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He entered his house and found his way to a newly made room. He opened the white gates only to have a look at those tiny things in the little ones corner in their paradise. A tiny ball, a little car, a little bike, a pran and lots which he had planned for his coming happiness. He still laid his eyes on the wall which had beautiful paintings of the little creations he made. The pink walls in the room which was Gauri's choice after they resolved their two days long fight made him even more weak.
It was his fault... all his fault that they lost the tiny creation the almighty gifted them with. It was because of him and only him that they lost their little seed inside her. Though she doesn't blames him for anything but still the facts could not be changed. Only if he had the control on his speed that day, they won't have met this accident. He was a killer, a murderer. He killed his little one even before it came to life. He didn't even let it come to the world.
She was caressing her belly thinking of the beautiful memories they shared in these eight months. How every time she even whispered a short noise Omkara would rush to her like crazy and check her asking foe everything. The love she saw in his eyes was that she always adored. He was playing the best husband and the best father during this interval. He turned into everything she demanded for. He gave her everything she asked without any questions. But then the accident happened. The worst nightmare she could think of. Everything changed after that. No love, no care nothing was visible in his eyes except the regret. She never was ready to accept that it was his fault anywhere.
Gauri was in her room when Shivaay entered "ji bade bhaiya, aapko kuch chahiye tha. She asked wiping her tears which came out everyday after that accident. "Nahi... Voh.. he stammered. "Boliye bhaiya... hum sun rahe hain she said with a tight smile. "Kya tumhe bhi lagta hai ki voh accident Omkara ki wajah se hua? he asked avoiding her eyes. "Nahi, bhaiya bilkul nahi. Uss accident mein Omkaraji ki kaa galati thi. Voh sab toh uss truck driver.. her voice chocked. Shivaay was able to see the truth in her words. Even after so much this girl never blamed Omkara for anything. Even if her own brother, Dandi accused him for the accident, she still had a firm believe on his brother.
"Kya hua bhaiya? she asked in a concerned tone. "Mujhe dar hai Gauri ki kahi phir se mera bhi usi daldal mein naa chala jaaye he rested himself oh the couch. "Kaisa daldal? she asked. "Drugs Gauri... Agar usne waapis drugs lena shuru kar diya toh main kaise... Iss baar main kaise samhaal paunga apne bhai ko. How will I pull him out again? How will I stop him? his hands rested on his head.
"D...drugs? she was unable to speak. Her Omkaraji and drugs... How was that possible? How could such a calm man like him have such an addiction? He took drugs was the last thing Gauri would imagine. "Haan Gauri and he continued sharing his drug past to her. She was shocked would be an understatement. Because her heart sank listening to what Shivaay was speaking. Her ears heard everything but her mind was not ready to accept this fact about him. She stumbled in shock. "Gauri, samhaalo khudko Annika rushed to her. "I told you not to tell her anything Shivaay. She already has faced a lot she said.
"Gauri samhaal Annika held her as she guided her to bed. "I... I didn't know... I don't she was unable to process the words out of her mouth. "I understand Gauri, but you have to be strong. He needs you, only you this time Gauri Shivaay kept a hand on his shoulders.
Yes, she has to be strong. He needs her this time. Lots have already happened and she cannot let him and their relationship to have distance once again. She has to be with him. A week has passed since she has seen her real Omkaraji. She needs to bring him back.
She moved her steps to that room that she never visited after the accident. The room which had all her dreams, her imaginations, her child. Ever since that happened she did not wanted to even go close to it. She heard her child playing, cycling, riding his father as the whole family supported with claps. It was like her heart shattering into pieces whenever she looked at it.
Gaining the courage and breathing long she entered the ones made paradise only to find her husband turning back looking at her. "Gauri he whispered. She was walking to her when she saw him holding the needle with the cartilage. "Ee... ee Ka hai? she asked with her almost choking voice. "Jao yahan se he said firmly. "Aap hume bataiye ki ee kaa hai she said. "Maine kaha jaao he shouted this time.
"Omkaraji humari baat... she could not complete. "Just leave he shouted again. But she did the opposite, she immediately snatched the injection and the cartridge from her hand and went back. "What the hell are you doing? he asked still shouting. "Aap yeh kya kar rahe h? she asked firmly. "Apna dard kam kar raha hun... suna tumne... ab do mujhe he asked. "Aap ka dard kam hota hain naa isse toh theek hain she immediately started filling the injection. "Yeh Kya kar rahi ho? he asked shockingly.
She didn't stop; she started injecting the needle when he snatched it back and slapped her hard. "Pagal ho gayi ho kya? Dimaag kharab ho gaya hai? he said angrily. "Apna dard kam kar rahe hain. Agar aapka dard isse kam ho jata hain toh humara kyun nahi. Humne bhi apna bachcha khoya hai, dard toh hume bhi ho raha hai. Agar isse aapka man shant ho raha hain toh hume bhi shanti chahiye she shouted back.
"Nahi tum yeh... Bilkul nahi he said in a firm tone. No, she... she can't... no he can't let her... no.
"Kyun... aapka dard kam hota hai naa isse... toh humara bhi hone dijiye she said. "Nahi... nahi he shouted again. "Dard hua naa... bohot dard hua hoga naa... yehi dard Roz hota hai hume... Aapki inn aankhon ko dekhkar bohot dard hota hai she cried with tears wetting her eyes. "Aapko pata hai kitana dard hota hai jab hum Roz aapko kamre mein toh aate hue dekhte hain par humare paas nahi. Kitana dard hota hain jab aapki inn aankhon mein voh pyaar nahi dekhte she said still crying.
He was shocked with the confrontation. He was so lost in him that he forgot that she must also be suffering. How could he? How could he not see her breaking? He should have been with her but what he did was drowning in his pain so much that he didn't see her. He takes his fingers through his hair in frustration. Restlessness was all he experienced seeing her breaking down because of her.
"Gauri... I... I he stammered gulping the lump in his throat. "I thought we would share this together but you left me again this pricked his heart. "I... I am sorry... he gathered her in his arms. "I thought you still have not forgiven me he whispered. "It was not your fault, Omkaraji she said caressing her cheeks.
"But our baby... she placed her forefinger on his lips "shh it's not your fault. It was never your fault Omkaraji she said in an assuring tone. His eyes had years as he held her and cried as much as he could. I am sorry... I am very very sorry he said between her cries. "Promise me, aap aaj se yeh kabhi nahi karenge he shook his head in response. "I love you she said. "I love you too he answered tightening his grip across her.
"Dekha SSO is never wrong Shivaay said to Annika. "Man gayi aapko she smiled hugging her husband.
Iss Pyaar Ko Kya Naam Doon
Jodha Akbar
