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Okay! Guy, Buckle up your seat belts... we are taking a drastic turn here... I'm sure you all won't like it... but I could see this story only that way... sorry!!
DEDICATING THIS PART TO ashabanerjee
Part 7 - Goodbye My Lover
RK's POV
(10 months Later)
Madhu & I descend from the stairs, Madhu holding my arm, smiling & looking so beautiful in her black net saree, I picked this saree specially for her knowing black will compliment her pale glowing skin, she initially refused to wear saree saying she finds it hard to manage but I insisted her to wear this saree for me as I have seen her in saree only once that was on our wedding day & I know she will do this for me & see, here she is decked up so beautifully & elegantly in this black saree, with little make up on her face, her lush black her is pulled together to her right side shoulder & its streaming down over her breast like a river. I m dressed in white shirt & black suit pants looking dashing, I know we both look perfect. Perfect? I smirk at the word.
"You look beautiful, baby" I whisper to Madhu standing on the last step of the stairs.
"So you do, Rishu" she beams at me. My heart skips a beat seeing her smile. Do I still have a heart?
We are at our parents place. All mine & Madhu's family & friends are gathered here. How they will not be? It's an important day of our life right? The day which changed our fate... Changed... Our lives! Yeah! It's our wedding anniversary. It seems like only yesterday we got married but now we are here celebrating our first wedding anniversary. One year over. Yeah ... Over... Everything!
"You both look lovely. Stay blessed" Mom blesses me & Madhu. I hug mom. This closeness feels good. I need it. Then we take Makil uncle & Padmini aunty's blessings.
"Rishu... all are waiting for you two only. Shall we start?" Dad asks with a smile. I look at madhu she is also smiling... god! All are smiling happily. Except me? I nod at dad. He signals something to someone at my back. I turn to see Patil, our servant bringing a huge cake. Cake for us to cut & celebrate the day.
Madhu & I walk to the center stage where the cake is placed now. Black forest! Madhu loves it.
I pass the knife to Madhu but she hold my hand indicating we cut the cake together. I pull my lips up as if I'm smiling & we both cut the cake hearing claps & wishes around us.
Madhu feeds me the cake first. Surprising! Then I feed her. Soon Madhu & I are dragged to the dance floor by my friends forcing us to dance. Then We both sway to the music, my hands on her hips & hers encircled around my neck, we both dance looking into each others eyes, I pull her little closer to get a fix of her calming sweet scent. later when the music ends I let Madhu go from my hold & let her join her ladies circle & I join my friends.
"Congrats, Dude" Sultan wish me & hugs me slapping on my back in a friendly way he often does.
"You look different" Dipali studies my face. "You look... I don't know but I don't find happiness in your face." girls have this uncanny power to read guys facial expression. Only Madhu is an exception.
"I m happy, Dips. Its my marriage anniversary, so obviously I should feel happy right?" I try to reassure her
"Then where the hell your smile which will make girls go crazy?" she accuses me.
"I m nervous" I confess.
"Why?" Ria ask me confused.
"I... I m gonna confess my love to Madhu" I let them know first.
"Finally" Rahul sighs.
"You took forever dude" Sultan chuckles.
"So are you going on your knees & propose?" Sultan asks me curiously. This guy needs every minute details.
"Should I?" I ask no one in particular.
"Awe... Rk, yes...yes... of course do that. Girls will love such kind of proposal. It will be so romantic. Take Madhu to cloud nine with your proposal" Dipali encourages me giggling.
"Rk, Do you remember the exact words you said how much love madhu in the coffee shop to Nisha?" Oh that! Yes, of course, those words came from my heart then how will I forget? But why he is asking me that?
"Why?" I ask him confused.
"Use those same words... what are they? My heart, soul, jute & fiber. Some center of galazy...planet..."
"Center of the universe" I glare at him. Stupid Sultan.
"Oh yeah. That only" he cheers me.
"When? Now or after party? In public or in private?" Ria asks. I look at her for a moment thoughtfully.
"Do it here Rk, we wish to see your proposal & Madhu's reaction" Dipali pleads. So much interest huh?
"I know what will be Madhu reaction" I smirk at her.
"Oh come. Be positive. She has changed. After joining college she got matured" Dipali tells me. I guess to appease me. Matured? & Madhu? Yeah really she has grown up. I should agree.
