi as such a shut off character. It makes sense to me that her defence mechanism was to suppress and disguise the pain, and keep going, which is why we get such rare but powerful glimpses into it. The scene from episode 1 being one such scene, another visual which is etched in my mind is her eyes during Mansi's kelvan. And also how she's pulled out of her reverie by Nikhil, and within a second is dancing with the others with a bright smile on her face. That's what she's been doing- smiling, fighting and moving forward, for the sake of the family, whose loss she feels dwarfs hers. But I get the sense that just because her moments of pain, moments of losing herself in her own grief, are such stolen moments, she doesn't get nearly the sympathy she deserves from the audience, which may just be the single most frustrating thing about the online experience of this show for me. As much as I've liked the approach they took to her, she now needs to have more moments of outburst like she did today.
@blue- so true. I've been dying to see her fight on behalf of herself and not others, and it's good to see it, and I'm glad the show doesn't paint her as a bad bahu or a bad wife for doing so!
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