Normally I write about Shivvay and his thoughts and feelings cause the guy is such a maun baba ..lol
But since the Forum has been on fire since yesterday's episode I thought let's give a shot as to what Annika might have felt during these 2 episodes. Again these are just my views - appreciate no bashing pls 😆
June 15th, 2017
Annika's Introspection my P.O.V:
Mentally prepared and physically armed with all the ammunition Annika was ready to burn all her bridges back to the Oberoi's for good. It was not going to be an easy task but the die had been cast and there was no turning back now. Besides, as usual the God's had abandoned her in her hour of need and had not stepped in to intervene with an alternate plan but then that was the luck and destiny she was born with and if there was ever a constant in her life it was this - fleeting happiness and permanent pain and loneliness.
Her husbands 'Ehssas' of what might be troubling her was veiled by his apparent happiness at planning to give her happiness for the rest of her life. The paradox and irony of the situation was amusing to her even with all the pain she was feeling right now, that while she planned her unhappiness for the past few days he had been oblivious to the signs that she was troubled because like an eager love-struck teenager he had been planning her happiness for the past few days. Shivvay had been high on the drug called love and all the feelings that came with it which to his misfortune caused nothing to penetrate that haze and high.
She shook off the thought and scolded herself for losing her focus on her mission. Anyways, there was no time and too late for such thoughts now. It was time to suck it up and accept the dish that was served to me as my future while making a 'dhamakedar' exit that would burn all the bridges behind me. The mines were placed in strategic positions already, just waiting for my signal to detonate and blast all my happiness into the dark skies above.
If I was going to go out it would be in blazing glory so that I would feel no pain while I burnt this identity to death.
I am glad she did that because of if you are going to assume a whole new identity under a witness protection programme that is what the person has to do. Forget her past and all attached to it and make a clean break for the future.
The difference here was that she was doing all the people she loved and respected a favour by making them erase all memories and feelings towards her. The people assuming a new identity do not have the luxury, most times, to do that. Either they have loved ones yearning and searching for them or believing them dead making a shrine, in their memories of the person who was a part of their lives. Annika could not afford either luxury because the pact wih the Devil was clear you do it my way or the House and Family you love so much burns.
I guess you could liken it to Huck's fear of his Family being taken away from him in Scandal or Sodom and Gomorrah were God was going to kill all and not even spare the few innocents who would die a blameless death.
Besides, they were never HER family in the first place.
Annika's Introspection my P.O.V :
How many times would Shivvay have to remind her that, before it got into her thick skull??!! Sure her NKK did not matter to him anymore but it was made very clear to her time and again, and he never made any bones about it, that their NKK when pitched against her would always come out the winner. Her "... haar humesha meri hi hogi " was countered with "mein tumhe kabhi haarney nahi dunga" but it did not include HIS FAMILY in that equation and that was fine because that is who he was and I did step into this with my eyes wide open.
She always felt like she was standing with her nose pressed against the glass looking in at the beautiful warm scene unfolding in there while freezing out in the cold. It was a good illusion while it lasted but now it was time to return into her real and cold world.
So rather than letting her Kidkitod' Family burn she was going to sever all ties with them that would make her the cause of their ultimate destruction, but making sure that she destroyed all the good memories attached with her as well. It would not do to have a single one pine for her. OmRu and Jhanvi Aunty were the strong ones and they all knew about sacrifice and why it was needed sometimes. They would forgive her for what pain she was causing them for partaking in her sins.
This would ensure a fresh start not only for Shivvay but for them as well so that the next Bahu who came in would be given a fair chance at the role as one. There could and should be no comparison made that would make her feel that she was being measured up to a ghost. That would be unfair to her.
Annika was, is and will always be an ideal bahu because that is what we all are and strive to be as woman in general. We are all Ideal Bahu's in our own way, good at all the roles we are born with and marry into. Daughter, sister, wife, DIL, mother etc etc All of us Goddess's in our own right and own hearth and homes. I am sure many of us have been sacrificial to a certain extent in at least one of these relationships where our wants, needs and feelings took a back seat minor or major.
Om looked devastated not by what he saw but by Shivvay's reaction to what Shivvay saw. He subtly tried to make the NKK in Shivvay realize that it did not matter when he asked him why he hid it but Shivvay was again blind to what Om was trying to make him see.
Jhanvi's look of pain was not for herself or her son it was for Shivvay's future and what it held.
Dadi's devastation was understandable but Pinky's tears could not have been for the older woman cause she knew what calling the media meant. Pinky's tears were for the words Dadi said to Annika because she knew that thought they were said to her they were meant in reality for Pinky. She was the Bahu burning the house down.
As for her ranting at Annika I just fast forwarded it because it is the same old .. same old.
Kumkum Bhagya
