Hi,
guys! Finally... I'm not going to say anything except for this update, any
flaming is acceptable. Sighs. And the lines in the end are from the song Understanding by Evanescence. :)
Chapter
55
How these two weeks
passed, Ishani could not guess. The time was the longest yet the shortest one
she had ever come across and had not been able to decipher why. Perhaps because
she had not seen in him in these two weeks as well and the time of his special
day was drawing near at such a rapid pace that she wondered at her own ability to
present him what he had deserved all these years; no wonder she truly wanted to
make up for the lost time on this day. But as they say, time is only a matter
of perspective, she tried to go with the flow and let the events unfold the way
they were supposed to.
Yet, what felt more
galling was Ranveer's ignorance towards her. She couldn't say he ignored her:
he had to come in contact with her to do that which had not happened and she
had not heard anything from him at all since last three weeks. "He must be so
busy," Ishani had said to herself everytime her call went unanswered, though
her heart beat strangely as she thought of the reasons. Human brain has its own
eerie ways to console a human heart. Her thoughts when it became too much for
her to endure certainly began to roam into the hundreds of the possibilities that
did not please her but before any conclusion could be drawn, she had received a
message, however, not from Ranveer. It was Rishi who texted her informing that Ranveer
had been out for a month on a trip to Wales and had ended up causing some
health problems for himself which made him cut out from the outside world for a
while.
Ishani had panicked at
this revelation, requesting Rishi to once let her talk to Ranveer, but he had
hesitated and had asked for some time. Ranveer, however, had not yet been seen
which increased her worrying quotient. It was his birthday in a day, and he
himself wasn't seen anywhere. Outrageous! But still, Ishani managed to finally give
him her message. I want to meet you
tonight. Come before it's too late...' To her utmost surprise, Ranveer did
answer immediately, asking if she was alright. Ishani had thrown some tantrums initially
but at his seriousness she had only said she will be explaining things when
he's there at her place about 11PM.
Ranveer, though, reluctantly had agreed to come which was but an essential
achievement. He had wondered what was so important that she had to see him the
same night itself instead of delaying the meeting for the next day. Sternness
in Ishani's tone had finally convinced him that there was something actually
very important that could not wait for the next day and Ranveer had finally
given in.
"Idiot," Ishani had
said under her breath after disconnecting the call. "Who the hell forgets it's
their birthday!" But she knew she
couldn't expect more from Ranveer. He was always like this.
It had been 10 minutes past
11 pm and Ranveer had not
yet come. Ishani took the day off for today and closed cafe sooner than its
usual time to make preparations for the evening. All she hoped was Ranveer
liked what she had in store for him... and the
surprise. Needless to say, she herself had got various calls from Ranveer asking
the cause and her ambiguity of the statements in the answers had left him
confused and exasperated.
"It's only a matter of
a couple of hours, Ranveer, and you will know everything very soon," she
whispered to herself, as she sat on a table in the cafe, her eyes fixed on the window
that revealed the outside view.
The clock struck 11.30
while Ishani yawned heavily. "He will come! He will come!" she said to herself
as though to keep herself awake. It was not long when a knock at the door finally
ruptured all her confusions and doubts and Ishani rushed to the door quickly. She
must have fallen asleep not to notice him coming.
"Ranveer!" she shouted enthusiastically
as she opened the door and saw him standing, eyes showcasing worries for her.
She launched herself on him and took him in a strangling embrace while Ranveer
literally choked for breath. She pulled herself away from and looked little
confused until the truth dawned upon her and she blushed. "I'm sorry. I was too
happy to see you."
"Are you alright,
Ishani?" he said as soon as he came into senses after the hug. "What was so
urgent?"
"No, you tell me where
on earth have you been? Do you know how many times have I called you? I must be
registered as the biggest fool for waiting for this day like an idiot and you--"
Her words fell silent as she saw him smiling at her, while his eyes seemed
tired.
"I'm sorry," he said. "But
I hope everything is alright."
"Come." Ishani took his
hand in hers as she realized they were still standing on the front door and invited
him inside the house. She led him to the cafe as diamond like lights glittered
faintly in the hall. "Well, I wanted to see you... and that's why I had to
scare you like that. I'm sorry but you wouldn't have agreed otherwise."
