Suraj and his SHARAAB

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Eatifi

@Eatifi

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Posted: 7 years ago

DISCLAIMER-READ AT YOUR OWN RISK,STOP RIGHT NOW,IF YOU ARE EXPECTING SOMETHING INTELLECTUAL,COZ THIS POST IS ONLY MY SHARING OF FEELINGS...😳

So,after watching the wednesday episode,I was very proud of my Suraj that he did'nt drink the alcohol...but the last thursday episode,fumed me...coz he again drunk it😡

after watching the last part of the episode,I just got up from my place,highly tempered,and threw the remote on the sofa in rage...just fiercely headed on to my room,opened my bag,and grabbed a big bar off chocolate and started nibbling it.😵.it was a three kind of emotions on my mind at that time-

FRUSTRATION-of getting disappointed at being proud of him.

ANGER-felt like banging his head😡

HURT-as to why I invest so much on him.😭

Then while nibbling this chocolate,I striked on a thought,as to WHY THE HELL I AM EATING THIS CHOCOLATE AT THIS MOMENT...???

I got my answer soon after,and everything just melted on..and I was again BACK TO HIM❤️

Rabbi and her chocolate story-😃

I am a very,ajeeb kind of person[in all these days,everyone here must have understood this],

I cant really describe my person...and I am very,very much obsessed with CHOCOLATES,the relation that I share with it,cant be expressed in words...just to tell,I have always,always a stock of chocolates handy with me,whether I am in or out of my house,in whatever part of the world I am in...

If I get happy,then I have one piece...BUT IF I AM SAD,THEN I HAVE ONE WHOLE BAR.

I dont know what it is,but eating it,as soon as it enters my mouth,it gives me a strange feeling,especially when I am sad or depressed at something..

there have been days in my life,which were so hurtful,that i did'nt had either breakfast,luch or dinner,but only survived on chocolates.

there have been days,when tears were continuously flowing from my eyes,and I am wiping them with my left hand and gorging on chocolates with right one.

there have been days when I have conversed withe the bar of chocolate in my hand...

IN SHORT,CHOCOLATE IS NOT AN EATABLE...ITS HAS ALWAYS BEEN AN EMOTION FOR RABBI.😳

what chocolate is for me,I think that is what,alcohol or SHARAAB is for Suraj...

for him,its not an addiction,but an emotion.

I still remember,how he was talking with the bottle before throwing it away while heading to dubai.

He also always had with himself,a bottle handy...

He also never speaks of his problem to anyone,anyone,not even Chakor...coz Suraj is a very big emotional introvert.

He is like an innocent small kid,always whining from attention,love and care from his beloved...😛

I started on gorging on the chocolate.because I felt betrayed by Suraj,for he disappointed me.

How he must have been feeling,as he was supposedly betrayed by Chakor.,so he was bound to drink na...he thinks that at least that would make her return,at least it would give him strength to brave the life without her.🥺

And amidst everything,he is still making me feel fro him even more,coz he is still not believing after one whole month,that Chakor did left him...💔

always asking from an affirmation.

He is just unable to accept the fact that the person without whom,he cant live,is living without him since so many days...

HE IS WANTING TO BELIEVE IT,BUT IS STILL NOT BELIEVING IT.💔

sharing a poem here,that I got while fidgeting on my phone's gallery,thought it will be suitable here-😳

I've lost hope in you...

I've lost hope in me.

Not only that,but things I see and what I read,

I've lost hope in the sky and stars.

The whole world entirely

The dreams that once were all I could see

I no longer feel that i am free

I've lost hope in all that made me...ME

I dont feel that I can manage to hope or to dream.

I just dont believe in YOU

Because I've lost hope in ME

Its like the future is fading,just out of reach

Or maybe THERE JUST WAS'NT ONE WAITING FOR ME

Maybe just like the stras,the future faded long ago

And its only now that I can see THE ROAD I'M ON NOW WILL LEAD ME ENTIRELY NOWHERE...

Thanks for braving to read the entire post guys...👍🏼

now tell me honestly,and 'sachhi-sachhi' or being truthful.

How many of you felt that I am CRAZY???😈

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sumsukor

@sumsukor

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Posted: 7 years ago

Very well thought through analysis as always rabia

Hats off

Yes I was upset but I did mention that I could empathise yesterday

As he drank not too loose himself in, but to brave himself out

I empathise to drink as he was not blaming her but wanted to know what was his mistake.. He wanted to make himself right for her...

I empathise him as i teared in his modulation when he said chakor does not like me drinking and looking at vivaan he said you also don't like me drinking, he wanted some assurance from his brother... He wants to know in what danger she is in...

He is still not believing that brutus but what can he do.

He is completely numb

He is not reaching the bottle for addiction but the dejection and the rejection he is going through

The whole world is topsy-turvy...

I rest here

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Divya

@ndivyateja

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Posted: 7 years ago

Rabia,

You can even write pages about Suraj's strand of hair 😆 Yes you are crazy 😉 And that's what makes you think different and look different..

Even I love chocolates, but they are an expression to me..The only gift I can think of to give anyone will definitely be chocolates..I even carved a mini zoozoo out a slab of chocolate and gifted my niece..I just feel when you express with chocolate, itz obviously sweet..😳

Coming to Suraj's drinking habits..I don't want to explain it at all..Just want to share a similar scenario..

