Chaahat: A RoNakshi Story- Chapter seven updated 23/03 - Page 23

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I do owe you all a serious apology.for returning back with the update which is delayed by more than one month. Everything went in a haywire with the show’s abrupt off airing and I got worked up with that,and I am sorry that chaahat got delayed. And you all had to keep on waiting. I am really so sorry,please forgive me.

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Chapter seven: Toota Sa Hoon Mein-tooti si hein tu,harasaa hoon mein-khafa hein tu

Sonakshi didn’t know when or how she came to the room again.

Just the fact that he has rejected to give them a chance quite broke her from within. And his reasoning? Not trusting him. And the drastic step she took thinking to end her life.

Justified reasons,he had all the right to do this rejection.

Years back,she was the one who made him believe in love life again. aur she herself was the one to leave him,midway. Making his belief shatter into tiny pieces. How could she?

She was wrong. What was the harm in coming and telling him the truth that night? He always told her to trust him.

Barso rakho mujh par sonakshi.barosa rakho.barosa.

And the one time she unconsciously ignored his plea. He was right she wasted his hers and chaahat’s time.

And she had unnecessarily wasted all the chances,fearing a threat that wasn’t even there. She sat down on the bed lost in the sickening realization.

How much would he have cried. He turned into an alcoholic.he completely destroyed himself. This is what her love did to him. Eisa pyaar se kya faida hua usse?

It’s not okay. This is not how they should be.

I am going to wait, this time there will be no leaving,no stepping back and no giving up. Even if he takes a lifetime to forgive me,I will stay. I am not going to leave him. never. Ek baar galti kardiya bas.dubara nahi dohoraungi. If he believed in me being alive, if he waited and if he suffered then enough. I am going to believe,wait and suffer this time. But I will wait. Kaamoshi mein sahi,intezaar toh karungi.

She decided among tears.

Uska har ek baat ka bharosa karungi,ek baat chod ke.

Pyaar katam nahi ho sakta hum dono ke beech,us baat ke alaawa rohit ke har ek baat ka bharosa rakhungi mein,aaj se.

“Mummmmmma?”

Chaahat’s knock on the door broke her trance.

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Rohit poured down another shot and kept the bottle with a thud of the bar counter. his flight was in some hours but here he was,drunk and trying to forget his pains.

He crumbled in pain when he remembered sonakshi’s walking away from out of his room. Wait....it’s their room? Their room,haan.walking out of their room. He chased her away.he only chased her away.

Aaj kamre se gayi.kal kya waapas chali jayengi mujhse dhoor? Bhi?

He wondered.

“bhai kya kar rahe ho yaar?”

He heard ajit’s voice.

“Dafa ho ja yahaan se,mujhe kissise koi baat nahi karni.”

“Filght hein aapka shaam ko. Ab toh peena bandh karo.”

“Baad mein gaye flight.baad mein gayi sab kuch......” he started laughing.

Ajit stared at his brother,just as they got a bit happy thinking that rohit finally gave up on his five years se favourite chees-alcohol,here he is drinking again. But instead of the rage today he saw his brother’s eyes emoting some different kind of feelings.

Ajit,the one who once was the catalyst between his bhaiyya and bhabhi didn’t find it difficult to read those feelings this time.sitting next to rohit,he grabbed a glass pretending to drink along with him.

“Chalo,aaj drink saat mein karte.” He said.

“Tu kiss dukhi mein peena ja...rahe ho.hat.”

“Toh aap dukhi ho,bhai?”

Rohit gulped down his shot and looked into ajit’s eyes,directly.

“I love her yaar ajit.”

Ajit gave a smile despite the pain rohit was sounding in that confession.

“Tu has raha hein? Moron.”

“Pata hein mujhe ki you love her,issiliye hasi thi.”

“Her? Kaun her? Achcha pata hein toh,bata mujhe ki ye her kaun hein.”

Rohit started chuckling in inebriation.ajit stared at him.

“Loser,tu nahi jaanta her kaun hein,right.”

He said pointing his index of the hand which was still holding his glass,which he then kept on the table.

“Sonakshi rastogi.i love uss sonakshi rastogi.nahi?tume kya lagta,pyaar karte hoon na mein usse?”

He asked,stammering.Ajit held his shoulder which he felt shaking then.his voice turned sobby and eyes went teary in a second.Watching all his changed moods,ajit composedly talk to his brother.

“bhai...”

“I love her ajit,sona hein wo mera.i f**cking love that girl so much.”

Rohit bursted into tears,at the moment ajit least expected it and then he hugged his little brother and started sobbing. ajit was flabbergasted,seeing a rohit whom he never have seen,not even at the first time sonakshi bhabhi left his brother.

“pyaar....karta hoon usse...bohot mein,bohot....karta hoon yaar.i love her beyond everything I have...I love her so damn much...”

He literally sobbed loud so much that pooji came running down but ajit signalled her to not come there but to wait at a distance.

“bhai....so achcha hein na...aap ro kyun rahe ho...”

Ajit whispered at his brother,rubbing his back in an attempt to calm him down. With that rohit raised his head,and took him free of his brother’s hug and tried to steady himself.

“kya...achcha.what achcha.kuch achcha nahi yaar.pek diya mein usse apni zingdagi se bahar.kahaan ki nahi chahiye mujhe usse.kaahan ki pyaar nahi karta mein usse....bohot dard diya....usne rote rote hi chup chaap chali gayi...”

Rohit stammered among tears.

“Kya chali gayi bhai....kahi nahi gayi bhabhi ne.yehi thi,mein mila usse aaj bhi....”

“Mila hoga....mila hoga....lekin....ajit....ajit agar wo waapas chali jayenge...Kya hoga..ajit,she will leave me and go again...mein bardaash nahi karpaaunga...no ajit no.i cannot live without her,tume pata hein,chaahat,chaahat toh uski....carbon....wo kya hein....xerox...haan xerox copy hein uski....chaahat ko dekte hi mujhe uske yaad aata hein yaar.sona chali jayengi,aur chaahat ko dektehi mujhe uski hi yaad ayenge...I cannot bear that ajit....I cannot.”

Rohit sobbed more and ajit felt his own eyes turning teary. He didn’t know what to say.there was a moment of silence and rohit smiled along with the tears. He saw chaahat’s little soft toy on a sofa far away.

“Dekha tumne humari ghar ab.. keisa badal gaya hein...soft toys idhar udhar. nonstop chatters...wo choti packet sona ki,aakar sab kuch badal chuki hein, Jeise...saalo se pehele sona aayi humari ghar sajaake Vrindavan jeise...yaad hein? Aatehi sab mahaulle badal di ussne...yellow colour ki ek...beautiful dress pehenti thi...yaad hein tujhe ki tere ko aana pada mere khula hua muun bandh karnekeliye...”

He started smiling though his eyes poured down the pain.ajit held one shoulder of his brother trying to console him.

“Arey...off track gaye mein neh,nahi? Anyways...eise hi hein chaahat bhi.. utna hi cute...bubbly..aur lively. Jahaan bhi hota hein alag hi mahaulle banaati hein wo bhi. My baby...aur Mein...apni beti ko..bohot pyaar karta hoon,ajit.bohot.pata hein kyun?kyun ki...wo sona ne diya hein mujhe.pata hein,I always wanted a baby girl...who look exactly like sona...mere hi chaahat the ki mujhe ek eisa beti ho jisse mein apne haatose utaakar, duniya ke samaane dikha saku,kehe saku ki...ye meri bachchi hein...jinka har ek adaa usski maa se milti hein.”

“B...hai..”

“pata hein tume ki...mujhe eisa chaahat kyun the apne man mein? Pata hein? Nahi.. pata hein tume.kyun ki,jitna pyaar mein sona se karte hoon naa ajit,utna...pyaar mein aur kissi se nahi karta...jahaan tak ki apne beti se bhi nahi karta...I love sona more than...I love chaahat. Mein sona se..what do people say in serials wagera.. beyhadh...beintehaa..bepannah...wo dramatic si words...usse kahin guna zyaada pyaar karte hoon. Mein marjayenge uski bina.jee nahi paunga mein yaar ajit.”

Rohit cried hitting his fists against the bar counter.

“Itna pyaar karte ho toh Aap uske saat eisa kyun karte ho bhai.bas bohot hogaya. Iss tarha chale toh aap khudse aur sona bhabhise kuch achcha nahi karne waala hein. Itna pyaar karte ho toh,aapko ussse batadena hi chahiye. Zyaada dher hone se pehele...toh ye sab naarazi chod lo, aur aap bhabhi ko phir se apnalo please...”

“Wo mujhse pyaar nahi karti ab...”

He started sobbing again.

“Sonakshi bhabhi...aapse pyaar nahi karti? Seriously bhai? Seriously? Duniya mein jo bhi hein wo sab badal sakta hein sewaiye usska pyaar aapke liye. She is never going to stop loving you.itna toh hum sab ko pata hein aapko kyun nahi pata? Come on now bhai.”

“karti toh eisa mujhse dhoor jaati thi? Eisa mujhse cheeise chupathi? Eisa hum dono ka bachchi ko aur khudko mujhse alag karthi? Yaar...wo sab chod,usse hurt karnekeliye mein ne apni bachchi ko usse alag kar ke yahaan le aayi, rokh bhi nahi thi mujhe...eise..eise yuhi mujhe jaane dekhar peechein hati.”

Ajit dipped his face in his own palms in frustration and pooja who was watching all these wiped her tears off.

“Kitne baar usse..kitne baar excuses pooch rahe the mein? Kitna mauka diya muun kolne ke...lekin kuch nahi kahaan wo mujhse...tume andaaza tak nahi hein ki wo mujhe aur mumma ko bachaane ke liye...khudko jaakar takleef mein daali thi. Kissi ke dhamki se dhar ke hum dono ke pyaar sacrifice ki thi ussne. Sab ke baaremein soch soch ke khudki jaan katre mein daali,paanch saal tak meri liye takleefein utaakar...khudki zingdagi barbaad ki hein sona ne.pagal hein ek number ki.pagal hein bilkul..toh tume kya lagta ajit,mujhse abhi bhi pyaar karti hein toh kudhko eisa nuksaan karegi wo? Doesn’t she know ki I love her f**cking so much that I cannot see her in pain. If she loved me,she wouldn’t have done all those harm to herself.”

“What?”

Asked ajit looking up at his brother in shock. Rohit breathed up and down in anger that surged up his veins with the alcohol action along.

“sona ko mujhse dhoor jaane keliye dhamki naren sippy ne diya hein ajit.mumma ko ikka banaakar meri weaknesses use karkar sona ko mujhse dhoor jaane keliye ussne bola tha.agar sona mujhse dhoor nahi gaye toh he has threatened ki he will go and reveal mumma about him being pooji’s father...”

pooja felt like a metal rod hit her head.she held onto the pillar near by for support. ajit couldn’t believe what on earth he was hearing and he remembered that their sister was already listening to this in a corner.looking at her helplessly and seeing her crying silently ajit wondered could their dad be that inhumane?

“issiliye chali gayi wo.pata bhi nahi the usse ki humari bachchi uski kauk mein thi. Bangayi mahaan parvati aur chali bhi gayi.jaakar kya kiya...suicide karne koshish kiya kyunki usse mere bina jee nahi sakti thi...can you f**king believe it? Wo achcha tha ki sahi samein sharanya ne usse dekte hi hospital le gayi...Agar sach much usse kuch hua tha toh...ajit mein kya karta...I wouldn’t even know ki meri sona...”

rohit squeeze shut his own mouth from his palms and started sobbing. Ajit shut his eyes tight.

“chaahat ke wajeise bas zingda thi sona.warna..pata nahi kya hojata uske saat. Aur mockery toh dekho story ki.naren sippy toh teen saal pehele guzar gaye lekin,aaj bhi mujhe aur sona ko ek dusre se alag kar beta hein...marke bhi. Aur sona? Sacrifice karte rahi karte rahi bas pata bhi nahi thi usse ki ek bekar ke sacrifice karte hein wo. Achcha tha ki tum dono mujhe bhi lekar...goa gaye.nahi gaya toh shaayad..kabhi nahi pata chalega ye sab hum sabko yaa ussko.it could have been a bloody forever. Hum waapas kabhi milte bhi nahi hein.”