"Ishani," Ranveer spoke
wearily, "I was working and it's such an imp-"
Ishani put her finger
on his lips. "Shh! Nothing for today," she said softly, while he was little
taken aback.
"But, Ishani--" he
began.
"If I said no, then
it's a no. Do you even know what day is today?"
"Thursday," Ranveer answered
immediately.
"And date?"
"1st of May."
"Exactly! How could you
possibly not remember it's your birthday in the next 15 minutes? On the second
of May you were born, don't you remember it?"
Ranveer's expressions
changed from little confusion to surprise and then reposed in a smile as if an
old memory had surfaced in his heart. He shook his head, smiling, while Ishani
too joined in and smiled. He had truly forgotten this little fact.
"Seriously, Ranveer,
how on earth you can't remember that?"
"I didn't remember it,
true," Ranveer said, while Ishani stared at him for a while and smiled.
"Well, there's a little
surprise for you! Something like a pre-birthday one," Ishani said and before
Ranveer could run his mind in any guess, Ishani took his hand in hers and slid
his old watch in his wrist. Ranveer looked at her, surprised, but she knew he
had remembered it being his own birthday gift of three years ago. "It belongs
to you." She smiled.
"It's so old," Ranveer
said, looking at the watch in surprise while Ishani beamed at him.
"I know," she said
cheerfully. "You didn't expect it to be here, did you?"
Ranveer shook his head.
"I didn't know you would have it even now. Mota Babuji
had taken it from me the last time we met as a relic of my presence in his life.
It's truly a surprise you still have kept it."
"You hide so much from
me, Ranveer. I feel like a fool so many times, and I wish I could know things
better," Ishani said.
Ranveer sighed. "It's
nothing like that. I wouldn't hide anything from you unless it's for your own
good. Trust me."
"That I do," Ishani
said. Their conversation halted as the clock set nearby struck 12 and lights in
the room were set alight. The dimly lit room now was filled with a myriad of
lights flickering along the room and fluctuating at once to get set bright once
again until the gleam prickled their eyes. There was a faint song played in the
background depicting the birthday celebration while their eyes fell at the
walls covered with the photographs of their childhood memories: Ishani and
Ranveer laughing at each other, Ranveer reading her the book while she took a
snap of his and he had not been able to retract the photo from her, or them both
covered with the yellow fleshy mesocarp of mangoes and laughing hysterically at
each other. Ranveer remembered he and Ishani had had a fight over the mangoes and
he had refused to give her any more of the mangoes because she had already devoured
nearly all of them despite restrictions from her father due to health reasons
in summer. Ishani had not listened to him and clawed her hands upon the last
remaining of the set of the fruits which had resulted in their disoriented forms.
Ranveer stared at the happenings
about him in awe as though his eyes not believing what he had seen. Ishani had
kept all of these things safe all these years?
"I never thought you'll
keep these safe..." he said, looking at Ishani. But instead of a verbal
response from her he felt her arms circling his neck once again tightly as he
heard her shout as loud as she could, "Happy birthday, Ranveer!" Ranveer hugged
her back and pulled her closer as if to find a solace after a long weary travel
as a "thank you" left his lips in a small voice. His head dropped to her
shoulder while he felt Ishani snuggle closer to him, her head as most usual on
his chest. No matter where he was or how he felt, he knew his one and only comfort
was Ishani. All his sorrows could be but a fleeting streak of the long lost
memory as long as she was by his side and her disappearance would mean the end
of his life. For a while he wondered if he had only imagined, but in a few
moments he could clearly hear Ishani's light sobs, echoing in the empty hall.
He pulled herself away and gazed into her eyes while Ishani wiped her tears.
"I'm sorry, I was just
overwhelmed for a while. It's so good to be celebrating your birthday after so
long."
Ranveer smiled softly and
wiped her tears again. "It's been my favorite birthday." He needed not say why;
she was very well aware why.
While Ranveer looked
around, Ishani brought cake as they cut it, and Ranveer fed Ishani and later
the process was repeated by her.
"Well," Ishani said, after
a while, and smiling to herself. "Do you know who prepared this cake? It's your
favorite."
"Um, some..."
"No, you're getting it
wrong," Ishani said excitedly before Ranveer could even make a guess.
