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Hey everyone. I am here to disturb you all with my version of what I would have loved to see happen in the recent episodes. Hope you all will like it. And really sorry if it does not meet your expectations.
This one is dedicated to Sakura. A really nice friend I found here. And of course because she has given us some really beautiful stories to read.
It was like the world has stopped , everyone and everything was frozen . You know this movie sequences when we can see everything happening in slow motion. That is what was happening with Swara.
Tears filled her eyes as she saw the scene unfolding in front of her. She wanted it to end. The torture to end. But it was like everything was moving painfully slow. She noticed every movement , every expression. She read silently all the words those eyes spoke. The eyes she fell for. She saw the care, surprise , relief until all she could see were some blurred images , broken images.
The moment Kavita had ran into his arms , the moment she had seen the look on his face , that same moment she had realized that this girl is none other than her husband's first love, the girl for whom he turned the world upside down , the girl for whom he made his own family suffer.
Now slowly as her eyes were losing clarity , her heart felt much more clearer to read. Afterall it is pain who shows the mirror to our true feelings. Her heart was again on the verge of breaking. She was scared, terrified . Was she going to lose Sanskaar all over again ? She did not want to. She would never want to. But the fates were well known to be cruel.
Swara realized what Ragini must have felt like. She was feeling the same burn, hatred towards a girl she barely knew. Swara wanted to pry her away from Sanskaar , to strangle her. But the urge to run from there overtook her. One more second of this and she would have collapsed right there. The symbol of her love, her marriage, slipped from her hand. She never realized that a pair of eyes were constantly looking in her direction because she was finding relief in her lowered head and tear filled eyes. She did not want to see any of it.
To say Sanskaar was shocked would be understatement. He was at loss of words. The moment he saw Kavita , his past life flashed in front of his eyes. Those days , filled with love , laughter and the day when he lost it all. The guilt had always been there inside him , he had felt responsible for her death, supposed death. As he saw her running towards him , he felt a Little guilt ridden. The Sanskaar who loved Kavita would have ran towards her and engulfed her in his arms but this one stayed fixed at his place. He searched inside him for the enormous amount of space Kavita held in his heart but all he could find was a corner, for all the rest of it had been registered on someone else's name already.
As a force jerked his body , his eyes started moving around rapidly. While the girl he once loved had wrapped herself around him, he was desperately looking for the one he loves. And as his heart finally found it's heartbeat , he heard something break.
He felt as if his heart had broken into a million pieces as he saw the tear filled , scared eyes of his wife. He was heartbroken seeing Swara go through all this. He was scared of the pain it would be causing her. He was scared of hurting her. She had already once lost the guy she loved and he did not want to imagine the pain she would be going through right now.
He wanted to run, to engulf her in his arms , wipe her tears and whisper in her ears that "_Swara , you will not lose me. I am here. I love you and noone else." But it was like his feet were frozen. He was not able utter a word , rather than move.
He could see her head hung low. Her red eyes. He felt angry for making her cry. It was not like that he was not moving so as to protect Kavita from a heartbreak, all that mattered to him right now was Swara and none other but he was stuck. Stucked there to watch her suffer. He saw the black beaded ornament , the ornament that gave a name to their love slip out of her hands.
He closed his eyes for a second , not able to bear the view in front and the moment he oppened them , she was gone. He looked around , all eyes were on him but she had just dissapeared.
Swara silently slipped out , and reached out in the open night sky. She wanted to be free of this and she wanted to free him. The best way was to melt away in the shadows of the beautiful new year night.
Sanskaar jerked out Kavita from his arms who gave him a shocked looked in return but he could care less. He raced down the hallway , searching frantically for Swara. But all he saw were cold stares. He reached down and picked up the beautifully carved chain and turned to the person who always had the best answers.
" Maa.."
" I don't know where Shona is Sanskaar. She will come back. I am sure about it. Give her some time."
" No Maa. I cannot lose more time. I am going to find her. I need her back. I want her back. Please inform me if she contacts."
Sanskaar rushed out of there not even bothering to glance at any one standing around.
