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"I am losing Nandini from my memory"..I am losing Nandini...and i am losing myself. I am forgetting Nandini and i can't let that happen. How will i live ? How will i survive ? "She's my life."...she is everything. She is N in my name that makes MaNik. She is Nan in Manan that completes me. When she came into my life...she brought the glow of her fireflies...the light that pulled me out of the darkness. How can i be thrust back into the darkness ? "I can't forget her." Forgetting her is forgetting how to live..and honestly, i have just started living. I was this lost, lonely boy who wore the mask of a monster.She came and tore that mask off and now I get to live as Manik..her Manik. I need to be able to be her Manik.
"She's the most beautiful memory of mine." It was her memories that kept me alive in the months i spent apart from her. Every moment i have spent with her...i cherish every moment of it. And i need those memories. I need every single memory of her.
When i first saved her fireflies..and they glowed. I need the memory of that first touch. I need the magic she is.
When she first punched me...I need that memory because i need to remember the journey from the punch to the kiss. I need the memory of our journey to Hamesha.
When she first fought the darkness away for me in that store room. i need that memory..in that moment, she saved me from the darkness, and became the light of my existence.
When I first hugged her, pulled her into my arms..I need the memory of her comforting touch. Because from that moment on, she has always be there for me..hamesha. She holds me together and I cannot lose her.
When we first watched the stars together and she promised to shine for me...I need the memory of our first Hamesha.
When we first danced together...i need that memory..the memory of this 'maybe being love."
When we first kissed...that moment she promised to keep me in her prayers, the moment she promised to shine for me.. I need those memories.
When we first celebrated holi together..the moment i coloured you in the colour of my love..i need that memory because red never looked so beautiful. When we first celebrated diwali together and you gifted me light. i need that memory because without it, I am going to be lost.
And those memories we celebrated love..togetherness...life. I need those memories. The memories of our 'breaks'..the memories of our 'breakups' and our 'getting back together.' I need those memories because those memories have only shown me a tiny glimpse of living without her and now i know i can't live without her. Don't you understand ? I can't lose her..
When i first told her i love her...with an egg. I need that memory of promising hamesha . That moment of white..of the purity of our love. I really need that moment. It's one of my favourite memories, just like all the other memories of her.
When she first told me she loves me...the moment she was strong enough to say it..i need that memory..that moment our world was the colour of love..the love of Manan.
When her fireflies and my stars met..the moment they came together to celebrate us. I need that moment. I need that memory.
I need those memories...our memories. I need every memory of her...of us. Because i can't lose her. I can't lose us. I need us..because Manan is forever...hamesha.
- Manik Maltorta.
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