I am a silent reader, and I am very bad at writing, I don't like this track I want to stop seeing this but I can't I love this characters (Ishra) from start now it become tough to watch or not, so to change my mind I wrote this and thought to share it enjoy reading guys I know I am not good in writing so read at your own risk
Ishita Pov
I really confused why now how I am going to react seeing them, I am confused and I can't find the right words which describe my feeling, all my life I only wish to have some selfless love... one person at least one person who love me what I am with all my flaws... but no I am not that lucky... my life filled with tears not by happiness but by failures, betrayal, my flaws... I never wish for fairy tale but just a simple life with my small family... first subbu left me saying I can't bear a child and I married the person who needs me only for his child. I can't blame him for him everything is children, then why he love me and hurt me saying I can't be good mother, when it's all about children. I could not blame him I enter this life knowing well it's about child first it ruhi but now it phiu may be I am not that much important, but how can he forget that I am human too... I miss my family a lot in this 18 year nothing change in my life expect learning one thing I can never hate him how much I try... It hurt even to think after these years tomorrow I am going to meet them I don't know how they look now... ruhi married with at least two children may be one I can only guess I don't know anything about her adi aliya ... everything is question without answer...
18 years back I left the family so because of me my family cannot suffer but part of me want to be selfish to stay in this family because other love me and for my children but yes again I can't be selfish the person because of whom I got this family not want me I know everyone can live without me like the seven years nothing going to change I assured them that I come back when they needed they can meet me when they wish... but part of me wish they never visit me... so I can live my rest of my life with peace. My children understand my pain they never visited me I was happy in the NGO ... I close my eyes hoping everything will be fine
Pihu Pov
I am the most selfish person, I don't need her I ask her to leave my life now I need her to complete my father wish so I begged my brother to call her I feel ashamed of myself for what I did with her my guilty never leave me in this life every day I say my father looking longingly when some couple cross him or in any festivities seeing everyone happiness he always stay away for everything his smile never reach some time his wet pillow or sometimes is eyes, I wish I can rectify my mistake but it never happen... my father embrace me with lots of love and allow shagun mama to live with us but he never married her... shagun mama was happy to come back to ballah house she not give more importance to the marriage so I didn't compel dad... I was happy initially I don't understand any difference but after some years I found the different and I know it was too late... shagun mama died because of cancer I don't find my father or anyone going in depression it's like she never exist for them they are sad but not like the day she witness when ishita left this home, ruhi di cried every day and her conversation are less my brother stop speaking to my father some time I found my father and brother in verbal fight always saying he is a coward and he didn't deserve a happiness after adi bhai marriage he left this house and start working in mani uncle company after lots of argue between mani uncle, adi and aliya. Adi bhai accept the manager position in mani uncle office. Aliya di didn't want to live with us she ask whether the will throw her also if she can't pregnant or maybe she don't want to give the children same upbringing by this family so one day when they ask them to throw their mother out of the house also they will throw her without knowing what is good for the children... after few years ruhi di get married and she ask adi bhaiya to do her khanyadhan and I saw my father break down once again... I found my mistake lately and I am going to live in this trap knowing very well I cannot escape this guilty
I raised my head feeling someone hand in my shoulder I found my brother giving me a worried look and I found aliya di standing in distance there is no emotion in her face
Adi bhaiya said he called ishima she will be here anytime ruhi went to airport they will be here u go and fresh up... I blink my eyes I can't believe she is coming
I say her walking with ruhi di; her face had a bright smile. Aliya di run and hug ishita crying in her shoulder like child I can see her holding is tight for normal hug she not ready to leave ishita for even a second adi pull aliya from ishita seeing her cant breath properly she look down shyly for the tight hug ishita creased her head lovingly and kissed her fore head and took her in warm hug again. Adi bhaiya looking her longingly when she open her arm and took him in motherly hug that he is waiting for this only he cried loud not giving more importance for the surrounding. She don't know whether to be angry or happy for their happiness, once she wished she should call ishita long back so this situation will not be like this her father will be happy and teasing the family with is one liner which she never seen only heard about it when she requested her brother and sister to tell the past... about ishita and dad, she truly wished once to feel how will mother love feel but she was unlucky she never get the chance... I look down not knowing how to move toward her I really want to feel her really she is here I turn my face and quickly wipe the tear, so that doesn't show my vulnerably. I