Memories - TWINJ FF new part Page 52! - Page 24

Originally posted by: 3dancelover

Amazing update

I hate this sarika

keep updating

thanks soo much updating now

Originally posted by: hailly

Really sorry for the late reply.
Awesome updates. Beautifully written. Loved it.
Continue soon plz.
Thanks for pm.

Originally posted by: harshi2000

I totally regret being a fast reader

I just read all d parts n hate the fact that i have to wait now

This is just so amazing

Griffz just cant wait for d next part

This seems so real 

U can literally relate to the characters thats d best part

I think I fell in love with this FF too

Thanks Griffz for bringing forward such a wonderful FF to us

Love u loads

Part 13

Not every memory hurts .. but not every makes u smile either...

As I sat in the car saying a small bye to Kunj.. I had tried my best to not let his sad and hurt face affect me... I knew ... the memories would not let everything heal so quickly...

Yes I treasured our good memories... but the painful ones still could paralyze me..

Yeah he was standing with no conditions asking for my friendship... But all those years I spent in pain... even though I decided to let go off them... they still had not..

My memories could not disappear  over a cup of coffee... I needed to heal.. slowly and if he wasn't ready to wait patiently .. then I was better off without him...and now this thought again causes me to flinch... even after everything.. him disappearing again from my life would nearly kill me...

Why? I don't know... how his presence affected me ...that was something I couldn't put in words.. all I felt was weak .. realy weak as if I was falling.. in a dark hole.

Before he was the reason of my happiness.. and now also sadness...

So how do u let go off your sadness when the same person makes u feel happy..

How??.. I wondered...

I knew he had come without conditions.. without past holding him..he had come for me.. my friendship..

And I should let go and be the friend I was...

But how... ?.. how easily do u let go off the pain that almost killed u?

How...?

"I don't want to talk to you Twinkle...Just leave me" his voice of past echoed again...

And there I stood again in my farewell dress in front of my most precious treasure ... and I started feeling like I was drowning in that memory again..

...

Few days before the farewell..

My conflicts to not tell Kunj about sarika continued..I struggled to hide what I should tell him morally..

I had seen her again with that guy and again and again my mind was telling me to tell

But my heart was tugging me slowly..

since it knew it would create more rifts in our friendship

I texted him.. fighting the impulse not to

"hey Kunj all good between you and sarika?"

And instead of a reply back he called

"Why are u asking"

And his voice itself told me , I should not have messaged..with my mind cursing me already.. I said..

"Just asking"

"Last three four months.. you have never asked.. why suddenly so much interest?"

His voice almost seemed angry... and disappointed...

Like how normally we were going about...and why I brought up this topic...

He was right .. I had asked out of the blue...

"Kunj..."

"What?"

"See I--- "

"All is good between I and her... thanks for asking"

And he kept the phone...Leaving my mouth open... I realized.. how much ever we had pretended ... for the last few months.. our friendship had faced a serious blow.. and the cracks remained... and now I could feel them...

They were not repaired...and after my call I created one more..  and with that thought a silent tear rolled down my cheek

...

Why is she questioning now?? Why ?? There was no need.. all was good

But she is your friend.. isn't she?..

But last time didn't she create a fuss and misunderstanding

Something yyou are not sure about Kunj!..

Yeah but a misunderstanding was definitely created..

And you blame Twinkle for that??

But why would sarika??

Well.. that is something you have to find out...

I trust her..

And you don't trust Sarika?

The war in my mind continued..

 

My phone beeped

"Sorry..."

Twinkle was a great friend.. she would always mean well for me ...

But why all the misunderstanding happen

Oh there I go again...

...

His presence was more than enough for me even if it was just for few minutes..

He had not replied to my text... I didn't dare to call him..

A day had passed since I had heard his voice..

And his absence was again paralyzing my senses...

Was he ok? Did he break off friendship ? why didn't he message? Why...

My mind wandered to every possible scenario and they all made me more nervous..

My phone beeped

"good morning"

And the world was alright again for me ...or was it?

I pondered over my thoughts and decided to not talk about Sarika anymore..

Its best lft alone... and my heart was happy hearing that

I called Kunj "Hey..."

"Hi whats up.."

He said in his normal charming tone..

"Nothing .. I was planning to go to mall... I have to buy my farewell dress...would you come along?"

"you should ask some girl ...right?"

"Ummm..."

I said in a low voice...

"Actually I have to meet Sarika"

"Oh Okay sorry.."

Suddenly I was paralyzed again.. hurt again.. gosh I hated myself for calling and I cut the phone

I spend the next hour just crying.. and ignoring his calls..

My mom knocked my door

"Twinkle beta..."

I immediately wiped my tears and spoke in the most normal voice

"Yes mamma"

"Kunj has come ... waiting outside said you two had to go to mall"

"What??"

I was for a minute happy then sad...then excited.. then hurt..

I didn't understand my emotions

I got ready in less than 10 minutes and ran outside..

He was waiting in the car

I saw him...Yes he was still pissed off..

But he came.. my heart whispered...

"Hi Kunj .."

"Hi"

He looked at me for a second as I sat and then started the car...

We didn't talk.. all the way..

The mall came and I was too scared to utter a word...

"Twinkle.. do u have a problem with I dating Sarika... tell the truth"

He said in a very serious tone

I looked at him surprised

"No .. Kunj I just don't want to spoil our friendship "

I sounded helpless... and desperate..

