FF: KILLING ME SOFTLY no.69/ pg10--15jan

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KILLING ME SOFTLY


parts 1 -- 10
parts 11 -- 19
parts 20 -- 29
parts 30 -- 39
parts 40 -- 49
parts 50 -- 59
parts 60 -- 66

PART 67

Gauri had locked herself in her room and refused to open the door, alok babu had told everyone to leave her as it was all a drama, which made Gauri feel so hurt. She never imagined that Shiv had managed to degrade her in front of her own father who loved her with all his heart and soul.

She felt even more sad and angry when she saw no way out of this proposal from Kapoors to enforce her and Shiv to marry. She wondered if he had not had enough fun with her to have accepted this proposal. Baba had sent Mashimaa into her room this morning and informed her of this. Gauri had pleaded, cried and supplicated on this issue but Mashimaa elucidated that he won't have it.

Gauri sat on the ground with her head at her feet, crying asking for their forgiveness even though she had no idea what sin she had committed. All she wanted was for her father to forgive her for whatever he thought she had done and hug her once again as he had always did. She was dying to feel the comfort. Mashimaa quietly sobbed seeing her like this but knew this was to no avail. She walked away as Gauri looked on with her hand on her mouth and sore eyes still deluging those precious tears.

Gauri hated the thought of him, having to see him got her feeling dizzy; she did not even want to think about having to live with him. The engagement was arranged for Friday and the wedding date was set for 3 weeks after that as baba had wanted to go back to Calcutta and make a few arrangements.

Anupam had come to see her and baba asked for him to speak to her. Gauri was summoned and as Anupam explained to Gauri that how Shiv will look after her, how he was not a bad person at heart, how he had made a mistake, how he had realised what he had done and was now willing to recover it, all gauri could do was nod.

She did not have the fortitude to say anything about it in front of baba. It had been one big ordeal for baba and she dared not cause any more aggravation.

Anupam had gone and informed everyone at Kapoor house that Gauri was fine about it. Shiv was shell shocked and wondering if Gauri was made to decide this under any enforcement. But then again Anupam would have no reason to lie, he was sure that as Anupam respected Gauri so much he would no way approve of anyone forcing their opinions on her.

That gave Shiv a bit of peace but he wondered if he should have a word with her but decided on negative, when he remembered her warning for him to stay away. He decided to leave things in the hands of fate and let the time decide what was to come his way. For once, he found himself remembering god thinking his intentions were good, he did not want to hurt anyone and was sorry that he did.

Gauri felt throttled, she thought she had no one she could talk to and often cried thinking about it, Baba and Mashimaa had spotted her like this a few times and wondered if they were doing the right thing. Afterall how much do they really know about Shiv. On the other hand, Alok Babu knew if nothing else,, he fully trusted his dear friend Mahen enough not to lie and jeopardise his daughters future. He thought Gauri may think he was harsh with her but will understand that he had decided for her best. Shiv was handsome, polite, very successful and very much liked; Gauri will thank him one day.

Finally the day had arrived, Gauri felt sick to the pits to her stomach but seeing baba all happily making all the arrangement she sighed and picking up her things walked in the washroom to get ready. Anupam was just as excited as Baba. Gauri had dressed on an outfit Kaya had bought for her, as she herself had not shown much interest. It was a salmon pink pure georgette sari incrusted with crystals. Kaya had near enough screamed looking at her when Gauri walked out of the bathroom and felt proud at her choice. Gauri gave her a gentle smile. Kaya wished Gauri really felt as beautiful as she looked.

As Gauri sat down on the dressing table, still lost in her thoughts, Kaya pinned up her hair and did her make up and finally yet importantly put on a beautiful diamond necklace and earrings. Gauri frowned surprised and Kaya mentioned that she had found it in her apartment and thought they were lovely to go with her outfit. Gauri's eyes were packed with tears as she remembered Shiv placing it gently around her neck, within next few moments that particular night had scrolled before her eyes and she remembered how remarkably in love she was, with the same Shiv she can't even stand the thought off now.

