#2 SidNi FF ||Bounded By Your Love|| Part 19 [30/4]

I know it's been a decade since i last updated but there are so many reasons for it, firstly the way our SidNi's story came to an end in the show just shook me so bad that i lost my intrest in writing, it took me so long to accept the fact that our beloved SidNi are no more a part of my life, it's just their memories, khair, another reason is my studies and so i didn't feel like writing earlier but finally i have decided to finish this story of mine and i will do it surely because i can never leave any of my work hanged in the middle of nowhere

So now please scroll down to the summary of story till now and then you can scroll down further for the new Part...

Thanks, enjoy reading

-aroo😊

The story begins with Siddharth and Roshni who are living their lives in two different parts of the world but this isn't it, because they aren't living their live, they are just passing for the sake of each other, for the sake of His Love for her and for the sake or Her Hatred for him, life had played a sick game with both of them, there was a time when they were madly in love with each other but it all ruined in just a blink parting them away from each other...

Roshni now live as a paying guest in Manchester, working as an employ in one of the company there, unaware of the owner of that company, the same owner who one's owned her life, and she had let him willingly

Siddharth is miserable without her, he is searching her from past 4 years, he wants to be with her, to confess his deeds and the misunderstandings from the past and clear it all so that they can be together and then one fine day his all prayers are answered when he landed in Manchester for some important matters and came across her in his own office, but life wasn't fair with them because she hate him, from the core of her heart she hates him and it killed him, she was indifferent to him and acted as if they have nothing to do with each other...but finally after what felt like ages, he saw a little hope for them but it all ruined when Ria came in the picture

Roshni cried her heart out in front of her best friend jazz as she told her of her past, how she and Siddharth met because of their mutual friends misha and yash and end up falling in love with each other, they dreamed for a fairy tale wedding but nothing of that sort happened because of the rivalry between their mothers thus they eloped from their house and got married, first 6 months of their wedding were bliss, she later got to know that she was bearing his child, she was happy and was over the moon but it all ruined due to his cold behaviour, he started distancing himself from her, breaking her with day and she couldn't even share the biggest news of their live to him, one day she swore to go in the depth of matters and came across the harsh betrayal by none other than her Love, her Siddharth

Things turned worst when she couldn't balance herself and fell from the stairs losing her only lifeline of that time, her hope, her child and next when she opened her eyes, she was in a hospital and he was nowhere, she spent her days crying, craving for him and at last her friends came and took her away for good, and that's how she landed in Manchester and was leading a peaceful life until he returned bringing back the storm in her life

While Siddharth to reminisce over the past and remembered how helpless he was when he found out his father in a hospital room dealing with a heart attack because his sister kritika tried to commit suicide as her love rajveer wanted to leave just because Siddharth denied to be with his sister ria, his father begged in front of him to save kritika and the only he could do that moment was to do what his father wanted and his selfishness for his family made him so much guilty in front of roshni that he started distancing himself from her to punish him but he didn't realize that he was punishing her too, and when he realized it was too late, they lost their baby in the process leaving nothing in between them, he was arrested and he just couldn't protest and when he was released from jail he searched for her but she was nowhere to be found as if she disappeared into the thin air

Finally she started responding to his pleades and heart wrenching apologies when ria planned an attack on her but Siddharth and his restlessness for her put him off guard as he searched for her and found her wounded in a washroom, and she lost her consciousness in his embrace

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"Siddharth..he ..he tried to kill me" she whispered...scared hiding herself in his protective embrace as she clutched his collar and sobbed...he patted her back controlling his own emotions "don't cry Roshni...please" he pleaded for his own sanity otherwise no one would be able to save that Michael from his wrath "Roshni... He hurted you...twice and trust me he will pay for it...I don't know how he came out of jail last time but this time I will make sure that he would never ever get to see the outside world" he said trying to compose her ..she looked up and a flash of pain passed through her eyes "trust..? Can I really trust you Siddharth? Again?" She asked like a lost child and he felt like killing himself for witnessing that doubt in her eyes, every time

"Yes Roshni...you can trust me...and I promise that this time no one can hurt you...Roshni four years back I was helpless, I was confused and due to my own selfishness I had hurt you ...believe me Roshni...I never wanted whatever happened...i never wished to hurt you because hurting you was like hurting myself and i didn't do any of it willingly..please give me one chance to prove it...please roshni' he pleaded ' i know I don't deserve it but I am being selfish roshni like always..I will die without you..please give me a chnace to rectify my mistakes...please just one chance to set what went wrong...I know it's been long when...when..but still I will set it right roshni...hum phir se khush honge...i promise you that...' he cried and she just starred at him helplessly

'promise...you promised me Siddharth that you won't even think of leaving me...you promised me that you won't even hurt me in your dreams...you promised me so many things in past Siddharth..but you didn't fulfil them, you broke me Siddhartha, you broke my trust in you...it's so tough to trust you again Siddharth because if this time anything happened then I will actually die'