Rohit kept his head buried in his hands and pulled his hair in frustrstion.

“Pyaar eisa nahi karte hein yaar ajit.isse pyaar karna kehe bhi sakte hein?”

“Agar ye pyaar nahi hein toh aur kya hein bhai?”

Ajit suddenly gave a rapid say back at rohit.he looked at his little brother who was directly staring at him through a film of tears in eyes.

“Kya?”

“Jo sonakshi bhabhi ki ussko pyaar karna hi keheta hein.aapke liye khudko takleef mein daalna. Aapke liye apna sab kuch sacrifice karna. Aapse dhoor hoke marte marte jeena.Usse pyaar hi kehete hein.Aur aap jo bhi kahe iss tarha,lekin mujhse zyaada aap khud jaante hein ki sonakshi bhabhi ye sab issiliye kiya kyun ki wo aapse bohot pyaar karti hein.you may lie,but deep down in your heart,aapse achcha ye baat koi samaj nahi sakta bhai.balehi aap ab kahenge ki no wo aapko pyaar nahi karti,lekin aapko pata hein ki wo srif aapse hi pyaar karti.wo bhi sabse zyaada.”

Ajit said not letting rohit interrupt him with any response at all.

“Wo...”

“Bhai,Ye dramatic dialogues bolna mujhe sach mein nahi aata...lekin wo aap kar rahe the naa usse...eise ro ro ke,chup ke,superficially naaraz hoke...wagera? usko bhi pyaar hi keheta hein. haan kal hosh mein aatehi aap phir batayenge ki aap usse nafrat karte hein lekin asal mein aapke dil mein bhi bas uske liye pyaar hein.issiliye aap naraz hochuke ho usse kyun ki ussne apni baaremein nahi sochi,kurbaan ki, suicide karneke koshish ki,chupti thi..bas. You are angry with her because wo aapke liye apni zingdagi barbaad kiya hein. Ye anger is cause you love her bhai.dukh ki baat pata hein kya hein? Ki aap ye sab mujhse kehe rahe hein,leki usse nahi kehe rahe hein jisse aap sachmein ye sab bolna chate ho.”

“ajit...tume..I don’t know.mujhe nahi lagta hein ki kuch possible hoga hum dono ki beech bas..”

“Haan bhai..possible nahi hoga.iss tarha se jaate toh possible nahi hoga.tab tak possible nahi hoga jab tak aap chaahenge possible karne ka wo sab.till you make it happen,kuch teek nahi honga.sonakshi bhabhi toh jaanti hein ki usse ab ye sacrifice aur karnekeliye koi katra bachaa hi nahi hein.so wo toh rahengi jab tak aap kuch kahenge.the ball is now in your court bhai.bas you have to understand about the haalaat.bas. I know I’m dumb,talking to you who is drunk and you will forget all this tomorrow but I wish ki at least you will remember this that you are angry with the circumstances bhai...aap haalat ko nafrat karte ho,sonakshi bhabhi ko nahi.”

Ajit stood up,purposely pretending that he is going away and slowly walked to pooja who was yet in a corner crying. They both stood with each other in silence,watching rohit who was lost in thoughts in his inebriation even,then putting his glass down and stumbling himself across the hall to walk back to his room.

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Pooja soon as she saw rohit disappearing away broke down into loud sobs and ajit hugged her tightly.

“Meri wajeise hua hein sab ajit..meri wajiese hi hua ye sab...”

“Tu ne kya kiya pagal.don’t be stupid yaar pooji.”

Ajit rubbed her back,consoling herself.

“Bhabhi ko kitna takleef diya paapa neh..meri wajiese.aur..dekho bhaiyya kitna suffer karte hein.un dono aur chaahat ko jaane anjaane mein kitna takleef pochhuki hoon ajit.”

“Pooji...shush.wo sab kuch paapa kiya hein.uska kassoor hein.aur sazza bhi mil chuke hein,ab tu ye kya bolti hein.bas karo.”

“Shaayad mein kabhi peheda nahi hoti ajit...I wish..”

ajit broke their hug and pushed her back.

“Chup kar warna thappad marungi tujhe mein,tum humari ho.hum sab ki behen ho aur tumare bina nothing will be the same.ye baat aaj ke baad kabhi mujhe mat batao pooji,I will sure never talk to you ever again,samji?”

Pooja started sobbing.ajit cupped his little sister’s face.

“Pooji...dekho.iss kahaani mein bas ek hi gunegaar hein,aur wo ab jaachuke hein. Bhai aur sonakshi bhabhi yuhi takleefein utachuke hein hum jaante ab.so bas,ab hum dono milke hi,un dono ko waapas bas sahi track pe le aayenge..bas ek chota sa pinch on bhai ke akhal,aur sab teek honge,bas a start,baaki sab un dono apne aap karenge? You got it. Hein naa? Toh hum dono ye karenge right?”

Pooja stopped crying,and nodded her head fast after listening to all what he said.

“Yeah ajit,kuch bhi.kuchi bhi karungi mein aur hum dono milke,jo bhi ho humare taraf se,wo sab karte hein.yes.pakka.lets do it.”

She said.ajit rubbed her tears off and the two siblings hugged each other consoling themselves.

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“Dance karna bandh toh karo bachche. Ghirengi aap aur saat mein mujhe bhi girwaayenge...”

Sonaskhi exclaimed at her baby daughter who was enjoying her bath,blowing soap bubbles over everywhere and dancing in the bath tub. And throwing water at her, ruining all her clothes already chaahat was having her ritualistic time of life during the bath. She has always been like that and sonakshi knew that nothing can control her at a moment like that.

She was in the guest room downstairs when chaahat came running to her, begging her to bathe her as she always does. She agreed but the problem came when chaahat said that she wants to play in the bath tub at mumma paapa’s room. Sonakshi had no strength right now to go see rohit or even come across him face to face at this moment, nor she wanted to trouble him with her presence but chaahat was adamant. How could she make her daughter understand all these complexities that had occured in her parents’ lives. How to tell her that the room is her paapa’s? Just her paapa’s and not mumma’s? How to say that her paapa didn’t even want to see her mumma? Kher,She had no idea. Only thing that was in her hands to agree to chaahat’s demands and go upstairs to their once room again. She wished the bathing session chaahat started finishes before rohit comes but her baby is in no mood yo finish, today.

Another pinch of water spilled at her broke the trance and sonakshi jot back to the real world where chaahat was flashing her a cheeky smile at her. She glew cutely with that whitish sindhi complexion she had got from her paapa and sona couldn’t even act mad at her daughter’s antics right now.

“Aajao tub se bahar baal wash karni hein aajao....”

Sonakshi exclaimed.

“Arey tohdi dher aur rukhne dono naa mumma....”

“Nahi bas ab bohot hua aajao....”

“Kya mumma....pleash naa....mujhe...”

“Chaahu...”

“Hawww aapne chaahu boli toh shach much naaraz hein aap....”

Chaahat said with a big wide opened mouth and said it with a pout.

“Haan....mumma ko aur naaraz mat karo chalo bahar aajao. You will catch a cold come...”

Said sonakshi and raised the baby girl out from the tub and placed her under the shower and washed her hair off while chaahat kept dancing under the shower too.

“Mera thumka utha ke laaya re yaar ve, jo gira tha bareli ke bashaar me

Main to jhumka lagaake sharma gayi”

Chaahat was screaming her favourite and sonakshi bursted in to laughter. Rohit had the same habit of screaming loud lyrics while showering. She remembered the weird dance they both did that night even before falling in love with each other years back.

“Arey kyaa lyrics hein ye choti madhuri ji. Jhumka pehele aati hein aur thumka baad mein...”

Sonakshi said among the laughter.

“Hahahaaha chaahat likes to shwap lyrics mumma....aap ko toh pata hein....”

Said the little one rotating under the shower doing the signature twirl of her favourite actress madhuri dixit’s aaja nachle. Meanwhile sonakshi quickly grabbed her out of the shower and shutting it and started drying her baby’s hair. She quickly dressed her to a new frock and started to redry her hair but now chaahat’s mood had changed and she wanted to have her adhrak waali chaai after the bath.

“Mein chali chaai peene buhbyeee mummmaaaa...”

She had no way of stopping the little one and she saw her running with the wet hair dangling side to side.

“Chaahat slippers pehen ke jaao nange paau chali toh zukaam hojayegaa...arey. Bohot nakhre hein iss ladki ke. Jeisa baap weise beti.”

She blurted out of habit, a though she had always have been having in the back ov her mind. And she paused at it and her heart fell, remembering all those what rohit said again.

Issiliye aaj mein aasan tareekein chun lete hoon,tume pyaar nahi karneka,aur nafrat karneka faisla le chuke hoon mein.toh tum,ab se iss baat ko samjaao khud ko. Tumari aur mera beech ab kuch nahi ho sakta. nahi ho sakta ab.nahi ho sakta.

As tears accumulated in her eyes, sonakshi sniffed up and tried to control her cry.she emptied the bath tub and stared at the water level going down slowly.she then unconsciously closed the knob and turned on the tap and it started filling with clean water. Collecting all wet clothes and towel,yet lost in the last night memories she walked across the bathroom. She remembered the lashing out angry face of rohit,but what she couldn’t forget was the disappointing tears that fell off of his brims when he said those, that carried the biggest weight in her heart. She had never been able to bear his tears,in these years in fact she has become more vulnerable to them.she took a deep sigh.

I have promised myself rohit,I am not going to leave you this time. I cannot. So all I can do is just wait. It might take years lekin intezaar toh mein karungi hi. Itna saal mein neh tume thadpaayi ab meri baari hein,mein khudko thadpaungi,tumare liye.

She said to herself.

A running water sound broke her chain of thoughts and she turned back. The tub was overflowing and she ran to shut the tap off. Mentally slapping her for what she has done,she decided to keep the filled water as it is and started to wiper away the spilled stream of water around,not wanting rohit to slip when he comes in next time.

Once done,she arranged everything back,washed her hand and feet and turned to leave.

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The next moment,she had crashed against the owner of the pair of eyes that had been openly watching her from behind all this while. The one she had no idea about till now. She gasped loud at the sudden impact,her hands landing directly on that chiseled chest....of him.

Rohit,once again.and their eyes locked to each other.

The whole process so very fast and happened too very quickly to depict. Sonakshi couldn’t believe if it was real at the first place,but once she felt his arms running around her waist and locking behind her,she knew it was.within a second the distance,well if there was something such between them since the crash,that also vanished into thin air and they effortlessly got closed to each other. a part of her wanted to leave and her away from his clutches,not wanting to bother him with her presence but another part was stuck among his hands that was woven behind her back.

Rohit,in his inebriation yet got lost in her beautiful pair of eyes and took a deep breath in as he felt her fast breathing against his chin. Further bending himself to her,his face reached her level and their faces were just inches apart. Running his eyes all over her face, he revised all her features once again, the things that he claimed as his as her first and definitely her last too,be it her forehead,her eyes,her nose,her cheeks and her.....lips. His eyes got stuck there. There were some water droplets on them yet,and his crazy mind wanted to suck them out away. How dare them water droplets reside at her lips? They were his. He gritted his teeth secretly.

He bit his lips as his drowsy eyes were trying to give in,but his uninhibited hands again ran up her slender frame,caressing her wet back which although covered from her top still felt soft against his palms.he saw her eyes closing and his lips formed into a smirk. He loved that blue long cardigan which she was wearing atop her short light blue top inside.those two her denim her hair and everything was wet and plastered to her body like a second skin and he had being watching her from behind with secret desires rising up from his being till now. In the nasha he had,he had no more limits to all these damning things that was was running up and down his mind.

