Junooniyat - Prayansh

Hi doubt i will be able write FF/SS as of now, but would like to try writing OS.

So this another OS from Prayanshu's world. Hopefully you will enjoy it as much as I loved writing it. Looking forward to your comments.

OS- Birthday Special - page 3

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Hi All,

It is my first attempt at writing. I usually don't write fiction, so please bear with me in case of any error. I haven't proof-read it, if someone can help me with it, I would be grateful. Also should I continue? I started at a point but was not able to complete as it took life of its own.. looking forward to reading your comments.

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Reyansh throws the vase at the table and breaks both of them but still the ache in his heart didn’t reduce if anything the pain increased. The pain of misunderstanding the one person who was his heart’s voice, as much as he wanted to deny, he can’t anymore. He has been running away from it for past 9 years,trying to drown her voice in the cacophony of the noise around him, but its till followed him in his sub-conscious mind, like an ever present shadow,observing silently. Sometimes even guiding him unknowingly, on the correct path,always believing that there is a smudge of goodness in him. She was no longer part of his life but the echo of her voice was still his guiding light. A light which he knew he didn’t deserve, a light which will be extinguished if it came too near him. A light that lead him to their place, near the wishing tree,whenever he wants to find peace, because that is what she was for him. An oasis in the desert which has the power of quenching his thirst. But as with everything he ever held dear to him, he had to let her go. He always hoped wherever she be, she will be happy. So when he first met her again after 9 long years he was very happy, as she was getting married and seemed happy. But his bad fate didn’t leave her as she broke her marriage and started staying with him for their daughter, jugunu.

She did gave birth to our daughter alone, how scared she must be, must have wanted him around her to support, more than that he should have been there to help her. His Prani was a fighter, she even fought her tears alone when she got to know her baby was still birth. He can’t even imagine the pain his prani would have undergone, the hollowness, the anger, she kept it all inside her for 8 long years, no wonder she was a shadow of previous herself during the initial interactions with her. In just few months, he can’t imagine not being with jugunu, everything related to her impacts him now. To think, he wouldn’t be even aware about his prani’s pain, had he not listen to archit talking to prani.

She still didn’t say anything even when jugunu use to take her frustration out of prani. From where did his prani get such patience maybe that is what a mother’s love is? He never got it so he can’t be sure but seeing jugunu transform into the princess that she is, maybe he can be sure.

In her showering love on jugunu made him want to feel that love.In her teaching jugunu to be a good person made him want to be a better person.But who was he kidding, since childhood he has been taught to be emotionless,without any feelings with the understanding that emotions makes one weak, makes one feel like a loser.

He so wished that was not the lesson ingrained in him otherwise he wouldn’t have committed blunder after blunder. His biggest blunder was to throw accusations on her once she became conscious after they were back from the hotel. She being unconscious scared daylights out of him, he doesn’t even remember getting her home, Mallika and everyone else saying anything. All his thoughts were occupied in praying for her well-being, he just wanted to see her awake. He doesn’t even remember doctor seeing her and giving medicines all he remember was him not leaving her side even for one second for the whole night. Riya and Maan offered taking care of her but for him their voices were coming from far off which were disturbing his prayers for her. He doesn’t even remember giving them, orders to leave even dadi kept quiet seeing him, but he doesn’t remember anything, as he was praying to all the gods in the world. Jugunu tried staying with them but riya took her to rest. He was grateful to riya and maan for taking care of jugunu when her parents weren’t able to, sleep finally took over him in middle of the night. The silence of the early morning was broken by phone ringing, in half sleep he tried to reach for his phone to shout at whoever was calling at such a time, but his phone was not ringing. He reached for pranati’s phone at side table and looked at the caller’s name being flashed,his drowsiness vanished in thin air and it felt like a bucket of ice cold water is splashed on him, for he was reminded of everything that happened yesterday. Through his mind eyes scenes flashed before him her talking to secretively with archit,her lying to him on asking where was she going, getting to know about the hotel, her in Archit’s arm, police officer telling what they both were doing int he room, all combined turned him truly into the beast that he said he was. A beast who can’t have any rational thought who just know to hurt others as much as he has been. So when he saw pranati waking up due to the incessant ringing, the beast saw red before his eyes and made pranati sat in bed to lash out, so as to reduce the hurt he was feeling. He saw her getting scared, even recoiled from his touch which did nothing but adding fuel into the fire. The vile things he said,the unspeakable words he uttered, things which was inhumanly to say the least. He attacked her with his words, asked If she enjoyed the time together with archit as he seems very worried about her since he is calling her at odd hours, who was better if she remembers, or she want him to remind her, so that she can answer the question. In all his questions, his conscious was pricking him, that something was amiss, the pranati he knew would never do this and that this is a mistake but his inner beast had taken over him in such a way that he was not in control. It was the emptiness in her eyes that made the beast in him finally blink. He finally closed his mouth to listen to her explanation but no words came out of her mouth. She just removed his hands from her shoulder and rolled into a ball on the bed, silent tears shaking her frame was the only indicator of her being awake. Seeing her broken form and knowing he was somewhat responsible for it, made his heart ache, he wanted to say sorry and talk to her but was afraid that the beast in him wasn’t completely gone, so he did something which he should have done become opening his mouth, he left and went to his room. His only solace was his boxing, it gives him the much required chance to calm himself and think. The more he thought the more he realized that there was something amiss in this whole situation. His pranati wasn’t like that, she gave importance to her words, and if she said nothing is there between her and archit then nothing will be there, atleast not on her side of that he can be sure. Then why did he react like that whenever archit is in the picture all his rationality goes for a toss. Why archit being near pranati impact him so much? It’snot fair to pranati, she didn’t deserve it, maybe if archit is close to her then she won’t be able to focus on jugunu which is what she wants right. He is just helping her but what he said was not correct, he was way out of his line,he should go and see her. He finally gather his strength to go see her, and talk to her, little did he know that the voice he wanted to hear has gone faraway from him. For pranati had gone into her shell in such a way that nobody was able to reach her, she just kept mum for days. Everyone in the family tried talking to her, even her family visited her. The media was having a field day with racket burst and were saying vile things about her especially since he got her out of police custody. Due to lack of better gossip, pranati was all over page 3 and fluff columns where they did her character assassination, called for her removal from society by the so called gatekeepers of the civil society. They even included jugunu into this dirt with articles written about her birth story.

