Ruhi- mumma ghar chalo.papa ne bad aunty se baat karne se mana kiya hai.
Ishita- haan betu ,let's go home.papa hamara wait kar rahe honge.saying so ishita went taking ruhi in her arms leaving a frustrated shagun behind.
Ishita went into the house with ruhi .she put ruhi down and said- go bachcha,papa is in the room.u go and change ur clothes ,I am making lunch for us.
Ruhi- mumma ,papa office nahi gaye.
Ishita- no bachcha.
Ruhi- why .
Ishita- coz papa had back pain.
Ruhi- oh mumma,papa ne aapko buddhu banaya hoga.jaise main unko banati hoon jab mujhe school nahi jaana hota.she said cutely.
Ishita- nahi babu,she was telling but Raman couldn't let her complete and said back hugging ishita- yes rooh.papa ne mumma ko buddhu banaya. Papa ko office nahi jaana tha naa isliye.he said kissing the nape of her neck.
Ishita- Raman,ruhi is here only.
Raman- so what my baby is grown up enough to understand that her papa loves her mumma alot.naa rooh.
Ruhi- yes mumma,even papa kisses me also. So its OK.she said chirping.
Ishita smiled at this father daughter duo.
Ishita- achcha ,go and freshen up.I am making lunch.
Ruman- OK mumma .they said smiling and went to make ruhi change while ishita went to kitchen to prepare food.ishita was preparing lunch while her mind was occupied by shagun's words.she was boiling in anger.
Ishita- how dare she told such rubbish about my Raman.she called him characterless. Kaash main uska muh tod paati but I couldn't because of those ladies standing there.if she ever come to me again,I swear I will kill her with my bare hands.she was thinking and tears were falling from her eyes.tears due to anger that she couldn't slap her hard.that's when Raman hold her from behind ,she close her eyes feeling his touch.a tear fell off her eyes.
Raman make her turn and said- hey ishi,why u r crying .is something wrong .rooh told me that shagun met u ,did she tell u something wrong .
Ishita hugged him tight and cried in his embrace.now Raman was hell worried.he cupped her face lovingly and said- tell me ishi,what she told u.tell me.
He Ishita told him everything.
Raman- uski itni himmat.how dare she call u infertile.I will not leave her this time.I have told her many time stay away from my family but she never listen.iss baar usse jail mein dalwa dunga.he was saying and was about to go when ishita hold his hand.
Raman look at her with questioning eyes.
Ishita- don't go to her.warna kuch naya naatak shuru kar degi.
Raman- but she make u cry.I will not leave her.
Ishita- I am not crying coz of her words.but its my anger coz I couldn't slap her.
Raman smiled at her innocence .and hugged her saying,pagal madrasan.
Ishita- yes really Raman. I am angry on myself coz I couldn't slap her hard.she said smiling between her tears.
Raman hugged her tight when ruhi said- saara pyaar mumma ke liye,rooh ke liye kuch nahi.
Ishra smiled hearing this and opened their arms for ruhi.ruhi ran to them and they shared a family hug.Raman kissed forehead of his girls and soon they were busy in having their food.
The day went in a jiffy,ishita busy in ruhi's homework and household work while Raman bush in teasing ishita and pampering ruhi.at night Raman made ruhi sleep to have a passionate night with ishita. Soon they were lost in the pool of passion forgetting the world. After having some rounds of love making Raman slept cuddled in ishita while ishita was wide awake.
She hasn't told Raman but she was getting flashes of herself with a man.she couldn't see his face but can recognize herself and they were making love .this very thought that she is with someone else make her think that she is betraying the true love of Raman .tears were making way down her cheek thinking she had a relationship with a man.whom she loved coz from the flashes she was getting she understood that the man was not forcing himself on her but she is equally involved in it.she turned towards ruhi and caressed her cheeks lovingly.
Ishita- (st)what should I do rooh.I can't afford to loose u guys but can't even betray u both.I love u both more then my life but the feeling that I loved someone else is not letting me be in peace.main kya karun.thinking so she close her eyes.
Days start passing like this.ruman were too happy having Ishita around them while ishita was breaking inside getting those flashes that she is with someone else.she was trying hard to see the face of the man but all she could see was herself with a man,sometime making love and sometime with a little baby.she use to cry every time she was alone that some day she may have to leave ruman. Her days were like hell for her and too add to her pain ,shagun was always there to instigate her every now and then.
