I didnt win the Silver, I lost Gold (Imp Note Updated) - Page 3

So Sorry for being this late in updating. Some personal reasons and also assignment submissions took a toll on me that I couldn't write. I planned it to be an OS, but now I am turning it into a TS. A two/three shot. Below I have updated a small part. I will update a longer one sooner. Sorry for they delay. Just i am held up with back pain and assignments.

I hope you will enjoy this ride with me. Lemme know, how you like it.

Not proofread. Apologies for any mistake.

-Shravs😳

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Part 1

After nearly 8 years, I am coming back to where once I belonged and was beloved. Today when I am getting back, I understand how much, I craved for this paradise. This is where, I belong. But, today, I am going to be an uninvited, unwanted, undesired, unwelcomed, unlucky and a person with bad omen. I am going to see hatred in the eyes of people once I use to see immense love for me, I don't have it in me to face such hatred, when I just want is a mere acceptance. I don't have it in me to wish Love anymore. With all these thoughts clouding my mind, I get out of the airport. I see everyone has someone who had come to receive them, Now, it is a long lost dream to call someone my family with all authority. I am an orphan, I remind myself.

Can you go to Mayur Vihar?

Yes Mam, get it.

Many things has changed, the city looks different to me. I don't believe it, just in eight years of time, I have become a complete stranger to this place and this place has become a complete stranger to me.

Where do you wanna go in Mayur Vihar Mam?

Akash Ganga Society.

Which phase?

Phase?

Are you new here mam?

Yes, kind of.

There are to Akash Ganga societies mam, New Phase I and Old Phase II. Which one do you want to go?

Go to old phase.

I realise everything has changed now. Nothing is going to be the same. I am apprehensive of the reactions from my family. If the other day, I wouldn't have got the bad dream, I don't think I would be here. It was not bad dream, it was the worst nightmare I could ever see.

Madam... This is the place you asked for.

Thank you. How much?

Here's your bill.

I just step down from the cab, look around, and I realise I have many memories floating in. Suddenly I feel nostalgic. Memories with ruhi, appa, amma, mummyji, papaji, lohri, romi, simmi, holi... vandu akka, mihika, jiju... I never knew I missed this place and these people this much. I won't mind this being my last day of life seeing all of them leading a happy and peaceful life. I chide myself for the first time, I should have known about them, about their lives, I should have cared enough to know how are they doing, how did they pull off ruhi's demise, I should have cared enough... yet again I prove myself how bad I can get as a person. A sweet voice makes me come out of my stupor.

"Aunty "

I turn around, to get the shock of my life. I see my Ruhi, she is smiling at me. Like the very first time she did after blessing me. My Ruhi is alive, she is here... Am I hallucinating??? I wipe my eyes to clear my blurred vision. I went to my knees to touch my ruhi, to feel my ruhi, to hug her tight, to never let go of her...

"Ruhii... My Baby... Ruuu..."

I call ever so lovingly, I hug her tight, letting go off my pain of missing, my pain of losing, my pain of giving up on her. I cry vigorously, i realise even Ruhi has started crying... I couldn't hear much, As I am not able to process, I am numb. I scared my baby again... I try to control my sobs and try to assure her, everything is good... She pushes me off with as much strength she has probably with her tiny hands. I let go off her... She backs of... Crying ...

"Ruhi..." I open my arms to her. Whenever I use to do that, my baby use to come running to me. But today that is not the case, She is scared of me, I see confusion and fright in her eyes. I believe she is as much astonished and shocked as I am, to have suddenly seen me alive.

"Ruhi... Come to Ishima... Come beta... Come to me..."

I try again and I see her confusion increases. She shouts back at me...

"I am not Ruhi... How many times should I tell you?? Are you mad Aunty?? "

"Ruhi... I am Ishima baby... Did you forget me?"

I don't understand. Is she angry on me?

"Are you angry on me Ruhi... I am sorry babu... I am very very sorry... I promise, I will never leave you... I don't have it in me to leave without you ... Ruhi you are my life... I cannot live without you..."

"Aunty... I am not Ruhi... I am Pihu... Pihu Raman Kumar Bhalla... You are that Madrasi Dadi's daughter right?"

"..."

Before I could process what she just told me, I hear my Mummyji...

"Puhi... Puttar... Dhoop main kya khel rhi hain... Ghar aajaa puttar... "

"Mummyjiii..."

I turn around... I see, she is shocked beyond words... Her eyes welled up and her lips curved into a smile. I go running to her and hug her tight. She hugs me back with equal vigor.

"Mummyjiii... "

I call her ever so lovingly. She hugs me back, pulls me to her. She cries her heart out. I hug her as tight as I can mumbling tonnes of sorry.

To be continued...

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