Therez a movie recently released in A.P..Its a huge wave here..ML is a doc, but he smoke and drink..He even does operations drunk..He gets addicted due to a breakup..The reason he gives when someone questions about his intoxication..he says "Im a doc and I know more than anyone else how injurious it is to health..There are only two things I love 1. my profession and 2. my gf..She left me now..If I don't resort to drinking I can't move on and it affects my profession..So I decided to take the pain myself and suffer as I don't want others to suffer"

P.S Not at all supporting Suraj's drinking problem..Just reminded me of the movie, so wrote it down..

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Kavya

@Kavi.Kapoor

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Posted: 7 years ago

Alcohol is the only stability in Suraj's life ... it's the 1 thing that wouldn't let him down ... it wouldn't abandon him ... it wouldn't break his heart!!

For Suraj, alcohol is his source of COMFORT! With all the turmoil in his life, it provides him with the solace that he desperately yearns for! It consoles him when his emotions become unbearable!

Alcohol is for him; what chocolates are for most of us😉!

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BeeSandy

@BeeSandy

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Posted: 7 years ago

Originally posted by: sumsukor
Very well thought through analysis as always rabia
Hats off

Yes I was upset but I did mention that I could empathise yesterday

As he drank not too loose himself in, but to brave himself out

I empathise to drink as he was not blaming her but wanted to know what was his mistake.. He wanted to make himself right for her...

I empathise him as i teared in his modulation when he said chakor does not like me drinking and looking at vivaan he said you also don't like me drinking, he wanted some assurance from his brother... He wants to know in what danger she is in...

He is still not believing that brutus but what can he do.

He is completely numb

He is not reaching the bottle for addiction but the dejection and the rejection he is going through

The whole world is topsy-turvy...

I rest here

@ Bold - Reminds me of the phone booth scene in the bachuva track when Chakor asked him what her mistake was for which he had punished her.

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sumsukor

@sumsukor

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Posted: 7 years ago

Bang on sandy your are right.

Role reversal now...

Unfortunately here it was neither of their mistake

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Eatifi

@Eatifi

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Posted: 7 years ago

Originally posted by: sumsukor
Very well thought through analysis as always rabia
Hats off

Yes I was upset but I did mention that I could empathise yesterday

As he drank not too loose himself in, but to brave himself out

I empathise to drink as he was not blaming her but wanted to know what was his mistake.. He wanted to make himself right for her...

I empathise him as i teared in his modulation when he said chakor does not like me drinking and looking at vivaan he said you also don't like me drinking, he wanted some assurance from his brother... He wants to know in what danger she is in...

He is still not believing that brutus but what can he do.

He is completely numb

He is not reaching the bottle for addiction but the dejection and the rejection he is going through

The whole world is topsy-turvy...

I rest here

@bold

I like this line Sumi...

He is unable to accept the realty,that is why taking support of the illusionary world of intoxication

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Eatifi

@Eatifi

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Posted: 7 years ago

Originally posted by: ndivyateja
Rabia,
You can even write pages about Suraj's strand of hair 😆 Yes you are crazy 😉 And that's what makes you think different and look different..

Even I love chocolates, but they are an expression to me..The only gift I can think of to give anyone will definitely be chocolates..I even carved a mini zoozoo out a slab of chocolate and gifted my niece..I just feel when you express with chocolate, itz obviously sweet..😳

Coming to Suraj's drinking habits..I don't want to explain it at all..Just want to share a similar scenario..

Therez a movie recently released in A.P..Its a huge wave here..ML is a doc, but he smoke and drink..He even does operations drunk..He gets addicted due to a breakup..The reason he gives when someone questions about his intoxication..he says "Im a doc and I know more than anyone else how injurious it is to health..There are only two things I love 1. my profession and 2. my gf..She left me now..If I don't resort to drinking I can't move on and it affects my profession..So I decided to take the pain myself and suffer as I don't want others to suffer"

P.S Not at all supporting Suraj's drinking problem..Just reminded me of the movie, so wrote it down..

Hmmm...yup.I can write pages for him,as Suraj is the male version of Rabbi.😳

You gave chocolates to your niece,I snatch them from my nephew,when he is eating.😆

That movie story was an interesting one

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Eatifi

@Eatifi

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Posted: 7 years ago

Originally posted by: -K.Kapoor-
Alcohol is the only stability in Suraj's life ... it's the 1 thing that wouldn't let him down ... it wouldn't abandon him ... it wouldn't break his heart!!

For Suraj, alcohol is his source of COMFORT! With all the turmoil in his life, it provides him with the solace that he desperately yearns for! It consoles him when his emotions become unbearable!

Alcohol is for him; what chocolates are for most of us😉!

Navina,you also have chocolates when stressed or sad???😕

Edited by Eatifi - 7 years ago

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Eatifi

@Eatifi

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Posted: 7 years ago

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Originally posted by: BeeSandy

@ Bold - Reminds me of the phone booth scene in the bachuva track when Chakor asked him what her mistake was for which he had punished her.

Whether it was last track or this one...both Suraj and Chakor were never ever at fault anywhere,any point...they both were always the victims.

Its just fate harshness towards them,as it time and again tests the intensity of their love.