Chapter Twelve
Maan wished he could bottle up the pleasure he was feeling that not only was he kissing Geet, but she was kissing him back. Somewhere in the back of his mind, he knew it was possible that she was only reacting to an emotionally charged moment, but he was too busy enjoying that moment himself to care.
As Maan deepened the kiss, Geet moved her arms around his neck. But almost as soon as she gave herself into him, she pulled away abruptly.
"Geet . . . ." Maan was all but panting. What was wrong?
"I'm sorry," Geet said, breathless. Her eyes darted around the room before landing back on him. "I'm sorry. I can't -- I won't --"
"Geet, listen --"
"I can't," she said, her voice now breaking completely, tears rolling down her cheeks. She ran through the doorway and swiped at the wall for her suitcase.
"Geet, stop. Right this instant." Maan's voice took on a tone of such guttural authority that Geet froze in her tracks. He grabbed her by the elbow and spun her around. "You're not going back," he said lowly. "This is your home now. Do you understand me?"
"But --"
"Do you think I'd let you go back to where you've come? To where you aren't valued? To where you'll marry a man who might treat you badly?" He steered her back inside the room, kicking the door shut. "I won't hear of it, all right?"
Geet took a shaky breath. "I don't know what to say . . . . I don't understand . . . ."
"It's simple." Maan stepped closer to her and watched as Geet's eyes grew wider. "You'll marry me."
"What?" Geet's eyes widened to an almost cartoonish degree.
"Yes. You're right about my palace policy. I don't meddle in a council's affairs unless I have a reason to do so. I refuse to set such precedent where I violate that principle. And if we get married, well, that's a reason for you to stay. A big reason. Obviously." Maan realized that he was speaking nonsense. He was the king and could do whatever he wanted, precedent or not. But it was an attempt, a foolish one admittedly, to win her over with reason.
Geet looked more than doubtful, and Maan took a deep breath. "Listen. It's late. Get a good night's rest. and meet me tomorrow morning in the east garden. Where the cedar blue bird feeder is. We can discuss it then. I know it's a lot to take in at once."
Geet looked down at her feet, her grip on her suitcase tightening. After several moments that felt like an eternity, she looked up at Maan, and nodded.
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Unsurprisingly, Maan wasn't able to sleep a wink for the remainder of the night. In the morning, he put on his latest bespoke suit, one that he had not even worn yet and that was more appropriate for a gala, and headed to the east garden. He expected to be there before Geet, and was shocked to discover that she was there, sitting on a stone bench, her suitcase at her feet. Maan's stomach sank.
"Maan," Geet said, rising from her position. Several birds had already gathered at the bird feeder and were chirping sweetly.
"Geet." Maan refused to look at the suitcase. He took her hands in his and smiled. "Good morning, sweetheart."
Geet began to speak in a jumble and without warning. "Surely there's some other way to keep me here without us getting married? Maybe I can still work here? As a palace worker? To help with the playroom."
"That's an option," Maan said, nodding slowly. Then pulled up Geet's palm and kissed it gently, placing it against his heart. "But I genuinely want to marry you, Geet. I didn't suggest the marriage plan just to keep you safe, despite my talk about precedent yesterday. It's what I want from my heart."
Maan looked around at the garden, teeming with beautiful flowers, so carefully cultivated by the groundskeepers. It was a thing of beauty. Even though it paled in comparison to Geet.
Maan pulled her in his embrace, resting his chin on top of her head. "I love you," he whispered into her hair. "And I know from the way that you kissed me back last night that it's not out of the realm of possibility that you feel the same way."
Geet pulled back, and Maan was taken aback by the small smile that played on her lips. She reached for suitcase, which sent a momentary surge of panic in Maan's chest until he realized she was pulling an item out of it.
A journal. The one that Maan had seen her scribbling in.
"Open it," she urged softly. "Skim it. You'll see."
Maan flipped open the cover and caught snippets of entries that were dated. They began shortly after Geet had arrived:
*It was so nice to help with Miss Pinky's delivery, I felt useful again . . . .*
[. . .]
*Maan is making sure I eat, and, even though I have no appetite after missing Brother so much, it makes me feel like someone cares about my well-being. I never thought that would happen after losing Brother. . . .*
[. . .]
*I really am so pleased that Maan had given me a position in the playroom. I sometimes cannot believe how good he has been to me even though I am a trespasser in his palace. But despite my warming feelings for him, sometimes I miss Brother so much that I can hardly stand it. And it's Maan's fault, isn't it? That Brother is gone? Even though Maan had nothing to do with it personally. Still, my heart aches. . . .*
[. . .]
*I have been growing close to Rosie, a little girl in the playroom who misses her brother also. There was a moment today where Maan was also there and I felt like we were a little family. But what do I know of family? Mother and Father all but hate me, and Brother is gone. Sometimes I catch myself having growing feelings for Maan, but I stop myself right away. What is the use? . . . .*
Maan looked up, dumbfounded. Reading Geet's journal entries, it seemed almost as if . . . .
"I did," Geet said, keeping her eyes steadily at her feet. "I did begin to grow certain feelings for you. How could I not, after how well you treated me? You were the only one who had shown me kindness after so long. But I made sure to keep my emotions hidden."
"You did a good job," Maan said, his voice low. He smoothed his hands up and down Geet's arms. "I thought you hated me most of the time."
Geet shivered but didn't move away. "There was such a conflict brewing inside of me," she went on. "Not only because of what happened to my brother and your role, however tangential, to it. But also because I . . . ."
"Because what? What, Geet?"
Tears glistened in Geet eyes. "I worry about getting close to someone," she said, her voice splintering. "My brother was the closest person to me and I don't want to lose a loved one again. It hurts so badly."
Maan sighed and embraced her. "I understand, honey," he said, nuzzling her neck. "I do. I understand the worry and the anxiety and reluctance to let anyone in. But I will do everything in my power to keep you and me both safe, keep you happy. And I am truly sorry, with every breath in me, about what happened to your brother. If I could somehow undo that, I would. But I can't. We both have to move forward."
Maan tilted Geet's chin up and graced her lips with another kiss. "You still have to live your life, Geet. Will you live it with me?"
Geet looked up, tears dripping down her chin. After a moment, she graced him with a smile that nearly knocked Maan over from relief. "I will."
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