Now coming to the most crucial and the most exciting part of the episode, the revival and renewal of Dev Shiva Ravi conflict. If you notice during the entire sequence, Shiva’s gaze only lingers at Ravi And not at Dev. His eyes are fixated at her trying to gauge every single reaction from her. He has been a first-hand witness to Raavi’s madness, infatuation or love for Dev.
This is the same woman who was ready to die, hanging from the noose, because she couldn’t get the love of her life. He was the first person who came to know about her unconditional love for Dev for the last 10 years. He was the first man who understood the depth of her feelings and then they were suddenly thrown into this marriage together.
It brings me back to the wedding night when he looked at the gift with the message “I love you Dev “. What could be the condition of a man who just stepped into his brothers shoes and got married to the woman who was left at the altar by his brother? She is the same woman who had spent an eternity in being in love with his brother. That’s a colossal challenge and complexity to carry on your shoulders. She dissed him openly during their wedding night. She warned that this marriage has no future and they could ever be one. Shiva has been pretty much a simple man. The only marital relationship he was privy to was that of Dhara and Gautam. He always knew that a man loves his wife and the wife loves them equally. Isn’t it strange that his wife didn’t want to love him?
Let’s for once forget the hatred and animosity amongst them. Do you think still it’s easy for someone to carry a burden like that?
No matter how much Shiva says otherwise, right from the childhood Raavi mattered to him. Her caustic words used to affect him when she would tag along with Dev and make fun of him. I remember very clearly how upset he was when she called him Jhalla. This was brought to light even during their bus ride to the Haveli where even her minor laughter would irk him.
Alas, he would never be the man she dreamt of. He would never be the man She chose. And, he Feels that he will never be the man Who is worthy of her.
If you go back and watch this particular scene again, you notice that there is no sadness in his eyes. It’s anger mixed with a certain sense of fear and pain. Till date, he hasn’t seen Dev making any slight initiation to talk to Raavi. The moment he speaks and apologises, he sees Raavi melting and forgiving him instantly. Her smile is brimming and he could see the comfort they share. Shiva would never be the man With whom she could share such a comfort. It probably pinches him, it mortally injures his sense of self-worth. It maybe a slight hint of jealousy of not being able to share vibe so comfortable with a life partner. All this and much more is layered in the scene. I think it’s just a boost needed for the conflict of a lifetime to start again. Please do watch the scene and you could Shiva’s chest heaving up snx down with an intense emotion.
They are slowly getting there.They will share the same comfort soon.
If I said what's on my mind
You'd turn and walk away
Disappearing way back in your dreams
It's so hard to be unkind
So easy just to say
That everything is just the way it seems
You look up at me
And somewhere in your mind you see
A man I'll never be
If only I could find a way
I'd feel like I'm the man you believe I am
And it gets harder every day for me
To hide behind this dream you see
A man I'll never be
You look up at me
And somewhere in your mind you see
A man I'll never be
If only I could find a way
I'd feel like I'm the man you believe I am
And it gets harder every day for me
To hide behind this…
But I was not good enough. You should understand this about me—I am not a hero; not one to tap unknown reserves of courage; not one to rise to circumstance. I am the understudy who chokes on his lines when he is forced onto the stage. I am never, ever good enough.
Dexter Palmer
A vacant resignation before moving on!
Kabhi Neem Neem Kabhi Shahad Shahad
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