"Let me guess, Ishani,"
Ranveer said, feigning an irritation.
"I know you won't be
able to." Ishani smiled mischievously.
"And why you might be
amused for that?"
"Because it's going to
be a surprise for you to know who made it." She couldn't suppress her excitement
any longer.
"In that case, it's a
surprise for you," Ranveer said, proudly smiling, "because it's you who made
it."
Ishani looked at him, stultified
for a while, blinking rapidly in disbelief. "How?" escaped her lips unknowingly.
"Look at its taste,"
Ranveer said.
"It's bad?"
"Oh, no! It's perfect,"
Ranveer said, and smiled. "It's exactly how I'd always liked it and you knew it
the best. No one can do this with such perfection."
Ishani smiled, sighing
with relief. "I'm glad it wasn't a disaster like two others," she said, making
a childlike face.
Ranveer came closer to
her and took her in his arms. "It was perfect," he whispered, while Ishani shivered
slightly.
"Could you promise one
thing on this day, Ranveer?" Ishani said, separating herself from him, for a
moment feeling as if her life depended on this promise.
Ranveer looked confused
for a moment, but agreed in a while. "Yes," he said, quite uncertainly.
"Would you stay with me
for the rest my life?" Ishani asked, her eyes gleaming with both curiosity and hope.
Ranveer hesitated. "What kind of question is
that?"
"Promise me!" Ishani
said, desperation evident in her voice. She couldn't tell what made her feel so
urgent towards the question, but she wanted to know his answer. "What should I
make out of your silence?" she said suspiciously when Ranveer made no answer.
"Ishani, look..."
Ranveer tried to explain but Ishani interrupted him.
"Promise me!"
"Alright, alright!"
Ranveer said, finally, resigning to her wishes, and his tired eyes away from
hers. "Don't look at me like that. I assume you don't mean to scare me?"
"You haven't promised
me yet!" Ishani retorted, ignoring his unnecessary questions.
"Alright!" Ranveer said,
and looked into her eyes as a strange seriousness took over the place; the
lights of the room shut down and the only source of the light were the candles
burning genially on the table before them as Ishani looked back into his eyes. She
felt he was looking things far away or perhaps deeper into her eyes where she
herself had never dared to look upon. He seemed to have been ransacking every
fiber of her soul that had entangled all her feelings and passions she held for
him, and she was helpless against him. How
could he do that everytime? "By my life and death," Ranveer said at length
while Ishani gulped, "I promise to be with you as long as you need me. Whenever
you'll call me, I will always be there by your side even if you cannot see me."
Ishani could not understand what he had really meant but she was somehow
relieved. When did he really answer any of her questions directly? She was glad
he didn't burst into the fits of laughter at her desperation of his promise;
rather his eyes radiated love that she had grown so much accustomed to and now she
felt she could look deeper into them without any hesitation.
"I don't get you," she
said lightly, after some time. "Why won't I be able to see you?"
"You have a different
life, Ishani, and I have my own. It's a truth that we were born with."
Ishani shook her head
twice. "We were born with nothing and world made us who we are. We don't have
to walk on the path they made and we can choose whatever we want."
Ranveer smiled. "Only
if it was that easy," he said, a heart-aching melancholy visible in his voice.
Despite not wanting to look
at anything else Ishani withdrew her eyes away from Ranveer's as she felt tears
burn in the corners of her eyes, but before she could move away from him,
Ranveer grabbed her hand and gently made her turn towards him. Ishani smiled, the
dim lights of the room appearing to be embellishing his handsome features. Ranveer
slowly moved towards her and Ishani closed her eyes as she felt the touch of
his lips on her forehead, pressing in a tender kiss. He did not immediately
break apart and she could feel him slowly smile, as though he knew what exactly
she felt, but he was afraid and she could tell this by the rapidity with which he
pulled himself apart in a few moments. Ishani stared at him but he kept quiet,
not meeting his eyes with hers. Ishani took his hand in hers and smiled again.
"I'm sorry," he said,
looking away from her.
"You don't have to be,"
Ishani answered slowly, gently squeezing his hand, and moving closer to him.
Ranveer looked at her,
their faces inches apart. "You don't know what you're asking for. It's not
possible."
