The Cord that can never be Cordoned off… My RagKor a mini OS
It was one of those days with the deliverables at the plantation and Raaghav was busy there. The kids indeed had been busy with school and their work and routine and Chakor with her daily chores…
She came to the Plantation to help out on the processing and packaging now that Gauri is back and was taking charge of the processing and helping train the others too.
Swati was also busy with the strategic HR and IR that she was implementing at the plantation as it has grown more and whenever Chakor saw Gauri or Swati she always had a tinge of scrunch within her. Her eyes would bear a tint of tear which never go unnoticed by Raaghav but he would not probe her. He left the phone to go to the wash when the phone rang… the ID was flashing as Ujjala..I have seen this name quite a few times but everytime I forget to ask Raaghav who this is. They both met Renu and Mohit and then returned to the Mansion.
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She had been so busy with her schedule and the coaching, taking care of the kids and their exams and also the processing, she had fatigue and was feeling as though she was missing something.
She quickly checked her calendar when she realized indeed there has been a delay in her regular biological visitor. She was a bit paranoid…they had been very few times intimate with protection but very very few times without barriers but she had not missed to have her tablets. But…. How is it….. she was bit perplexed…. How can it be… is it??? Oh god no… or is it due to my age am I going through premenopause… but an early forty should not be that way too… too many things was going through her brain.She felt very restless.
Walked in the Lion and saw her perspiring, perplexed,and bit worried too. He looked at her…you don’t look alright? What happened? Why are you sweating?? He wiped her sweat.. She got bit jittered… she said Raaghav… my …I… I don’t know but…. But what he asked.. he made her sit down and gave her water. She was scared.. she said .. Raaghav I have adelay… delay in what he asked… My dates have delayed she explained brief… He initially did not take it serious…but then he said how can it be may be the packet was having any manufacturing defect he said. Whaaat, she screeched how can you be so careless and irresponsible…dare not come near me hereafter she was shouting… and you should be careful… you should have checked na… you are not understanding how serious is this she literally shouted…
How can I check he asked innocently… She was literally in tears. He slowly realized the seriousness but though they were always safe but felt helpless.
Should we check with the dr…he asked … hmmm … no first get a P Kit and lets check she said. Oh god she was agonising….. He hugged her… just looking in her eyes. Chakor I don’t know what to say but if at all it had happened then I will stand by what you decide he said…. He was praying hard, not that he fears an addition but he feared the risk she will be put through… I am sorry he hugged her…I did not intend to be irresponsible but… he was worried terribly he felt guilty if there was any unintentional/accidental misfire.
He went and came back with the kit… … She looked at him…he was completely pale, worried….. Raaghav lets see what it is… What if….he asked…. She closed her eyes and went into his chest… Raaghav we can have the precaution, use the means before a life is formed but once formed its god's wish and unless medically found unfit to continue I will not go against it as killing an embryo is also killing a life…. The relationship of the umblical cord is very divine and I……she bit her tongue, she cried within herself and quickly ran to the wash with the kit.
He was very very worried and was literally impatient. I will throttle the companywala he was fisting within himself.... Chakor ......he was standing beside the door.. are you ok… what is it. Please come out soon, I am feeling scared he said…
She came out…. Looked at him….what is it please…. I am sorry…. Please tell me fast. She hugged him and said thank god nothing to worry…. Its negative. He sighed.. birdie daradhiyaa mujhey...
She smiled with tears… I am sorry Raaghav I got bit scared that I shouted at you. Aaah its ok… I know you never underestimate my power he winked…But suddenly he became very serious… I cant risk you again Chakor he said. You are more precious to me. I wanted the roses too as the cubs wanted he said. She cupped his chin and said I know you, as you always my well being but I too wanted to have the roses as I wanted to nurture your love within me…. If this had been positive then she asked….. it would have been the sixth he said… she teared looking up to him… Raaghav … she went into his chest…. Crying her heart out…
Hugging her close he said…I know Chakor… whenever you see Gauri or Swati you tear, you get reminded of Anjor… as she will be of the same age now… She whimpered… Anjor..where is she? How is she? She hates me…but…he wiped her tears and said.. you love her… you worry about her…. You always look at all the marathoning news to see if she is anywhere there participating. She was puzzled…. You notice everything… hmmm… His phone rang again… Ms.Ujjala….
He wiped her tears…. Hmm … she asked who is this Ms. Ujjala…I wanted to ask you couple of times but forgot. He just shook a second. woh woh he stammered… who is she, she asked… he just kept quiet looking at her with tears in his eyes….
She slowly was saying Ms. Ujjala …. Her eyes was widening. Ujjala…. Matlab rays… rays of S…u…r..a.j… is it ….. tell me Raaghav she held his collar and asked tell me is it Anjor….he nodded yes…. Various emotions… where is she? How do you know ? are you in contact…. How is she?… she cried… cried terribly… the call rang again….He put it on speaker.