She felt either her heart has stopped or her heart has reached her throat something. He was just next to her,not even a hairbreadth apart and this has been all what she had been wanting. And firstly his gaze on her blushed her harder and then his gestures on her skin made her skin have goosebumps underneath her top. She was just so glad that he couldn’t see her skin through the fabric.

“I need you.”

His one stumbling sentence made her jot open the eyes,and she saw his eyes beaming desire down at her brown orbs.It didn’t take much for her to realize that he was drunk,intoxicated and unsteady.

“R...ohit..”

“shush.i....am talking to my sona....tum beech mein mat bolo...”

he stammered,brushing his left stubbled cheek against her milky cheek.She hid her moan with a sigh,but she had to curse her fingers that ran up his chest against her control and then entwined behind his nape.

“I...need you sona. Mujhe...chod ke mat jao.”

He repeated turning his right cheek to her and rubbing his stubble against it again.

“Rohit...you are drunk.nashe mein ho tum..” she begged him,hoping he would stop.

“Toh nasha utaaro mera...let me be with you..sona....please” he begged her in return.

He was stumbling on her in imbalance and it pushed her back literally under the shower.she luckily leaned against the wall,avoiding them both from falling and he leaned his huge frame on to her,and his woven hands at her back unwoven and that travelled to the front and then his mischeivous fingers ran inside her opened cardigan and his fingertips pressed on to the space between her short sphagetti strapped top and the waistband of her pant.Literally her wet and milky soft waist. She gasped at that,looking up to his eyes again and she could read what all that was going on in her drunk rohit’s mind.

“Kya....dekh rahe ho...utaaro nasha.”

He whispered,his breath fanning to her lips and sonakshi didn’t know from where all her hormones were coming into rapid action, her mind couldn’t think rationally so much that she had a sudden urge of kissing him. She had felt this same urge before no lies when they were in love but this rapidly and this strongly,was the first time. She shut her eyes,wanting to calm her mind down.

“Sona...”

His begging tone came back again,but she made sure she didn’t open her eyes, fearing of loosing control like a teenage girl of high school. The next moment,he surprised her by kissing her on her closed right eye lid without any warning. He was soft, he was warming her with his move on her and she clutched his collar tightly as possible.

“Aakhein....mat kolo...”

he whispered against her eye and moved from there the next moment, and at the next moment his lips took the place where she guessed correctly, on her other eyelid and rohit even in an inebriation felt like her skin felt like a soft petal against his lips.

“Rohit...please”

she begged and he took his left hand off of her waist and covered her mouth at the next while firmly,without causing her to gasp all again.then his right hand travelled around her waist and held her bare waist tightly drawing their bodies together to each other.

She couldn’t stop him from claiming her already reddened cheek next,first the right and then the left.her fingers let go of his collar,scared that her legs were going to give in and she wanted to rest her hands against the wall for support. Once she did so,he slowly took his palm off of her mouth and the right hand off of her waist and them both cupped her soft cheeks making her open eyes and look into his eyes. Sonakshi saw the deathly passionate stare his eyes had on her lips and then he raised his eyes to meet her scared orbs and he raised his brows in a drunk flirty smirk.

“I know...sona..I know you need me.”

He whispered,as she tried to think straight but before she even started to do so he drew him closer to her and his lips to hers,and may be there was only a minute gap between their lips and sonakshi collecting the last minute senses got into action before letting rohit do something he should not be doing at a time like this,in an inebriation.Her hand found the knob of the shower and she turned it on,making it pour down on both of them,partially breaking the drunk trance of her man.

They both were drenched wet in no time and in a sudden reflex or need of the moment,rohit hugged sonakshi ever so tight and hid his face amongst her wet hair, his nasha halfway gone.

“aaj bhi...mujhse dhoor hona chati hein?”

He whispered,resting his lips against her ear,chills ran down her spine.

“Tum hosh mein naa hote wakt,chahakar bhi kudhko tumare kareeb nahi laa sakti mein.”

However she whispered in the return,against his shoulder.

Shower yet was down pouring on them. His hands were back at the usual spot of her bare waist.

“Chahakar bhi?” He repeated.

“Haan,chahakar bhi.”

“I thought you don’t want me anymore.” He complained,his fingers running up her back now.

“It’s you who don’t want me,rohit.”

His fingers stopped at the moment she took his name.

“Kya kahaan?” He repeated,taking aback looking into her eyes slowly.

“It’s you who...”

“No,uske baad.”

“Kya..”

“Uske baad? Please.”

His voice turned almost to a beg, and her heart felt a pang seeing his eyes and hearing that please,in his half intoxication.

“Rohit..”

She saw his eyes closing and tears rolling down the corners of them even when the shower droplets wetted his stubble in their own accord.

“Paanch saal....tumare aawaz se mera naam sunne keliye....thadapta tha mein, sona.suna bhi tha ab kahi baar...lekin kabhi bata nahi paaya tume.”

“Rohit...don’t..”

She begged,cupping his cheeks and wiping his tears with her thumbs,tiptoeing up to his height. He held those palms with his hands after taking them off his cheeks and kissed her knuckles.

“I hate you for making me love you so hard.”

He said resting his forehead on hers then,his tears turned to sobs. She started sobbing against him and with him. Both didn’t know how long they sobbed, but they kept sobbing and he let go of her hands and drew her closer while she again cupped his cheeks in the process.

“I hate myself too,for doing this to you. So much so that,kaash eisa karne se achcha thi ki mein marjaathi...”

She heard his sobs suddenly halting and he pushed her hands off of him and clutched her shoulders tightly making her hiss in pain.

“Shut the...f**k up.”

He screamed. She was shocked at him behaving like this. She opened her mouth trying to talk but he cut her off.

“Marjaathi? Tum marjaathi toh mera kya hoga dammit? Haan? Mera kya hoga...”

He shook her so hard, then leaning her to the wall, he hovered over her,his lips rested on her forehead.

“I will die without you sona.”

He said in one go and she effortlessly ran her fingers amongst his hair,understanding he was hurting himself with her words. Slowly she cupped his head and made him rest his head on her shoulder to comfort him. He breathed against her skin and slowly his lips pecked on her shoulder above the material of her cardigan,making her eyes closed.

Sonakshi went into a trance,as he took off the cardigan from her shoulders,well his running fingers were doing that and he was in some other world joined with her. She shivered feeling his lips on her left bare shoulder but she somehow couldn’t stop him from giving her that sweet torture. His lips trailed towards her right then,reaching the crook of her neck and he kissed her little more deeper there. She fisted his hair swiftly and he trailed his lips all the way along her milky skin ground her neck,moving to the other shoulder and without a warning he sucked in the water that trailed down her arm, finally slightly biting her there on her right shoulder. She gasped at his move and clutched his arms tightly in response.

“Pehele shower hein hum dono ki ek saat...backoff mat karo.”

He whispered against her earlobe,his lips tickling her as he talked to her.she tilted her head but ended up nowhere else but in his embrace only. He noticed her gulping down and her lips quivering and her eyes stuttering and her fingers on him shivering and he yet tightened his embrace around her.

Though sonakshi was having her eyes shut,she was well aware that she was under his piercing gaze and she felt blood rushing to her cheeks at the knowledge of that. Even in the pouring cold shower,she felt her whole being was on fire and that effect was something that only rohit could have on her.she slowly opened her eyes to meet his eyes that were of course stuck in hers,the downpour had made her Rohit sippy look hotter and his features sharper so much that she felt ashamed low key at the desires that surged up her veins right at that moment.

His fingers were clutching the cardigan and was dragging it off her hands,she realized and she without a control took her arms off his upper arm and let them hang freely at her sides so that he can easily take it off of her. And it would have taken a few seconds for him to completely get rid of that cloth off her and there she stood infront of him,her even reddened cheeks awed him but her milky skin that was just covered by the spaghetti top was of course his undone. His left arm ran to her bare waist once again,snaking it in one swift go and he drew her closer so that she crashed on his chest,her perfect mounds right against his upper body and she couldn’t hide her bodily desires anymore from him-she knew.

He smirked knowing very well about what was happening to them both. This woman’s departure made him a drunkard,but now her mere presence itself makes him so intoxicated and uninhibited. shocking her to the core, he knelt down infront of her and without a warning wrapped his hands around her waist and rested his head against her stomach. She cupped his head,startled at his move.

“Rohit”

“Pata hein...tume.uss din,goa mein tum behosh padi thi..fever the tume...”

He uttered.she didn’t give an answer.

“Tum nahi jaanti..mein poori raat tume eise...kas ke pakad kar sauya tha..resting my head...on your tummy.”

Sonakshi suddenly had a flash of her memory where she faintly imagined him sleeping on her tummy,just like he always does. She trying to reach him but then fainting again.Just as true as he was the one who took care of her- this too so, wasn’t her imagination. Wehem nahi the toh phir wo, sach mein the ye meri paas. She felt like crying more.

She came out of her thoughts feeling his warm lips against her wet skin. He was first pecking on her waist,just above the waistband of her denim and his kisses turned deep as time passed and his grip round her hips tightened. She felt weak in her knees at this intimacy between them,and she doubted for a moment if she can ever stop him from doing something at a moment where controlling her own self also seemed very difficult. He was swiftly sipping the water droplets on her skin,the slight suction against her waist made her lips escape a moan,making rohit look up.their eyes met and he very well understood what her state was, and she look down at him while breathing up and down in a fast phase to earn an inebriated but a sexy smirk from him.not breaking the eyelock,he drew his lips on her planting pecks in between and that gentle trailing of his lips against her belly was about to make her tumble down as her legs turned into jelly but at the right moment he stood up, protectively holding her body in his embrace.

“Uss raat bhi girne nahi diya...aaj bhi nahi girne dungi,kabhi nahi girne dungi.”

He said resting his cheek against hers and her hands ran behind his back,her nails digging to his skin through the wet hem of his shirt.

“Rohit..”

“Sona. Wo sonakshi mat bano jo mujhe chod kar gayi thi.meri sona bankar meri saat hi raho...please.kabhi waapas mujhe chod kar mat jao.”

He repeatedly begged,rubbing his stubble on her skin,his eyes closed.

She caressed his back trying to calm him and he tried to steady himself but yet failed,alcohol was still in his system. She sent her one arm to the knob and shut he shower.

“Kyun bandh kiya...shampoo bi nahi ki mein neh ab tak tume. Aur teek se..”

He pouted like a little one making her smile and the moment she smiled his sentence halted.

“Teek se kya?”

She asked rubbing his cupped cheeks with her thumbs.

“Teek se dekha bhi nahi tume...”

“Isse zyaada kya dekhna hein....”

He raised an eyebrow and smirked hotly,leaned to her again to whisper on her ear then.

“In the way I want..Jeise paanch saal pehele,humari bistar par dekha tha...when we made chaahat.”

His bold words,made her eyes widen and she felt her cheeks burning. Meanwhile he peeped into her face,nodding his head in question.

“Yaad dilaadu?”

He said cupping her cheeks,drawing his lips to hers as she felt all her control went down the drain but at the last moment she held his wrists.

“Rohit..please,eisa kuch mat karo ki baad mein tum regret ho.nashe mein ho tum, please chalo.chalo mein tume lekar jaati hoon kamre mein,come.”

“No...no...hahahahaha.mujhe nahi jaana meri sona.i...wanna stay with you.”

He started protesting when she sent a hand around his waist and took his other hand around her shoulder and attempted to take him to the room back again.

“Haan toh mein hongi tumare saat,filhaal chalo.warna zukaam hojayenge...See you are not even wearing slippers,eisa kaun aata hein bathroom pe...”

she tried to calm him down.

“Mein...mein aata hoon Rohit sippy.rohit aata sakta hein nange pau.”

“Chal okay.yelo meri slippers peheno.come.”

She said taking off her slippers and trying to make him wear them. She was lost in her attempts while he stared at her,her concern and her care for him. Nashe mein hi sahi,he realised that sonakshi rastogi has never changed. He smiled to himself while his eyes adored her lips moving while saying words that were merely audible to him right now due to the trance and drunk state he was in. She looked up to see rohit who was lost in her,with a goofy smile.

