EDT~ ep. 60~12.1.18, My stance: The heart desires you, but cannot have you..
This small muscle ,the size of one's fist.. The centre of our desires, feelings, memories.. The heart that makes us melt, it makes us love, hate, rebel. The heart enriches our life, sometimes it's tough ,other times ,it's weak. At times, it's made of steel ,unbreakable.. Other times its glass, that shatters into a million pieces. The heart strives to win in love. Fears losing in love. The heart that even clings to rejection! The heart that rejoices acceptance in love. The heart ,is the very life, soul, purpose of our existence.. The heart, the very throne of our makers virtue ..LOVE...
So carries on, the story of a broken heart. The sad saga of a lover. One who loved once. Lost.But still lives on as a spirit seeking his true love! Shiv's heart belonged to Sharanya .. Still does. Feelings.. The contents of the heart..
Sharanya gets a sinking feeling staring at Shiv's dead body. But then the dead body also stands before her on the snowy floor. Unafraid, but more so fascinated by this tall figure before her. Her stare upon Shiv's face slowly clears the fog off Sharanya's memory.
Divine feeling, he confessed, he loved her.. gave her stargazers ,saying it with flowers, the fragrance, that hug in his strong arms.. bliss..sharanya stares at this lofty ,forlorn ,dark, quietly adamant figure. He gives off all the familiar feel of what she felt in the past . She still feels for this figure that looms before her. The heart is patient. Shiv waits for her eyes to recognise him, more so her heart! Shiv watches as trance like, she plods in the snow to catch a closer look at him, whom her heart feels for.. then a tender question from him, does she not remember anything?.. his velvet baritone flows into her ears, sounds familiar...
Her stare at his face, further brings back floods of memories. That day he felt hot right under her balcony ,stripped to the waist, with wide open bare arms, expressing his love, flirting , coaxing her to succumb against his heart.. so both their hearts can beat as one..how she fell upon him, safe in the strong grip of his sinewy arms.. a brush of his lips against hers.. that giddy light head mad feeling of the hearts..
Memories return, his forte with composing verses. Her nearness , their love was his inspiration.. those precious sincere, verses. She recalls his recitation.. in that tender moment when their heart beats spoke of love to each other.. " my lips upon yours. Your name lends beat to my heart. I walk in a the trance of your love. You exist in my memory. You are my heart's calm, the obsession of my heart. You are my subtle affection, that can be felt every moment, when I enclose you in my arms..
how she overcame with the, never felt before feeling ,and sibilantly whispered , I love you.. and he responded, I love you too..
Sharanya remains transfixed before him. The memory flood gates just crash!! She recalls , he was a loner, one left at the steps of Kaali Maa's temple. How he thought of Maa Kaali as his mother.. She kept him alive. Her maternal love warmed him in sub-zero temperatures through the biting ,cold, merciless blizzards of the snowy wilderness which was no man's land. Warm tears trickled down his face. Apart from Maata , no living soul acknowledged him. Sharanya recalls how her heart melted for him.. She promised she was his till the end of time. His joy knew no bounds, he desired her for keeps! Forever! Yes she recalls he proposed ,and she said yes.. She loved him.. Forever! Life was complete for them.. At that moment in time.. Sharanya sees, all, recalls all. Shiv... She whispers in disbelief.. Shiv.. To whom she belonged in this birth and every other subsequent birth!
They both stare at each other.. my heart desires you, but I cannot have you my beloved.. many joyous memories of their past love, flash before Sharanya's eyes. Now that she knows Shiv..she begs him to embrace her against his heart.
He hesitates, his heart twists seeing her tears, she wants too feel him. One impulsive touch from her ,gives her the shock of the cold, dead reality.. he was nothing but space.
She feels the cold in her bones.. refuses to accept he is nothing but a spirit! her heart that leapt for joy now feels numb at the crudeness and foul play of fate.
My heart desires you.. but I cannot have you my dearest love.. Shiv cries out to her.. Sharanya eyes flow endlessly. Shiv's heart squeezes and if he could, he would cry tears of blood.. he tells her, he did not die in the accident.. he was murdered, clubbed to death by unknown assailants..
Shiv consoles her.. no good reviving my dead body Sharanya, my heart's desire.. the truth is, Shiv has not left you.. you'll hear me, see me, but you cannot touch me.. your Shiv is a feeling , your sensation of true love.. listen to your heart, you'll find me there and around you.. I am your special feeling ,that only you can feel ..Sharanya.. the one my heart desires,but cannot have..
Well, dear friends, this is my stance, how I felt after watching this very moving and much awaited episode.. for the true essence of the memorable episode do watch the episode, to give it the true credit it deserves. Hats off! To Namik and Donal the pulse of the episode.. Hamlet53 13.1.17.
Love the song Madno.. excellent choice by cvs..Have a peaceful and safe weekend ,love hammie .
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