saw her walking towards me I look confused lots of emotion in her face, I feel ashamed of myself more when I see her face with fear like I am going to hurt her like they say some wounds are never healed. She ask me how am I we had a normal conversation like a stranger only with couple of question and answer. one question really startled me, when she ask whether she was not happy with her arrival I want to shout at her how she ask this question whether she want to make me feel more guilty am i heartless?.. I accept I am in past but now I am not I want to broke in her arms and want to apologize for every mistake but I hold myself and say no I am so happy u came I say a genuine smile next second and I know the question is out of fear. We sit in waiting chair silently adi, aliya and ruhi di continually asking question and she answered everything with smile her eyes couple of times look longingly at the I.C.U. her siblings happy about her arrival and they forget why she came here... I ask them to allow her to see dad they feel embraced forgetting about their father. When she get up I hold her hand she look me confusingly I feel loss of word, i... am... I am sorry for my everything... she wipe my tear and placed a feathery kiss in my forehead I hug her by waist burying my face in her waist she rub my back controlling my tears I raised my head from her waist without breaking the hug she kiss my forehead again saying she was never angry and she loved her children equally... I can feel peace in her word something which tell in me I can forgive myself for my mistakes. I release her from my hold, she enter the I.C.U giving as faint smile adi bhaiya took me in side hug sitting beside me
Ishita Pov
I enter the room, his body connected with wires, he look so weak, wrinkles in his face black dark circle under is eyes, he look so aged for is age, I slowly creased is cheeks and sit in the near chair, how much I try to hate this man his words are the wound which never healed, sometime I wish everything was a nightmare but no everyday i wake up I feel the reality of my life. I don't know how many hour pass, I wish this time never move so I can see him more compensating for these 18 years, I cannot believe I still love this man I wiped the tears that rolled my cheeks continuingly seeing him like this really not helping my heart, I found my love for him never fade I doubt whether he call me in between this 18 years may be I will accept happily, so I can live with him with my children once again, I slowly moved my hand his cheeks to arm and hold his palm. I have lots of question to ask him I want answers too... why he always want to be selfish, why he never respected my feeling, whether children is only thing bond husband and wife relation, why he want to see me now when he was dying... I close my eyes feeling heaven in this pain his presence is alone make me feel content and happy my lips curved in smile accepting myself I can never hate him, I feel his hand on my head
I saw him giving me faint smile, his hand move from my head to chin he softly crease my cheeks I close my eyes feeling him after a long time he still had the same effect on me I opened my eye. I saw him looking me lovingly he open is arm I slide in his bed adjust my head in his arm he kiss my forehead saying sorry continuously I closed his mouth not allowing him to say more and kissed his cheeks saying I am not angry on anything that happen in past and I still love this Ravan kumar his eyes glint in mischievous and his smile making him more handsome, I asked the one question which making me mad why u didn't call me when u needed why now, his reply is he don't want to hurt her more he cannot see her hurt again and he don't want to be the reason again, I feel is excuse lame but i don't want to say anything we cannot change anything anymore, I just nod him like understanding and he caught my lies don't try to act madrasan and stop rolling your eyes I laugh at is comment and he join me after giving me amused look, he give me lots of promise and I rolled my eyes for everything... if I say this to them then your finish and his reply is they will understand us, we speak lot teased with his one liner till his breath become heavy I ask him to stop taking and get down from the bed to call the doctor. Adi ruhi, aliya, phiu everyone ran inside with doctor. He holds my hand tightly when the doctor asks everyone to leave. His hold become strong when I try to pull my hand he said he is not going to live more and he don't have any idea dyeing looking doctor face I shut his mouth saying nothing going to happen he going to live but he is not ready to listen ask her to be with him, he don't want to leave this world not feeling her beside him. He wants her to hold him he wants to die in her embrace. I ruffle his hair and peck his lips and I feel his last breath in my face his eyes closed his lips curved in a grin like he won the world I smiled looking at his face and kissed his forehead one last time and moved out of the room. I saw everyone coming out of the room
Adi and ruhi sit both beside me, he asked me how I am feeling now I replied quiet happy after long time he give me a faint smile... he ask me what your Ravan Kumar said I smiled at him and said I don't want my children to feel bad so I don't want to answer. They ask me repeatedly and I give up. He said that he love me a lot... more than u guys and next life he don't want any of u only we both enough and what u said now the question came from ruhi I smiled and replied I happily accepted is demand it's really not a bad decision, so next life we don't have chance now it's from pihu I chuckled seeing their wired and confused face, I left the hospital saying better luck next time guys
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