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Farewell to A Journey Truthwards, Lovewards <3
Hi folks 🤗 Tia here. I didn't know watching the last episode would be so difficult. I did not realize it until the episode began. I cried almost for the entire episode, cried more at the happy scenes. I seem to be a little high on emotions, please excuse me if I blabber too much. It's a long post. Brace yourselves!
PS: I had slept last night with my laptop open. In the morning, I removed lots of nonsense blabbering. I hope it is easier to read now. :)
'Abhi na jao chodh kar, k dil abhi bhara nahi.'
Incidentally, these were the very words with which Aditya and Zoya came knocking at the door of my heart. And with them the amazing actors playing them, Harshad and Jennifer. I hold this first memory of watching AdiYa fight over that gramophone very dear to me, and when they were running on the streets of Mussoorie. I had felt an inexplicable joy at that moment, like I had discovered what I was looking for. A story of love that was worth every moment. ❤️ I don't remember getting so attached to another show, including the ones which I have followed in the past (Maybe except IPKKND). The depth of emotional journey that Bepannaah took me into is of another level that perhaps happens very rarely on ITV.
'Hum aaye unke ghar khuda ki kudrat hai, kabhi hum unke ghar ko dekhte hai kabhi unhe.'
My entry into the Bepannaah fandom has been a little bit different. I wasn't an HC fan who was patiently waiting for his reappearance on TV. I hadn't followed his previous shows. In fact, I did not even know that years ago the actor who had grabbed my attention with his performance (and of course, killer looks 
) was him. The show was Saubhagyavati Bhava, my mom was watching it and I had peeked in for some 3-5 minutes. It is only after I began watching Bepannaah, I became curious about who was playing Aditya Hooda and I went through a brief tour of his previous works. Then I realized he was the same actor and what a tremendous growth he had undergone with time! 👏 Nor was I a JW fan who had followed her entire journey. But I knew that she was a good actress because I had watched few scenes from Beyhadh. She was amazing as Maya. Before that my mom had once made me google one or two episodes of Saraswatichandra she had missed.. When I was watching the BTS of Zoya crying for her Abbu to open the door and Aditya consoling her, I was surprised to see how smoothly she was switching back and forth between Zoya's state of crying and being Jennifer. It was a very emotional scene. And JenShad were performing like a cakewalk.
) was him. The show was Saubhagyavati Bhava, my mom was watching it and I had peeked in for some 3-5 minutes. It is only after I began watching Bepannaah, I became curious about who was playing Aditya Hooda and I went through a brief tour of his previous works. Then I realized he was the same actor and what a tremendous growth he had undergone with time! 👏 Nor was I a JW fan who had followed her entire journey. But I knew that she was a good actress because I had watched few scenes from Beyhadh. She was amazing as Maya. Before that my mom had once made me google one or two episodes of Saraswatichandra she had missed.. When I was watching the BTS of Zoya crying for her Abbu to open the door and Aditya consoling her, I was surprised to see how smoothly she was switching back and forth between Zoya's state of crying and being Jennifer. It was a very emotional scene. And JenShad were performing like a cakewalk.So now I am both their fan. When this happens the real trouble begins. (Not the shipping thing 😆) When they came onscreen together, I got confused whose expressions I like more. 🤣 Consequently, a typical AdiYa scene would take thrice it's time to watch; first to look at Jenny and gush over AdiYa, second to look at Harshad and again gush over AdiYa, and final third to stop fangirling, make sense of the story and bask in the beauty of its marvelous storytelling! 
'Ap jaisa shaks humne apni zindagi main kabhi nahi dekha.'
Since I did not belong to either fandom initially, I had started watching the show without having any expectations. I had joined in from the second week, I had binge-watched the entire first week. My mind was reeling by the end. I was not expecting what I had watched. It was so beautiful and intense. 
