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"HAR BAAR MUJHE ZAKHME JUDAAI NA DIYA KAR,
AGAR TU MERA NAHI TOH MUJHE DIKHAAYI NA DIYA KAR
SACH,JHOOTH TERI AANKH SE HO JAATA HAI ZAAHIR,
KASMEIN NA UTHA...ITNI SAFAAI NA DIYA KAR..!!!"
and once again the love story of my "Baaghi Ishaqzaade" was threatened,once again fate turned the tables around them that they had to separate,,,,she has to unintentinally break his heart,he had to unknowingly endure her wrath...for the moment it was storm for both of the innocent hearts,time stood still for them,both were breaking inside,the next moment was not known,their dreams were slowly being destroyed in the very front of their eyes,and one more thing was being done...THEIR LOVE,THE INTENSITY FOR EACH OTHER WAS SLOWLY INCREASING ON WITH EACH PASSING SECONDS...
Chakor was dressed up for him,leaving all her tensions aside,seeing the bangles in her hands that made her remember him,for her life was to have a fresh start,she was finally going to start on her journey of utter bliss,that every girl always dreams of...them moment he slipped the ring in her finger,and she did the same,her happiness knew no bounds,the smile on her pretty face,said it all...not knowing that she has to give it all
She was the put forth by a condition in front of her,through her biggest enemy ever,that she has to chose one among the two...she had to chose between the lives of seven innocent children and HIM,who his the love of her life.
the selfless angel was completely shattered,how could she let him go,how could she not chose him,after all he was her love,her life,her everything,after so many hurdles,trials and tribulations she had finally got him,and this time she had promised him,that she will not ever leave him and go,how could she break her promise...but on the same time,how could she allow the innocent kids lives to be destroyed like this...
And the poor fairy was walking helplessly on the roads,caught in a dilemma,holding his photograph in her hand as her most prized possession,somewhere wishing that somehow at this very moment,instead of his photograph,he was present there and she could hold him the same way...for at that moment she imagined him,infront of her,and she spread her hands to hold him,asking her what to do at this moment,I feltb that she ws asking her one of two things,"Either she was seeking his permission to have her leave him",or "She was asking her to take him far awy from all these matters"...
And is that very helpless state,she went to her house,wore the chunri given by him,remembering her love,and saying what her heart was screaming inside,"I LOVE SURAJ,I CANT LIVE WITHOUT HIM,I CANT LEAVE HIM"...
but she has to turn a deaf ear to her heart,and she took the most helpless desicion of her life,to leave him.
And she went to him,with trembling lips,fumbling words...just by his one touch,when he held her hands,just by his one glimpse upon her,she completely melted,almost forgetting what she had decide to say,she was dying to hug him at that moment,as only his hug,his embrace gives her strength in the worst of situations,but she could not,she was not even having an eye contact with him,coz she knew that she would terribly fail in making him believe her words...she knew that he knows her inside out,he could very easily make out the disconnect between her words and her eyes,and immediately left from the place,when he pulled her forcefully towards him,she pushed him harder,coz she knew,she knew that one moment more and she would surrender herself to him,she could not take it anymore,and in a terrible helpless way put off the ring from her fingers and retuned it to him...
When he took her way with him,when he poured his heart to her,at that moment also,she was lost in his eyes,in his words almost instantly,she once again wanted to hug him...just hide her being in his form,for that meant the most solace to her...but the poor girl had to break his heart...and she walked away leaving him...
"AATE,AATE USEY EK BAAR PALAT KAR BHI NA DEKHA MAINE...,
MAIN JUDAAI KI HAR EK RASAM NIBHAA KAR AAYI..!!!"
And he was left behind,left behind by his love,for a body left its soul...
From the morning itself,he just could not hold his feet attached to the earth,for the biggest and only dream of his life was going to be fulfilled,he was going to get his lady...
He himself went to her house along with his mother,to make her his,he himself made her wear the chunri,with several dreams adorned in his eyes,he himself made her wear the kangan,stating it that it was the symbol of his love,that whenever she would be involved in matters of others,the kangan would make her remember that,there is someone who is living the life only for her...for he had always feared this,it was his biggest insecurity that she would leave him,and this thing destroys him like anything,give him anything to suffer,he will endure it,but she going away from him was beyond his level of endurance...
When he was making her wear the ring,he had eyes only for her,he did'nt blinked for once,he was seeing her,as if he was capturing her beautiful image in his eyes,once and for all...
When she suddenly got disappeared,he was continuously looking at the main entrance, with the evident longingness in his eyes,for he had this belief that she will come,she will definitely come...at first he was only angry at her,but then he himself said that,there would have been definitely some important work that she had to leave like this...
If she was wandering helplessly,then he was also not far behind,he was also constantly searching for her,just behind her...
when he went to her house and he came to know that she had come there,he was angry and hurt simultaneously,as she was running from him.
When he finally met her,he fumed his anger on her at first,for he was really very hurt at this attitude of her,he wanted everything to proceed smoothly,but all was contrary,he talked with her in a high tone,which he normally does'nt,but his tone went down almost immediately,as he noticed her eyes that said,she must have been probably crying,ONLY A CUTE EXPRESSION OF INNOCENCE ON CHAKOR'S FACE IS ENOUGH TO MELT 'THE SURAJ RAJVANSHI' ANGER...
then being the usual himself,he said sorry and asked her to do the puja[he had started to suddenly believe all thse rituals,for he wanted no stone to be left unturned that meant something unauspicious]...when she threw the water pot and behaved strangely,still he cared for her,that she must have not doing well...