"You got any special gifts?" Sultan asks. Shut the f**k up & mind your damn own business man. I want to shout at him but I controlled. Because he is my very good friend.
"Yeah I have. She will love it" I smile.
"What is it?" Ria asks in excitement.
"I'm gonna sing for her" I smile.
"Oh wow" Ria & dips jumps up & down in excitement.
"What song yaar? Ang laga de or Raat akeliye?" Sultan asks grinning.
"f**k off, Sultan" I glare at him murderously. Then I turn to see whether my band is ready.
"Oh so, Rk is all set to rock hun?" Dipali giggles.
"Then come on. What for you are waiting?" Rahul asks & thumps me to go now & propose.
"Okay, Wish me luck guys" I ask. They all give a group hug to me.
I walk to the dais & take hold of the mike & clear my throat before starting.
"Ladies & Gentlemen, Thank you for gathering here to wish & bless me & Madhu on our most memorable day. It's been a pleasure to have you all here." I smile & look at Madhu, she is watching me with a soft smile too. I nod at her & she joins me to the center stage.
"Rishu, how long will you make me wait? Where is my gift?" she asks softly.
"Such an impatience huh?" I ask her with a smirk.
Then I leave Madhu on the stage walking straight to the music band, I know Madhu's eyes are boring at my back wondering what I m up to. I take a seat & hold my guitar in my hands & adjust its strings & nod at the band members.
"Madhu... darling, this song is for you" I point my index finger to her.
"Omg! Omg! My Rishu is gonna sing for me" I hear Madhu squealing in excitement.
[ Goodbye My Lover - song Lyrics - by James Blunt ]
(The song lyrics are in rose color italic lines & in between lines in black are Rk's thoughts or his feelings.)
Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let judge frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Of course I saw the end of our marital life before we'd begun as soon as I realize the fact that Madhu is not giving it a honest try to work it out. I know for sure one day she will wake up from her deep slumber & realize she should have given it a try but I wish she never wakes up & realize what she had missed as it will only hurt her in guilt.
Yes I saw you were blinded & I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
I took you for granted knowing my baby brat will never hurt me. But I was wrong. But I can't blame you though, because I know you don't know what you are doing to me.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
Yes, things are going to change, we are going to change, our life is going to change but my love will remain the same. I will still love you, I can't stop loving you, I tried & my mind agreed with me but my little heart is so stubborn to forget you & stop loving you but you don't care about all that, will you?
You touched my heart, you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind & that I knew when.
My heart was blinded by you.
I failed to focus on anything neither my life nor my business. It's you all I care for. It's you all I want. It's you all I need. I want to have you by my side always. I want to be around you always. I want to shield you from all harms always. And I will. Because my heart is blinded by you, by the love I have for you.
I've kissed your lips & held your hand.
Shared your dreams & shared your bed.
I wish to share everything I have with you. I wish to share your joy. I wish to share your sorrow. I wish to keep up with your hopes & dreams. I wish to see you smile when you touch your milestone step. I wish to hold you in my arms forever. I wish to kiss you. I wish to make love to you. I wish to hold & cherish you but only if you let me do & I know you won't.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.
God! There is no nicer witch than you. You beguile me & bewitched me, darling.
There is no nicer drug than your smell. Your gorgeous unique smell intoxicate me & make me insane.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
How apt? Those lines perfectly fit in my situation. Well, the lyricist must be too in my state, saying his goodbye to his girl.
Yes, baby yes... you have been the one & you will be the one for me, always... but sad thing I m not the one for you. I'm not your man. I 'm not your true love. I'm nothing to you but just a friend & that's enough for me to spend the rest of my life.
I am a dreamer & when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - It's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us & all we used to be
No, please don't remember the days we spent together in the past one year, it will only give pain to you, I'm used to the pain as I have been through it for a while now unlike you, so please just move on & don't dare to look back. It's for your own good, darling!
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while
When you cry I m really want to turn heaven & earth & make you stop cry. When you smile, you bring life to my soul. I have watched you sleep like a baby for a while, a long while till my eye lids betray me to admire you, my sleeping beauty.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I would just give my life to father your child, would love to hold a mini Madhu in my arms to relish the days... the days I held you in my arms when you were born, the days I played with you, the days I cherished with you, again.
It's just a wishful thought to spend a lifetime with you but I know its just yet another wish of mine which is never going to come true.
I know your fears & you know mine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.
