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Psycho Analysis
What a heartbreaking yet a beautiful episode. The eyes spoke today. I loved it.
Here is my take on it:
Shravan
He stood outside M&A waiting for his brother taking out the frustration of waiting he had stored within him not just from the day before but years before.As soon as he cut the call his eyes fell on the messages he had sent to her. Even they were ignored just like him. He looked at her picture sighing. He rememberd how 10 years back she had refused to listen to him when he needed to tell her the something relly important and crucial and how 10 years later again she had refused him when he was all prepared,all ready just wanting to tell her the most important feeling of his life,alas breaking him up and building in some anger.He was sad,angry but his love was way above all. This love had now changed him from the impulsive man he was to a thoughtful one. Today keeping his emotions aside for once he thought from her point of view. She must have had some emergencies,he thought. Well this was the trust he had on this girl,today love had complled him,drove him to the point where he had started to learn and started to understand that the relationship needed mature and a mutual understanding. He had returned to his home from the case, all plucked down like a dried sunflower who in need of the search of its sun had plucked,he was the sunflower and she was his sun shine. His brother asked him if he was okay? He replied back with a smile not wanting to worry anyone,once again keeping the sad stones buried deep inside. As Pushkar began explaining his love and how Preeti had respected him ,a thin snake of jealousy crept up his back not like he was not happy for his brother. He was just upset with his fate.Listening to how Preeti had agreed to every statement of Pushkar made him question the question his father had told him the last night! Was it really that a relationship was only successful when a woman agreed to a man,no ego no questions? He thought and recalled how she was an independent woman,and how their relationship wasn't at good terms when other's was simply because the woman lived inferior to her man. At that moment his male ego and hormones had crept up frustrating him to say how she hadn't even said a sorry. But all her frustration was gone when he was told that in the evening her whole family were coming,he had double checked to ensure that what he heard was right,indirectly confirming if she was coming. He got ready instantly and stood by the main door waiting for her to arrive. He believed that she would ask him the reason behind his meeting in fact he was sure,his faith,trust and love had made him sure. He looked by the door waiting for her to arrive,today he wouldn't leave a single chance to let Ber go,today he would get all the answers to his questions. Tiwari Family's arrival without her left him dissapointed. But keeping up a little hope in him he searched,his eyes darting towards the door waiting,hoping that any moment she would arrive. A sunflower's sunshine was lost and it plucked down lower,just like a single shine hits the flower and they glow again,he glew back in hope when he heard her name and on being asked about her got the reply that she would be coming soon. His heart now grew a big smile and it even grew bigger when she arrived looking all beautiful and decked up. He looked up at her with happy and hopefull eyes wanting just one glance of hers towards him. But it left him confused when she ignored him like he did not exist. She finally looked up at him and he passed a smile hoping it would be returned back but all he got was ignorance. He had caught her looking at him many a times and he had tried to smile but every time he looked back at her she delebritly looked away,hurting him for something which he hadn't done. He was happy that he would get to eat sweet dishes made by her and he waited in joy as she fed others happily. She came up to him and refused to look him up in his eye,arousing an awkwardness between them. The two people who had known each other in and out were today reminded by someone else that he would wan't a second one and that hurt him. He waited probaly for her to give him the sweet dish by her side but soon realizing she wouldn't he picked up one for himself. He was left shocked when she for once not asking for a second one despite knowing that had perfectly passed by him,not even giving a slight look back. It was as if the sunlight was playing hide and seek with the sunflower.
Suman
Hidding was not her,running was not her,facing the problem was her. But today she could not bring herself to face him,she had already hurted him enough now she had no courage to do so further. She ran,hiding behind the pillar slyly looking at him and realizing what a complete mess of sad ball he looked and it was all cause of her. She his behind the pillar every time he turned back,not wanting him to even catch a glimpse of hers. Once he left she cursed her self apologizing for putting him through all this but what could she do,she was stuck! She reached her home only to witness an over tensed Mama and she went to him assuring that she had arranged for all the money and had not taken any help from Ramnath. She was happy for her family,they were all happy,for her their happiness was like water to the blood that only washed it away and not the cut/injury. She decided on not going to Malhotra Mansio,she had no courage to face him or hurt him,in fact she had no more courage and strength to hurt herself seeing him hurt and miserable. She informed Mami and Mausi that she would not accompany them,making an excuse. Her Mami refused asked her to come but this time she didn't deny not because of her Mami but because she could not control her heart,could not stop it from asking one glimpse of him even if it meant hurting herself. What a irony life had hit her once upon a time she was someone who found reason to meet him and today she was someone who tried to find reasons to avoid him. But alas with what a pull had love brought her back and she couldn't even make an excuse properly. Preeti sat bickering like always but there she sat all drowned down in guilt,pain and love.Preeti asked her to wear a beautiful piece of earnings and bangles but she refused stating on why she was decking her up and for whom. After all she had decided to keep her distance with him and no matter how pretty she looked, she could not get him to her,she was forced to run away,forced to distance away. When Preeti mentioned his name she felt her heart tearing up a bit,it hurt her to listen that she loved him. Why? Simple because no one could change the fact that she lived him but even the fact that she had chosen her family and had decided to stay away could not be changed. It hurt her after listening and realising that even the other's knew the live she carried within her but the person whom this love belonged did not know,probably would not know. She broke dkwn crying,but gathered herself,setting her hair and wearing tbe pretty bangels and earinvs,she atleast for once could look pretty for him.She arrived late at Malhotra Mansion with a purpose of avoiding him for a longer time. As she entered through the main door she looked up at him and looked away throwing fake smiles to people who sat by. He had looked so happy when she had come and it tore her when she realized that once the reason of happiness she was for him was now going to be a reason of pain for him. She kept glancing at him,trying to sneakily get a view of him,giving some peace within her at least by getting to see him in front of her. Every time she looked at him,he passed her a smile and with a heavy heart and lips wishing to curl up she moved her head the other side avoiding him.When she went to Ramnath to give the sweet dish she lowered her eyes,not because she had considered herself a looses in front of him but simply because she could not face herself after putting him through so much pain unwillingly. She went to him with a box of sweet dish keeping her eyes lower and not meeting his because she knew that any moment she looked up to him in his eyes,all the pain and love within would come pouring out,wiping away her control. She knew he would want more than one,she knew he expected them from her,she knew he waited for her to ask but she knew that too that she couldn't give him a false hope,she knew it too that she could not break herself or him anymore,she knew it too that it was difficult. Finding running away and ignorance as the only path she went away in the hope of being found by him someday..SOMEDAY.
I know its pretty long. Ignore any faults as it is written on a mobile.Thank you to those who bared up with this. Do comment down your views bellow. All condradictory views welcome.
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-Mitali❤️
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