She looked her that fine piece of jewellery sitting on her collarbone felling the need to peel it away from her skin but Kaya's fascination with her choice to make Gauri feel beautiful and joyous had stopped her from doing so. She kept staring at it and wondered what he was to read from her having these gleaming gems support her tonite. She thought it may even give out the expression that she has forgotten all the agony and remorse she had faced on his expense. She hoped he wasn't delusional about the forced relation they were made to harvest. One thing for sure he was never to use her the way he did, she won't let him. With this thought, she glanced at Kaya as Mashimaa walked into the door and informed her of everyone being there.

Gauri felt her hearbeat increase slightly as she felt all eyes will be on her and deep down everyone will b laughing at the gossip they have come to hear about. She felt a hot flush with this thought. Kaya and Mashimaa left the room telling her to relax and that they will come and call her in a short while. Gauri watched them go and was even more apprehensive now.

Short while later Kaya and Anupam entered the room and asked if she was all prepared, for it. Gauri nodded and got up, Anupam saw her tear ridden eyes and gave her a gentle hug and asked her to trust him. Gauri felt the comfort she longed for last few days and burst at Anupams understanding of her. Kaya asked her not to b so upset and insisted jokingly she did not ruin her makeup. Gauri and Anupam had chuckled at her advise and Anupam asked Gauri to fix herself up quickly and left.

Kaya: Didi, I know whatever Shiv has done is unforgivable but he is so very sorry about it. When he walked in just now he asked for baba's blessing and pleaded for him to forgive him for all the pain he had caused him.

Gauri: Kaya, please mujhay shiv ke baray main koi baat nahi karni hai, tum uskoo nahi jantee ho, woh hava ke har johnkay ke saath rang badaltaa hai. Main apnay baba ke liyay yeh shaadi karoongee lekin…….. lekin..

Anupam came in and asked o make it quick. Kaya was stunned at what had Gauri said but getting up lifted her of the bed walked to the door. As much as Kaya had wanted to believe and help Gauri, she could not see her baba hurt, so she decided to stay quite and wondered if the matches really r made in heaven and If her Didi is to have that happily ever after ending..

Gauri walked in the hall and felt her mouth go dry. Her eyes dipped low she walked not knowing where she was going, she let Kaya guide her. Kaya brought her opposite to Shiv and was to turn when she near enough slipped and found herself in Shiv's arms. Without even a glance shiv had stood her up and looked away. Gauri looked towards him and found his coldness towards her a bit unusual. Next few minutes they were left to sit together, so they chatted while everyone admired them looking good as one, but both of them did not even look at one another let alone speak.

Dadi looked on worried wondering what was wrong between them but feeling they may be stressed because of the whole drama around this rendezvous. Mahen had spoken and asked everyone to pay a little attention and wished for the ceremony to finally start. Gauri and Shiv had got up from their seats and were handed the rings they were to place in each others fingers.
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Gauri looked at her baba and felt satisfaction seeing his joyous face at this whole arrangement. Shiv held her hand placed the fine diamond encrusted piece on her finger. Touching her had all the sweet memories appear to him and the emotion of love gleamed in the form of tears in his eyes. she noticed he did not seem very happy and wondered if he was forced into this like her too. Gauri felt the need to talk to him hoping if that was the case maybe they would find the solution now than let this story have a regretful end. Gauri was handed the ring, holding shiv's hand gently slid it on his finger, and brushing skin with one another had sent shivers to them both. They eyes met instantaneously and the urges for closeness increased. Gauri waking up, released her hand from his with a jerk as her nostrils flared remembering what a creep he had been, which judder his soul.

