Ishita got shocked hearing Raman's words and all she could say was, what.
Raman -yes, I love u. Bahut pyaar karne lagaa hoon tumse. Tumhari aankhon mein dard nahi dekh sakta, I just to sooth ur pain and if not sooth, I can at least share ur pain. Mujhe tumse kuch nahi chahiye ishita, bas apna thoda sa dard de do, aur thodi si muskurahat le lo. He said looking into her eyes making her look at him without blinking her eyes.
She wasn't getting how to react, no-one has ever talked to her in this manner. She has only see the worst of a man but what she was seeing was the softest and purest form of a man. She can't be even angry on him anymore. She want to say something but words were not coming out of her words. She was just looking at him without blinking her eyes and soon her eyes get filled.
Raman went to her and hold her tear before it roll down her cheek and said-tumhare issi aansu ki khushi mein badalna chahta hoon main. Aur kuch nahi chahiye mujhe.
Ishita looked away and said-i don't want anyone in my life, Mr bhalla. I had to go. She said and turned to go when Raman hold her hand and said-kam se kam meri baat ka jawaab toh deti jao. Ishita turned hearing him and shrugged her hand.
Ishita-u can't force me Mr bhalla, u can't force me like this. I have to go.
Raman didn't let her go and said-please ishita, tell me what is bothering u. I know I shouldn't force u like this. I shouldnot bother u like this but kya karun. I am not able to think anything other then u. what u think mujhe bahut maza aaya tumhare picche detective lagaa kar. No I wasn't happy at all. But I had to do it as I wanted to know about u, mujhe jaanna tha tumhare baare mein, I was getting mad thinking about u and couldn't think straight. Kitni koshish ki Maine tumhare baare mein jaanne ki, I searched everywhere about u,on net, from ur juniors, from ur colleagues but sadly know one knows about u. Jaise tumne apne aap ko kaid kar rakha ho, chupa kar rakha ho sabse. I just want to find u ,aur kuch nahi chaha. He said looking at her.
Ishita-aapne sab jagah dhoondha par wahan nahi jahan main milungi aapko.
Raman -kahan.
Ishita-in the morgue, go and find me in the morgue, Raman. U will get information about me. Kyunki ishita iyer zinda hi nahi hai, she died long back. Yeh toh sirf Ek chalti firti laash hai jisse jalaya yaa dafnaya nahi gaya hai. I am dead Raman,just a walking dead person, so stop thinking a life with me. Kyunki main sirf maut de sakti hoon zindagi nahi. She said making Raman shocked.
He was looking at her,when she said-sach Mr bhalla, I am.already dead. Ek laash mein apni zindagi mat khojiye. Sirf disappointment hi haath lagegi. Saying so she was going when Raman hold her hand and pulled her to himself. She landed on his chest and he wrapped his arms around her waist.
Ishita struggled to release herself saying-leave me Mr bhalla, what r u doing.
Raman -tumhari bakwaas ka jawaab de raha hoon.
Ishita was about to say something when he turned her in a swift movement and hugged her from back making her back collide with his front.
Raman kept his finger on her mouth and said-chup bahut bakwaas karti ho tum. Aur bahut saare misconception paal rakhe hai apne dimaag mein tumne. First of all, u r not dead Ishita, u r very much alive. Saansein chal rahi hai tumhari,i can hear ur heartbeat, tu yeh samjhana bandh kar do that u r dead. Bas zindagi jeena chod diya hai, but very soon I will teach u how to live ur life fully. I love u alot to let u live in pain. Bahut jald tumhari zindagi mein main hounga aur sirf khushiyan hi khushiyan hongi. I don't know what is the reason behind this behaviour of urs, but trust me, I will find out the reason and will finish it. Coz I love u, but tumhari khushi se badh kar kuch nahi mere liye. He said and planted a feathery kiss on her hair sending shivers down her nerve and then he left her.
Raman stand a little away from her, but she was still standing in the same position like she is still lost in his words. It took her sometime to realise that he is not holding her. She raised her head only to see him looking at her.