" Let Sanskaar bring back Swara. Atleast she is half marwari. I do not want this full bengali girl as my daughter-in-law."
"Sujata.. !"
"Okay. Okay. I was not saying anything wrong. Swara is prettier."
"Sujata... Shut your mouth.!"
"Fine. Okay. I will be quiet."
"She could not have gone very far." Sanskaar thought as went out in his car, desperate to bring Swara back.
He had been driving around for an hour, constantly calling her but there was no trace of her's. He came back home as someone inside him continued to poke him , saying things like - she is much more closer than you think.
As he parked his car , his eyes started wandering around. Taking in the beauty of the night and the garden around his house , he huffed. He was not able to understand why he wanted to look around. It was as if some invisible force was pulling him.
" Why the hell she will be here. She will want to run away , not lurk in the shadows of her own house." Sanskaar chided himself as he continued to walk inside. It was then something caught his eyes , rather someone caught his eyes.
" I was going round the city on the quest to find her and here she is , in my own house." He huffed and started gliding towards her.
He came to a stop just beside her but she never noticed. Tears were silently running down her cheeks as she continued to stare at the sky. He saw her phone beside her and again gave a call. Her phone came to life but silence there was. As he opened his mouth to speak ...
" I couldn't leave Sanskaar. I wanted to run , go far away. I wanted to give you your happiness which lies with her. But I was just not able to. I am so sorry Sanskaar..."
" Swara.."
" I am really selfish Sanskaar, aren't I? I saw the way you looked at her , I know how much you love her and still I am here , not ready to leave you for myself. First I used you to keep intact my family and now I don't want to leave you to keep my own heart from falling apart again. This is so selfish of me." Swara shivered as she spoke these words.
Sanskaar slumped down beside her and turned her face towards. Wiping away her tears with his ever present hanky , he cupped her face and looking directly in her eyes he spoke softly ,
" You are not selfish Swara. You have all the rights to keep me for your own self. You are my wife. And I am no object to trade away. If there would have been any one else in your place , the first thing she would have done was to give me a tight slap , scream at me for even hugging a girl . You understood the situation Swara."
Swara stared at him , trying to find the reason as to what she did to get him to love her this much.
" You are not wrong Swara. Demand for what is already is yours is not selfishness. I loved Kavita and that is a truth that will always be there but remember that I love you. She was my first love but you Swara , you are my last. There is no need to sacrifice anything Swara. Because I do not want to go back to her. I am yours forever."
" So you are not divorcing me ? "
" Oh my God you naive girl. What was I blabbering for the last time 15 minutes ? If I can recall perfectly , I said that I have fallen deeply and irrevocably in love with you and I am not leaving. Have you gone deaf ?"
Swara broke out in a grin. "Shut up Sanskaar. But what about those divorce papers ?"
" Oh do not worry about them. The last time I remember seeing them , they were engulfed in dancing orange flames. "
Sanskaar kissed her cheeks and whispered silently " I love you Swara and don't you ever dare leave. Learn to fight for what is yours and I will never mind."
Swara wrapped her arms around his neck and whispered " I love you too Sanskaar, and I have been saying this for days. I am not going anywhere , not after I am finally with you."
She wrapped herself around him as he buried his head in the crook of her neck. They stayed like that for what felt like eternity. The new year has brought in new hopes. Seeing them happy the world laughed as the moon seemed to glow more , the stars twinkled more ...
" Sanskaar..."
"Hmmm.."
" I will not lie but I wanted to strangle her."
" What !"
" Oh , do not worry. My values ride above. It was just that my wife mode kicked in."
"Oh .."
" But Sanskaar.."
" What Swara?"
" What if I would have became Ragini part 2 ?"
" One is more than enough Swara. I am already dealing with a idiot and another pshyco sister. I do not want two of the latter."
" Hmmm. Wait ! What did you call me ? You called me idiot!"
" No, I did not."
" Yes you did."
" No ,...
I am so not happy with the current storyline. But anyways I hope you all enjoyed it. Do tell me.
Happy New Year...
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