SwaRon OS- I'm still not over you.

I'm still not over you.

Don't you know I've tried and I've tried

To get you out my mind

But it don't get no better

As each day goes by

And I'm lost and confused

I've got nothin' to lose

Hope to hear from you soon

P.S. I'm still not over you

Still not over you

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It's say people change with time. She had also changed a lot.

Beautiful, she is. People were awestruck by her beauty. Some jealous though. But, her beauty was not the thing that attracted me. Certainly it's was one of the thing but not the only thing.

When I had first seen her, there was something more to her than her appearance, something, which she was hiding from rest of the world. When I had looked in her eyes, I was gripped. Her eyes, reflected her real self which she had masked behind her arrogance. It intrigued me more. Behind her eyes, I could see... the emptiness...The yearning...

Curious, I wanted to know her more.

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It's very rare moment, when Sharon Rai Prakash has her guards off and that was one moment, she was totally drunk. I could see, the real her... The girl who wants to spread her wings and fly high. The girl, who is afraid to show her true identity to world, The girl, who was trying to protect her heart from this lecherous world,. And that time I knew I want to protect this heart. I can do anything to protect her.

The first time when she rejected me, I knew she was just protecting herself. I wanted to say her to let me in her life. I won't hurt her, if she is scared of that. But she didn't cared. She crushed my heart.

There was a time when she had tagged me as desperate stalker; my heart was broken into zillion pieces. We had a huge row and I countered her calling her as easy girl. She was not easy girl, like I was not desperate stalker, we never meant saying this and we both knew it.

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There is something if she loves in the world apart from herself, is her Dance. There was nothing, which could separate her from dance, not a fatal disease, like Asthma. She fought against her destiny and conquered over it, which was a barrier between her dreams. Not that it has cured, but now, it doesn't trouble her much. She was born to dance, so how can one disease stop her.

This also brought us closer to each other.

One day, she came barging in my house like a storm, and expressed her love for me in front of my dad, luckily I was also there. I was ecstatic... My love for her grew even more, as if it was any less though. We had shared our little moments with each other; she had very sweetly fulfilled my 3 wishes. It was like a Dream to me.

Her guards were slowly dissolving, but she was still the same old Sharon, who hided herself behind the thick layer of ego. My fear took the shape of reality when she once again rejected me. My heart was on fire and whole body numb. When I thought she had accepted my love, her blunt rejection in front of everyone made me question whether she had ever loved me. I had failed to make her believe in our relationship. In us. The realization hit me soon, I felt like someone had slapped me awake from a dream. Her reply made me realize there were never us.

I had become a public joke.

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She is complicated than any puzzle. And I thought, I had been successful in solving that puzzle. But, after she, declining our relationship in front of everyone. I knew I was wrong. She had created a deep web of complications around her than what I give her credit for.

I had never given up on her in past because I always had a little hope on us. I tolerated her every rejection. But this was the limit. I realized it was worthless, to keep running after her.

Her complications will never let us be together. So I broke the last string between us.

And that was end of us.

We broke up.

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The thing about Sharon is, she never gives up. She gets what she wants. I was amused seeing a different Sharon; she was trying really hard to change herself. But something irked me, She was changing herself forcefully, that made me more sorrowful.

It was last rose day, I had dreamt of taking Sharon as my date this year, but as it says some dreams never fulfill, so was this one. I hardly care, who my date is, as long it's not her. So I took this new girl, Ruhi as my date. The other reason to take her was I wanted to move on from Sharon. I tried doing so but miserably failed. She has filtered in my thoughts, the day I had laid my eyes on her. So it's impossible for me to move on from her.

When I glanced at Sharon, she was looking straight at me, while I was dancing with my date. I was feeling uncomfortable under her gaze. It was unnerving to me. After that day I never heard much from her. We never crossed each other's path if we did, it was merely professional.

One day she came up to me saying Ruhi likes me. I was shocked, but soon recovered, snapping back at her, that she shouldn't care if any girl likes me or not. I was rude to her, I know. But I did so because i didn't want her to know, that she still affects me. She glanced at me one last time. I could see. She wasn't bitter. She was sad, though. But it was a hopeful kind of sad. The kind of sad that just takes time. With that she went away, leaving me with my thoughts.

At that moment I knew I'm still not over her. And will never be.

... The End...

Note:

Heya folks,

I hope you all are still awake after reading it and not sleepy, I know it was a bit boring.

Anyways, do leave your feedbacks.

love

shivani

u knw wht im not sleepy at all bt jst reminding d swaron journey from swayam's pov brilliantly written i guess im still in dreamland didnt hve any word for this jst mesmerizing this was

Reserved.

^Unreserve^

Oh what to say a reel went on my mind as I read this. . .There are so many memories that we want to revisit over and over again, irrespective of its nature, bitter, sad or happy :) And you exactly did that. . .Taking on a journey of the fairytale from Swayam Shekhawat's viewpoint. I dont think there can be anything which can go wrong when you relate to Swayam.

I loved the end part from where Sharon tells him about Ruhi's liking till the end. The whole thing was kinda Beautiful :) Maybe coz it gives Hope and SwaRon has always been about Hope :)

Nice Stuff Shivani :D

Chitra :)

You right all emotions so well..without dialogues you convey feelings we people feel ,swaron feel!

Loved reading it, all the lovely Swaron memories were going through in my mind.

FABULOUS
Dii u penned swayam's pov in fabulous way
i loved it swaron memories came back

Well done

All the sweet bitter memories came back..
Really good

Thanks

Memories Revisited :)