She composed herself and was walking out of his cabin when Raman said-chahe tum jitni bhi naraaz raho, I will always love u.
Ishita didn't reacted to his words and went out of his cabin.
Raman sat on his chair smiling remembering how she was lost in his touch. On the other hand, ishita sat inside her car and was trying hard to compose herself but his words, his soothing touch, his feathery kiss was not letting her compose herself.
She closed her eyes and said-uff kya ho raha hai mujhe. Why I am so much effected my his words. He touched me and in place of slapping him. I got lost in him. In place of pushing him, I was feeling an urge to hug him tight. Get lost in his soothing touches. Yeh kya ho raha hai mere saath Murugan. Who is he to me, joh iss tarah mera chain, mera sukoon le raha hai. But mere paas woh tha hi Kahan. Kaun hai yeh mera, joh mujhe takleef mein nahi dekh paa raha.why he is so concerned for me and why I am letting him effect me. Kaun ho Aap raman, kaun ho Aap mere. She was thinking when her phone rang breaking her thought process.
She looked at the phone and saw it was her junior's phone. She picked it only to hear-i got ur gun ma'am.
Ishita remembered how she called her junior to pick her gun when she was going to Raman's office.
Ishita-good, it's was unused naa.
Junior-yes ma'am, bahut corner mein padi thi. No-one must have noticed.
Ishita-good, keep it in my cabin. I will take it tomorrow.
Junior-ok maam, r u coming today. U have two hearings today.
Ishita-no I will not come, I am not fine yet. Tum dekh lena.
Junior-ok ma'am, have a good day.
Ishita nodded and hung the call. She start driving towards to her home as she was feeling very restless now and only Ruhi has the power to lessen her pain and restlessness. Yes though she is ishita's daughter but ishita feels heavenly in ruhi's lap like she got her mother's lap.
Thinking about Ruhi she was driving when a message popped up in her mobile. She looked at the phone and saw it was raman's message .
She decided not to check it and continued driving but her mind was on the message only. After thinking for long, she finally checked the message, only to read, please don't over speed, u r my jaan, apna khayal rakhna.
She read the message and wasn't getting that whether she should get happy or sad reading his message. Happy coz he cares so much for her or sad coz, he is just a mirage for her. She was thinking when her eyes fell on a poster on the wall.
Ishita read the poster and all she could remember was him kissing her temple. She closed her eyes and a tear escape her eyes. Tears of happiness and helplessness too. Happiness that someone is loving her and helplessness coz she can't reciprocate his love.
Anyhow she reached home and then in ruhi's room only to see Ruhi sleeping hugging her pink teddy.
Ishita went to her and kissed her temple only to remember his kiss again. She closed her eyes trying to feel his touch and a tear escape her eyes. She covered Ruhi properly and went to her room. She closed the door and then all the windows.
Then she took out her coat and then her shirt only to see the most bitter truth of her life. She touched her hands and cried holding herself-no ishu, u don't deserve anyone's love. Aur raman pyaar bhi nahi karte tumse, he is just concerned for u like the way u were concerned for him. U have a very ugly past, jiske saath Raman toh kya koi tujhe accept nahi karega. So stop making castle in air, u r not born to get love. Tu sirf thokar khaane ke liye bani hai, please aise sapne mat dekh jiske tutne par tu bhi tut jaaye ishu, U took much effort to gather urself again after that incident. Do saal guzar gaye but still u can't forget anything. Ab aisa mat kar ishu, kisi ko izzajat mat de, khud ke kareeb aane ki, tujhe todne ki, tujhe barbaad kar dene ki. Please don't let anyone ruin u again. She was saying to herself and was crying bitterly looking at her reflection in the mirror caressing her hand.
That's all for now, enjoy and do comment and hit like. Will wait for it.
Ps-200+ likes with long comments for next updt.
Anupamaa
Haven For Her
Hindi TV Shows
1.2k