I went to Mandir as per Bua's instructions. I am carefully cross checking everything so as to avoid any mistakes which will create a havoc before people...
I litted up the diya and decorated the idols with chunari and flowers...
" Ae Bhagwaan main nahin janti ke meri naseeb kya likha hai tune? Main yeh bhi nahi janti ke aaj ke dinn mera vrat rakhna sahi bhi hai yaa nahi? Main yeh bhi janti ke agli teej main kahan rahungi? Yeh shadi sirf ek samjhota hai hum dono ke liye. Unnoh ne sirf meri jaan bachaane ke liye mujhse shadi ki. Uss ke alawa na toh mera unn pe koi haqq hai na rishta Mayne rakhta hai. Main unneh apne iss badnaseebi mein bandh ke nahi rakhna chahati. Sirf duniya aur Bua ji ke liye main unn ki patni hoon aur iss ghar ki bahu. Lekin aap janti hain hamaari shadi sief ek samjhota aur majboor hai. Mujhe kuch samajh nahi aa raha hai ke main kya karodon. Ek Unn ka pyar hai sirf Anamika jiss ki jagah maine le li. Mujhe raasta dikhaye ke main kya karoon. Kaise nibhaoo iss shadi ko yeh jaante hue bhi ke yeh kisii aur ka haqq hai? Kaise? Ab aap hi mujhe raasta dikhaaiye "...... I am spelling out my entangled emotions and questions before Kanha ji.
Without my knowledge, my saree caught fire with the diya I litted up. When I turned towards, I see my saree has caught fire.....
"Bachao...! Baba bachao I screamed. The warmth of fure hurts me as I started coughing. Bachao.... I screamed.