"But why?" Ishani
asked, her voice slightly broken. A birthday kiss wasn't a big deal, and she
knew he loved her.
Ranveer moved out of
her embrace while Ishani looked at him uneasily. "If I did, I won't be able to stop,"
he said, an uncertain fear explicit in his tone.
I
don't want you to, Ishani wanted to say but didn't,
instead she looked at him, oblivious to state of time or anything connecting
her to the mortal world around her. Why did he have to be so chivalrous on
every occasion and everything? Why couldn't he see what she felt for him? And
most important, why was it wrong?
"Why do you have to be
like this?"
"Like what?"
"Nothing," Ishani said
and averted her gaze away. "Well, you know, Ranveer, you were the one who
ruined the happiest moment of my life?"
He looked at her,
confused, for a moment as if offended at her accusation. "Which one?"
Ishani couldn't keep
her cheeks from turning red and sighed. "Our first kiss," she said, looking downwards.
"Only if you hadn't been so chivalrous back then, things could never be that
bad. I would have died of the fear that you wouldn't talk to me for God knows
how long."
Ranveer gazed at her,
surprised, as if unable to believe what she had said, but he would say nothing
of the matter.
"What?" Ishani asked as
she found him looking at her.
"I'm sorry," he said. "I
never meant to scare you. It was just--"
"It was just that you
respected me so much, isn't it?"
Ranveer nodded and fell
silent. Ishani felt Ranveer's face looked pale and his eyes were heavy but even
at her continuous questions he did not say anything more than that he was getting
better now and she needed not worry. Her heart did not believe this.
"It was amazing," Ranveer
said after a while when Ishani was engaged in her thoughts, and Ranveer only gazed
at her. "I think I should leave now, and I have never had a better birthday.
Thank you." He turned back to leave.
"No," Ishani cried, pulling
him back. "I have to give you your gift. Just wait." Ishani did not move to
fetch anything, rather looked uncertainly about her and deliberately avoided looking
at him.
"I think I have had
many, and to be honest, everything I came across today is a surprise," Ranveer
said, and Ishani could see him slightly smile, his pale looking face hiding his
enthusiasm.
"Oh, no!" Ishani shook
her head. "It's the most important one... you've waited for it your whole life."
She felt her heart beat wildly as Ranveer looked back at her. It was the time. "Go
for it! Go for it!" a voice in her head cried while she gulped hard.
Ranveer looked
confused. "Have I?"
Ishani nodded and
opened her mouth to say something, but before she could utter a single word to
him, there was an abrupt sound of the doorbell on the door of the mansion as
though someone very impatient from nature had found his hands on the object. Ishani
excused herself and left the room. Ranveer felt as though he had been an
intruder in something he should have avoided otherwise for the newcomer gave very
cold vibes. But who could be at Ishani's place this time? Hopefully not a
troublemaker for her, he hoped. Ranveer was lost in his own thoughts when the
sound of hurried footsteps neared the cafe hall and Ishani's pleads were heard that
grew as she came closer to the place Ranveer was standing.
"There's nothing
there," Ishani said, but the footsteps did not halt. In the next couple of
minutes Ranveer noticed a familiar face gaping at him in utter shock, eyes emanating
a fierce dislike and lips curved in a most unpleasant of the grimace. His own heart
pounded in his chest anxiously while he managed to form two broken words. Another
shattered piece from his past had returned back. "Falguni Maa!"
he said, while Falguni's eyes widened in question.
"Maa!" Ishani came
hurriedly after her mother to tackle the situation while Ranveer gave a sigh of
relief.
"You said no one was
here?" Falguni raised her eyebrows at Ishani.
Ishani looked down.
"What is this, Ishani?"
Falguni yelled loudly. "What is Ranveer doing here?"
Ranveer looked at
Ishani whose head was still lowered down. Perhaps the mother-daughter needed to
talk things in private and it wouldn't really be good if he stayed here. "Ishani,
thank you... I'll be leaving now."
"No, you won't,"
Falguni interrupted coldly and Ranveer halted in his tracks. "What do you need
to get out of Ishani's life? Do you even realize what damage you've done to my
family and my daughters? Disha is still suffering from the consequences of your
monstrous acts! You've even ruined Ishani's life now? She was happy until you
came back and look what you've done! She has her relationship with Chirag
broken!" Falguni eyes Ranveer in disgust.
