My Changing Way of Being: Shivaay

Originally posted by: Michmichi

Beautiful post Geet
-Anjali-

Originally posted by: geet.a

Apologies for the lack of posts; seemed I was not needed: Shivaay did the needful.

I have not focused on all the intoxicated moments because there is no need, but this is what I could write. Hope you guys enjoy😃😳

Will there ever be a day in my life when I wake up non-intoxicated and shocked because of her?

Will there ever be a moment in my life when she is NOT at the back of my mind and in the largest piece of my stony heart?

Sometimes I can almost hear it drip like lava when she is near me: perhaps this is how I can sense her; perhaps this is how: she melts me.

Tentative, shy, resplendent with faith and beauty and goodness, there she stands, and I'm undone. Every time. That is all it takes.

I look at her, and that is it, that is where my life seems to concentrate, the rest being a series of coincidences, targets to be achieved, profits to be earned, and family to be held.

She is the solitude between the best and the rest, the never ending responsibilities I loved, that I never tire from since they are my reason to be. She found me another:

Talking to a chat show host called 'Love Angel' , disguising my name to mean one that SHE gave me.

Ironic how all my life, my dadi called me Billu and yet, it is she who came to my mind when I had to choose a name. Anika.

Her vocabulary seems to have infiltrated my very being and there seems to be no relief in the future (I do not think I want one either).

So here I am, the man who has always been so proud of his name, nervous enough to hide it,asking help from a (assumably) teenaged girl about love, a concept I never believed in.

But what IS it between us, why can't I control it? Why do I feel it has already conditioned me to become someone good, someone kind, someone who deserves a better partner to share it with?

How has she completely ruined my way of life by entwining herself in the fabric of mine in such a way that to sleep on her lap seems the gateway to heaven, to be childish with her is the only source of happiness, to have her with me forever seems to be the only way of survival.

Anika.

What have you undone?

What have I become?

Love

Geet

Originally posted by: Frozen.K

Geetu I love it yaar 👏
Remember what I said you are so good at writing about Shivika, you will always find things to write even if there is not many scenes of them in the episode 😳 And the best part of your writing is that poetry of yours yaar 😳 this piece is short and sweet and just amazing 😳 How beautifully you portrayed Shivaay"s inner feelings in choosing his name "black cat" today 😳 And him taking help from Soumya the way you have written is just beautiful 😳 Likha kar frequently...by the way I am still waiting on the continuation of your other OS ha 😳

Originally posted by: pritzz

#red⭐️

You geet write exactly what my heart wants...😳

In all the confusion shivaay had today.. the only genuine feeling I felt he showed when Love Angel said.. This feeling is different and wired and He says YES and when she says the 9/10 people want to experience love and shivaay says I am the 10th person and she says the 10th ones are lying to themselves and the world and shivaay took that seriously... I loved the way They showed how shivaay is coming in terms with the feeling of LOVE so different and unique and also the guy who never believed or followed such shows is calling up Love Angel for sharing his feelings and advice.. and today it's clear.. he does know that what he feels is Love just a little shocked and hence doubtfull but he is a goner...

Geet lovely post darls ... You know shivaay from your posts makes me love him more..❤️

Originally posted by: geet.a

Yaar prithu!! You're love! Tera aur pooji ka support is literally like danda to this writer i am ;)
I agree with you, he's coming to terms while she's going to deny. Either ways, i feel it'll be wrong to do anything till he breaks up with tia.. No?

Originally posted by: pritzz

Absolutely true.. it would be wrong and I am so sure tomorrow is a dream sequence of either shivaay or anika or maybe even Tia 😆😆

Tia ko sapna aaya hoga thinking... Anika is doing so much for her to be husband and her reikis are flying back to her 😆

And if shivaay is dreaming he may think that because he is engaged anika may not accept him and also he may just fear as to how will he handle this now that his khoon khandhan is coming his way...

And agar anika dreams this...she may even dream shivaay proposing her followed by insulting her for her class and not to watch high dreams and she will remember his past hurls of insults and thus become nervous and more rude to maintain distance from uim

Originally posted by: Bsangama

Beautiful post geet