He sensed that too and got off the car ... I knew he realized that I was about to cry..

As we entered the mall.. I felt like I had dragged him to the mall.. why did I have to act so stupid..

He kept his distance hardly talked..

But even after that .. I could see he had come only to save our friendship...and that thought comforted me ..

I picked a light pink Frock suit...and then he dropped my back..

I reached my room and messaged him thanks

"I also want our friendship Twinkle"

And I smiled...

...

It was the farewell day..

I dressed quickly and Kunj messaged that he would pick me..

I was more than happy..

I looked in the mirror...and a thought struck me I had picked my dress of his favorite color... I opened my diary and took out the card with the poem I had not been able to give him till now.

I didn't care what love meaning he drew from I needed to tell him.. what I felt for him but as a friend and nothing more..

I knew I could not get him but I could not lose him either... and if he stayed as friend .. that was sufficient for me...

I went out and saw him waiting in a jet black suit (my fav color)

I smiled as he looked back and smiled... somewhere my heart was content and somewhere I felt like preserving the moment ..   what if he disappears from my life.. a fear I had been living from quite a while...

 

 

~Farwell~

I looked around.. so it was the end.. of our college life.. we have to grow now.. move on.. be professionals.. face the real world...was I ready to let go...

And my eyes rested again on Kunj .. was I ready?

But, wont we be friends after this also..

My heart happily said ofcourse.. Kunj had been extremely nice to me.. I took out the card.. and looked at the poem..I tore the poem from the card.. thinking of just giving him the poem.. as it was past his birthday and the card said happy bday...

I just wanted to hand this as his farewell gift...We were all walking around taking photos...

I had not been able to take one with Kunj yet..

I was saving my camera roll..

We were given our titles...

Somewhere a content heart...whispered...if only Sarika didn't come and I saw her enter...

Kunj went to her and as I held on the poem...a little too hard.. the paper was getting a little crumpled now...

I tried to be strong.. I had to just maintain our friendship and not intervene in the couple..

After sometime the guys dragged..Kunj for the photos...and then girls dragged me too

Still unsuccessful in taking a photo together..

Kunj then came to me and I didn't notice Sarika anywhere...

He was going to say something when..another friend of mine came and whispered she needed my help to fix her saaree..I looked at Kunj and was gonna say something when she said to hurry

I hurriedly handed my sachet to Kunj...and said would be back..

We hurried to the bathroom and I saw sarika on the way with that guy they were arguing... over something

And unfortunately she saw me and ame storming to me

"So have you told Kunj? You have na?? he called me the other day and started talking about our relationship... you only must have drilled something into his brain"

My friend was alarmed seeing this and she had to hurry to the bathroom as her saaree was about to unfod .. I tried to follow her

But she caught my hand... I didn't want to talk to her ...

"You love him right? Don't you? That is why creating problems between us.. he is just a friend ok?"

"I don't care"

I almost screamed ...

But that didn't stop her

"Come on tell the truth.. u secretly love him.. u want us to break up.. so you can have a chance but Kunj will never go for you.. he loves me.. have some self respect.."

She ranted on and I had started shivering.. I wanted to run away..

Yes I loved him... but I would never cause a break up.. why was I being abused like this I was not used to being insulted like this..

"Stop being such b****"

And I lost it...I looked up and slapped her

"Twinkle!!!!!!!!!!!!"

And I realized it wasn't Sarika...it was Kunj...

And the look on his face.. I knew... he had just come...

And Sarika ran to him and hugged him.. but his piercing look..

Tears flowed.. but he didn't see mine he saw Sarika's...and took her away

I froze...for a minute unable to contemplate ...what had happened.. I had never ever physically hurt anyone...

I ran back to the hall.. and saw Kunj .. Sarika wasn't there..

Kunj was holding his head...with his hands... I ran to him..

"Kunj please listen to me"

He got up and walked to other friends...he still had my sachet with him

I went again

"Kunj"

"I don't want to talk to you Twinkle...Just leave me"

And my world crumbled down...because this leave meant exactly what I didn't want it to be

...

Hope you all liked the part. I am soo sorry for the delay..

Do like/comment ..please😃

Love u all

griffy

 

Part 14

Edited by griffy.fz - 7 years ago

Oh god di!

Originally posted by: SweetSau

Oh god di!

The flashback and all just brought tears! I know the feeling of losing friends I could so relate to Twinkle right here! 

Will type complete comment later or might pm you my reply later after I gather myself 

But it was lovely!

So well written!

Brilliant peice!

amazing update Griffy. Loved it so much <3

Originally posted by: Sherni_Jerry

amazing update Griffy. Loved it so much <3

Wow.. This was just wow.. I have no words.. Somehow this story is very realistic and I feel all of it.. It's just too good... I am not pitying Twinkle.. She doesn't need to be pitied... I am appreciating her.. Even after everything, her friendship with Kunj mattered to her so much. I love this character.. Gods I can't wait for the next update ❤️
Thanks for the PM..

Originally posted by: Black_Maniac

Wow.. This was just wow.. I have no words.. Somehow this story is very realistic and I feel all of it.. It's just too good... I am not pitying Twinkle.. She doesn't need to be pitied... I am appreciating her.. Even after everything, her friendship with Kunj mattered to her so much. I love this character.. Gods I can't wait for the next update ❤️
Thanks for the PM..