You Will Not Understand
"Aaj ye Gauri Kumari Sharma apne sawalo ke jawab liye bina kahi nahi jayegi aur agar gayi to kabhi wapas nahi aayegi."
Her words were stuck in his ears, repeat telecasting themselves. Something had twisted in his heart, sharply with her mention of not returning in his life once she steps out.
He had crushed that lady's hopes and soft emotions towards him who had moved everything she could to shield him from the every mess that had dared to get into his way, who had every time went out of the way, neglecting each word of insult he threw on her face.
No matter what she did and how much she did, for him... he couldn't look ahead of her image set in his heart, by the Kali Thakur and she, put down her attempts of changing the same but what he gave her as an answer to the questions she asked, broke every single thread of her soul, she was holding... broke every tiny piece of her heart.
She had never wished for much. She hadn't demanded a bit. She had never voiced out her expectations towards him as a husband. She had never but at least, she was hoping that he respects her but no. It felt like her world came crashing down with his words.
Jawab chahti ho na tum? Jawab ke mai tumhare bare me kya sochta hu, kya mehsoon karta hu, kya wajood hai tumhara meri life me, to kaan khol ke sun lo Gauri...
Meri zindagi me aur mere dil me tumhare liye koi jagah nahi hai...
Kaun ho tum? Kaun ho? Ye Gauri... ye bholi bhali si? Nahi.Tumhara asli chehra mai jaanta hu. Tum wo Gauri ho, jiske wajah se Kali thakur ki biwi ne apni jaan di thi. Tum wo Gauri ho, jo paiso ke liye Kali thakur se shadi karne wali thi aur usi shadi se bhag bhi gayi.
Tum pata hai kya ho... yahi ho jo mai keh raha hu, ek giri hui, ghinauni aur ek ghatiya aurat.
Manta hu ke tumne mere liye bohot kuch kiya, to? To mai tumhari fitrat bhul jau?
Tumhe kya laga, ke maine kuch din tumse ache se baat kya karli, rai badal di tumhare bare me?Bilkul NAHI.
Tumne sahi kaha tha, jhooth mujhe bilkul pasand nahi aur Tum... jhoothi ho... jhoothi ho and that's why I don't like you.
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"Gauri please, listen to me. I know maine gusse me bohot kuch..."
"Gusse me? Nahi Omkara Ji, aapne bas wo kaha jo aapke dil me tha. Pagal hai log jo kehte hai gusse me ham bakwas karte hai. Nahi, ham wahi bolte hai, jo kahi na kahi hamare dil me hota hai." She had calmly cut him off, her gaze travelling all around, resting at nothing in particular.
"Mai jo tumhare bare me sochta hu, uska karan bhi tum hi ho." He helplessly shook his head, faintly whispering. Of course, she had done those things that had made him find her the way he does... a disgusting woman, who would be the very same, even if she does millions of good things to him.
"Aap hamse chahte kya hai?" She let out in a frustrated tone, tired of the same things over and over.
"Agar tum sahi thi to tum koshish kar sakti thi."
"Kis cheez ki? Aapki soch badalne ki? Aur wo ham kyu kare? Agar, aap hamare bare me itni ghatiya soch rakh sakte hai, to hame nahi lagta, ham aapko kuch bhi samjhana chahenge. Bas Omkara Ji. Bohot hua. Hame kisi ko samajhne ke liye arse nahi lagte... ek din, ek pal bhi kafi hota hai. Agar itne mahine hamare sath rehne ke bawajood aapko hamare bare me wo sab lagta hai jo aapne hamse kaha... to aapko aapki soch, aur zindagi dono Mubarak ho. Aapne kaha tha aapki zindagi me hamari koi jagah nahi hai, haina? Bas to phir. Hamare raaste tabhi alag ho gaye the... hamesha ke liye." She turned, facing her back to him holding a firm stance. Neither her voice came out shaken nor did she stumble on a single word. Damn, the woman was stronger than anyone could expect. And with that, she walked out of his exhibition, without turning back.
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"Agar jaana hi tha, to wapas aayihi kyu thi tum?"
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"Aap nahi samjhenge Omkara Ji."
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An extremely random piece. I am not sure if this will make any sense to you. The dialogues of Om are picked up right from the episode. My hindi is not at all polished. Its 'okay', so kindly ignore errors. I have not been watching the serial regularly, so pardon me for my lack of knowledge if I have messed up things.
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