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Hie friends...back with an OS...honestly a very bad attempt of writing after ages...read if you can...
Cursed By My Love
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She sighed...it was him, Siddharth, she knew he was the one who made her drunk water and filled her partition with sindoor...she don't really need any prove to realize this truth...he is the one, he is always the one but he should understand that now he can't be the one...because he can't be that one for her, he is Anya's husband, someone whom she loves a lot and even though she loves him to death, she have to make him leave her, completely
Lated that night when she knew almost every one in the house will be asleep, she messaged him to meet her in the balcony and she kind of knew that he will surely come...and he came
'You called me?' He asked as he joined her and she without turning towards him nodded so that he can get his answer as she also replied in a slow tune
'Yes I did'
'Kia baat hai...mere yaad kaisa agaye apko Ragini Jee' He continued in his same fresh and lively tune while she sighed, she have to stop it, for his betterment, for her betterment and for everyone's happiness
'Siddharth...what do you want?' She finally asked turning to him...her face straight and her eyes carried irritation and anger hiding all her worry, for everyone who are a part of her life now, except him!!
'What I want Ragini Jee...I didn't get you?' he asked pretending to be unaware.
'Really...you think I am an idiot, if you really think that then let me clear it out Siddharth, that I am not...I am very well understanding this all, which is happening in front of my eyes and behind my back...Siddharth you always say na that you know me the best because we have spend a lot of time together so don't you think that I also know you that well to understand whatever is happening' she finished with her hand across her chest and he looked away for a moment before turning back to her
'Fine this is serious I get that...now tell me Roshni, what did I do now that you are again inquiring me like this, which will follow with a lot of blamings and accusations on me...can I know my mistake?
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'Don't act smart Siddharth, you very well know, what you are doing and what you did...weren't you the one who broke my fast? Aren't you the one who came to this house to win me back? Aren't you doing all this drama with anya to jealous me...is this enough to tell you that how wrong you are...do you realize that how are you hurting this family by this fake act of yours... this family loves you Siddharth, Anya loves you and you are playing with her feelings...how can you be so cheap...you aren't that Siddharth whom I loved so dearly...you are a facade and I just want to hate you...i regret that time when i met you siddharth...i don't why I even met you, why I fell In love with you...you are a mistake...a biggest mistake ' she just kept on going not realizing how much hurt he is with her words
'Really Roshni, you actually think that I am not that Siddharth whom you loved once, but that's not true, the truth is you are not that roshni whom I love so much, for whom I can go to any extent...you aren't that roshni...you are not' he said cutting her off and held her arm harshly
'You heard me Miss Ragini Desai, you aren't that roshni, you are not my Roshni...you are not...Damn it and what did you say I am playing with Anya's and this family's feelings, no this is wrong, the one who is playing with others feelings is you roshni, especially mine and i badly want to hate you for that...' he said pushing her away
'And how easy is it for you na...to put all the blame on me and free yourself from this whole situation...right roshni...two years roshni, two years have passed since you left me to crave for you, to cry for you but in these two years, did you ever went back to history to actually understand who is at fault...did you? No you didn't that's why so eaisly you always blame me for everything.. God' he sighed hitting his hand at the railing with such a force that blood started to ooze out from his palm...roshni looked at him socked and tried to held his hand only to be pushed away by him
'Stop..stop showing this fake concern for me...i am not one from this family who is unaware from your real face ...and Damn It, why the hell I am here...why I am doing all this, you don't deserve my love Roshni because you are ragini someone who don't have a heart, someone who loves to play with other's feeling...someone who can very easily kick someone out of her life just because she thought that her realtionship is a curse for others but you know what actually the truth is, the truth is that your love was a curse, and it will always remain a curse on me...you know what you won't change ever, you will be like this and day by day my hopes are shattering into pieces, those which can't be mend again...I am done...this time I am truly done...this try was my last try because this time you didn't only broke my dream, you broke me and this pain is nothing in front of all those wounds which you gave me...everytime i let it all go but this time it's the end... I free you roshni, I free you from me, from this relation, and from all those feelings which bind you with me...today, tomorrow and forever...one last advice before leaving, try to think about others Ragini jee other than you and your selfishness' and with that he walked away leaving her alone...this time forever and this time she actually feared that may he won't look back again
Next Day
Neil and Roshni were at office, and where neil was busy discussing about a project, roshni was lost, she was totally lost in the thoughts of Siddharth, she couldn't actually name the fear she is having...as if her soul is leaving her and she is getting finished bit by bit
'Ragini you are listening to me right?' Neil asked finding her lost
'No neil actually, I am not really feeling well...can we take a little break?'
'Sure ... shall I take you to doctor?'
'No that's really fine..I just need a break'
'Sure' he said with a smile and just then his mobile ring
'Hello yes mom..hospital...but why? Ok I am coming' 'ragini mom called...anya has called all of us at hospital'
'Hospital...is she ohk? '
'Don't know I am going'
'Shall I come? '
'Yeah sure...'
'Ohk lets go'
At reaching hospital roshni came across a bitter truth, one in front of which the bitter truth of her relation with Siddharth was nothing, she couldn't really understand that how should she react when anya broke the news of her and arav's relationship and also explained the situation due to which she and Siddharth lied...roshni wanted to kill her that moment, because this means that Siddharth was not lieing and when he said that he is not anya's husband, he was actually telling her the truth
A lot happened after Anya introduce everyone to an unconscious arav and told them all the truth 'sid sir was just helping me out in all this...in fact today also he helped me to gather some courage to tell you all what the truth is...and this Is the reality...mom dada, I and sid sir aren't married, he is just a kind hearted human being who can help anyone whenever he can in fact he can go to any extent to help someone and this time he crossed all the limits to just help me in this and he is the only one who help me in finding arav...please accept us mom ..please dada'
At first naina and neil even denied to look at anya who kept on crying but when they couldn't bear their little princess in such state they gave In and forgetting everything hugged her accepting her with her reality...
Roshni decided to apologize to Siddharth but as she looked back at neil and anya before leaving she noticed her looking past her, she mouthed a thank you and passed a beautiful and grateful smile ...frowning when she turned she saw him leaving, she tried to follow him as if her life depends on her but mami jee stopped her and she helplessly stayed back making up her mind to meet him
But looks like this time Destiny wasn't in her favor, when she visited Khurana house to apologize to all of them for her cruel behavior she was welcomed by the servants who broke the dreadful news of them leaving India to her ...tears rolled down her cheeks as she was slapped harshly by the bitter reality...his words rang In her mind...he finally freed her from his love and she always remaind a curse for him..he was so right, her love was a curse for him...which broke him ' i am really sorry Siddharth...I am sorry' she cried until no tear left in her eyes...this was now her destiny, she lost her Siddharth again, because of her own stupidity and selfishness...he was right, she was selfish and this time he finally let her go...
That's it...I know it was a worst attempt...I wrote it down just like that...
Criticism is welcomed
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