Unknown from this storm, he and pranati were lost in their own storm which was fiercer than the one raging outside. Her silence was killing him, because his guilt was not letting him sleep. He knew it was not all due to him, but before he get to the root of it, he wanted to his pranati to smile and be normal. But was easier said than done cause he has tried everything other than jugunu talking to her. He didn’t want jugunu to see her mom in this state so he tried to keep her busy and family understood, so kept her busy with school work and projects and whenever she asks about pranati,they would say she was sleeping due medicine as she needs to rest. But it has been one week since the incident and they are running out of idea to get pranati to react which according to the doctor is very important. He was at his wits end and was ready to try anything, so he threw a Hail Mary and took jugunu to meet pranati.

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Wow... Superb dear👏

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Feels like you've written next week episode 😲

Please continue. I hope they show this in the actual episode. Really deep and emotional. Continue

Originally posted by: jey3ram

Wow... Superb dear👏

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Feels like you've written next week episode 😲

Please continue. I hope they show this in the actual episode. Really deep and emotional. Continue

Awwww...thanks for the motivation....was not sure if it came out well.....will surely give it a shot 😃

This is amazingly written. Please continue.

This is really interesting and excellent, please please please continue!!!

Whatever turn the show takes, this will be our alternatre unviverse of hope. Thank you soo much for putting this out ❤️

Originally posted by: Natashapaul

This is really interesting and excellent, please please please continue!!!

Whatever turn the show takes, this will be our alternatre unviverse of hope. Thank you soo much for putting this out ❤️

that is so sweet of you .....will try to complete this first...then lets see where the show takes us 😃

Originally posted by: Paytonlee321

This is amazingly written. Please continue.

Thanks.....bit hesitant since trying for the first time....

Even an actual Pavitra Bhagya episode can't be better than this. CVs should hire you. Amazing job,dear 👏

Its so nicely written. We've never gotten a proper POV of Reyansh in the show barring a few recent ones. So this was a very well written description of his feelings and things going on in his mind.

Please do write more.

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They say during pregnancy if a mother suffers any internal organ damage, baby in the womb send their stem cells to help the mother heal.That is the testimony of the bond between mother and her child which goes beyond the gestation period. Another testimony of it was being experienced by him, when he saw his prani reacting to jugunu’s antics and the eyes that always mesmerized him, finally had light in them. Since then every day after school,jugunu would sit next to her and tell funny stories about her time in ashram,her mischiefs, her friends, and the warden trying to punish her but end up getting punished herself. She even let pranati pick her clothes, experiment on her hairstyle by going through different fashion magazines, in short all those moments which prani wanted to live with her daughter, finally she was getting to living those. Another proof of mother’s love was the fight between jugunu and her nayi maa as jugunu didn’t want to leave pranati even for second, maybe even she realized her mother needed her but pranati made her promise that only after school and completing the homework, will she be allowed to meet pranati. Her bandar papa also was not able to do anything about it, truth to be told he was lost as he was feeling a strange ache in his heart, he who use to run away from emotions, was liking this bittersweet feeling and wanted his daughter to always have her mother’s love in her life.

