Swaron os - Fading Away

Sitting at the far corner of bar, I felt an uneasy chill run down my spine. Before I could see him, I knew he is here, somewhere, not far away from me, but, where? My eyes started scanning the whole room, when it came to halt at his. And everything came to cease, like world has narrowed between us. He was at far end of the room. He was his himself brooding sexy as ever. As the night fall by every passing minute, I felt getting drowned to him. He was a magnetic pull, My lips parted subconsciously, my breathe getting erratic, under his gaze. It's unnerving! Without touching, how can he have this effect on me?

I smiled at him; don't know what to do more. But as soon as my smile came, it vanished in thin air. All the colors from my face drained, when I looked past him, a figure stood beside him, holding his hand. Oh, so he is not alone! There's a girl, a date to be more precise. How silly of me, to expect him to be alone, of course he will be with a date. There's no reason for him to come alone. He is handsome, stinking rich, sexy as f**k. I gave a disgusting look to his date before tearing my gaze from them.

I was on my third drink. Today I wanted to get myself drunk. He was looking straight at me, his face was impassive; nothing giving away, his eyes had a strange but familiar expression what... Anger? Maybe, concern too? Why? My eyelids were getting heavy; I peered more cautiously to look at him. With his wide eyes, he was trying to convey something to me. But I couldn't fathom what? Then it dawned at me, my third drink. I am drinking from long and he might be mad at me. But why I do care. He is history now. I can do whatever I want, right? He doesn't affect me.

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I stood up feeling sick, seeing the love of your life making out with someone else, the nausea hit me hard and i strolled faster to get out of here. The surrounding was suffocating me. How ironic it is! Once who was the reason of my each breathing; now his presence suffocates me. I walked outside the bar, stumbling along, when something caught me, a hand on my waist, holding me at place, his gripped tightened around me, not letting me fall. I sighed in contentment. Swayam, my love, he's here.

I smiled, closing my eyes, savoring his touch. He smelt sweet more like Swayam, for a moment i want to bury myself in him and just forget everything but us. But the moment can't last forever and it doesn't. The bubble doesn't burst but evaporated, leaving me back in real world.

I looked at him closely, blinking my eyes for few seconds to adjust my gaze at him; drinking in his beautiful feature, his tiny nose, i tapped at it and suddenly a giggle aroused in my throat.

I start giggling loudly this time and I can't stop it.

"Sharon? Are you ok?" as Swayam shakes me, my giggling fit to ceases. The vague alcoholic fuzziness evaporates. His voice was soft and soothing; he's almost serene... expectant. I felt all my pains washing away. I kept looking at him, his muscles tense, his face impassive as ever, his eyes showing something but this time it's not anger... it's... fear.?

I reached my hands up to caress his face, but stopped midair, when realization hit me. He is no more mine. Awkwardly I moved back few step, but he didn't let go of my hand.

"Are you fine?" He asked me again his eyes searching mine, his voice full of concern, for a moment he looked worried ...helpless, I want to say so much to him, how I can be fine without him, but for the first time I didn't knew words could be so heavy.

I stared at him, seeing the concern written over his face, my heart swelled what I have done to this man, and he doesn't deserve it. He has loved me with all his heart and soul and I had always broken his heart. I was going to say, what I wanted to say him from long, but word ceased in my throat when I saw her.

"Swayam what are you doing there?" his date called out.

I gave him my half-hearted smile before turning on heals and walking away from him, all my hopes burned down, leaving behind the remnant traces of ashes which disappeared quickly like all my dreams as I was slowly fading away into this ghostly night.

Happy New Year to all... 2015 has been a busy year for me, with all my classes and everything I had been inactive here. So, firstly I thought to clear my pending works. This One-Sot I had written long time back, but didn't got time to post. So, here I am. Hope you all like it.

Do leave your feedbacks.

Hope you all have a wonderful year ahead.

Lots of love.

-Shivani

Then he caught her was nice ,but best was her feelings ,how she was happy in his presence before and now she is suffocated by the same!👏

Loved this OS. Happy New Year to you as well. May you have a great year and also a less busy one!🤗

Sharon's feelings ,her yearning for him ,the regret she felt for pushing him away from her ,the way it ripped her heart to see him with someone else ,was very well potrayed.

Amidst all the longing, you kept the essence of Sharon's character intact and that could be seen when she simply walked away keeping those unsaid words in her heart yet again !

The idea of Swayam moving on is difficult to digest but the Sharon you showed here makes you believe that it can be true. She was that overpowering.

Good job:)

Happy new year :)

Shivani this was beautiful..

Typical Sharon who has so much inside but never let's anyone see beyond what she wants them to see

And ever so caring swayum.

A perfect combo..

Unsaid end with apt words..

Beautiful

but shar alone and he moved on

you had written amazing

but you had posted it as new year so it should be happy one par yaha pe toh ...

HAPPY NEW YEAR

beautiful piece of writing... but plz write some happy ending stuff also plz...