When she finally said,what she had come to say,every word of hers,fell upon him as thunder bolt of lightning...he did'nt believed her words,still consoling himself that she must have been probably joking...and when she stressed on the fact that every word of her was utterly true,he held her tightly by her arms...when she said that its hurting,he made her touch his heart and he gave a painful shreik..."HAMA YAHAAN DARD HO RAHAA"...for it would have been terribly hurting there,Suraj Rajvanshi truly had enough...
She was walking away from his,and he pushed her forcefully near him,when still she did'nt changed her words,the poor man went to his mother for complaining,how innocent are his acts in regard to her..
And then he came to his SR mode,how could she think that she would ask him to go away and he would oblige..
He went to her house saying the most aggresssive and passionate dialogue ever,that he felt like choking her to death,when she returned the ring to him,coz it was ceratinly not allowed to her,he said that her place was neither in this house,nor in the haveli,HER REAL PLACE IN HIS ARMS...FOR ONLY IN HIS EMBRACE DOES SHE FEELS UNCAGED.
He took her forcefully with him,against her wish,for her consent was truly not required,when it comes to her being with him.He never gave him the permission to decide,whether she wants to live with him or not.
And then in the middle of the road,holding on to her,he revealed it all,in the most economic words...
The man was ready to leave everything behind him,for her.He really needed nothing in his life except for her.For THE OVERALL MEANING OF LIFE FOR SURAJ IS ONLY CHAKOR...the planets revolve around the sun,but for this sun,the world revolves around a bird.
He said the most sweetest and heartfelt dialogues,he could say at the moment,to make her believe his love.
He said that their universe of love is very big,he will create an another world of dreams along with her,he would himself do everything...with just one request at the end,to change her desicion,and he said I LOVE YOU CHAKOR,WITH A PASSION THAT REACHES THE SOUL...
for he still held on to her,coz he could not believe her words so easily...he knew that something is wrong with her
But nothing proved to be fruitfull for him...
coz she left him,she left his completely broken,and he was shouting in the most longing manner,I had never seen him...
His pain,his frutration of all these days was out at that moment...
When he was proposing her,he had said that very clearly,that he knew that he was not perfect for her,she could have easily got many a perfect guy for him,much better than him,but if she leaves him,he can never get another Chakor...
It had been his biggest fear ever...and he always insisted on it,always asked her to not leave him...
When she had come to save him during Diwali,he said her to leave him and go,,SHE DID'NT
when he was thretened of his lfe against KN,he said her to leave him and go,,SHE DID'NT
when she was humiliated dues to him,he said her to leave him and go,,SHE DID'NT..
and there are many more instances that he asked her to leave and go,but she never did that..
but that day in the fair,when he asked the promise of her not leaving his ever,she ignored the topic..
she indeed left him,and divirced him...but came back..
AND ONCE AGAIN SHE DID THAT,ONCE AGAIN SHE LEFT HIM,WHEN HE WAS HELPLESSLY CRYING FOR HER,FOR HER TOGETHERNESS,WHENHE WAS WANTING HER...
and he could only shout,
"HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO ME??"...
followed by destroying everything in his room,for nothing held any meaning without her,and he had one option with him,either to shoot himself or her,as if she had to live,she had to live with him..
coz the problem is,HE CANT LIVE WITHOUT HER AND SHE IS NOT READY TO LIVE WITH HIM..
"USKO MAALOOM HAI KI,US KE BINA HUM TOOT JAATE HAIN,
PHIR KYUN WOH AAZMAATA HAI HUM KO BICHHAD-BICHHAD KAR..!!!"
I CANT FORGET YOU
NAINA LAGIYAAN BAARISHAAN
TE SUKKE SUKKE SAPNE BHI VIJ GAYE
I CANT FORGET YOU
NAINA LAGEYAAN BAARISHAAN
RUT BIRHA DE BADLAAN DI CHAA GAYE
I CANT FORGET YOU
YOU GOT ME LYING HERE WIDE AWAKE,
REMEMBERING THE MOMENT YOU WALKED OUT ON ME
I KEEP ON WONDERING,AM i TO BLAME?
IF I DID SOMETHING DIFFERENT
WILL YOU STILL BE WITH ME
I DON'T WANT A REAM WITHOUT YIU HERE
I CAN'T FACE THE WORLD WITHOUT YOU
AND I DON'T WANT TO DO THIS ON MY OWN
I AM ONLY HALF A MAN WITHOUT YOU
HAR PAL HAR LAMHAA
MAIN KAISE SEHTI HOON
HAR PAL HAR LAMHAA
MAIN KHUDSE YEH KEHTI REHTI HOON
TUJHE BHULA DIYA...
PHIR KYUN TERI YAADON NE...AISE RULAA DIYA
LATELY EVERY DAY FEELS LIKE A PRISON BREAK
BABY INSIDE MY HEAD THE WALLS ARE CLOSING IN
KAALI KAALI,KHAALI RAATON SE,HONE LAGI HAI DOSTI,
KHOYA KHOYA IN RAAHON MEIN AB MERA KUCHH BHI NAHI
TU MERI ZINDAGI,YOU ROCK MY WORLD,
TU MERI AASHIQUI,JUST LET IT BURN
AND IS JUST CANT BELIEVE THAT I LOST YOU GIRL
TUJHE BHILA DIYA
I CANT FORGET YOU SO EASILY...
TUJHE BHULA DIYA
I CANT FORGET YOU,YOU ARE A PART OF ME
TUJHE BHULA DIYA
I CANT FORGET YOU,I STILL BELIEVE,TERE IS CHANCE FOR YOU AND ME...
Its love,its love of Sukor after all...
just gonna stand there,and watch me burn,well thats allright coz I lOVE THE WAY IT HURTS...just gonna stand there and hear me cry,well thats alright coz I LOVE THE WAY YOU LIE...
_Rabia
Veer Hanuman
Anupamaa
Kyunki Saas Bhi Kabhi Bahu Thi 2