Since then there is no looking back. I am one of those people who watched the series from start to end on TV without skipping any part. I have no idea if my efforts got translated into TRPs or did not. (I believe it did not) However I don't equate Bepannaah's success directly with TRP because of its overall quality. This is a show which I would always cherish. ❤️
Since then there is no looking back. I am one of those people who watched the series from start to end on TV without skipping any part. I have no idea if my efforts got translated into TRPs or did not. (I believe it did not) However I don't equate Bepannaah's success directly with TRP because of its overall quality. This is a show which I would always cherish. ❤️Watching Bepannaah felt like sitting on a roller-coaster ride. It was intense, high on emotions - both happy as well as sad, and unpredictable twists and turns which would always keep you on the edge of your seats. (I think we were the only fandom who enjoyed reading fake spoilers. They never came true, except last few weeks. The best one being: Not Yash but Arjun and Pooja had an affair. 😆) I could feel the show talking to my internal self. It brought all the emotions in the foreground. It didn't matter whether I had actually experienced them or not. Aditya, Zoya, Arjun, Noor and others became a medium of my experience. Sometimes it felt like a free breeze of air, sometimes wild churning storm. We all loved Aditya Hooda's sarcasm, but it existed for a reason. That was his defense mechanism against his miseries. Like his anger too was. Zoya's extreme naivety also was her psychological defense. Some part of it also came from her innocence and ability to trust. During the riots, the game of pretentious hide and seek she explained to the kids was the game she played with herself while defending Yash, while overlooking Aditya's feelings of love for her or disregarding her own feelings. Arjun was potentially a deadly combination of innocence and brain. (I loved Arjun's smile outside taxi after he misled the police about the diary. He would have lived upto his name if time was our side.) At one point, I felt bad for Anjana as well as Harsh Hooda. Mr. Hooda was one of the shadiest characters. He was savage at the court scene, how he twisted all the blame on Yash. Yet his human side was heart-melting.
On the face of it, the story of Aditya and Zoya looked like a typical hate-turned-love story. On a closer look, if one observed the nuances that was clearly not the case. Because Aditya never really hated Zoya. He hated cheaters. He could see black and white, but not gray..yet he had a gray side. He always stood by Zoya's side, and Zoya his. The journey which began with convincing the truth to Zoya slowly turned into compaionship and love. A semiconscious Zoya had said to Aditya on the terrace 'Hum jante the aap hume bachane zaroor ayenge.' Aditya was appalled. He did not want her to think he was a good man. Still, he did not hesitate writing blank cheque to Arjun for Zoya's bail. That's a priceless amount, larger than 5 crores he gave to Pooja. Zoya's trust on first Yash and then Aditya was unparalleled. With Aditya it functioned to bring them together, with Yash it tore them apart. (That's why I hated the last track. It was very unlike Aditya to distrust Zoya or accuse her of cheating. Zoya had trusted Adi when he was holding a knife dripping with blood. I am already sad, I don't want to complain today. 😔) If I have to point out one scene that stood out in the entire series, it would be the one where Aditya backed out from pursuing Zoya further, and let her get married to Arshad. It was a heartbreaking scene. 💔 And Zoya imagining Aditya putting haldi on her. It contained the essence of AdiYa. Zoya wanted to communicate to her friend that the pain of getting married to someone else, but Aditya misinterpreted it. She did not want him to become 'fanna'. But eventually he did 'fanna' when he backed out for Zoya's happiness. The level of trust and commitment in AdiYa's relationship was well contrasted with the immaturity in ArNoor. I loved the scenes from last episode of AdiYa and ArNoor. Aditya's dialogues in the medical room was enough to remind of a series of beautiful AdiYa moments. I loved how ArNoor restarted their relationship on a mature and positive note.
Apart from the romantic angle of AdiYa and ArNoor, the thriller aspect of the show had always excited me. Harshvardhan Hooda's shady past, PooSh murdered together, Sakshi's blackmailer, Waseem Siddiqui also seemed to be involved in a power struggle, his strange aversion to Hoodas. (I don't know why, I have this feeling that in the original story Waseem Siddiqui was a don 
And Anjana gave him the contract to murder PooSh. 🤪Because he was never shown working. Neither was Aditya after first leap. But at least he was a pilot off-duty. Aditya had a dialogue which made me doubt: 'Tumhare abbu hai koi mafia don nahi hai.') I looked forward to a lot of things which never happened. But I am happy that the team refused to ruin the essence of their show. Sadly it came with a huge cost, we had to say goodbye to Bepannaah. But despite all the constraints and pressure, it remains one of the well-executed-directed, well-acted and well-written shows on ITV. Also its soulful background score. If the show had fallen weak on any one of the departments, only good acting could not take the show to this level of intensity. I am a proud audience and I am glad that I got to watch a show like Bepannaah. Because every time it made me think, look within and grow along with the characters. To face fears, own them, conquer them. To realize that every human being is flawed in some way. And that's what makes each one of us beautiful and unique. The show made me live their life along with them.
