RaghVi FF : Nightmare - Page 73

Back. After that long read of chapters together. I can be totally wrong, might be going in a tangential direction. But, am happy. Because, in my head, am feeling at peace!

The story is yours, it can go in any direction. But that impatient, restless feeling has subsided in me; as in my own way, I am finally feeling, that am reading a story without getting confused, call it my version!

And in my version, there are 2 gunshots! Phewww!

Originally posted by: karuna_kini

She has to be Pallavi.😌❤️

I want take anything else 😔

Ya dead pallavi... Got it.

Originally posted by: Prriyam

Back. After that long read of chapters together. I can be totally wrong, might be going in a tangential direction. But, am happy. Because, in my head, am feeling at peace!

The story is yours, it can go in any direction. But that impatient, restless feeling has subsided in me; as in my own way, I am finally feeling, that am reading a story without getting confused, call it my version!

And in my version, there are 2 gunshots! Phewww!

2 gunshots??? few more words needed.

OK, here goes mine. Will try to give a chapter-wise understanding that I got reading them, separately. For now, just a sequence of how I put it in my head.

And I have seen you being OK with theories being shared for everyone to see - so, not trying to PM.

When this story starts, R & P are married; P has accepted R as her husband. R in a guilt-trip.

There are 3 types of narration - 1)memory that flashes in R's head, various timelines in the past; 2) FBs that the writer has used to convey more and move the story ahead; 3) current time scenario.

As per timeline, the story effectively starts in the Chapter 3, Stockholm Syndrome; when P realises to herself 'maybe that's why even before all this I fel...'. The chapter goes on to show how R mentions the infamous 'You will be free from this life of captivity'. And some more...and then the gunshot number 1.

This was the attempt on Raghav's life. He is in hospital, as in chapter 4. The thunderous pronouncement by P that 'Cant hate you even if I try...Saw a life with you...fairytale ending...cant break my dreams..' etc., and that she is in love (which R has heard). All of these are the dialogues that come back to R in different chapters. (as I said, will try to give chapter wise what I thought I found).

When he gets alright, he is aware that there will be attempts, and hence the road trip to Kolhapur that is in chapter 6. Here, R is aware of P's love but considers himself not worthy. Kathak love. Then P's statement that R should forgive himself and live in the present, with her. R starts a thought that maybe he can start living too, his beat to this ice-heart etc., And boom V!

V has come to kill R. Then decides to kill P instead. A conversation between P & R, where P asks R to live, that he deserves to and the 'I can't let my love die; I can't fail again; You can't let me fail again' etc., which will come back later too. Police siren. V changes his plan and shoots R (gunshot number 2). But P takes it.

R takes her to hospital. She is being operated upon and he makes a promise that he will go away from P's life, for her to get alright. He collapses on the floor, wakes up looking for P - sees her and takes her in a tight embrace. And it is not responded for, as the doctors mention that she couldn't be saved. He leaves from there with P's dialogues from 2 different times reverberating in his head.

And that is the day when these nightmares have started haunting him. The same ones where he wakes up, looks for her, hugs, not reciprocated. Tits and bits of dialogues do happen in his head from the past.

2 years after is when we see the story happening next, after that night. Its P's death anniversary. he is getting a Kathak institute open. Sarika comes in as a PA for a week. She is seeming a more of P (how she is, I don't know) to me. With her dialogues. and once a thought to herself as 'your pati-devar'; the way she can bring peace to him when she hugged him during one of his nightmares (when he felt that he is on the mend). He shoos her away. she is staying in his mansion. And that is where the story has halted now.

Originally posted by: Prriyam

OK, here goes mine. Will try to give a chapter-wise understanding that I got reading them, separately. For now, just a sequence of how I put it in my head.

And I have seen you being OK with theories being shared for everyone to see - so, not trying to PM.

When this story starts, R & P are married; P has accepted R as her husband. R in a guilt-trip.

There are 3 types of narration - 1)memory that flashes in R's head, various timelines in the past; 2) FBs that the writer has used to convey more and move the story ahead; 3) current time scenario.

As per timeline, the story effectively starts in the Chapter 3, Stockholm Syndrome; when P realises to herself 'maybe that's why even before all this I fel...'. The chapter goes on to show how R mentions the infamous 'You will be free from this life of captivity'. And some more...and then the gunshot number 1.

This was the attempt on Raghav's life. He is in hospital, as in chapter 4. The thunderous pronouncement by P that 'Cant hate you even if I try...Saw a life with you...fairytale ending...cant break my dreams..' etc., and that she is in love (which R has heard). All of these are the dialogues that come back to R in different chapters. (as I said, will try to give chapter wise what I thought I found).

When he gets alright, he is aware that there will be attempts, and hence the road trip to Kolhapur that is in chapter 6. Here, R is aware of P's love but considers himself not worthy. Kathak love. Then P's statement that R should forgive himself and live in the present, with her. R starts a thought that maybe he can start living too, his beat to this ice-heart etc., And boom V!

