Denial - Page 2

@ ginak...i don't write anything apart from my blogs, which are so also severely starved of content right now, cos like i mentioned to sareeta, i lack originality which she has in abundance!!! and i can never come up with ideas to write on. on that note here's something i penned long back...

I can give you borrowed lines
Stolen anecdotes
I can quote great men
Or give you yesterday's stale gossip
Don't come to me
For original thoughts
I have none.

thanks for the appreciation tho and before spirit whacks me, lets get back to denial. in a highly poetic mood today (tho my poems also read like prose, curt and staccato), so am gonna give as many as i can on denial....

Ok this is semi erotic, if its not suitable, let me know, will delete it...but its kinda old and one of my favorites and was also apt...

Denied...

No she will not let me hear
Her silence.
Nor the gentle songs
Of her soft breathing.
I am denied the rest
Under the shade of her infinite eyes.
Those that took away
The dreary pain of long years.
I endure silently
Not sliding down her soft tresses.
Not seeing the world seated on her shoulder.
I am denied romantic jaunts around her breasts
And lunches on her navel.

Originally posted by: vaarti

@ ginak...i don't write anything apart from my blogs, which are so also severely starved of content right now, cos like i mentioned to sareeta, i lack originality which she has in abundance!!! and i can never come up with ideas to write on. on that note here's something i penned long back...

I can give you borrowed lines
Stolen anecdotes
I can quote great men
Or give you yesterday's stale gossip
Don't come to me
For original thoughts
I have none.

thanks for the appreciation tho and before spirit whacks me, lets get back to denial. in a highly poetic mood today (tho my poems also read like prose, curt and staccato), so am gonna give as many as i can on denial....

Would love to read your blog 😳 if not being too persistent. I like your spare, curt style. You write with such an economy of words and yet manage to convey so much that is what I like so much.

Originally posted by: spirit

Denial

For in dark, cold nights; When silence roars in my ears

I like a desolate voyager roam amidst the chaos of my being

I shuffle constantly between the threads of my heart and the mind

Struggling to decipher the meanings, or rather choosing not to try!

What if- My fears- of being exposed to my real self emerge yet again?

Lest' I understand the meanings of those little nothings!

So, I tuck my emotions away, the doors closed; no more- just go away!

Distance myself from your touch, as it's the key that opens my heart up

And yet…

No matter how much I try to remove your thoughts from my mind,

As much as I deny, you your space in my life –

I admit I am fighting a losing battle, for that's where you are

When I see, and also every time I close my eyes!

Sometimes we fight a battle within ourselves...denying your feelings is something that happens to a lot of people. Sometimes you feel you lose your sense of control when your accept that someone else makes your world go crazy. I think its natural. I guess its some sort of ego thing. I am sure some of the better writers in our forum would explain about the tussle between EGO and LOVE...is anyone listening?

Oops sorry for digressing from your post. Beautifully written. I love the imagery (not too much of lit person just a reader so pardon me if I am wrong or inappropriate anywhere).

@ spirit...better writers??? how dare u count yourself out!!! that was brilliantly said.

my two cents on the eternal love-ego struggle...a repeat from my post on sense of humour, but relevant here so will post anyway!!!

much as we hate to admit it, the first signs of love are always physical. because studies have shown repeatedly that love is in fact a chemical reaction and is all about two bodies connecting. so when armaan is hit smack in the face with the image of ridz innocently drying her hair by the blaze of a fire that threatens to burn him, he is suddenly aware of this alien emotion he has never experienced before...

the initial reciprocation is just a fanning of the ego. you are interested in the person who is interested in you, cos he/she has flattered your sense of self. beautifully explored here, because if you notice, till armaan and ridz share their sizzling staircase chemistry, ridz is totally unaware of the fatal charms of this guy. he showers her with tentative compliments and suddenly boom...his touch bothers her, his gaze troubles her, his voice affect her deeply...ego stoked...nothing more!!!

with all this of course is the awareness and acute sensibility that of all emotions, love makes you the most vulnerable. instinctively, as you would throw out your arms to break a fall, you build walls of denial around you to save you the pain that love could cause. love leads to a total loss of individuality. if nurtured, it is the most beautiful experience of your life, if spurred, it could potentially destroy you and your heart has a natural defence mecahnism set in place to avoid just that!!

and what is ego if not just a sense of self. so the first reaction to the sparks of love is always self preservation..denial...and with that an immediate desire to be more egoistic, big headed and cocky than ever before. your mind is trying desperately to protect you from this sudden invasion of your heart.

and you deny and you deny and you deny...till you can't anymore and that's when you becoming the bumbling fool that everyone in love does. ego? u soon forget what that word ever meant!!!!

Hello everyone,

Thank you so much for liking my post, just wanted to give my take on the current A-R thing. I will reply to your wonderful reply post asap!...slightly caught up at work.
Sorry for my late response..

😊

Hi Everyone,

wow…seriously I wasn't expecting such a response. I am mesmerized reading your post, I think its another addiction in the brewing because I can't seem to get enough of them; find myself hopelessly going through each page trying to catch up on what you all have to say! Have been this silent reader for long but just couldn't resist posting my own thoughts for a change.

Just the way everyone here talks about these moments, makes you re-fall in love with our protagonists again and again. Of course their amazing screen presence specially when they are together does a trick or two too.

@Sareeta, still waiting for your post…

@Nottygarfield…thank you

@Ginak, plz feel free to give your comments, no need to feel bad…about anything. I just love reading all these responses…thank you and I loved reading your take on my post, so true when you say,
"It is not easy to submit to having ones world turned upside down and undergo a tumult of emotions over which you have no control and which really makes you feel so lost."

@Vaarti…wow you are too brilliant, no wonder, you are doing on Ph.D on literature right? Just a thought, how good is DMG? If we have people like you discussing it! But seriously, all of your stuff is just awesome! You mentioned something about your blog, is it still up, would love to read more of your words.

So I'll take it as a complement, when you say "@ spirit...better writers??? how dare u count yourself out!!! that was brilliantly said." Really you've made my day here.

I couldn't agree with you more when you say,
" and what is ego if not just a sense of self. so the first reaction to the sparks of love is always self preservation..denial...and with that an immediate desire to be more egoistic, big headed and cocky than ever before. your mind is trying desperately to protect you from this sudden invasion of your heart."

Take care everyone and keep posting!

Hi!

Greatly written Spirit... Loved reading it... You, Sareeta and Community_Drive (any others that i missed i'm sorry! 😊 write some great posts...

Love, Hope & Best Wishes

@ spirit...have finished that phd...thanks so much...