If anything is truer than truth then It would be my love for you which you failed to see. May be I'm not good in expressing my feelings to you or may be you never dared to open your eyes & see my love, feel my love, fearing you might fall in love with me. I don't get why you fear to fall in love with me, daring? Am I so unworthy of your love?
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I don't know who said this, "At some point, you have to realize that some people can stay in your heart but not in your life" & that's so true in my love life. I can make you stay in my heart but not in my life as you wanna fly like a butterfly & go far away from me & I'm letting you go & fly.
And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bare my soul in time.
Then I'm kneeling at your feet.
Yeah, baby, I m gonna kneel at your feet, to confess my deepest little secret to you before I leave you from my hold, because I don't want you to ever accuse me for not letting you know my feelings for you.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
Yes, I'm saying my goodbye to you because I'm tired, really tired & drained in the process of making you fall for me when I know you are not even opening your heart to let me in.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so. I'm so, I'm so hollow
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so. I'm so, I'm so hollow
Oh God! I'm sick of crying but only my tears make me strong. Tears are not the sign of weakness. Tears heal your heart!
I look down & let my lone tear drop fall straight to the ground instead of rolling down my cheek & playing traitor to the world.
Then I place my guitar down, usually I hear huge round of applause when I finish singing but this time I hear no such thing, only silence, dead silence. Did I sung that bad? I wonder & stand up on my heels & slowly stride towards Madhu looking straight into her eyes. I look into her eyes a moment longer before going on my knees. Madhu looks stunned but didn't say or move away from me & get down from the stage. I take both her hands in mine & held it tight trying hard to bring my words. I inhale sharply & straighten my shoulder determined.
"I LOVE U, Madhubala Malik" Yeah, there is no Rishab Kundra in her life anymore! I have given the power to break my heart only to my baby brat, she did break my heart unknowingly but still I love her with all those broken pieces.
I could see Madhu's eyes going wide hearing my love confession which I was holding to confess to her for nearly a year. She is shocked. But I know If I had missed to tell now then I will never get the chance to tell her ever. Then I continue. "I love you so much... so much to set you free... & let you go... Go Madhu, Go, lead your life happily the way you like... without ME." I tell her with a smile that didn't even reach my eyes. I fish out an envelop from my jacket pocket.
"Here is my special gift which you asked & I promised to give you for our wedding anniversary" I thrust the envelop to her. She ripe it open with her shaky hands. Then she dazzles a smile amidst her tears reading the line...
"Divorce by mutual consent"
Then she too brings herself to meet me as she drops down on the floor & throws herself in my arms hugging me tight, muttering "Thank you so much, Rishu. Thank you" I could sense the joy in her voice. It warms my heart. It heals my heart. Slowly I break our hug to see her face which is a clear picture of happiness.
"Anything for you, Baby. Anything" I say & wipe her happy tears which is smudging her mascara.
"I love you, Rishu." I yearned to hear these 3 magical words from her for how long I don't know & now she is saying it right in front of my face, loud & clear but it makes me feel like someone is twisting my heart with a sharp knife because I know she loves me as a friend & I love her more than as a friend. She is everything to me & I m nothing to her from now on.
"I love you so much. You are the best. I m blessed to have a friend like you" I don't know why I feel her words are like rubbing salt on my wound. I could feel my heart thumping hard against my chest & I know it would explode if she utters one more word. I try & succeed in pulling my lips up to a smile. I know I'm smiling but inside I'm dying. The pain of losing Madhu is excruciating & unbearable.
"Here. Sign" I hand her my pen. She nods & takes it & signs on the divorce papers as "Madhubala Rishab Kundra" Ironic huh? We are getting divorced & gonna part our ways but now she is joining my name with hers. f**k my horrible fate!
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Sorry! I wrongly named the story title... it should have been "Love starts after Divorce" instead of "Love starts after marriage" 🤣
Well, for Rk its love after marriage & I hope for madhu it will be love after divorce. LOL😆
yeah they will get divorce for sure. No doubt in that. So don't keep any hopes...😆
Okay! It's not time to make jokes as I know you all will be hell pissed on me but I couldn't help. This is what I had planned initially & I m going exactly the same way. But trust me guys I will give you a happy ending. 😃
From now the story will move from past to present, as I will be showing Madhu's college life too & also I will be taking leaps. 😉
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Thanks to all in advance.😛
sudha😊
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