'No roshni...this won't happen again...I will myself die then to hurt you again...' she shook her head in horror, he shouldn't say like this, she can never imagine him doing something to her, she knew that no matter how much angry she was on him, how much hatred she felt for him but she was alive and breathing becuase somewhere in the world he too was alive and safe 'shh don't say like this...nothing will ever happen to you...you are my life Siddharth, just be with me Siddharth...I need you...I am tired by staying alone...I want you to be with me...i am tired of fighting, of living alone, of taking care of myself but now i want you to take care of me, to love me...will you love me Siddharth? Like before, will you actually set it all right? ' she asked him lots of hopes bubbling in her eyes and he couldn't help but smile heart warmingly despite all the fear he was having that moment

'Yes roshni...I promise that I will set it right and I promise to love you like before...this time i won't let any misunderstanding come between us roshni...I love you a lot and I can't lose you again' he whispered caressing her cheek and then kissed her forehead lightly they sat there so close to each other for what felt like ages with her in his lap and his hand around her waist keeping her close to him, roshni looked at him and even before she could stop herself she called out for him earning his concentration as if he was lost in his own world till now

'Siddhartha i agree we have a chance but please i still want an explanation about why you did what you did...was i not worthy for you then that you thought of betraying me like that' she asked, her voice shaking at the very mention of past she knew he love her, his eyes speak volume about it and they just sealed their future with a promise by him that he will set it all right but she was still unsure because sometimes something can never be settled , some deeds can never be corrected and some realities can never be denied just like the death of their baby, someone with whom they could have been happy today if the past didn't happen, Only if all this was just a nightmare and she would wake up next instant in his arms, she badly wished only if it was true

He sighed he could witness the doubt in her eyes yet again and she is so much right to voice it out becuase of course the past can not be wiped away or corrected just by a mere promise, and neither all her pain can go away which she had gone through in all these years, it was not at all simple and forgettable

They had lost their baby, the symbol of their love and the fact they couldn't even mourn about his loss together shook his entire being, his eyes moistened as he relived that day when his entire world came crumbling down to his feet and he was so helpless that he couldn't even cry out aloud about it, life was so unfair to him, to her, to them and they had fight with it all alone, all these years but not anymore

He was brought back to present as he felt her soft touch at his cheeks , he looked down at her, she was wiping away his tears which rolled down his cheeks even without him realizing but the way she was wiping them broke him,

there were tears in her own eyes but she couldn't shed them freely scared it will break him more and she couldn't witness him breaking down in front of her, Roshni hated him all these years still the love she had for her Siddharth was more strong then her anger for him and today when there was flick of hope arising in between them she couldn't witness her love cry in front of her, he has to be strong for her, they will set it all right, together

He saw the determination in her eyes and he himself felt boosted, he nodded agreeing to her without uttering anything, she smiled and he mirrored her actions... finally he took in a deep breath and opened his mouth to answer her, about something she asked earlier 'i loved you roshni, i loved you then and i love you now and i will love you forever, in all these years my love for you never lessened in fact with each day i loved you more, although you weren't with me but it didn't effect the amount of love i had for you in my heart...i was living just to meet you, i am still alive because i wanted to to be with you again roshni, yes i have been breathing all these years, yes i am still alive but the reason has always been you roshni, just you

If i didn't have it in me to find you, to be with you, to tell you how sorry i was for the past i would have died the day i realized that you were gone to never come back, i have cried so much roshni, i have cried so much that day when i ran in that hospital room to meet you but i was told that you left, i cried so much when reality hit me that you had left me and walked away forever, i cried every night myself to sleep roshni becuase without you beside me i just couldn't even sleep, i was just so much miserable roshni and the thing which broke me even more was the fact that you too were miserable and that you hate me roshni' he said, tears were freely rolling down their cheeks as he opened up his heart to her

She still sat in his lap as he cried like a baby, he cried for himself and for her and for their baby, he cried because of how much they suffered, he just cried, and her heart broke into million of peices as she saw her fear coming true, she couldn't see him like this, it killed her, it killed her even more brutally then the past had

She leaned forward and wounded her arms around him, hugging him for her dear life, he instantly wrapped his arms around her waist crying in the crook of her neck and she let him cry as she held him close knowing he won't break into peices as she was now holding him close and she knew it soothed his aching heart, it acted like a balm on his wounds as finally after a while his cries subsided

'I am sorry roshni, please maaf krdena mjhe, i am really very sorry roshni...i am just so so sorry' he cried out and she shook her head a little 'i forgive you Siddharth, and i don't want to know anything...not anymore' she said further and broke the hug looking straight in his eyes, his swollen eyes were clouded with confusion 'yes Siddharth i don't want to know the reasons of why you did what you did, i just don't wish to know anything anymore if i have to witness this heart wrenching sight ever again, i can't see you in tears Siddharth, it kills me and i promise now we won't let our past ruin our future, yes there is a lot more still which is not settled but we just promised each other that we will set it all right, we will walk past this together and we will be happy again, let's just give ourselves time and explore it all over again, i believe a better future is waiting for us' she said and he looked at her in daze

'Roshni I need to tell you, You deserve to know, I can't do this to you, this is...' 'ssshhh Siddharth, the only thing i don't deserve are your tears, i don't deserve this Siddharth who is broken and so not like the guy i fell in love, i want my Siddharth back , i want him now and i want him forever and i promise once again that we will actually set it all right together ' she said with a genuine smile playing on her lips and leaned in to seal this promise with a kiss, a kiss full of passion, desire and promises, promises for a better future

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Don't separate SidNi please