V has come to kill R. Then decides to kill P instead. A conversation between P & R, where P asks R to live, that he deserves to and the 'I can't let my love die; I can't fail again; You can't let me fail again' etc., which will come back later too. Police siren. V changes his plan and shoots R (gunshot number 2). But P takes it.

R takes her to hospital. She is being operated upon and he makes a promise that he will go away from P's life, for her to get alright. He collapses on the floor, wakes up looking for P - sees her and takes her in a tight embrace. And it is not responded for, as the doctors mention that she couldn't be saved. He leaves from there with P's dialogues from 2 different times reverberating in his head.

And that is the day when these nightmares have started haunting him. The same ones where he wakes up, looks for her, hugs, not reciprocated. Tits and bits of dialogues do happen in his head from the past.

2 years after is when we see the story happening next, after that night. Its P's death anniversary. he is getting a Kathak institute open. Sarika comes in as a PA for a week. She is seeming a more of P (how she is, I don't know) to me. With her dialogues. and once a thought to herself as 'your pati-devar'; the way she can bring peace to him when she hugged him during one of his nightmares (when he felt that he is on the mend). He shoos her away. she is staying in his mansion. And that is where the story has halted now.

Thnx for putting all this effort. Seriously perfect synopsis of story so far...

And yes I don't see any issue with discussing theories as those r based on chapters already out there. So its perfectly fine. But i think u intentionally skipped theory part maybe to not spoil anything as I don't think there were any spoilers u mentioned.

U cn mention anything on post. I never mind.

Originally posted by: lateuser1234

Thnx for putting all this effort. Seriously perfect synopsis of story so far...

And yes I don't see any issue with discussing theories as those r based on chapters already out there. So its perfectly fine. But i think u intentionally skipped theory part maybe to not spoil anything as I don't think there were any spoilers u mentioned.

U cn mention anything on post. I never mind.

This summary will keep me happy till such time that you update the next chapter.😀 As you might bring in a twist yet again. 🤞🏻

I should add, it is fun trying to travel with the story! Most of us reading, are spending more than one-read on every chapter! Thank you for this!

Originally posted by: Prriyam

This summary will keep me happy till such time that you update the next chapter.😀 As you might bring in a twist yet again. 🤞🏻

I should add, it is fun trying to travel with the story! Most of us reading, are spending more than one-read on every chapter! Thank you for this!

Thanx for investing so much in this story.

I myself read every chapter at least 10-12 times before publish. Next chapter today afternoon.

Originally posted by: lateuser1234

Thanx for investing so much in this story.

I myself read every chapter at least 10-12 times before publish. Next chapter today afternoon.

Excited!

I havent read your other works. Have decided to take it, only after this gets over.

Originally posted by: Prriyam

Excited!

I havent read your other works. Have decided to take it, only after this gets over.

seems like a plan.

Chapter 10

S – It’s getting worse every day uncle. It seems to have aggravated lately. In past week, it has almost doubled. He keeps on shouting same thing again and again. It seems he is seeing something in loop. It looked like nightmare at first but he is not waking up for far too long. What is happening to him?

U - Sarika beta… I guess it’s a case of nested dream. But I have never seen it to be for such long durations. And if what you are telling me is correct than it has to be subconsciously triggered by him only. He might be channeling it like an addict. Not sure why anyone would do that. We can always run test but you need to bring him here for that.

S – That is not possible uncle. He is another level arrogant to take help when he needs. He won’t agree. But can you tell me what can be the reason for it, any danger because of it and anything that can be done to stop this?

U – Mostly all psychological complication originate from some past memories beta. It can be both good and bad. But a case like this seems more likely to be originated from some trauma. Something, he might have held on to or something his mind couldn’t have been able to accept. There can be number of reasons but whatever it may be it definitely needs to stop because if it keeps going like this then he might end up never waking up again because of coma or at worst death. Try to get him to counselor. There is nothing more that you can do beta.

He might end up never waking up again.

The phone lost the grip and fell on the ground as Sarika was unable to hold the tears in her eyes. Her knee felt weak and she held the chair for support.

Why you did that? Why you did that to yourself? You had no right. You had no right to do that to yourself.

Her grip tightened. She tried to stand up as the tears gave way to anger.

R – Ms. Sarika… I told you to stay out of my sight. Why are you standing here in middle of the hall?

Sarika turned to direction of voice and looked at Raghav and her eyes were raining fire. Her rage seemed to be boiling to the point of burning everything down. The anger in her eyes shook him as the silence accompanied with fury seemed to be questioning him and he didn’t knew why and what those questions are for.

R – What happened Ms. Sarika? I told you to get lost from my sight. And what’s with the stare? Are you angry at something?

Sarika stood there looking at him trying to hold back her anger. She kept her silence as she stared right into his eyes with pure rage. The situation confused Raghav as he felt uneasy anxiety. He felt sadness and pain but can’t get the reason for any. The moment froze as she kept staring deep down in his eyes with anger then plight and then sadness. Finally, she broke her stare, turned and started to leave as she felt a hand holding her wrist. She turned to see a curious Raghav holding her looking for the answers.