“Kya dekh rahe ho rohit.yeh pehenlo.”

“Mujhe...nahi chahiye.”

“to kya bimaar padna chahiye?”

“Nahi mujhe tum chahiye.”

She was stuck at the mini arguement until he said that. Ignoring his words with much effort,she gestured suggesting him to walk with her while supporting him from her arm around him. He was too tall for her as usual but sonakshi rastogi was that girl who never wanted to give up. Her slender tiny frame tumbled with him but she took him some steps forward.

“Mujhe nahi jaana kahi...”

he resisted with her.

“Utaakar le chalu kya phir?”

She asked in fake annoyance. Her stubborn bachche rohit was struggling with her in a half embrace.

“Haan...utaao aur ...le chalo.”

Sonakshi nodded in denial,at his drunk antics.Trying to move forward again with him she kept her foot to the front and he struggled not trying to give into her ways and the next moment they both slipped and fell into the water filled ground fixed bath tub.

Sonakshi in a last fine moment thought her head would surely bang on the edge of the tub but she felt rohit hugging her to him from his strong one arm around her body and cupping her head from the back from other palm so that she wouldn’t get hurt. Her back rested against his chest and they both got dipped in water for a moment and then they were there,plastered to each other and now drenched even better than under the shower. She turned her head sideways looking at him,squeezing off the water from her eyes to clear her blurred vision.

“Hogaya tumara? Bas ab yahi baaki the rohi..”

“Shh..” he rested his index finger on her wet lips,silencing her in one go.their eyes locked to each other and his hair strands wetted her face by making their way down from him to her forehead,cheek and jaw slowly making his eyes follow them droplets again.

“Ab yahaan se kahaan jau...tum mujhse dhoor?”

He whispered,taking off his index from her lips and trailing it up her jaw to the cheek, making her shiver and gulp in the sexual tension that was building up inside both of them. She knew she was literally all over him and the water that was surrounding them did no help rather than arousing them both even more. Shower was better dear goodness,why and what is happening to us now? Sonakshi wondered helplessly, locked into his brown orbs which were hotly staring at him.

“Rohit...”

“Baar...baar mere naam lena bandh karo.what will you say when you will actually have to take my name?” He whispered into her huskily.

“When...will I have..to take your name..otherwise?”

That broken sentence escaped her lips without even thinking twice and his smirk made her mentally slap herself for inviting more trouble.

“Jab..mein phirse...tume..hamesha keliye apna banate...wakt,wouldn’t you have to take my name? Yaad hein...paanch saale pehele..”

he said,leaning to her face and literally kissing her ear. Her eyes shut as her single arm ran up,cupping his head sideways.his paanch saal pehele type repeated phrase sounded it’s sexiest at this moment to her. She breathed in his scent which was making her further loose control,nothing else.his hand ran down her side then to meet his other at her waist,where his fingers entwined and locked on her belly. He leaned to the edge of the tub,with her against him and she breathed fast yet so lost in him. He thumbs pressed her waist,making her moan and he trailed his lips down from her ear to her neck and further down making her flinch and stopped at the point where he felt her pulse dancing rapidly against his lips.

“You clearly need me,as much as I need you...”

he whispered to her skin,pressing her waist again but she was too lost in his touches to respond him.

“I will take this silence as a yes...”

He said planting an open mouthed kiss there at her pulse point,then moving further down with similar kisses. Her fingers fisted his hair and his fingers went loose and slowly travelled up on her belly,finding their usual path of love up and inside her top which was glued to her body now.

Her lower lip quivered and his eyes saw that and the urge he had to claim them was out of bounds,he wanted to kiss those petals and go on into the kiss deeply on her softness. Owing to the little senses that was alarming him, for some reason he was holding himself from kissing her lips but the major non senses that were overpowering him was making him shamelessly claim her at other places where he only owned her.

His hands were traveling up her skin making her well aware for a moment, so she jot open her eyes and moved to forward as if to stop him but his legs under water locked her legs down to the tub halting her. she was stuck in his arms and lowering her eyes she tried to gather courage to look at him even from her side but she failed miserably. Meanwhile his eyes noticed a place he secretly had too much hots for, in her body. It was that tiny dimple at the back of her shoulder, and it was looking even sexier due to the redness that has flushed over her white skin owing to the love bite he gave her under the shower sometime back.

He had noticed this beauty place on her first time on the day where he sew the broken hook of her jacket in his room on the day he was going to first propose her. He had the same feels of that day now,seeing this again all thanks to her spaghetti strapped top and he bent over and she felt his hot breath on her despite of the cold water at the same time. Not taking off his hands from where they were currently resting on her,he tucked the strap that was blocking his free view from his teeth and drew that one strap off her shoulder and next he did the same to her bra strap.her milky skin was freely exposed to his hungry eyes and he placed warm kisses on her shoulder dimple the next moment,making sonakshi arch her neck back and rest her head on his shoulder loosing her control over every millisecond. Her hot breaths caressed his cheeks but that wasn’t enough to stop him from continuing his kissing session on a place he rightfully owned of her.

His kisses turned open mouthed,and moans escaped her lips. He kept planting kisses on her more,moving to the back along her arched neck,sipping water droplets off her skin,claiming her skin as his at some places, making her turn red on and off. His hands reached her soft mounds underneath her top and cupped them the next second and she shivered.his head was digged into her wet hair,inhaling her scent which he loved and she turned her head side way wanting to hide her embarrassed face from him,and she arched her body away from him leaning to the other edge of the tub,not wanting to let both of them loose the control they were already on the verge of loosing. He smirked seeing her failing attempts to get away from him against her own wishes. He moved to her,literally gluing her to the tub and covering her from his broad frame. By the sudden Taking off his hands from her, he shocked her and also noticed her disappointment when he did that. He dipped his head on her warmth then while squeezingly holding her waist tightly by one hand and his fingers rubbed off her remaining straps off other shoulders. His lips move down to there then,his lips trailing first and then her hands running up her back,his stubble pricking her skin then and her fingers running through his hair and then his lips reached her cleavage and her hands cupped his head unable to bear his sweet assault on her.

She hoped he stops at one lone corner of her mind but her body had different reactions.she felt wet between her thighs and against her core she felt his hardened form for her. Even in that cold water they were dipped at,heat radiated between them and sonakshi knew her rohit even half unconsciously was taking her somewhere she wanted to go only with him.

His lips reached her mounds and she shivered when he placed opened mouth kisses over them atop the wet material of her top. His hands held her tightly to him by holding her milky waist and she gripped his hair trying to hold herself sane. In one more moment their remaining bounds were to get disappeared but sonakshi who was the only one in complete senses too didn’t know what she should be doing to stop them from going there.

“we shouldn’t be doing this...”

she uttered in a low voice. He was considerate enough to halt even in the intoxication he was.

“Now you decided to stop calling my name then,achcha hein.”

He said rubbing his stubble against her cheek then.

“Please..”

She begged.

“please what sona....”

“I...don’t know.”

Her voice turned helpless. His heart felt a pang at her innocent statement.

“Look at me.”

“I can’t..”

“Dekho mere taraf.”

His voice demanded making her open her eyes to meet his.

“Say you love me.”

She found her eyes turn teary when he asked her to do that. He waited without putting his breath down when he saw those tears and for some reason he felt a lump stuck in his throat.

He didn’t expect her to do what she did next and nor did she know that herself was so bold.she turned herself totally to face her front to him and settled on his lap and sent her legs around his torso and locked herself to him. Cupping his face so hard with her shivering palms, she placed her lips on his forehead.

“Kese kahoon mein rohit,jitna kahoon tume wo kam lagta hein.jitna kahoon tume uss baat pe yakeen nahi aata hein.jitna kahoon tume uska mehesoos nahi hota hein. I love you I love you I love you. Kya karu mein dil seene se nikalke dikhadu.”

She literally screamed against his forehead.sobs followed.

“sona...”

he stammered holding her to him tightly, he couldn’t register her rapid breakdown.

“Kya karu,nashe mein ho tum.nashe se recover hote hi,ye sab yaad hi nahi honge tume.”

She sobbed.He cupped her cheeks,not wanting to see those tears that was rolling down her cheeks. Those tears no matter how much he had previously wanted her to suffer,were now making he himself suffer instead.

“Lekin mein nahi chati ki tum ye sab bhool jau rohit.i want you to remember that ye sab hua tha humari beech.hum itna kareeb aaya ek doosre ke,tum apne aapko meri kareeb laaya....mein tume meri itna kareeb aane di...ye sab tume kal yaad nahi ho toh...kal phir tum mujhe nafrat karna shuru kare...toh kya hoga rohit. Aaj bolte hein tume chod kar naa jaane keliye...agar kal phir tum apna zingdagi se mujhe nikhalenge...toh mein keise jiu rohit? Nahi mein dubara tumse alag nahi ho sakti...Jee nahi paungi tumari bina..”

She sobbed kissing his forehead.he was at a loss of words.

“Haan bohot bura ki,bura se zyaada bura ki,lekin ab mein apne aapko hi wadaa dechuki ho rohit, ki waapas kabhi tumse chod kar nahi jaane ke. Aur apni aakri saas tak wo waada mein nibhaungi,tum bolenge tab bhi tume chod ke nahi jaungi rohit mein...Iss baar sach mein nahi jaungi.aur mein jaa bhi nahi sakta..pyaar kiya hein mein tumse.paanch saal pata nahi kese jiya tumse dhoor lekin waapas wo karneke himmat nahi hein mujhmein.aur tumari pyaar lekar mein ab bohot zyaada selfish hochuke hoon. Tume ko nahi sakta mein aainda kabhi bhi.”

She said leaning her forehead against his forehead and rubbing right there.

“Aur kya karu rohit mein,aur kese bolu mein.kese? Mein Iss duniya mein sab se zyaada tumse pyaar karti hoon. Chaahat se bhi zyaada pyaar tumse karti hoon mein do you know that. I don’t know mein aur kese batau.tum meri hoon aur mein tumari hi sona hoon.koi sonakshi nahi,tumari liye mein wo sona hi hoon jisse tume pyaar hogaya tha.”

Rohit felt his breath being hitched,he wondered if it was alcohol or her. He had this breath being hitched every moment where he heard her saying she loves him. So alcohol nahi? Ye toh sona ki azar hein meri upar...he confirmed.his eyes again turned to her eyes,from somewhere and those beautiful orbs were in pain,crying her heart out.

don’t cry,please. His mind started to beg in silence. I cannot see you crying like this sona.please don’t cry.

But for some reason he had no words coming out loud on his lips.she had made him that speechless. He held her waist, drew her tighter to him and their upper bodies crashed against each other and their lower bodies...radiated a wanting like no other day ever. Their hearts heated erratically and their breathing were faster.These emotions that were rushing through them were overwhelming them,tempting them, weakening them and strengthening them all together. It was a moment where minds,bodies,and souls meeting and touching each other and in a whole...they both wanted to be theirs again.

Yet this distance,minimized but still existed were stopping them.his intoxication was fearing her to a reluctance and a rejection,and her leaving him and harming herself still affected him so much that he was fearing of forgetting and forgiving her deeds.

It was a moment where love were screaming it’s guts out to be made out of bounds. It was a moment where hearts were yearning to be synced after such a long wait. It was a moment where forgivance was struggling to be granted,letting all aside.

“I ttoo didn’t stop loving you,sona.”

He uttered,the best thing he could utter at that moment,halting her sobs and locking her eyes to his in a shock.

“rohit..”

she whispered among tears.

“Ab...issi wakt mein bas itna hi kehe sakte ho..tumse.”

He stammered.

“Will you say you love me too.please?”

She begged.

“I will never say I love you too...it sounds like I love you because you love me..”

Sonakshi bent her head and looked at her rohit who was in a baby face already.

“toh phir?”

“I want to say I love you to you even when you will not love me..”

“eisa din kabhi nahi honga jahaan mein tumse pyaar karna rokhu.”

Sonakshi said as her tears flew down her cheeks.

