My heart is crying

Today after a much effort I tried to watch season 2. Have not watched a single episode after Parth quit.
I tried today watching repeat telecast.
They again showed MaNan flashbacks and I cried watching it. Just saw it for a few minutes but after reminiscing MaNan I cried for hours like a maniac.
Seriously why are CVs doing this to us?? If they can't bring Manik back, then end it for once and for all. Why hurting us everytime???
This was one couple I got so attached to, they became a part of my life. And suddenly everything changed. I'm hating this change. Not able to move on.
I've decided, would not watch any show on TV from now on. Every thing just reminds of MaNan only. Every bloody small thing. Was just so obsessed with them.
I just wish to have a memory loss now so that I can get over MaNan.