Ishra FF||A Contract Of Love 7|| Chapter 79 ~ Chapter 93 - Page 10

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Hey everyone! Thank you so much for the huge response on the last update! 80 likes?!😲😳 Am so happy and surprised at this! Can't thank you all enough for this love as well as for being so understanding. I'm so sorry for taking so long to update. I was just unable to update as my mind was on something else happening in life and it was putting of my mood and motivation, but today I was feeling better and was able to write. However I was only able to manage a small update this time. Sorry in advance. Here is the tiny update...

All this while she had thought maybe he wasn't upset with her as much when she had tried to explain her situation to him and her happiness over his decision, but she knew now that though he was quiet and didn't react to her words didn't mean he wasn't upset, it just meant he was way too hurt...

She went behind him entering their house where he threw his keys onto the table and walked into his mother's room without a word. Taking a fast asleep Ruhi in his arms, he walked straight into their room only asking her to come and sleep since it was late. She followed him and went into their room shutting the door behind them. He quickly put Ruhi in her crib and took his clothes to change.

Left alone, she sat by Ruhi's crib gently swaying it as she cried at her own mistakes. She wished she could go back in time, just a few hours back and had gotten those few words out of her mouth that would tell him the truth he had found out himself.

She had made a mistake no doubt, but was it really that bad that she deserved to be ignored by him. She had wanted to tell him, wanted to let out a burden she carried, to share everything with him like they had always done. But her sister had almost begged her not to tell and had convinced her that Raman wouldn't be happy knowing about them. All she had wanted was to make sure Raman would accept her sister's love and she would have told him that instant. But that moment never came, or maybe it and she just wasn't able to see through him enough.

Wiping her tears, she knew he was right, he would have made the decision he had at any time, it was her inability to understand him and trust him with this. She had tried to balance her role as a sister and a wife, but she had not been able to. The wife in her had failed...

Breaking her chain of thoughts, Ruhi softly cooed in her sleep. Looking down at her daughter, she carefully wiped off the tear that had fallen on her cheek. Ruhi grabbed her finger with her tiny hand as if giving her an assurance that everything will be okay. Running her hand over her head, she kissed her daughter while she let her finger be captured by the infant while she whispered to her sleeping figure...

"I love you so much."

She heard his footsteps behind her and got up only to see him walk out onto the balcony simply looking back at her and telling her not to come behind him. As he stepped onto the balcony, she knew it was best to leave him alone and only wait until he had his time to think in peace. She quietly went to change keeping her eyes on him as she slowly walked away...

When she came back, he was still outside sitting on the balcony. With his eyes shut, she could still imagine the tears in them and though no expression on his face, she could imagine his hurt. Not caring about what he would say, she walked out to the balcony only to see cigarette buds lying on the balcony in front of him and another in his mouth. Startled to see her outside, he opened his eyes while she snatched the cigarette from his mouth throwing it out...

"Okay it's enough now!" She yelled him while he was in no mood to be yelled at.

"I told you to be inside, can you do at least do that for me?! Or do you not trust me to be out here either?!" Her face softened as his words just reflected everything he was feeling. Taking a deep breath, she held his arm and tried to start a conversation with him...

"Raman...listen..."

"I don't want to hear it Ishita." He walked into their room while she wasn't going to let him go without talking and walked behind him...

"I know I was wrong, but hear me out once."

"What?"

"Okay, I won't deny that I was wrong. I knew this for a while and I really did want to tell you...honestly. But the thing was I was just really caught up in between you and Mihika. As much as I wanted to tell you, Mihika's reminders of the problems between you and Mihir stopped me. Even today when I was talking to you about Mihika, I wanted to tell you. But the problem was I know how many emotions are in you when Mihir is mentioned or around. I didn't want to hurt you by accident or cause you to be angry. All I wanted to do was make sure you were comfortable and okay with everything, so I waited. And now I know I waited too long..."

"You didn't want to hurt me, but you hurt me the most. I'm not angry Ishita. I was when I saw him, I hated seeing him with Mihika. But I also know that I have no right to stop the two from dating! I thought you knew I was reasonable enough to understand that. I am not angry with anyone. Mihika's trust on me is something I won't be hurt by. It's you Ishita...only your lack of trust on me...only you misunderstanding me is what hurts...and it hurts a lot..."

"Raman I know sorry is not enough."

"It isn't. Lying is the one thing I can't tolerate and that's exactly what's been happening to me for so long!"

"I know it was wrong. But I can't go back and change things. All I can do is try to tell you it won't happen again..."

"But this time I can't trust that. I can't trust anyone Ishita. I trusted twice in my life... and both times it's been broken. I've been lied to both times..." He mumbled the last bit and turned away breaking her patience in the whole situation.

She had been a mess since this whole situation came to be and the last thing she wanted was his previous relationship coming into the conversation. She was trying to talk to him and explain her point while he was hard to deal with when he was upset.

"Are you comparing me to her?!" She turned him while he looked at her with a straight face.

"No."

"Yes you are! Raman, I'm talking about me and you. Don't bring another person into this."

"Okay." He walked to their bed and sat down without a word while she looked on astonished at him and his behaviour.

This was the last thing she had expected from him. They had always talked things through maturely, but this time he was just not willingly to talk to her properly. He looked up at her as he got ready to sleep while she just questioned him with her hands...

"I'm sorry, but I don't need this conversation at all. You don't want me bringing another person into the conversation when you just made me question the base of our relationship and everything we've had together because of another person!" He told her trying to control his tone, which he failed to at this point.

"She's my sister! Unlike someone else you're bringing in here!"

"Well we can't deny that woman was also something to me at some point!" A tear threatened to fall from her eye as this was more than enough for her.

She always tried to handle the fact that he loved another woman as gently as she could knowing that it wasn't easy to forget your past like it wasn't for her. But what he just said to her was like the push she had given him way back. It was painful...

She closed her eyes trying to hide her tears so he wouldn't see that he had managed to her hurt as much as she had, maybe even a bit more...

Instead a surge of anger filled her at the thought of that woman. She didn't want another mention of her and especially not after what he had just said to her. Walking quietly to her side of the bed, she also sat down and just looked at him with her tears gone and only anger showing as she told him..,

"You're right! This conversation is pointless! Because you Raman, you are just mean right now! You are not thinking about anything, just saying any nonsense that comes into your mind!"

They both turned around and lay down on the bed without a hug or goodnight. Instead their unshed tears came forth and covered their pillows as they both were too hurt and they knew how badly they had hurt the other. What would have ended as another night filled with love was now left as a night filled with tears...of pain and regret...

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