“Rohit sippy...jab tume I love you kahenge waapas..uss din tum kabhi nahi bhool paungi...bas wo baat yaad mein rakho..”

He said burying his face in her bosom,placing his lips against her bare skin.they were so close to each other to an extent that he heard her heart beating so damn fast against her ribs. Her fingers ran across his hair,caressing his head and she planted n number of kisses all over his head while sobbing out loud letting all the pain out. He held her even tighter when he heard her sobbing. His lips shivered against her skin and tears that flew down his eyes secretly mixed themselves with the water that surrounded them.

That was the last thing Rohit sippy remembered before he passed out in sonakshi’s arms,vulnerable as he was five years before like in the night she left him.

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After sobbing for she didn’t know when,sonakshi realised that rohit has fallen asleep in her warmth when she felt his long deep breaths against her collarbone. She look down,adoring him through the tears that blurred her vision.

How and who even falls asleep in water? Noone else but her rohit. She gulped her tears when a sad smile crept to her face seeing his innocent face that looked like a baby.

“Tume nahi pata mein tumse kitna pyaar karti hoon rohit..lekin mujhe pata hein ki tum mujhe utne bhi zyaada pyaar karte ho..bas tum kehena nahi chaata...”

she said running her fingers through his wet hair on the forehead to comb them back to his head,holding his face in her upper arm,securing him like a little baby.

“Bas mein rahungi tumari aas paas..kabhi chod ke nahi jaungi.jitna time chahiye lelo...mein intezaar karungi...even if it takes forever.”

She said planting a kiss on his forehead after rubbing off his stress lines on them. These five years he had completely turned himself to a mess,no actually she has turned him to a mess,she thought observing all his tired features and rugged look,improperly trimmed beard and darkened eyelids. He had smiled yes,but that smile never shined his eyes like before. And sonakshi wowed herself that one day she will bring her old rohit back,she will make it up to the entire ruckus that she had created on his life by her self. And she will never let him fall back to this misery after that very day arrives.

She adjusted her top back,tried to raise up with him in the water worrying that he will sure catch a cold tonight. And he had very few hours to sleep more because he had a scheduled flight to catch to go to delhi. She stumbled due to his weight and getting up from here now seemed next to impossible.

“rohit...untona..”

she tapped his cheek softly,trying to wake him up.

“Rohit,utona.chalo bed pe jaakar sauyenge..utona..please”

She whispered to him.mumbling some inaudible words against her skin he turned his head otherways and fell asleep again.

“Rohit..”

She tried to move him but he was not even an inch.

Sonakshi sent his arm around her shoulder and tried to raise him up and that is when she heard a voice at the bathroom door.

“Bhabhi?”

Sonakshi turned red seeing ajit and pooja at the door and gave an awkward smile.

“Kya hua?”

Asked ajit as they ran in and pooja quickly brought a towel and covered sonakshi.

“Bhai ko kya hua?”

“Behosh pada hein wo ajit..kuch zyaada peeliya hein..help me take him to the room,otherwise he will fall sick.”

Sonakshi requested trying to ignore the state they were seeing them in.

“Yaah,pooji wo knob pull karo water drain hogi..jaldi.aur bhabhi thoda hatiye I’ll come in.pooji you come this way.”

Ajit quickly handled the situation and with all three supporting rohit,they took him to the room.rohit was placed in the bed and ajit took his shirt off and sonakshi took his head to her lap and started towel drying his hair.

“Bhabhi ajit hein naa yahaan par,aap bhi jaakar kapde badalo warna aap ko bhi zukaam hojayenge....”

pooja said.sonakshi kept the towel aside and looked at ajit.

“I cannot leave him here.”

“Bhabhi aap change karke waapas aajana.filaal jaayiye.mein hoon yahaan par.”

She nodded and tried to get up and then only everyone noticed how tightly rohit was clinging to sonakshi’s waist as he slept on her lap these few minutes. The more she moved the more tightly he held her.

“Jab tak ye teek se sauye,mein yahaan rahungi.”

The others agreed and after around ten minutes rohit was into a deep sleep and she moved him swiftly to the bed and got up.

“Ajit...”

“Yahaan se nahi hatenge mein,aap jaaiye bhabhi. Don’t worry.”

Sonakshi stared at rohit’s face once again and left to her room. Pooja looked at ajit then and gave a nod.

“Jaao...aur jeise discuss hua weise hi karo. Make sure ki bhai delhi jaane ke nikhal te wakt bhabhi yahaan nahi honge...go.”

Ajit said and pooja left to the guest room.

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“Ok baba mein aaungi teri saat invitations dene,Iss mein kya problem hein.”

Sonakshi said drying her hair.

“thank you bhabhi...toh chale ab?”

“ab? Abhi jaana hein?”

Sonakshi asked with a changed expression. Rohit was to leave to delhi in the night and chaahat and Veena was also going to go along.she wanted to be there when they leave,she wanted to be around rohit.

“Yeah bhabhi,bohot mushkil se time nikhala hein.kamse kam abhi nikhle toh i can catch my friends.i have around ten houses to go. Mom toh meri saat aati nahi,kal se taiyyari shuru karni bhi hein..so I have to get done with invitations today..”

Pooja said making a sad face. Sonakshi was stuck at the moment. She couldn’t deny pooja and let her travel alone,everyone else were busy in preparations.and she couldn’t leave rohit too.

“bhabhi,it’s okay phir...mein akhele jaungi..I know ki bhaiyya..”

“Pooja,eise kuch nahi hein.mujhe wo bas,jab rohit ghar se nikhalte wakt,yahaan hona chahiye thi..wo..”

“Haan...it’s okay.”

“Lekin tum akhele drive nahi karungi,raat hone waala hein aur,it’s okay.i will go see rohit and come and then we can go.okay?”

Said sonakshi,having no other option.

“Are you sure?”

Asked pooja and sonakshi nodded. Pooja left to get ready and sonakshi rushed to pack chaahat’s stuff soon and then to go see rohit.

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Sonakshi was searching a tiny sweater to put into chaahat’s bag and all chaahat’s pile of clothes came tumbling down in the rush.and just then veena entered.

“sona...arey bapre ye kya hein ye sab..”

“mumma!!! chaahat ki sweater doond rahi thi mein ne..oh fo dekho naa,ab sab kuch ghir gaya yahaan..”

sonakshi said collecting back everything to the bed. Veena smiled and helped her pick the stuff up.

“Lo mil gaya..”

said sonakshi and put the sweater to chaahat’s bag.

“Chaahat ko bhi aasani se zukaam hojate hein...aur jab hojate,poora mauhalla sar pe utalethi hein...she can not handle it..just like rohit...”

Sonakshi said with a smile non stop until she realised she was talking about him again. Veena noticed how her face fell, and she went to sonakshi.

“Meri baat hue hein ajit se..rohit ab bhi naaraz hein na tumse?”

Asked veena. Sonakshi nodded gulping down her tears.

“Sona...mujhse zyaada tumse ab pata hogi ki rohit ki swabaaw kese hein...I know ki tum usse bohot pyaar karti ho. Aur tume toh pata hein hi kitna pyaar karte hein wo tumse...”

“haan mumma...pata hein..”

“When he lost you,bohot kadwaaihat aaya ussmein sona.poori tareekein se badal gaya wo.He was not like that even when raima went away from him-you know right.. pata hein kyun? Kyun ki raima srif ek role the rohit ki zingdagi mein..aur tum raima ke tarha hein hi nahi...”

She said slowly,hugging her daughter-in-law sideways.

“Tum raima ki tarha issiliye nahi kyun ki,tum bas ek role nahi the rohit ke zingdagi mein sona.tum khud poori zingdagi banchuki thi rohit ke..bas.so you can understand right,Ki kyun itna badal chuke ho rohit.jab tum gaye,ussne apna zingdagi koya tha. Apne aap ko koya tha..issiliye..”

sonakshi leaned to veena and started tearing down.

“but jab tum mile,wo waapas yahaan tume laaya hein sona.isska matlab ye hein ki no matter how mad at you he was,he cannot live without you..he will never be able to do that.So,chaahe kuch bhi hojaaye,give up toh mat karo Iss baar.He will say ki wo tume nafrat karte hein lekin rohit sach mein eisa kabhi nahi kar sakte.i am sure..”

“I know mumma...I am not going to leave him again.never.meri galti thi sab.I am sorry ki..”

“Pagal..ye kya bolte ho,eisa kuch mat bolo.got it? Tumari koi galti nahi hein.Sona, yahaan naa tum galat hein naa rohit,yahaan srif halaat hi galt hein. Haalaat ke baaremein wo baat tum samaj chuki ho already lekin ab tak rohit samaj nahi chuke hein..issiliye ye sab horahahein..alright? There is no fault in you...”

sonakshi hugged her mumma and started sobbing,veena hugged her in return and carressed her head to console her.

“Bas...tum dono ko thoda wakt chahiye sona.tum dono khudko wo wakt do aur wo wakt lo,phir dekho cheesein apne aap teek hojayenge.”

“haan...mumma.mein eisa hi karungi...meri liye ek kaam karengi aap?”

Sonakshi said in her embrace,feeling soothed.

“Haan meri bachche,hargis karungi.bolo kya chahiye?”

“Chaahat ki toh khayal aap sarroor rakhengi I am sure. Bas rohit ka khayal rakhenge aap? Please..usse peene toh mat do..kuch bhi karke.please uska dhyaan rakhiye.”

Sonakshi begged.

“Arey,of course I will.bilkul peene nahi dungi,aur tumse achcha toh nahi kar paungi lekin sarroor uska khayal rakhungi mein..ye rona bandh karo and smile now.”

Veena said kissing her forehead.sonakshi smiled.

“Achcha ok,ye sab saaf karenge ab hum dono..”

said veena tidying off the place and sonakshi joined her. And after a while veena noticed something under the pile of clothes.

“Sona...ye kya hein?”

Sonakshi turned and saw the CD.

“Ye naa,chaahat ki bachpan ke video hein..mein rohit ke liye ye sab video karke rakhi..ussne jab peheli hassi, pehele bina support ke sit ki aur stand ki,pehele word boli aur pehele chalna shuru ki...wo sab ke sab aur bohot kuch hein Iss mein...aap ko pata hein,chaahat ki peheli word kya thi. Ussne paapa boli. Mumma uss din, wo... kabhi nahi bhool paungi mein...”

Sonakshi explained excitingly and veena noticed the twinkle in her eyes when she talked about it.

“chaahat srif meri nahi hein,actually mujhse zyaada chaahat rohit ka hein. Rohit ko hamesha beti chahiye the.. eisa hamesha bolta tha wo..chaahat rohit ke chaahat the basically..”

“So ye naam uski,eise aaya haan?”

Asked veena.sonakshi nodded happily.

“So chaahat ki har ek milestone dekhne ke zyaada haq rohit ka hein.meri wajeise hi ussne wo sab miss kardiya.Well apne aakhose hi dekhne ke tarha nahi honge,lekin mein ne ye sab usske liye record ki.taaki ek din rohit ye sab dekh saku.”

She said.veena got lost in thoughts,as her heart went out to this girl who loved his son beyond bounds.

“Sona,kya mein ye CD dekh sakti ho? Is it ok if I borrow it?”

She asked after a while.

“Haan of course mumma,ye toh poochne ke baat hein?”

Said sonakshi and veena took the CD and left from her room.

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Before leaving with pooja, sonakshi said good bye to chaahat and veena and she came to see rohit. Ajit was with him,he has changed his brother to new clothes and rohit was deep asleep.

Sonakshi quietly walked to the room,watching his sleeping face.Ajit left the room, leaving them both inside.

Sitting down slowly next to him sonakshi felt his forehead against her palm and felt relieved knowing that he was having no fever.she moved the hair strand falling to his eyes and watched him sleeping.

Slowly she bent to him sending her arms around his shoulder and dipped her head in the gap between his head and the pillow. She swiftly placed her lips against his cheek and kissed him softly and he moved against her warmth in sleep as if he had felt her presence near him. She slowly rubbed his back to put him back to sleep again. She felt him taking a deep breath against her and drew to a deeper slumber then.