Dadi mentioned to Mahen and Alok Babu that maybe after the eremony Shiv and gauri needed to speak with one last time before the wedding date is announced tonight. Both had agreed and Anupam was asked to arrange. Gauri had refused to speak to him but Anupam insisted it would be best for her father's sake. Gauri ha not responded in any way but Anupam had decided that it was okay with her. He asked Shiv to wait in his room upstairs.

Gauri walked inside the room and found him staring out of the window. It was quite bar, the music and laughter sounds that floated in the air. She fidgeted while standing hoping he would start, when he did not, she had to.

Gauri: So, what made u decide, that you should b marrying me , I mean, u know how I cant stand the site of you, or was it that u had to do it for ur families sake like I had to,,,,,,,,,,,,,.

Shiv turned swiftly and stunned looked on.

Gauri: Don't look so surprised Shiv. U really think I would happily forgive and forget everything u have put me through, To u it may seem like that………..that, I should b happy that I am marrying into such High reputed family and I'm Merrying The one and only Shiv Kapoor. That is not the case somehow………let me tell u once and for all I actually hate u so much that I hate the thought of thinking about you. We may get married but be aware that u will not intimidate me in any ways. I am agreeing to this because of what u made my baba face and the only away for baba and ur very own family see out is for us to b united but this will never happen. U stay away from me and stay away for good. I hate to disappoint all these people who think our marriage is blessing………….only if they knew………what ur worth.

She turned to walk away when

Shiv: & amp; amp; nbsp; The only reason I'm marrying u is coz I love u? That………… is the way I feel now…….. That is the way I felt for god know how long now………and this is how I'll feel till the day I die.

Gauri turned but he still stared out of the window. He felt relief that he had said his part and now she knew. She shook her head in amazement thinking the cheek he had displayed. She wished someone told him to stop giving his fake sob stories. She walked out thinking that.



Thanx guys, do leave comments and sorry about all th wait..

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Posted: 17 years ago
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*rub hands together!*****

OMG i have been awaiting this....Rano bring it ON girl!! 👏

Chak Di RD!! 😃 😃



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omg..i never knew your 10 min was this long

anyway update FAST
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Thanks.

Hope your vacation went well. I will be waiting for the part 😊
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the update wz gr8
it wz so long it totally made up 4 lost time
but pls bring them 2gether soon

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omg u ended it there??? 😡 😡 😡 ....

Now please update us soon!!

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reserved.....im sleepy.. will comment tomo 😳

k im bck with my comment😆
first congrats on new thread...nt bad????
nw lets have another 150 pgs more😃

is tht the end??? ru serious? thts it???? nw i have to wiat for another 1 whole month to c the nxt part😲
he said he is in love with her n she think he is lying
very normal for her to come up with these stupid ideas
but feel sorry for her... no 1 believes her.......
but im nt worried..cos im sure shiv is going to make up for all the things she went through when they get married😉

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Originally posted by: Andekhi

Thanks.

Hope your vacation went well. I will be waiting for the part 😊



yep it was great doll, but ended up doing allthe pending work when I got bak, haha,, hope u r well, I gorra read a lot of pages of ur one and I wish I had more time so I can just sit and read the beautiful FF's in KAA section..

nice to hear from you, 😳
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PART 68

Both of them sat their while all the family and close friends danced. Shiv noticed Machaan was over the moon, he realised how much it had meant to him to see Shiv getting closer to what he wanted for a long time now and he was just happy to be able to help him. Dadi was noticing both Shiv and Gauri sitting quietly, not having a word to say to one another and wondered if they had actually ended up making the wrong decision. She refused for her mind to confuse her again, decided it was for the best, and hoped they will sort their indifferences.