Hello!!!! a young girl voice … hello…… Raaghav … dadee…. Are you there… how is mumma????Anjor ..betaaa…. Raaghav spoke…. How are you he asked…. I am fine… is mumma fine… how are the kids…. Why is your voice not ok… hope you are holding your promise and have not told about me to mumma… please talk to me… Chakor cried hearing her voice…. Anjor….Raaghav said… your mumma is fine….the kids are fine…don’t disconnect the phone he said…. your mumma is here… whaat Anjor said no no..
An……jooor, Chakor grabbed the phone and called her name… she cried she could not speak further… please speak to me… don’t disconnect…. Where are you… how are you… are you still angry…do you still hate me???. No No mumma please…. I am bad, Anjor cried at the other end… I should not be forgiven for what I have done to you… No No mera bachi please don’t say that Chakor said…Raaghav held her, rubbing her back… Raaghav where is she Chakor asked. She is in Australia said Raaghav… she was astonished, surprised. Why didn’t you tell me….
Mumma please don’t tell anything about him. I made him promise on me not to tell you about me but I am so unfortunate as I realized him too late. He is such a pure soul he stood by his words, but always called me to check about me, ensured my safety here, kept me updated about you about my brothers and sisters… I am bad mumma she cried. Raaghav said please Anjor don’t say that, infact you are our first child, your love to me as your daddy Suraj made me realize the love of a child, which indeed prepared me to father my cubs…
They both cried their heart out… Mumma please donot forgive me…. I am happy for you…. Both were emotional… I want to see you…please….Chakor said. She came on whatsapp video call….They cried to each other… Mumma I am so sorry as because of me you underwent lot of hardship. I never understood you. I never understood the love of Raaghav dadee too…. I am sorry she cried. Please come here Chakor said. Anjor.. Suraj ka Ujjala was firm like my dude and mother. She said wiping her tears mumma I am happy that a situation had come to make us meet….I am happy that after all the hardship you have started to live. Don’task me to come as I donot want to hamper your happiness for Raaghav dadee is a gem and the children are beautiful precious stones… I love you mumma she said,I promise I will talk to you whenever you call me but please donot ask me to come there. I love you mumma she disconnected the call. Chakor understood she was indeed happy that Anjor was not angry with her anymore but want to lead her life.
She looked at Raaghav, he said I am sorry for hiding...… she closed his mouth and said I should thank you for you are such a pure gem who has taken care of that divine relationship of my umbilical cord which you ensured was never cordoned off.. But how did you meet her Chakor asked.
Raaghav briefed about his meeting with Anjor at the Delhi hospital and that she felt terribly bad about her deeds and sought his promise not to tell anything to Chakor. She initially refused to tell her whereabouts but after Raghav’s promise she shared her contacts and was in constant touch with him. … How can you be so pure Raaghav she cried. …they were in each others embrace for a long time. He allowed her to calm down ….She looked up to him…. Smiling…. Thank you for everything but How can I thank you she asked
He wanted to change her mood…. He said achaa you know how to thank me winking love me more with a thank you demo… , looking up folding his hands he said arey bajrangbali kya naatak kiya bey… daradhiya mujey par kushibi laya bey mera maidam ka chehra pe!!!
Hmm Maidam… she asked hitting on his chest… haaaan when you speak to Anjor it is my maidam only na he smiled….
Acchaaa!!! paagal she hugged him…. Haaan paagal zaroorthumhara paagal… I love you he said…I too love you she said hugging him.
Thank god so nothing to worry…yes then how??? he asked she said may be I am anemic, ohhh so what should be done he asked … I need to have more of iron so need to have dates, pomegranate, greens, good fruits … the foodie she was on and on.
Arey thum na…he closed her in his style…. I shall get you all those in packets but now I am happy my packets are defectless otherwise I would have throttled the company wala... she hit him always ready to fight.....Rowdy.....
So he said … soo she scrunched her eyes with a smile…. He grabbed her to him and said drawing the curtains…. My birdie what you are saying soo… sooooo….pushing her down.. its time for the demo he said… only tantantaanan… hmmmmmm. Yes....She pulled him to her…. He smirked arey somebody just told me not to come near her… shut up Budda hmmmm……
Yes every relationship is very very precious but the most precious one which can never be cordoned off is the relationship of the umblical cord…
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Thanks Kavi for prompting about preggy fear…I always had Anjor at the back of my mind but could not bring her in, this helped me out.. as whatever it is she is Suraj, my dude’s Ujjala…. Suraj… tears roll from my fossil…..sorry for bringing my emotions. Hope you enjoyed it Kavi and thanks Nikki for always giving me the courage to write…..and the patient hearing to my ranting especially when it comes to my dude…
Hope I met your expectations.