"Maa, no! It's nothing
like that!" Ishani cried while her mother only fumed at her.
"He is the worst
manipulator I have ever seen!" Falguni said to Ishani, her eyes glaring at
Ranveer hideously.
Ishani shook her head.
"No, Maa, please don't say that," she begged.
"If it's not so, why
did he get Chirag arrested in Mumbai?"
Ishani gasped in shock
while Falguni smiled viciously, hint of triumphant pride etched in her aging features.
"No!" Ishani said, and
looked at Ranveer.
"Why haven't you heard
anything from him in all these weeks? Oh, and he told me everything this friend
of yours did," Falguni said, pointing at Ranveer. "I hope this is the last time
you see her."
Ishani looked at
Ranveer again who did not meet his eyes with hers.
"Chirag, after all you have
done to him, is still ready to marry you, Ishani. You will never find someone
like him," Falguni said in a softened tone.
"In that case, Maa,"
Ishani said stiffly, "your judgment is completely wrong."
"Oh," Falguni jeered, "so
now even you are brainwashed by him, are you not? He never wanted to see you
two together. He never wanted to keep you for himself, and when he couldn't,
he..." Falguni hid her face in her hands, her voice heavy. "Ishani, you are
naive, innocent. You have no idea about people like him. Let him go! He was a
cheat, a rapist..."
"No!" Ishani screamed
again; and grabbing her by wrist, Ishani dragged her mother in the house
leaving Ranveer behind.
"Ishani, don't be such
a fool," Falguni said, freeing her hand from Ishani's grasp. "Don't you
remember what he did to Disha?"
"For God's sake, Maa,"
Ishani cried, exasperated. "Please get out of the past. There's nothing there.
Ranveer has been innocent all along and I know this. He never did anything to
Disha... he never did anything wrong to me. He was framed by others... How
could he do anything to Disha when he never ever touched me all this time? I have
never seen anyone respecting a woman like Ranveer does."
"He's not--" Falguni
said but was cut short by Ishani.
"You remember, Maa,
Papa always used to say Ranveer was the savior of our family? He has proved
this to be true again and again, and I'm sure Papa will be proud of him wherever
he is."
"You are being blind
because he has made you think so. He needed a chance and got it when he saw you
here and ever since he must be planning and plotting against you, against us.
People like him never forget what happened to them."
"On the contrary,"
Ishani said softly, "he has forgiven everyone who hurt him."
Falguni gave a careless
glance at Ishani and then looked away. "Why you might even be defending him so
much? I'm sure he was never more than a friend to you."
"I never knew," Ishani
said, her voice indistinct, "that he has meant much more to me than I ever
truly realized. He's life... he's..."
"He's your ex-driver too
and there's this fine line you must never cross!" Falguni interposed.
"Don't say that,"
Ishani pleaded.
"This is the truth,"
Falguni spoke, her voice cold. Ishani knew the betrayal from her first husband her
destroyed her mother's ability to understand the emotions like her, and she did
not blame her.
"I love him," Ishani said
slowly, closing her eyes as she felt a strange emotion hurtling over her
uncontrollably. "I love him, Maa, and this is another truth."
Falguni furrowed her
eyebrows as she turned Ishani forcefully to look at her. "Nonsense!" she
shrieked.
"No, it's the truth. I
have tried running away from him, from what I felt for him for so long but not
anymore," Ishani answered with a small smile.
"And you do know you
both can never be together?"
Ishani looked
disgruntled. "Why do you say that?"
"Because I will never
let him come close to you. I'll shield you from everyone who harms you."
Ishani wondered if her
mother was alright. Why did she need to protect her from Ranveer anyway? "As
long he is by my side, no harm will ever come to me. Trust me."
"You don't understand!"
Falguni said, looking at her daughter as though having detected a long hidden
flaw. "Ranveer is not the one for you."
"Maa, I think we have talked
over this enough already. Let's go and better you take some rest," Ishani said,
knowing her mother needed time.
"I'll take rest only
when that Ranveer's out of your life! I can't tolerate him anymore in your life
let alone you talking about him like a lovesick idiot."
Ishani groaned
inwardly. "That will never happen," she said at length. "We both love each
other."
