Arshi FF: The Broken Hearts ( NEW LINK ADDED) pg 151 - Page 51

August 27, 20xx

Today I broke up with Khushi. I mean my friendship with her. It wasn't easy, I tried doing it in the past but didn't succeed. Her innocence, her tears would always melt me and stop me from breaking ties with her.
It wasn't something my heart desired to do but I had to. I didn't mind being friends with her, in fact today I'm extremely saddened to lose her..she was my best friend. After di, I confided in her because I knew she would understand me the way I wished her to...but she didn't.
She desired to take our friendship to the next level but I wasn't prepared for it. It was something I never wanted.
I could see our mutual attraction growing deep and because of that I wished to step back, however whenever I attempted doing so, something would stop me. She was and is alone in this world and really needed someone to support her, so I gave her my hand..but not my heart.
Love is not simple...its complicated and I don't wish to complicate my life. I have my own set of dreams to achieve and I guess love will only act as a hindrance in my path.

Today I may sound selfish and cruel but then what's the point in giving Khushi false hope? Why show her dreams that I might be unable to fulfill. Love is demanding and I doubt I have it in me to give her all that she wants and desires...so I ended everything.

Honestly I didn't wish to end it an ugly manner but I was helpless. She didn't leave me with any other option. I started avoiding her, I even changed my number hoping that she'd understand but she didn't. In front of sheetal she was behaving like a possessive girl friend, she even went ahead and said we were seeing each other...which was absolutely untrue! So I had to tell her and everybody around that we weren't a couple!
I know what I said and did, not just embarrassed her but more than that broke her heart...i admit I was rude and insensitive but I just couldn't control my rising temper and ended up blasting her in public!
Even now as I write I'm aware somewhere in her room she must be crying but today I cannot let her tears change my mind. .

Now when I look back I feel we both didn't handle this issue well. Instead of first confiding in each other , we made things public.
but now it is too late...the past can't be undone

What I did is right for both of us

Hope we both forget this and move on in our lives.