R – I asked you something. How dare you stand in my mansion and refuse to answer me. What’s with this attitude and what is this anger for? It looks like you want to kill me or something. Keep your attitude in check Ms. Sarika. I am your boss, so you better keep your attitude in check. These looks, you keep them to yourself. Don’t try all this with me.

She maintained her silence but her gaze again held on to his eyes. He felt something breaking in him and her, making him leave her wrist in the instant as she kept standing there staring at him with same anger.

The anxiety was creeping in but Raghav tried to act in control.

R - This stupid girl giving look like she will kill me. God knows man. Stupidity has no bounds. What she knows about killing anyone anyways. Sarika dukaan. Don’t you worry about doing it, before that I myself will do…

S – Shut up…. Shut the hell up Ragahv Rao.

The room felt a shake as she thundered. All the anger she held back broke through her hold.

S – Shut the hell up now. You have already said and done enough for yourself. So just shut up now and choose your next words very carefully. You call the whole world stupid right, what are you huh…? Behaving whole day like nothing happened, you are absolutely fine, all business as usual and what when no one is watching you or you think you are alone. You are talking to your dead wife. Is that what you call sanity?

R – Don’t bring her into this, I am warning you Ms. Sarika. Leave her out of all this.

S – First thing, I told you to shut your mouth. Next time you opened your mouth I will beat you black and blue and then throw you out of this house. So just keep your mouth shut now. And secondly, who the hell do you think you are? Are you some Romeo, Ranjha or what... huh… tell me? My wife is not with me so I will mop in my guilt and stop living to the point that I will kill myself bit by bit everynig….

Her throat got choked as she cannot find strength to complete the sentence. Her eyes carried plight, they carried pain but it wasn’t clear if that belonged to her or him. But at the moment it doesn’t seemed to matter. She needed to make it right. She needed to make everything right.

She gets a hold on herself as she blasted.

S – You want to kill yourself right? That’s what you want. Let me help you. I will beat you left, right and center to the point you will stop having any such idea. Let me help you once and for all. At least this everyday torcher will stop. Wait… let me get my mop. Veda manus. Zero brain. You have zero brain but has to take all the decisions and that too all wrong ones. You listen and listen very carefully now… Don’t dare… and I mean it very seriously, never dare to do or say anything related to dying again… not now not ever or I swear on bappa, I will make sure that I kill you myself. Understood??? Veda manus.

Sarika left to her room in anger as Raghav kept standing there trying to wrap his head around what just happened.

She was angry… yes she was angry. But with me or someone else? And if with me then why? What have I done? And what… how can she say all that to me? She is not my boss, I am his bos…

He was lost in thoughts as he pondered over the events he just witnessed.

F – Anna… anna….

Raghav broke out of trance as Farhad’s voice brought him back to reality.

R – Yes… yes Farhad…

F – Anna…

R – Ya Farhad… that… that file I will check and give you by the evening. There is some work left in that. And… and… construction… yes, get the construction work started on the academy project. That is highest priority.

F – Sure anna. But I needed to ask you about something else. Anna… how were you so sure that Sarika Ji is not Pallavi Bhabhi?

Raghav gave him a stare for his line of question.

R – Farhad… not again. I told you she is not your Bhabhi. Just believe me and leave it like that.

F – I know that Anna. She is not Pallavi Bhabhi but how did you know this?

R – So Raj got back with all the information, I guess.

Farhad seemed surprised by Raghav’s reaction.

F – Yes Anna. He enquired. You knew that I asked Raj to check for Sarika Ji’s past?

Farhad’s face showed embarrassment. He felt like he has betrayed his anna. Raghav easily read his face.

R – I never doubt your loyalty Farhad. I know you loved your Bhabhi a lot. But I also knew that it doesn’t matter how much you love her and want to see her back because you can never ignore my words. I know that too. I knew you will get it checked. So I didn’t. What did he bring about Ms. Sarika’s past?

F – Same what you said anna. She is not my Bhabhi. She had her whole childhood in Kolhapur too like Pallavi Bhabhi. Her parents have textile business and all the neighbors have watched her grow there. We checked her school records too and all are absolutely authentic. Even her teachers told the same. She had always been their brightest student. Everyone praised a lot about her. But she is not Pallavi Bhabhi anna. She is not my Pallavi Bhabhi.

Farhad spoke those words but the pain he felt for his anna and Bhabhi seemed unbearable to handle and he dashed out of the door as the air in the hall became too thick for him to breathe. But Raghav was used to this suffocation. It seemed normal to him even more normal than breathing. He had a faint smile on his face.

R – So… You are not my Pallavi, Ms. Sarika. You are not her.

A tear dropped from side of his eye as his face gets grim. He stared into nothingness with his eyes breathing fire.

Then who are you?