"And you know what he
did for that love or have you forgotten that?"
"I remember
everything," Ishani shrieked, closing her eyes as memories of the past again
surfaced in her heart. "Maa, you have to trust me. He did nothing... he was
innocent. It was others who framed him... insulted him so that he..." The rest
was history but Falguni seemed to be unaffected by Ishani's pleads, for her stern
features never softened.
"Nonsense!"
"No, it all does make
sense. Even Papa knew about Ranveer... and it was Ranveer who had asked him not
to take any action against Disha or Chirag because he loved me so much. He
loved us so much. He respected Papa so much. And you know what, Maa? Ranveer
has done everything for us what Papa would have done had he been with us. I
cannot forget how he saved this cafe from someone working for Zaveri uncle. He
saved the company from Zaveri uncle himself; and needless to say, he saved me
from Chirag. And Chirag most certainly is not the one you believed him to be
all these years. Ranveer had promised Papa to get me married to someone who
would love me but he knew Chirag was not the one and it was I being a blind
fool all the time while he only had to pay for loving me so much."
Falguni had suddenly
fallen silent and Ishani thought she could go on without being interrupted by
her mother.
"Papa trusted Ranveer and
it wasn't without a reason. He was the only one who knew the truth all along
but Ranveer had asked him never to say anything to us. Perhaps he wanted to
stay away from me as much as possible." She said the last words more to herself
than her mother. "Still he came back. For me. For Papa. You know what, Maa? Ranveer
loves me so much that it hurts. I never thought anyone could love me the way he
does. It's always a girl's dream to be loved so deeply and I'm the luckiest woman
in the world because I have Ranveer and he loves me. If I can return tiniest
bit of love he has for me, I'll have achieved an impossible feat."
Ishani felt Falguni sniff
the air but she said nothing. Ishani continued. "It's his birthday today and I
wanted him to know what I felt for him; that his love wasn't one-sided anymore.
Couldn't it have made for an excellent gift for him? I wish I could have said
this to him today but I know he has left already. And he won't be mad either at
me or you. I don't know how but he knows to forgive everyone. He forgave Zaveri
uncle too... or perhaps not. We never talked about it... But he was never angry
whenever I mentioned Zaveri uncle's name and he held no grudge against him. He wanted
me to forgive Disha and Baa as well for what they did to him. How could I? I
don't know how he can love so much. Maa, if you really, really do love me, please
don't think of separating me from him. We'll not be able to live without each
other."
Falguni was still
silent and Ishani did not like it. Her mother's eyes were fixed on her the
entire time Ishani spoke as though scrutinizing the truths in her words. But
she knew she hated Ranveer and this journey now wasn't easy. Falguni sighed as
though having decided something that she would not say and Ishani stared at her
mother for any hint of response. She got none.
"I think I need some
rest," Falguni said at last and Ishani nodded, fearing the silence could be
more dangerous than her reproachful words, but for now it would do.
Falguni had retired to her
room while Ishani lay sleepless on her bed after 2 hours of the incident, her
eyes staring the ceiling above vacantly. A streak of the moonlight gushed into
the room, smearing her entire self while tears cascaded out of her eyes frequently.
Ishani sobbed as she read the note 15th time and held it closer to
her heart again.
Thank
you so much, Ishani. This birthday has been a very special one and certainly the
closest to my heart. I will cherish our moments for the rest of my life. Don't
be sad for anything that happened today. Sooner or later it was meant to
happen. Falguni
Maa, Baa and everyone at home was
going to know about it one day or another. You cannot hide the truth, but
perhaps it should not have come out this way. Anyway, don't think of the matter
too deeply.
Take
care and don't stress over anything. I was called for an urgent meeting, and might
not be available until this morning. My apologies for leaving like this but I
hope you will understand.
Ranveer
Ishani kept the letter
as close to her heart as possible. As soon as Falguni had gone to her room, Ishani
had checked the cafe, hoping that perhaps Ranveer would be there but he wasn't
and she had found this little note from him, tucked under a box on their table.