It was a week since their parents went to vaishno devi.it was the day of her doctor's appointment. She get ready after sending ruhi to school.she badly want to meet her doc and tell her what she was seeing these days.
Ishra went to clinic .they were in doc's cabin.they were waiting for doctor when Raman's phone rang. It was from his office.he excused himself and went to attend the call.
He went outside the room leaving ishita alone.he was talking on phone when he saw after ten minutes that ishita was running out of doctor's clinic crying.Raman was all shocked and confused that why she is crying .
He ran behind her ,she was running like mad,like she has loosed her senses.a car was approaching her and was about to hit her when he pulled her to himself in nick of time.
Ishita- leave me Raman.I don't wanna live.I wanna die.I don't wanna live Raman.she shouted like a maniac ,raman was trying to hold her but she was jumping ,trying hard tp get out of his hold.at last raman couldnt take it anymore and slaaped her.she fell on the road crying bitterly folding her legs.all started staring at them.he picked her in his arms and took her to his car before a scene can be created.he drive to their house ,while she was silent throughout the way.he took her to the house and bolted the door.she crushed on the floor crying .
Her cheek was red due to the slap.he caressed her cheek and kissed it lovingly saying sorry.ishita sunggled into him and cried.
Raman- what happened ishi.please tell me.
Ishita- I can't marry u Raman.she said crying bitterly.
Raman- what,what does it mean.what kind of rubbish is this.
Ishita- this is not rubbish.its true.I can't marry u.I don't have a right to marry u Raman.mujhe jaana padega aapki zindagi se.I have to leave u and ruhi.main nahi jee paaungi aap dono ke bina,so I want to kill myself.
Raman- what rubbish is this.did anyone told u.is this some kind of joke.listen ishi if its a joke then I am going to be very angry on u.
Ishita- kaash yeh mazak hota but its the damn truth.I can't marry u.I don't deserve u.mujhe jaana hoga aapse aur meri bachchi se dur.she said crying and start walking out of the house lifelessly.
Raman hold her wrist and said- baat kya hai ishi.what went wrong that u r taking such a huge decision.
Ishita- sunna chahte hai aap.sun paayenge.hai himmat,toh suniye.ishita iyer,whom u want to make ur bride is already married.main shaadishuda hoon.
Raman- I didn't get it.
Ishita- yes Raman its true.I am married.don't know with whom but yes I am married.
Raman- who told u this.
Ishita- the day we made love,I had been getting flashes of being in bed with someone.she said making a disgusting face.
Raman- u didn't tell me anything .
Ishita- kya batati jab main hi kuch nahi jaanti thi.I was so worried thinking that I am betraying u and my baby .but I was being selfish .I want to be with u people so I hide this thing with u.but today in doc's cabin I saw in her laptop ,a video of myself when she has hypnotised me .I was telling to her that I married someone without telling my parents.ab batao main aapse kaise shaadi kar sakti hoon.
Raman now understood what she is thinking.she remembered that she got married but didn't know with whom she got married.
Raman want to clear her doubt when she said- I don't feel disgusted remembering his touches that means I loved him.what if some day after our marriage he came and claim me.I couldn't leave u like shagun.I love u Raman and can't leave u.main kya karun.mera ek past hai Jo mujhe yaad nahi aur usse jaane bina aapko apni zindagi ka hissa kaise bana loon. I can't love without u.main mar jaaungi.she said keeping her head on his shoulder.
Raman softly caressed her hair and said- nothing like this will happen ishi.listen to me.
Ishita- kaise nahi hoga.jarur hoga.I am destined to be alone.mujhe aapko aur ruhi ko chod kar jaana hoga. Main nahi jee paungi aap dono ke bina.isliye mujhe mar jaana chahiye.meri kya galti hai Raman.main toh usse jaanti bhi nahi jisse meri shaadi hui hai.main kya karun.
Raman broke the hug and went inside.ishita fell on ground .
Ishita- Raman bhi mujhe chod kar chale gaye.isme meri kya galti hai murugan. She was crying when Raman came out of the room.
He came close to her and said- I think now its time for u to know ur past.saying so he gave her ,her diary.while ishita was looking at him all confused.
That's all for now.from now onwards I will write only flashback till it end.it may take some updates but will end it now.so enjoy and do comment and like.will wait for it.
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