She moved to his other cheek and kissed him again on the other cheek. Similarly she kissed him on each eyelid and finally pressed her lips against his forehead. Her hands cupped his face and her finger tips carressed his hair.

Pressing her cheek softly against his nose,she let herself feel his warm breaths and a soft tingle all over her being.

“Safe journey rohit,achche se raho aur apna khayal rakho,teek se kaam karke jaldi waapas aajao.”

She whispered slowly and he took a deep breath as if to answer her plea.

“Know that mein humesha tumse bohot pyaar ki hein,aur marte dam tak karte rahungi eise mein...”

She said observing all his features and slowly caressing one of his cheeks.

“Mein srif tumari hoon rohit.mujhpar saare haq srif tum jataa sakte ho.naraazi yaa pyaar,jo bhi.mujhe mansoor hein.”

She said slowly,planting a kiss against his forehead again.resting her head slowly next against his beating heart then she slowly kissed him there.

“Mein intezaar karungi tumara.i am sorry ki I have to go now,aur shaayad mein nahi waapas aasakhungi tum nikalte wakt.Sorry...Mujhe tume zyaada dher tak miss karne mat do rohit..aur jab waapas aayenge...I hope ki wo wahi din hoga jahaan tum bhi mujhe wo tumare waala I love you bolne waale.”

She raised herself from him, and kissed him again on his forehead and she felt her neck being warmed by his breaths again.

“I love you Rohit sippy..I love you.i love you more than anything in this whole world.”

Sonakshi left from there,thereafter.

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“Jaldi aajao rohit,already bohot dher hochuke hein...ek baar bhi postpone ki hein flight aaj toh ye flight miss nahi kar sakta...ajao”

Said veena who found a rohit lost staring at his own image in the mirror. He jot back to the reality with it and looked at his mother.

“Aap aur chaahat gaadi mein beit jaaiye mom,mein aaunga.”

He responded to veena and she left with a nod.she was right,he was so drunk that they had to take the night flight instead of the afternoon one he was supposed to go in.

Still suffering from a hangover,rohit scrunched his eye brows due to the suddenly increasing pain in his head. He knew he drank over the bounds which was his norm but this looks like he was going to catch a bad cold. But more than that,he knew this was an emotional headache,if there is something like that really exsisted.

Kya karu,nashe mein ho tum.nashe se recover hote hi,ye sab yaad hi nahi honge tume.

He heard sonakshi’s voice running in his head. Since the moment he woke up from the drunk sleep he was, time to time things like this have been ringing in his head. And weary images of them together were dancing infront of his eyes.

It was like he didn’t remember anything,but at the same time he didn’t forget much either.The first feeling he had once he woke up was that he had been having the touch of sonakshi on him for long;he smelled herself in him;her warmth in his body; her presence round his surrounding.

And the voice of sonakshi,matched with every flash he was having in his head. Be it them cuddling under shower,be it him kissing the dimple at her shoulder,be it her on his lap holding him tight in the bath tub,be it his urge to kiss her supple wet lips.Just that things were not in order,not that he had forgotten;But for some reason,this was not an illusion he was sure.

He was left off with an unfulfilled desire an unsaid emotion an unachieved moment an unbearable loss. And that everything was related to her. His heart was heavy and suddenly his hatred seemed small infront of the whole damn un type expressions that were dancing in his head. He wanted to see her,asked what happened between them,put her in that blushing embarrassment and enjoy the view of her when she struggles to tell him that.

Basically,Rohit sippy has started to need his Sona.

Yeah so he might not show her openly at once,but to see her-he needed that.He was leaving to delhi, and he didn’t want to leave like last time he did it five years back to a same conference like this,without a proper good bye. Am I even going to say good bye? He questioned in his head. Kher chodo, good bye hi naa sahi kuch bhi kehekar jaunge. Bas baat karni hein mujhe usse,kuch bhi-I dunno.he replied to himself then.

Taking his bag,he called out to hari to take it downstairs and he walked towards the guest room with a weirdly beating heart. Not even knocking it,he directly opened it and found the room empty. The room was filled with her scent,just as it used to do back then after she leaves to shoot those days after being ready. He for the first time wondered whether she is not home and a disappointment surged through him.

Walking to the washroom he saw the door opened and knew that sonakshi wasn’t in the room for sure.

Sitting down on her bed,he took a deep sigh,where has she gone? At this hour.

it marked 10.00p.m. in the phone.

Damn. May be she is with chaahat and mom near the vehicle? He thought.

On a chair he saw the shawl she was wearing when she returned back to mumbai, standing up-he drew it to his hands and inhaled it,her scent filled his being again and he shut his eyes in silence.

“Bhai? Aap yahaan ho? Sab bahaar wait karte hein aapka...”

Said ajit peeping to the room,ignoring what he saw rohit doing. Plan seemed so well so far.

Rohit quickly put the shawl rolled into his pocket,and turned to his brother.

“Sonakshi bhabhi ko doonde the aap?”

“nahi...toh.no.i mean no ajit mein kyun usse doondunga?”

“I dunno so,guest room mein the so I asked. Weise bhabhi hein nahi yahaan pe.”

“Neeche hein? Chaahat ke paas? Phir?”

Rohit cursed the excitement he had in his voice when he asked that.

“No wo pooji ke saat wedding invitations dene gayi hein..”

“Itne raat?”

“Haan..aaj hi katam karna tha wo kaam.so pooji boliya,sonakshi bhabhi ko chalna pada..”

“Kyun tume jaana chahiye the naa pooji ke saat..sonakshi kyun gaye.usko pata hona chahiye ki mein delhi jaane waale hoon aur...”

He paused and ajit raised his eyebrows.

“Toh aap delhi jaana,sonakshi bhabhi aapka pilot thodi hein ki aapko usske bina delhi nahi jaa sakta..”

rohit gritted his teeth and in anger he drew off the shawl out of his pocket and threw it away to the bed.walking past ajit he stared him with a deathly glare.

“Jaate jaate hi apna muun thodwaana chate ho mere haatose..”

Said rohit and stormed out of the room. Ajit waited with a puppy face and bursted into a lone laughter when his brother left.

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Pooja’s wedding was to be held on wednesday of the next week.Entire sippy mansion was in chaos with the initial preparations from today,the friday morning.and everyone was so busy to finish the things in Mumbai and fly to goa on sunday night where the wedding was supposed to take place.The conference rohit got to be attending was to be held today,Monday and Tuesday-the three working days,so veena had planned to return back with chaahat alone on sunday since the wedding work was also on.

While being so busy in everything,Sonakshi hasn’t been able to sleep even awhile since last night,after she returned back with pooja.but it was not because of the preparations,but because her guess was right, rohit had already left with mumma and chaahat,and she had missed it.she was missing him since the moment she last saw him,and rather than a call from veena and chaahat,sonakshi didn’t hear a word from him.

Was he angry? Well would he have been angry? Would he have even remembered that so many things happened between them before he left? He was drunk so would that even help? But one call,wouldn’t harm? He could have called right? She wondered.

So what,he had been calling her all these five years. Now she can call him. It is okay that he had not called her,but she can and she will. She looked at the phone,scrolled down to his contact and dialled him,staring at his smiling face in the picture under his caller ID.

So many miles away from mumbai,at a hotel in a lone room where rohit was sitting down ready for the conference that was to take place in two hours,his phone was ringing. He was trying to concentrate on the facts about the latest cardiac guidelines to be discussed but his attention was going astray. The moment his trance was broken by the call he literally grabbed the mobile to his palms with impatience, and yes it was her,the usual yellow dressed cheeky smiling sonakshi was litting up his screen as he stared at her picture.

The wanting to talk to her was being overpowered by the ignorance he underwent from her yesterday and he decided not to answer and not to talk. Yes he will do that even forever. Ok not forever,but till the day I feel like it. He told to himself letting the call ring till it gets disconnected. The phone rang thrice before she quitted calling him, and the moment she stopped calling both the hearts filled with an unknown pain despite being at two places.

With that rohit gathered his documents and got up to leave for the conference and pooja came and took sonakshi downstairs to check on the jwellery. Responsibilities masked the pain of separation they were going through.

End of the day,rohit returned to the room after dinner and the next two days were a break time.his conference went perfectly well despite his concentration attempts failed in the morning before leaving. He knew after seeing her call,he felt a sense of being-wanted-from-her-end and that was the driving force for him to carry on to a super good discussion at his work today; though he didn’t want to admit it. Checking his phone he saw another three calls from her during the day but he didn’t revert to them.

He dropped himself to bed after a wash and shut his eyes.

Her wet hair,him taking off the cardigan off her body,her fingers running into his hair, he softly biting her on her shoulder,her gasps. Everything ran across his mind again in a jiff.

Lekin mein nahi chati ki tum ye sab bhool jau rohit.i want you to remember that ye sab hua tha humari beech.hum itna kareeb aaya ek doosre ke,tum apne aapko meri kareeb laaya....mein tume meri itna kareeb aane di...ye sab tume kal yaad nahi ho toh...kal phir tum mujhe nafrat karna shuru kare...toh kya hoga rohit.

Her voice rang in his head once again.

He forcibly kept his eyes shut further,trying to not let her memories stop him from sleep. But the next moment his phone started ringing and his eyes opened to find her calling him again.

He stared at her picture. He was angry. Why is she calling again and again? Doesn’t she get that I don’t want to talk to her?

Itna kuch hua tha toh mere jaane ke wakt ghar pe hona chahiye tha,nahi? Ab phone karte karte mera dimaag karaab kyun karti hein ye. I am not going to receive your call,no matter what.Jo karna hein karo,I don’t care.

The call got disconnected. And he turned his head away,shutting his eyes. His mind waited for the next call and it didn’t happen. And then he was even angry. He tossed to the other side of the bed and took his phone and stared at it. And after ten minutes, as if she knew his waiting she called again.

But answered,did he? No.

That was the last call for the whole Friday. And rohit didn’t know that he has fallen asleep waiting for her to give another call till he woke up the next morning.

Sonakshi had another sleepless night in the other end for the second day in a row. She was fatigue and was feeling low,owing to the feeling of missing him that was surrounding her. And he was ignoring her calls and giving her the silent message that he had nothing to do with her but she for once wanted to listen to his voice,even by being scolded from him.but that never happened.

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Saturday,rohit took chaahat out to see delhi,and the little girl was having her time of life there.She was talking nonstop,eating out,dancing,playing the the day throughout making rohit remind of sonakshi every millisecond that passed by. The way chaahat laughed out bubbly made rohit actually turn around a few times to see if sonakshi has actually come to them but it was just another imagination which was being real due to his baby girl. The whole day just passed by and it was time for dinner so before chaahat starts to fall asleep,rohit made sure she gets to eat.they sat down in a restaurant and he gave his baby the menu. Veena joined them at the same restaurant after a shopping session for dinner.

“Itne bade menu?!”

“Haan toh kya hua,aapko jo chahe time lelo,aur choose karo.”

Rohit smiled seeing his girl’s nakhre.her eyes widened reading for two pages and there he knew she got bored.

“Arey thish ish too long to read naa paapa..letsh eat ghee parota and paneer makhani.”

There comes the flashback,he paused. But his lips escaped the question that has escaped from him the last time he heard this same suggestion too.

“Paneer? Paneer kaun kaata hein?”

“Mein kaati hoon.”

Chaahat gave the same answer her mom gave her dad years back.rohit stared at her smiling face.veena could read the face of her son,and she had the guess right since she knew paneer was sonakshi’s favourite too.

“Haan mein bhi kaati hoon,ye kya baat hui rohit..tum kitna boring ho..see mein aur meri poti dono we are so cool. Chaahat,baby tume paneer ki kya dish chahiye? Paneer makhani yaa yahaan pe achche se exotic paneer tikka bhi hein..”

“woow..shachchi? Exhotic paneer tikka jeishe kuch honge toh bada mazza aayega daadi.wahi kaate hein,hein na paapa..”

