Hey guyss!! Back With the next chapter...So as I said, This will be a long and very important one...The turning point in the story...I hope you will like this one because actually This is a Sad ending one...If you guys wish, I will even post a happy ending for this story but Sad Ending will also be good I hope...So here you go guys...Thank you for the lovely comments you leave behind...
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CHAPTER 7:
The suns rays shone over Abhi's face as he woke up for the most important morning in his life. He had already planned how to read the letter which will be possible only in the absence of Shanti. He built up the courage to know the truth of his Dear as he made his way to Shanti's room after freshing up.
He went to Shanti's room and as expected Shanti was waking up his Dear.
"Shantiji, Good morning!!"
"Good morning Betaji!!" "What are You doing here this morning betaji..?"
"Actually, Daadi called you.."
"Daadi, Why did she call me..?
"She actually wants you to take you out for shopping. She thinks to buy new dresses for You and Abhijna.."
"Why is she taking these much efforts..?"
"No more Questions, PLease go Auntiji...Go fast..Daadi is waiting for you.."
"Okk..You take care of her.."
"I will take care, You just go fast naa.." And sends her off. He Thanks for daadi for giving this idea of shopping to make him read the letter peacefully.
He goes near the cupboard making assure that Abhijna is quite asleep and takes the letter in his hand. His hands were trembling and his he had sweat allover his body and finally he turned the Second page and started to read.
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Dear ABHI,
Before I begin, I am very happy that this letter has found You or you have found this letter in a sucessful way. I don't know after how many years this letter came to your hand but i am very happy that you are reading everything. Now, my heart will be transparently clear to you through this letter. I don't know how you will feel or react when you read this letter. I was very sure that one day or the other you will read this letter and here is the day.
ABHIJNA - The best gift which you gave me before I left you. She is the only reason for which I am living still now and writing this letter. You will surely know who Abhijna is and Guess what, She is OUR daughter only Abhi...Yess...She is the symbol of my love for you. She is the best gift I had ever received. I felt heart-broken when you Didn't accept our child and left me alone. But she was the one who boosted up me. She is the one who gave me reason to live, made me love, lighted happiness throughout me. I felt my life worthless when I was without you but because of her, I am here.
A woman's pregnancy without her husband is like a hell. I wanted to share each and every moment of my 9 months with
you - her first kick, My increasing radius of belly, The movement of our baby through Sonography, The time when I give birth to
her - in everything, I missed you a lot Abhi. I think I don't have that luck to be with you during My pregnancy and after pregnancy and that's why I am writing this letter to you.
You know Abhi, when I married you, I didn't like you at all. You loved Tanu and I was just Your wife for Namesake. Daadi and my maa Was happy seeing us happy and thus The drama continued. But as Time passed away, I started having feelings for you. My heart started aching whenever I see you with Tanu or Talk about her which didn't even bother to hear those before. I felt different and for the first time, I felt love in my life. Yes..I LOVE YOU ABHI...I admit it. That's why i felt more weaker and weaker. Love makes everyone stronger but In my case, Love is my weakness. But things started to Change when your sister Aaliyah made a MMS on me. That night...I will never forget in my life. That night was the reason for Bringing Abhijna into this world but still That night was the reason to separate us still now. When you came to our room drinking, You came closer to me and still closer. My heart felt it Ok but my brain didn't allow you to come closer to me who was already loving someone else. I tried hard to push You down and run Away but instead you pushed me on the bed. I couldn't resist neither you nor Myself from this situation and thus, This all happened.
When I came to know that I was pregnant, I thought that it would take some time for you to realize these Things but I didn't expect that you will never Accept. So I thought of protecting my Self-respect and my child rather than making you things understand. I felt afraid whether you will not take care of our child properly because this child came from YOU AND ME...So I went away from you and landed in Goa. I didn't know where to go but Shanti - my god's gift To my pregnancy. She was the one who took care of me till now not bothering about herself only about us. Without her, I would not have got this health to deliver a baby. But, even now, destiny played with me.
ABHIJNA - The name which has many meanings behind.
Abhijna means remembrance and recollection. Do you know why I kept this name for her?? For YOU...Yess...In remembrance of you. Doctors said me before that I am going to give rise to a Baby girl seeing my condition. The name which has your name in it - ABHIjna, the name which brings back the memories with you every now and then when I spell out this name. As the name says, I missed you a lot and that's why in the remembrance and memory of you, I kept her this name. I loved this name more than Anyone else do. I missed you and love you a lot that even the meaning of our daughter's name has you in it. My love for you is unconditional and truthful.
But you never loved me back. You never saw me in that way also. You loved Tanu and she loved you back. So in this double sided love, I didn't want to become as a Third edge making it a love triangle. I thought that my love for you is enough for both of us. Bulbul forced me to propose you and make my feelings for you open to you. But in the fear of making you hate me , I disclosed this idea and silently watched you Love for Tanu. I think God doesn't want me to look at you like this and feeling forever and that's why he made us both separate. I quietly obeyed the Destiny's orders and went Away from you. But the most painful thing was that, leaving you also led me my Family forever - Ma, Bulbul,Daadi, Everyone known to me. I was living in an unknown Area where no one knows me. In that way, God has helped me drifting away from you.
But still, God did not do good to me and now, I am in the verge of extinction. I didnot have the luck and oppurtunity to spend my life with my Abhijna and my Abhi forever. I only have the luck to carry Abhijna in my uterus and cannot breast feed her, Play with her, See her, fell her and touch her...Yes Abhi... I am dying out.
When I felt a severe pain in my stomach, I was taken to the hospital. I was very happy that I am going to see my Abhijna and play with her. But destiny always comes with a twist. Doctors made me to choose one out of Me and Abhijna...Yes...Doctors said it was impossible to make us both alive. i felt heart-broken when the doctors said me this and that's when I felt so unlucky. Why like this happens only for me?? Why we don't have the luck to live together?? I think we are not Meant Together...We are not Made for each other...That's why this happened I think. So, in this situation, I choosed Abhijna out of me and her. I said doctors to make her give life and not me. I didn't want to kill a Baby before it was born. I had already lived 28 years in this world and now it is her time.
You know Abhi, When we had our marriage fixed, I was very happy that for the first time, I am going to be loved by someone who is going to take care of me, Live with me forever, But my dreams broken down on our Suhaagraat when I found you in Tanu's house and came to know that You LOVE HER...NOT ME...Then, When I started loving you, I thought Even you would love me back. But there also My dreams broken down. Then, When I came to know that I was pregnant, I thought at least that time you will accept our child and Start loving me. But, even there also, It didn't happen according to my wish but the vice versa happened. But, Even at that time I thought that God would Give us A second chance and make us live happy with our daughter, Abhijna. But that dream also broken down which led me to Lie on my Death bed and Write A letter to you. What I thought, Never happened but What I thought Not to happen only happened...See Abhi...THIS IS LIFE...THIS IS DESTINY...Destiny tossed my life like a coin due to which The coin broken And my Life also broken...
But it's Ok.. I have the 1 year memories with you and 9 months with her. This is enough for me...This is enough for my lifetime.. I think this is only written in my fate. Now, I am in my death bed breathing my last breath and having our Abhijna in my stomach and writing this letter for you...Take care of Abhijna well...I hope this letter finds you soon...GOODBYE ABHI..
With love,
PRAGYA ABHISHEK MEHRA.
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AMAYA❤️
Edited by AbhiGya_sh - 9 years ago
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