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Well, I am not someone who tolerates lies...So what I told Suman had been the truth. I have never felt seriously about anyone..but Suman has been the most interesting girl I have met.
For how long should you have feelings for a girl to call it beyond infatuation? A week? A month? A year?
And what differentiated infatuation from love? Because I know I can never tolerate it if the girl I love had feelings for another person..I would simply hate her after that...there would be no way for me to reconcile...
So, forget Suman..if it was any other girl too, I wouldn't forgive betrayal.
Would that be a test of love?
Because I have seen Shravan...He hated it that the girl he loved acted like she didn't reciprocate his sentiments...he was consumed with the agony of it... it made him a completely different person...
Imagine..what he felt for Suman had the power to change him like that!
Nafrat...Hatred.
And love..and infatuation...
Hatred can never be an expression of love, no mater how people try to justify it..It could be a TEMPORARY state...but then, I have always felt one would move from that...
Interestingly, I didn't feel hatred when I knew about Suman and Shravan..neither did I feel sympathy...
There was a sense of loss...as if I had been judged second in a race...it was a little hard to swallow at first.
But whatever feelings I had for her died down in that one instance...In place of it I found emptiness. I did not feel anger or hatred or depression...It didn't even feel like it made much of a difference to me beyond the pain of a dismissal...
And then I looked at Shravan. The man was blowing hot and cold...One could see he was being blown to pieces...Hatred, he called it...To the extent it loomed over them both, large enough to destroy Suman.
And then there was a moment of tranquility. A moment where he felt she was threatened...It was amazing to see the change in this guy. He forgot all his hurt and hatred...all he could see was her. He forgot about his pain.
That moment he cared...unselfishly...unmindful of himself...
That can never be me.
I don't know how many years it would take to distinguish between infatuation and love...but what I saw here was definitely LOVE.
And that is what made me realise they simply belong with each other.
Note; An Adi OS for all lovers and haters and neutrals...đ
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