Her cheeky words brought him back to reality. Rohit loved the way chaahat always called him paapa,with a little dragging at the end. He smiled and asked the waiter to bring him what his daughter wanted. Once the food arrived,he took chaahat to his lap and started to feed her. The little girl enjoyed all the pamper and started to have the food excitingly,staring at her father who was busy with the plate.

“aapko pata hein ki aap bohot handshome hein?”

Asked chaahat while chewing her food.rohit burst into a little laugh so did veena.

“Yaah I know.lekin meri chaahat ko ye soch achaanak kahaan se aaya?” He asked pulling her cheek.chaahat signalled him to bend to her and when he did,she drew herself to his ear to whisper something secretly.

“shaari ki shaari ladkiyaa aap ke taraf dekte hein.zara dekho aash paash.”

Rohit looked around in a reflex to see some girls actually looking away from the view which they had been having on him till then. Veena hid her smile.Rohit looked down at his baby daughter.

“Oh fo paapa..zara dekho matlab ek jhatke she shar gumake eisha dekhna nahi hota hein...shilently shlowly dekhna hein...aapko toh kuch bhi maalum nahi hein..”

chaahat scrunched her nose in disappointment.

“Daadi amma ho aap.apne paapako checking out ke tareekein seekte ho aap? Lol kaalo ye,nalaayak.”

He smiled at her feeding the next morsel.

“Weishe paapa..”

“Haan?”

“meine jo ussh din kahaan wo shach hua naa akhir?”

“Kiss din?”

“Arey yaad hein..uss din jahaan aap mujshe bolrahe the..ki aapka koi thi,jo bina good bye bolke chali gayi...aur mein he kahaan ki,toh sharroor waapash aane ke iraadein lekar gayi hogi,aur aapke shona aap ke paash sharroor aayengi...shach hua naa?”

Rohit paused at her talk,she was right.and he can never forget that discussion. at last that only has happened. In some way,he had met his sona again. He sighed and smiled at his daughter.veena looked at rohit’s face intently. She could read what rohit was pushing down into hiding so hardly.

“Ussh wakt mein jante nahi the..ki aap meri paapa ho.lekin I will tell you today, mumma naa..aapko rosh yaad karti thi...”

Rohit halted feeding chaahat,and stared at her.veena kept noticing everything.

“Aapke har habit har mood mere shaat compare karte thi wo...hamesha keheti thi ki mein bilkul aap par gaya ho wagera...”

rohit stared at chaahat.then he put down a sigh and fed her.

“Lekin,mumma ke wo baat sahi nahi hein meri bachchi...aap na,bilkul sona pe... yaaniki apne mumma pe gaye ho.”

Said veena,partially looking at rohit who stole a silent glance at his mother and looked away.chaahat gave a chuckle and nodded,her tiny mouth filled with food so she couldn’t comment so she quickly gulped it down.

“But you know what daadi,mujhe naa,sherioushly lagta hein ki mumma mujshe zyaada pyaar paapa she karte ho..”

she said,squeezing rohit’s cheek and he silently took the glass near by and made chaahat drink it,and wiped her mouth-finishing her dinner.

“Arey,chaahat eisa kahe toh eisa hi hoga...lekin koi wajaah hein aapko eise sochne kaa...”

“Hein naa,daadi,wajaah hein.aapko pata hein mere firsht word kya the?”

“Kya the?”

“Paapa.”

“Haan?”

Rohit asked when he heard chaahat calling him.

“Arey mein aapko nahi pukaara..paapa wash my firsht word..”

rohit stared at his daughter uncomfortably.for some reason he felt a tug in is heart, not at himself or his daughter,but at his sona.

“Mumma mujhe bohot pyaar karti hein true..lekin you shee daadi,mumma ne mujhe mumma bolna shikhne bagair paapa kehenka sheekdiya hein...sho bashically that is becaushe she wanted me to shay paapa firsht...becaushe she lovesh him than hershelf...and me..”

Chaahat smiled cheekily.

Rohit wanted to be alone all of a sudden.he wanted to go somewhere where no one can see the pain that was threatening to come up through his system and out of his eyes. Suddenly sonakshi’s face,begging him and constantly telling him that she loves him appeared and disappeared in his mind.

“chaahat,raat hone waale hein.lets go.”

He said carrying her to his arms and asked veena to follow him.and veena didn’t fail to see her son’s agony.

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Rohit kept chaahat on the bed.she has fallen asleep in his arms while they had a silent drive back to the hotel.well,it was silent only from rohit’s side because veena and chaahat kept talking until the little one fell asleep but rohit was lost in his own world.

“Mom aap bhi so jaaiye,tak gayi hoon mein,I will go sleep too.”

Said rohit rushing back to his room,not wanting to talk anything more and before veena said anything he escaped.

It would have been half an hour later,when he finally took a long shower and came back to his bed. Getting into his pajamas he dried his hair first and buried himself to the bed. Flipping his phone he stared at the ten missed calls notification he has got from Sonakshi,the last call being five minutes back. He opened her contact,just to stare at her picture. The second day of avoiding her,just avoiding the calls has done no help,she was everywhere,in chaahat,in memories,in feelings and in everything.

A knock in the door broke his trance and he walked to open it.

Veena who was standing at the door,handed over him her mobile.

“Kaun?”

He asked,seeing the ongoing call. Veena didn’t say anything but it was sonakshi,he read the caller ID already.

“Mujhe kuch nahi hein isse baat karnekeliye.”

He said loud and clear enough for sonakshi to listen. Her heart skipped a beat hearing his voice after so long, but meantime the snap at her at the other end pained her.

“Rohit,mein bol rahe ho.baat karo.wo parishaan hein tumse baat kiye bina.”

Veena ordered coming inside the room and locking the door.

“Wo parishaan hogi to mujhe kya.mein toh parishaan nahi ho,itne baar call kiye hein wo mujhse lekin mein phone nahi utaaya.so saahir si baat hein ki mein usse baat nahi karna chaata. Wo samaj nahi sakte kya?”

Rohit said nonstop,sonakshi at the other end had a lone tear and then a stream of tears rolling down her cheeks.

“Behave yourself rohit.tum koi bachcha nahi ho jo man mein aaya wo sab bolne keliye.patni ho tumari wo...ye..”

“Mom please,aap chahiye toh aap baat karona isske saat,mujhe parishaan mat karo.eise nahi hein ki duniya tham jaayege mera agar isse baat nahi hue toh. paanch saal usske bina rehechuke ho,aage bhi rehe sakte ho.”

He screamed.

“Shut up rohit.wo sun rahe ho.”

Veena screamed at rohit in return and took the phone to her ear.and in the hurry the speakers got on.

“sona..”

“It’s okay mumma...usse parishaan mat karo.bas ek baar aawaz sunna chaati thi mein.agar rohit rehe sakte ho toh mere bina..eisa hi sahi,mein rakti hoon.take care.”

Sonakshi said and rohit who was facing his back to veena,clearly heard it too. The line got disconnected and veena shut her eyes in disappointment.

She put her phone aside,went to rohit and held his shoulder and turned him to her in anger.

“eisa baat karnekeliye seekha hein tujhe mein?haan? Bolo rohit? Eisa seekha hein mein ne?”

“Mom mujhe akhela chod lo.”

Rohit said looking away. Veena pushed him back and went to the bed and sat down. Burying her head in her hands she sighed in frustration.

There were around five minutes silence and she took a deep breath. Looking up she saw rohit sitting in the chair near by,his head buried to the table.

“Eisa nahi chalega rohit.tum sonakshi ko chod lo.”

Rohit snapped his head up,looking at his mother.

“Eisa ghoor ke kya dekh rahe ho? Mein neh kahaan ki tum usse alag ho.”

“Mom what are you saying?”

“divorce karlo usse.”

Rohit felt like a a fire burned down his spine.veena looked really angry.

“Eisa rishta se koi matlab nahi hein,shaadi kiya,paanch saal tak alag raha.bachche bi banadiya,waapas mil bhi gaya.ek chat ke neeche bhi aagaya lekin,tum eisa treat karte ho sona ko? Aakhir kab tak jhel lenga wo ye sab.aasad karlo usse tumse. Taaki wo isse achcha zingdagi paa saku. Pehele baap ke wajeise suffer karti thi,ab beta padgaya uske zingdagi k peechein.”

Rohit stared at his mother in shock.so she knew? He didn’t know that ajit has told everything to his mother.

“Mein keisa jaan gaya wo important nahi hein.wo mere liye aur tumari liye kiya hein wo sab.agar meri bahu meri liye kardiya hue sacrifice se mujhe koi problem nahi hein toh tume kyun problem hein rohit? Eisa kurbaan karna sabke bas mein baat nahi hein. Wo sab karke bhi agar aakhir usko tumse ye hi treatment milte hein toh, isse achcha hein ke tum usko chod hi lo.humse dhoor hokar sukhoon milegi uss ladki ko. Divorce karlo usko,aur uske beti ko usse dedo.”

Rohit stared at his mother,unable to face the fact she is bashing him with.he breathed up and down fast and a thin tears film covered his eyes. He realized that he cannot even think of anything like separating from her,leave alone a divorce.He yet tried to hide his pain, gulped the lump in his throat and talked.

“chaahat meri beti hein.”

“Tum dono ke beti hein.Aur tum ye baat nahi maan sakte toh,wo courts decide karenege, I will ask sona to put a custody case. Usse decide honga ki chaahat rightfully kissko milenge.”

“I will not let anyone take chaahat away from me mom.”

“Rohit!!!”

Veena screamed. Rohit was thrown back.

“Tum andhe hogaye hein kya? Ya pagal hote jaarahe ho? Ye kya gamand hein tumari dil mein.gamand ya kuch bhi...mujhe samaj mein nahi aata. Kitna bhi kahaan tume koi andaaza kyun nahi hote? Sonakshi yaa tum.. tum dono ke koi galati nahi hein. Uss aadmi ke galati ko apni aapko sazza kyun de rahe ho. Apne aapko chod lo tum dono. Chaahat ke kya kassoor hein? Wo bachchi toh kuch bhi nahi jaante hein. Tum kya khel khelte jaa rahe ho rohit? Kuch haalat ke kassoor ko sona ke upar daalke tum kya bakwaas karne jaa rahe ho?”

“Mom ussne meri liye apne aapko barbaad kiya. Agar mujhe pyaar karti thi toh eisa nahi karte wo...”

Rohit screamed back in agony.

“toh tum bhi wahi kar rahe ho rohit.tum bhi usko barbaad hi kar rahe ho.toh kahaan hein tumari pyaar? Eisa pyaar ka kya matlab hein jahaan tum bas usko takleef ke alaawa kuch nahi de sakte ho? Mujhpar mat chillao.khud par chillao rohit.tume pata nahi tum kya karne waale ho.aur kahi eisa naa ho ki sab kuch barbaad hojaawe.”

Veena stood up.

“Kal subha meri flight hein.pooja ke shaadi iss wednesday hein toh we are leaving early.i hope tume wo yaad ho.aur ummeed karta hoon ki jab tum waapas mumbai aayenge,apna koye hue akhal dundke layenge.”

She walked to the door. And rohit didn’t say a word. Returning back she threw a package at him to the table.

“Yeh tumare liye hein rohit. Dekhna yaa nahi dekhna tumari decision. Lekin kissine tumare liye banwaayi hein ye. Toh ab ye tumari paas hona chahiye.”

Said her and she went and opened the door to leave. And the last sentence he heard made him to have it being echoed in his ears for a long time.

“Dher mat karo rohit.sudharjao.sona ko itna bhi mat satao ki wo tumse hamesha ke liye dhoor hojayenge..”

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The Sunday was a whole quiet thing for Rohit sippy. Veena and chaahat has gone back to mumbai and he had things to be prepared for the conference which was to happen for another two more days. He had to leave immediately on Tuesday afternoon so that he can go home and fly back to goa for pooji’s wedding that was to take place on wednesday. He mentally recalculated the hours to make sure he can make it on time. Thinking it would be ok,he tried to occupy his mind in work without being distracted but every passing second Sonakshi rastogi was haunting his thoughts.