Ishani noticed a scrawl on the paper below as if Ranveer had wanted to write
something more but hadn't. What could it be and why hadn't he finished it? This
was not the only mystery Ishani was fighting with tonight but she didn't know
why, but something else too felt wrong. Perhaps it was her instinct which she feared
and her mother's arrival proved it to be true as well. Or perhaps there was
something more: something related to Ranveer. He was happy, but she felt he was
hiding something. Why did she feel so? His eyes never lied and that crinkle in
them was an evidence he was happy to be here. Why couldn't she put her finger
on what could be wrong? Perhaps after tonight's fiasco her brain was playing
tricks with her. If so, why she couldn't bring herself to believe the same
thing as well?
Her eyes fell on the photo
of Ranveer's as she picked it up. It needed no mention what was missing from
him today that tortured her: his exultant spirit everytime she wished him and they
celebrated his birthday together.
"I love you, Ranveer,"
she whispered to the photo while tears sparkled in her eyes. It was meant to be
his day but things had again gone ugly for him. Why did this have to happen on
this day only? She had wanted to see his face when she told him about her
feelings that she had loved him just like he loved her. She had played the
moments again and again in her mind, wondering how would he really react, but when
the time came it all had been in vain. He wouldn't have been able to believe anything
she said and probably he would have taken her in a tight embrace. Perhaps he
would have kissed her: something he hadn't done yet. Ishani smiled slightly
through the tears of agony. She hoped she could capture all his reactions somewhere
to keep them safe for the rest of their lives. How strange it was truly. Loving
your best friend and never knowing it. She knew what he had been going through all
those years when she was unaware of his feelings but now she wouldn't let him
fight anything alone. Even shadows leave when it's dark; she wanted to be his
soul so that she lived with him all the time; in this world and another too. Just
like two soulmates are. They don't just complete each other: they are each other. A part of her lived
within him ever since they had met, and his had lived within her. That's why
she felt so lifeless and empty without him and probably just like him she too
loved him since the moment she had seen him. How she came to get so used to him
she never knew, but tonight all her questions had been answered. The answer of
all of her questions was Love. She loved him. What else could it be?
Ishani sighed. The
night was wearing on and soon the dawn would break through, gleaming at the
dewy leaves and illuminating the darkened hearts and it would be the day when
she would tell Ranveer that their hearts were not meant to be remain broken
anymore. She would be by his side for the rest of their lives. She would love
him, heal him and protect him from anyone who tried to hurt him. He had fought
enough within himself for her and those he had loved but now he didn't have to
be alone or pretending to be strong for she will be his strength. His life and all
he would have hoped from life. Oh, no. It wasn't a big deal to know what he
might have hoped from his life. When
did he really bother with himself whenever it came to his own happiness? Ishani's
heart clenched deeply as the realization of her own thoughts struck her and she
wondered how could she truly be loved by someone so much, so deeply and so
dearly. He loved her as though capturing her soul to heal it from all the
wounds and sorrows of the world that tormented her everyday but at the same
time he had set her free to wander in the realm of light where only happiness
dwelt. What price he would have had to pay for all her happiness she could not
think but she wanted to be with him and be his light, life and everything he
had been devoid of all his life. If it all was a dream and she were a part of
it, she wouldn't be surprised a bit if she found it broken in the morning, but if
not, she would cherish these moments forever.
Ishani kissed the
photograph of Ranveer's as her eyes devoured his last genuinely happy smile she
had seen and slowly felt drifting off into a delicious sleep. She could feel
herself being wrapped up in his arms and listening to a song flowing through
the thin air in the midnight
of the warm summer.
Lying beside you
Listening to you breathe
The life that flows inside of you
Burns inside of me
Hold and speak to me
Of love without a sound
Tell me you will live through this
And I will die for you
Cast me not away
Say you'll be with me
For I know I cannot
Bear it all alone
You're not alone honey.
Never... Never.
When the song came to
an end, Ishani had already fallen asleep, her lips curved in a tender smile and
moonlight pouring in with such intensity as though sharing in with all her
happiness as the sole witness of her love.
A simple note: Any guesses about why
Ranveer was surprised when Ishani questioned him about their first kiss? Not
that it's very important thing to be remembered by Ranveer himself but since Chirag
had pretended something horrible after his exposure in front of Ranveer, I
think, this bit of revelation was quite necessary that the moment that was most
special for him, was just as special and new for her. I know crazy... xD
Edited by Elvish_Hobbit - 7 years ago
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