And Anjana gave him the contract to murder PooSh. 🤪Because he was never shown working. Neither was Aditya after first leap. But at least he was a pilot off-duty. Aditya had a dialogue which made me doubt: 'Tumhare abbu hai koi mafia don nahi hai.') I looked forward to a lot of things which never happened. But I am happy that the team refused to ruin the essence of their show. Sadly it came with a huge cost, we had to say goodbye to Bepannaah. But despite all the constraints and pressure, it remains one of the well-executed-directed, well-acted and well-written shows on ITV. Also its soulful background score. If the show had fallen weak on any one of the departments, only good acting could not take the show to this level of intensity. I am a proud audience and I am glad that I got to watch a show like Bepannaah. Because every time it made me think, look within and grow along with the characters. To face fears, own them, conquer them. To realize that every human being is flawed in some way. And that's what makes each one of us beautiful and unique. The show made me live their life along with them.I have always felt that a well-written script is the backbone of Bepannaah. No doubt about the fact that Harshad, Jennifer, Shehzad, Aanchal, Parineeta, Rajesh ji and the entire cast did fabulous job as actors. 👍🏼 JenShad have amazing chemistry. AaZad were a cute couple. If there hadn't been a good script then AdiYa would have looked empty minus the impactful dialogues. The scenes wouldn't have been same without, say, 'Meri nafrat meri mohabbat se zyada Bepannah hai, so khayal rakhna.' or 'Hum chaahe ya na chaahe, maane ya na maane lekin humari kismate ek doosre se judi huyi hai'. The episodes have immense repeat value. By now I must have watched each episode at least 3-4 times, yet each time I notice new things about the characters, parallels, symbols, details in the set. (Did you guys notice? After the second leap, Hooda house no longer had alcohol bottles in the bar. Because Aditya lost his father due to his drinking. Such detailing! That too in a rushed week. 👏) Each character has his/her own psychological journey that goes into his/her own back story, both major characters and minor characters. There was always a reason behind the action of any character, never mind right, wrong or silly.
'Vaise frame bahut acchi hai.' 'What a wonderful picture!'
I am very grateful to the cast for being so compassionate to the fans. Every time we had a painful episode, someone or the other would step up to cheer us up. First time I noticed this, when Harshad had posted a picture of Jennifer falling and wished her birthday. It was that scene from the jungle track where Zoya's feet was stuck in an animal trap and blood oozed out of it. If it hadn't for that picture, I don't know how much I would have cried watching Zoya's pain. Not only him, we had Rajesh ji, Shehzad, Iqbal ji, Taher and others share their beautiful off-screen moments from time to time. I found Rajesh ji's posts very interesting! And what a lucky fandom we are to get three live chats from them before the show went off-air. The warmth of their bond, their friendship and their smiling faces were enough to cheer us up, and look forward with hope for the future. Kisi aur janam, kisi aur jagah, kisi aur halaat.
'You know what, you guys look supercute together! OhmyGod..'
Hope for the future. Hmm..😳😆 This is the forum's favorite topic. JenShad. How can a post about Bepannaah be incomplete without this? 
So am I a shipper? I have never written anything about my stand before. Look, I think an actor's life is very tough. They have long working hours and less sleep. The job is very emotionally draining. So they need to take care of themselves physically, mentally and emotionally. Also, it is a very insecure job. A show can shut down any time. Many actors consider their set as home outside home, family outside family. When a show shuts down and they go to a new 'family'. They attach and detach very fast to adapt to these working conditions. I think you get my point. :P Basically, whether JenShad happens or not, it should be their personal and real call (i.e. not influenced by people's opinions).
So am I a shipper? I have never written anything about my stand before. Look, I think an actor's life is very tough. They have long working hours and less sleep. The job is very emotionally draining. So they need to take care of themselves physically, mentally and emotionally. Also, it is a very insecure job. A show can shut down any time. Many actors consider their set as home outside home, family outside family. When a show shuts down and they go to a new 'family'. They attach and detach very fast to adapt to these working conditions. I think you get my point. :P Basically, whether JenShad happens or not, it should be their personal and real call (i.e. not influenced by people's opinions).Having said that, I do think this a potential brew. 
'Hum atke nahi hai apke sath. Humne apka sath chuna hai.'
I am so glad I got to witness a beautiful show like Bepannaah. I can't describe in words how this show changed my life, in so many subtle ways. But I am taking away lots of beautiful memories in form of Aditya, Zoya, AdiYa, Arjun, Noor, ArNoor, Papa Hooda's swag, his equally human side. When he said nobody could replace his Cheeku. Aditya's sarcasm, Anjana's 'good thought', Waseem, Roshnaq, fandom's witty sense of humor, analysis posts. There is so much to write. I feel short of words. (Okay, don't laugh. I know it's lengthy. :P)
Dunno how many times the episodes would be replayed.
On a ending note: Thank you to Jennifer Winget, Harshad Chopda and the entire cast and crew of this show for making this show and making us believe in second chances. Hope to see you back on TV soon.
To the forum friends, I would miss you guys too. Please scroll for note to forum folks. And a parting gift.
- Tia
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