Alok babu and Mahen ji had come to Shiv and Gauri and asked if it was okay with both for them to announce the wedding date to set in 3 weeks time, Gauri just stared towards the ground while Shiv had asked for them to make it 2 weeks, which made Gauri look up in shock. Her insides burnt with rage while it had made mahen ji and alok babu smile. Shiv mentioned that in the third weekend, Machaan had been arranged to get married and he had only come to know of it a little while back. Gauri was gutted about his suggestion but felt so happy for Mac. She wondered why he did not say anything to her, then again she has been busy with her own issues and maybe he thought she could not care less about it. Everyone agreed and the day was announced. Gauri sulked upon it and wondered why it could not be done on the fourth weekend rather than the second, and maybe never…………….

Mac was congratulated by many, he smiled all the way. Gauri walked up to him and smiling congratulated him, he hugged Gauri and said he was very happy for her. Gauri's eyes gleamed with tears and she asked him to speak to Josh. Mac nodded and told her that everything will be okay, as Josh would find it very hard to stay angry with her. Gauri smiled once again and felt peace at heart to have Mac as such a lovely friend. She truly felt blessed.

That day gone Gauri did not see Shiv during any preparations. Everyone was running around getting things done, Gauri had been shopping with shayla chachi and dadi, spent a lot of time with the family made to make choices for the wedding but not a glimpse of him. He had disappeared from the face of earth, she dare not ask anyone, why should she, she actually liked the idea of him not being around, he only causes grief she thought, but she found herself curious to know his whereabouts. Every so often she wondered where he was.

Thursday morning she had walked into the Kapoor house and Dadi suggested that she went to her room, actually her room to be and pick a colour scheme as the interior decorator was to arrive in about half an hour. Gauri confused suggested that nothing was wrong with the room and she was not greatly concerned about it, Whatever the room was like was fine with her, besides all, it was his room and she intended to plant no interest in it and show that she felt anything towards it. Dadi told her with a slight rigidness that it was not a suggestion, she should take it as an instruction. Gauri was surprised and walked towards the room. As she walked away, Dadi smiled and thought, whatever was going on between her and shiv, this was the best way for her to feel homelike once she marries and comes to live there.

Gauri opened the door and stood in the doorway remembering the night Shiv had told her that one day or the other she was to end up in that room. Tears formed and she regretted how her love had turned so sour that the very suggestion that sent her to cloud nine was now making her ill. She wiped her face and walked into the room shutting the door behind her. She walked around the room looking at his pictures at every corner smiling. At the dresser, she picked up the picture, staring at it she wiped it with her scarf seeing how much dust had gathered around it.

"You need to stop lying to yourself ……or………….. maybe me" ,Shiv said, her heart sank knowing he was breathing down her neck.

Placing the picture down promptly and regretted ever touching it. She wiped the sweat beads that had formed on her forehead and turning walked away, thinking, where the hell did he come from. Moving at a fast pace he past her and stood there blocking the door. He could actually see her temperature rising. She asked him to move away from the door and let her out.

"but you didn't say what ur going to do?"Gauri gave him a stabbing look and he moved away from the door. As she walked out he smiled wondering what she was doing in the room.

Gauri climbed down the stairs furious at her own self. What must he think, she panicked a bit and decided any silly ideas he may get she will have to show him his place.

Next few hours she was busy with the decorator while he hovered around, she could feel him staring occasionally. Dadi had suggested for him to sit with Gauri and the decorator but getting a dirty look from her, smiling he told dadi that it was up to Gauri now, how the room should look, he was happy with whatever she chose. Dadi was so pleased with his answer she hugged him. He stared at Gauri smirking, knowing how she wanted to kill him right this moment.

Two more days and she will be Mrs Gauri Kapoor, the thought was giving her palpitations. He head spun thinking about being in the same room with him for so many hours of the day,,,,,,,her hand felt numb and her feet cold, she thought she was developing a fever.

Saturday morning woke up and found her whole self burning. Doctor was called over and Alok Babu was so worried about her. He was also concerned about her getting better by the night before the wedding ceremony. Shiv was told of this and now he was going cold feet. He knew she was worried where her life was leading to. He wished he could tell her how much he loved her, that he would let no harm come to her, and that she told him what worried her so he could fix it, but knew, he was the last person she would talk to. He prayed for her to get better.