With his prani on the way of becoming normal, he could focus on other pressing matters, like the fact archit was calling everyday but wasn’t allowed to talk to pranati on his orders, though he knew maan has been giving updates to him, that why archit hasn’t gate crashed till now. And then there is the matter of whole media outside the house and gossip articles being written by them about his family. Usually he would have taken care of the press by now but with pranati in such a bad condition, he couldn’t think about anything.Even now, he was controlling himself from going to archit’s place and unleash his beast on him for drugging pranati. What sort of friend is he? How can he let this happen or he did it intentionally? His name is safe but pranati’s and jugunu’s names are being dragged in the mud, something which he can’t tolerate,they are two most important people for him in this world. Even dadi must be getting anxious about the press but surprisingly she hasn’t said a word and on top of it even stopped mallika from uttering rubbish, he will talk to dadi after his next move. But before he takes his next step which will end this forever and solve all his problems, he needs to know the truth about that day. He didn’t want to make the same mistake again. He wasn’t sure what happened between them that day but whatever it was had shaken pranati to the core. A girl who had the strength to not give importance to the society rules and their taunts and decided to have a baby alone, wasn’t that weak to go in such shell mode just by his cruel words. Normally she would have given it back to him nicely, so it becomes imperative for him to find the truth about that day. How did she got drugged?What had happened between them? Why is she getting scared when someone touches her suddenly, other than jugunu nobody is allowed to come too close? Even others have noticed it but have not commented about it and many other questions that have remained unanswered for far too long. He can never forget her hollow eyes which stills haunts his dreams, if his suspicions are correct then archit won’t alive for long. She might use to think he is perfect for her but after that day, she hasn’t contacted at all, so she must have realized the truth that archit can never be the partner she deserves. With that in his mind, he finally made the call he has been waiting for since last 2 weeks, and told him about his new task and urgency of it. Finally, in next 12 hours he will have the truth, no matter how impatient he is, he need to divert his mind for his sanity’s sake. He opened the bottle of his favorite whiskey and almost gulp it down, after two bottles finally his senses dulled. In the security of his mind,he finally let the thought bubble to the surface, the fact that he was so willing to blame archit for everything that is he truly that undeserving? Will pranati be happy with him? As soon as, the image of both of them together in the hotel room popped in his head, he lost it and threw the bottle at the mirror breaking them into pieces as did his peace of mind. Try as hard he may,he can never see his prani with archit. She is his PRANI, only he can make her laugh then he remembered her laughing with archit which further tormented him. He knew he doesn’t have any right to stop pranati, maybe that is why he trying to draw such wild conclusions as to archit trying to hurt pranati by forcing her. The more he thought the more he got confused and his headache increased exponentially finally leading him to pass out on the floor. Maan who was seeing all this from the door as he had seen reyansh drinking recklessly on passing and had tried entering the room to stop him, but before he could stop him, reyansh’s words stopped him in his tracks. Reyansh in his stupor finally poured his elusive feelings, feelings that made him say he doesn’t deserve his prani. But how can his prani be with archit? He was able to bear her going away once, how will he bear it again? repeating She is his prani again and again until he passed out then only maan dared to move inside and made reyansh lay on the bed comfortably and cleaned the room before leaving. Maan had his doubts about reyansh having strong feelings for prabhi but to know that those feelings are there since 9 years was news to him. His mind clogs were running but whatever he was planning needed to wait after he checks up on navya but tomorrow morning he will start executing his plan.

Reyansh luckily had a dreamless night thanks to those two whiskey bottles, but as a side effect he was having massive hangover after longtime. Luckily for him, maan knew his hangover drink and had already kept a big glass of it at the side stand. He thanked his stars for having maan as his brother and drank the cocoon in one go to have the maximum effectiveness. Once he was feeling better, he looked at his phone and since he had overslept there were lot of messages and missed calls. In them there was one he has been waiting for, so as soon as he saw it, adrenaline coursed into his veins, making even the hangover gone, and he was completely alert. With shaky hands he called back and the person on the other side picked after 3 rings, but for him those 3 rings also felt like lifetime as he wanted to be done with archit’s chapter. But never in his dreams, would he have guessed the things which the other person was saying. With each word, the horror became real and true culprit was exposed, his eyes burnt with anger he was feeling. He thought he has felt murderous rage since he was angry with archit for so many days, but the extent of anger he was feeling right surpassed anything which he had ever felt. Another emotion bud out of that all-encompassing anger but before he can name it. He took the vase and threw in the mirror, as it shatters into million pieces, he was able to identify the emotion. It was plain, simple pain, pain that his prani had undergone such a trauma because of his family, pain that he was not able to protect her, pain that he was correct that he doesn’t deserve her and that she and jugunu needs to far away from him and his family, pain that after what he has to do he might never see them again. For the first time, for his family he has to fight with his family, but he was determined to do it as the stakes were high ,so he decided to start with root cause of it. He went towards the room and knocks on the door, with fire that was consuming him, he tried not to move too much. After few seconds the door opens and reyansh begins ’Dadi, where is vardaan?’

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