I don’t know mein aur kese batau.tum meri hoon aur mein tumari hi sona hoon.koi sonakshi nahi,tumari liye mein wo sona hi hoon jisse tume pyaar hogaya tha.

Her voice was still from time to time coming to his head.their last moments of intimacy from whatever he remembered flashed infront of him yet. And he so badly yet craved for her lowkey and still superficially he wanted to show the unwanting more.

He had not received any call from her since last night,after what he blasted her off with. He unlocked the phone screen to check again. But no sound.

He opened the whatsapp and checked for her last seen,which indicated she hasn’t come online in few hours. With non understandable frustration he threw the phone away, trying to focus on his work again and stared at the laptop screen.after a while he felt really sleepy so that he laid down and shut his eyes. And after two hours he woke up to a ping of his mobile,it was Sunday night and he had received a message from her.

Please answer the call.bas ek baar.mujhe bolni hein kuch.you don’t have to talk.Bas sunlo aur call end karo,chalega.Please answer this one call.

He read it. But when the next moment she called him,as usual he didn’t answer her. She called probably seven eight more times,but he didn’t respond. And that was going to be her last call, he didn’t know that.

He mechanically had his dinner,prepared all his documents for tomorrow and got back to the bed. Rolling to this and that side,sleep seemed too far and night seemed too long for him. Strugglingly he fell to sleep somehow,just to be woken up by around four in the morning suddenly,seeing her in his dreams.

She wore something white,and he was calling out for him but she just smiled and walked away. Chaahat was in his arms, it seemed like she gave her off to him and left. Rohit has kept chaahat down and ran behind sonakshi,but she just walked to somewhere and got disappeared in a mist while he frantically screamed out her name just to realize he had lost her,forever.

He found his heart beating fast,his shirt wet with sweat and his whole body shivering. He sensed that he had reached a moment where he is either about to have her or loose her forever,and that lost feeling scared him to the core of his being.

Gulping down some water,he pulled his hair and tried to calm him down. Sleep is not going to come to him now,so he pulled up the laptop and switched it on and scrolled down the watchlist he had,just as a reflex of the moment.

Suddenly he noticed that package his mother threw at him before giving and he broke it and took the CD out. He then put it to his laptop and played it.

Hitching his breath,sonakshi appeared on the screen. The video seemed old,she looked chubbier and he assumed it was her postpartum.

“Tume ye kab mile,keise mile,wo toh aaj mein nahi jaanti hoon rohit. Lekin tum ab ye dekte hein matlab,meri kwaaish poore hogaye ho saalo baad. I am sorry, aaj tum meri wajeise,ek bohot badi maud ko gaya ho apni zingdagi mein. Lekin Iss saare video ke ek hi maksat hein,aur wo ye hein ki dher hue hi sahi, hakeekat mein naa sahi,tume ye sab mishoos karne ke liye milenga. I know ye thoda dramatic sound kar rahe hoga,lekin mein kya karu aur. Serial karte karte pata nahi,meri wajeise hum sab ki zingdagi ek serial jeisa hi bangaya. Kher chod lo ye sab,jab tum ye dekhu,mujhe nahi pata hein ki mein ho yaa naa ho,lekin tumari paas ek eisa shaks hoga jo tume tumari koi hue sab kuch waapas le aane waali. Tumari hassi,tumari kushi,tumari zingdagi aur tumari har kuch. Tumari chaahat poore hue hein rohit.aur wo tume kabhi chod ke nahi jaungi,hamesha tumari saat hi honge.meri jeise tumari dil nahi thodenge ulta tumari dil sambhalenge. Meri tarha nahi honge. tume bohot pyaar denge wo. Milo.isse...”

Sonakshi paused and rohit stared at her in teary eyes already. And he saw probably sharanya handing her something. And then she showed him her,their daughter.

“Ye hein tumari sab se badi chaahat.milo tumari princess chaahat rohit sippy se.”

Rohit shut his mouth from his palms,as tears overflew his eyes and he choked on his sobs. The screen corner said first day,and there she was having their hours old baby in hand,cute as ever.

“Cute naa? I mean rohit...she is so tiny.feel karo uski haat,so small.she loves to sleep like me. Abhi ke liye bas wo baat milte hein mujhse,aur haan she has long eyelashes. Tumari tarha bohooot fair ho ye.aur saute hue bohot cute lagte ho,tumari tarha.”

He touched his screen,at their babies face.and he felt like he was there at the moment with them,and his fingers ran on the screen on his sona’s tired but yet smiling face. He started sobbing already.

“Isse aage tum wo sab dekhne waale ho rohit,wo peheli baar kab aur kese hassi,kab nahaali,kab beti,kab stand ki,kab aur kese boli,kab aur kese pehele chalna phirna shuru kardi....ye sab milenge tume dekhneka, aur tum wo saari pal jiyenge.dher hi sahi,jo mere wajeise hua,I am sorry rohit.lekin waapas iss tarha tum koi hue wo sab wakt waapas paalo.aur chaahat,pehele tume paapa kehekarhi bulayenge..dekhna.”

She said cuddling her baby to her chest.

Rohit cried out loud,his sobs had no bounds and his heart pained for her,for his sona.

“Mein tumse bohot pyaar karti hoon rohit.lekin wo pyaar dene ke liye mein tumari paas nahi hoon ab,so ye chaahat ko mein wo saari pyaar dungi tum samaj kar.taaki tume jab chaahat mile,wo meri saari pyaar mishoos honge chaahat ke sariye. Bas jab isse mile tum,sochlo ki balehi mein paas nahi hongi tumari,lekin saat hongi tumari hamesha...”

She paused. And the screen changed.

“Sona...”

He whispered. And then he kept taking her name all the while watching everything she had recorded for him in the way she promised.

His heart ached,and his chest actually pained and he hold it and started sobbing after the videos ended. She has finally ended with a recording where chaahat is reciting a poem for him,her paapa.

Rohit buried his head in his hands and cried really loud,he felt all the pain he gave her till now reverting back to him. Sonakshi rastogi sippy,his sona-has really loved him,so damn much that she had done everything in her hands for him.

He pushed the laptop aside and fell into the bed,hitting his on face in pain and anger he had against himself for hurting sonakshi so much. He remembered how he threw her shawl before coming from home,and he regretted it. He clearly remembered it carried her smell,and how he wished that he could have hugged her like that and cried his heart out.

Sonakshi has done everything in her hands for him,the one she loved so drearily,even from far and even while being far. And it was something he could even not think of. Yes she has done sacrifices,she has let him go,she has let herself harm her,she has destroyed her just so that he can be fine. Yes in the middle,everything has turned haywire and he had harbored hatered for her,but what he couldn’t understand was that he was harboring hatered at the circumstances but not her. He had loved her oh so drearily,and she had given him everything her heart,her happiness,her body,her soul and a baby,with all the things he missed right back at him. And he can never imagined anything else that she can do more for him,yet he know she will find more things that she can do for him.she was that of a kind. His sona was that of a kind. And to such a heck of a woman,he cannot hide his feelings any more. And he didn’t want to hide any more. She deserves love and he got to give all that precious things she must get back to her,this time and forever. He decided now.

Sniffing up his sobs,he took his wallet out from the drawer and pulled out something from it. This belonged to her and this is what he took so that she comes back to mumbai with him. She or no one had an idea that he had it with him,but since the day he got it to his hands,he had literally carried it everywhere with him. The part of her which by means he owned her. Yes he took it away from her stealthily but he took it with a purpose.

his fingers held it infront of his eyes and as it pendulated slowly,he knew one thing. he was ready. he was ready. he was ready. To give this back to her and have her back to him in return. And yes, today just as he decided days back,he was ready to give back this and take back her right on the day that he truely admits that the love he had for her has completely taken over him. And today was the day. He smiled among the tears,clutching the holy possession he held in his hands to his chest, her mangalsutra.

And to this sona,he can do only love,nothing else here after.

A ping on his phone jutted him back to reality and the message said his conference has been cancelled. He stared at that realizing that universe is making its way to make him understand that no bounds exsist for them now and just love will remain.

He dialled his phone,to her staring at her picture with a smile like he had no other day ever in these five years. Her phone came as switched off, he redialled quite a few times but no change. He smiled.

She must be sleeping.

But next morning she will wake up to see me,near her.he smiled.

It is time for sona to get her rohit. And he was going to give it to her.soon.

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Monday evening it was. Sippy mansion was empty,rather than for ajit,YK and bade mumma with veena who were seated at the table for supper.

Rohit who was dialing sonakshi’s unresponsive number impatiently stormed into the house shocking everyone.he had forgotten everything else,and sonakshi’s number was silent since last night and still it was the same. Some weird kinda worry was invading him since the time he waited to board the flight at delhi because he knew she doesn’t keep the phone off for that long.

Everyone at the house looked at each other,at his unnoticed arrival.

“Sona kahaan hein?”

He asked loud and everyone stared at each other.veena finally composing herself got up.

“rohit tum yaahan kese?tumari toh conference the kal thak.”

“Cancelled.mom sona kahaan hein? Wo meri phone kyun nahi utaathe? I mean... phone off kyun aaraha hein?”

Everyone stayed silent at his reaction.they seemed to find it difficult to answer him all of a sudden.and his arrival at a moment like this,they didn’t expect.

“Koi mujhe kuch bataaogi? Sona kahaan hein? Kyun dikha nahi de rahaa hein? Mom?”

He asked.they all tried to speak.

“Kher chodo. I will go talk to her.Sona?”

He turned to leave upstairs.

“Wo yaahan nahi hein rohit.”

Said veena as he left.halting at his steps,he turned back to face them.fear evident in his face.

“What?”

He repeated,wishing he didn’t hear it correct.

“Chali gayi...wo waapas.goa.”

Rohit heard his mother saying and he took a step back,unable to register anything else except for that.

Left? Eise? Bina kuch bole.

He remembered her message and calls last night. He had blasted her the day before but yet she called,she said she had something to say. But he wasn’t ready to listen to her. So,bina kuch bole nahi. Koshish ki hein,mein suna nahi usski baat.

His fault.

And he was late.

She was gone.

Chapter title credits: ghar se nikhla (spotlight 2: 2018 web series)

We are meeting next time with the end.

This was worth waiting for!!!!

The most beautiful writing I have came acrossed till now!!!

Really!!! Awesome! Just loved it!!

Eagerly looking forward for the update ❤❤❤❤

I just read chapter 7. From the restaurant part, all I’ve been doing is wiping my eyes a lot. You’ve got me into tears. I came to IF after so long only to have this update read. I haven’t read chapters 3-6 though, will do it when I have time as COVID has been taking lots of time for work with the lock down in my country, more challenges than before. Nevertheless, this update got me in tears for what sonakshi has gone through. Veena was right, sona suffered a lot due to the father then, the son now. I guess that has knocked some sense in him. I suppose she leaving is just a plan pulled by ajit pooja n veena to get Rohit on track. The whole bathroom scene was very well written. The way they Rohit expressed his need was cute and funny when he kept reminding her what happened 5 years ago. Their romance was subtle with right spice considering they’ve not reconciled and accepted each other fully. That whole part was brilliantly written. Writing on Chahat was as cute as ever. She is a classic piece, too matured for her age, teaching her dad on how to check out. That was hilarious!!

The whole update was super long but no complains (ok just minimal cause I am not a Hindi speaker so to comprehend the Hindi part was challenging). It has been a beautiful, romantically exciting and cute update. Very well written

Thanks for the super long one and keep writing. Hope you’re doing well and looking forward to catch up with all the rest updates too.

PS it’s 215 am in my country. Hahahaha

Soo good...

Please update next part soon...

Awesome update

Love it

Continue soon

It was worth waiting for sooo longg

U have written beautifully.

Each and every emotion u have potrayed so nicely lovvee itt sooo much

Thank u for such a long and beautiful update

Chapter 7 was worth waiting

It was sooo... beautiful

Their emotions were very well put out

Loved it

Please update the next chapter soon