Arey waah a rare Shivika discussion thread in this forum after ages. Nice topic, Indira :).
Reserved for now. I shall try to add my thoughts in more detail soon.
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Ahh the wonderful questions about the evolution of Billu's NKK...probably my fav. Billu related topic to discuss😆...I genuinely feel this fueled a lot of the good early discussion in the forum before the writing got messier.
Coming to the topic at hand...I don't think the issue during the NT track was about whether he will push aside NKK for her once and for all...him investigating her background, needing to KNOW what her past is very much still PART of his NKK issues...for NKK wasn't simply about accepting/not accepting her lack of lineage in one fell swoop...it was an organic/evolving/multi-faceted issue.
For most of the time that Shivaay knew and gradually fell in love with Anika, he was constantly battling his helpless love for her alongside his inability to reconcile it with his belief system regarding NKK.
The best example of this is the "controversial" scene when he talked about his struggle with not being able to see the mother of his children in her...where he admitted that they share something special but this one issue still holds him back.
Later on, the biwi declaration became a major milestone where he was able to publicly and PROUDLY accept her as his wife without letting his usual NKK hangups come in the way...but still, it didn't exactly eradicate NKK...cuz IMO NKK would always remain a fundamental part of his personality, just mellowed out over time especially in context of Anika...
In the jungle track, Shivaay explained just WHY he needed to dig up her background...cuz he just needs to KNOW...he cannot change this about himself...what would he do AFTER knowing, THAT he didn't know...all he knew was that he needed to KNOW a person's background, lineage to be associating with them...the very reason he felt the need to do this at that time was due to just how close he'd grown to her...The SSO cared SO deeply about a person who's background he knew nothing about...it was a hard reality to reconcile with...so he had to try to atleast find things...
Along the way though we got some BEAUTIFULLY textured scenes showing both Shivaay and even Anika later on struggling with knowledge about each other's pasts that they felt might be a blow to each other...we even got a brief moment where ANIKA got to be judgemental about the lineage/mannerisms of a person below her social strata...i.e. NT...I thought these were very interesting and human touches to add along the way in this journey.
And later on, when Shivaay found out about Anika's struggles as an orphan, the way she literally spent nights on the streets, without food...his heavy guilt in that moment...the way he spoke to Rudy that day showing his deep regrets...somewhere along the way, without being overt about it, Shivaay developed an immense RESPECT for Anika's strength of character, her fighting spirit...and every time he learnt new details of her struggles, he only felt more humbled...bit by bit, it MELLOWED his NKK...Again, it's all due to and FOR Anika...she is the grand exception to his NKK rules...
Cuz let's remember the Pinky OMM scenes...again Shivaay reiterated the point about the impact his mother's upbringing had on him...making him so rigid and judgemental about NKK...but at the same time he always had his Daadi's values inside himself...again, a reference to the two warring sides of Shivaay's basic nature that he struggled with for a long time...and it made for some very interesting viewing.
Off late ofcourse, his relationship with Anika took on whole new facets, mellowed out his personality in a whole new way...NKK right now is just the glint of tadi that comes out from him...lol...the rest of his hyper judgemental ways have taken a backseat in many ways...perhaps NKK is gone for good now...lol but personally I always wanted to see his NKK-ness balanced out with his love for Anika...his flaws balanced out with the immense love/compassion he's capable of when he loves with all his heart.
I guess this became a bit of a rambling essay...haha but it was fun to reminisce old scenes :)
Edited by AreYaar - 7 years ago