The prescription was issued and doctor had instructed her to take it easy and not think too much. Alok babu was told that this could be the pre-marriage stress that most girls suffer from but she had taken on a little extra. He felt relief that she will be okay by this evening; last thing he wanted was the disruption of any kind. It sounded cruel that he was putting this wedding before her health but he did not want anyone pointing fingers at his daughter and this attitude of worldly care had kicked in.

Gauri felt better by the evening and noticed Mashimaa and Kaya by her bedside when she rose to sit in her bed. Mashimaa moved closer and worriedly felt her forehead but soon smiled and kissing her hand walked out of the room. Kaya asked if she wanted anything to eat. Gauri agreed remembering Mashimaa's face knowing if she fell ill again all her family would be so very stressed. She hated being the cause of another few wrinkles forming on her baba's face. He had been through so much and all she wanted to see was him feeling joyful.

Gauri at and to her surprise felt so much better, Kaya smiled seeing her beaming abundantly. Gauri washed and dressed opening her hands stared at her henna pained hands screaming his name. She sighed and let the beautician fix her makeup and the rest.

Kaya and Mashimaa walked in the room with huge excitement with the wish to see her complete as a bride. The orange and red attire had made her shine like a sweet moon amongst the dark skies. She looked resplendently elegant. Her long floating skirt swept the floor as she made her way towards Mashimaa very slowly. In that very heavily embroidered, shape hugging outfit she looked long, lean and marvellously modish.

Whoever saw her thought Shiv sure was going to be stung by this today. Her eyes dipped low she walked to the mandap while her baba by her side wept quietly for knowing of her innocence always and for mistrusting and for letting go of a precious piece of his heart. He wished somehow he could put his feeling inside of Shiv so he would care for her like he had done all her life.

Everyone prayed with them as they circled around the sacrosanct fire wowing to give their relationship as much care and need it required. Gauri prayed for the strength to go through with this without causing any more pain to anyone. Shiv prayed to help rectify all his mistakes and make Gauri the happiest woman. Blessings poured once the ritual was done and Shiv was handed vermillion. He gently lifted her maang tikka and placed the deep red dust. She had lightly closed her eyes and the tears had smoothly rolled down her cheeks. The garment was lifted by a few to make way for him to tie the mangle sutra. Now she sobbed and lifting her eyes searched for her father. Shiv heart pained but knew she needed to do this.

Next few hours went flying and the preparations were made for vidai. As she was guided towards the carriage, she felt her eardrums were to explode the pressure was enormous. Her face ached as she felt the gush of fluids travelled towards her tear ducts. All hell broke loose, all her childhood momories came flooding and she hugged her Baba, Mashimaa, Kaya and cried to her hearts content. Dadaji had come forwards and separated her from Alok babu saying she will always be treated like a daughter. Dadaji hugged her and assured her she would never be disappointed to be a part of Kapoor family. Shiv was over joyed when Gauri had flashed a timid smile and touched Dadaji's feet.

Her bangles tinkled and she sat next to him in the car nervously chafing her fingers. He loved her nervousness he wished he could slide closer and hold her tight, but Shyla chachi sitting next to her was a neat reminder for him to maintain his hold out. She smelt sweet, just like a bride should, he thought. She was so far away from him but knowing she had just adapted his name made him ecstatic. As much time as she needed, he will give but he would make her, his. With this thought, he smiled and spreading his legs touching hers. Her frame straightened and she was rigid all through the ride he noticed. He did not move, not knowing or not wanting to know what he was doing in spite of her warnings.

Once home all the rituals and formalities were performed by shyla chachi, it was then when Shiv missed his mum. His eyes filled up and Dadi whispered for him to not worry too much and explained that his mum will come around, which Gauri heard. Both sat next to each other while whole of the house was busy with the routine of arranging dinner for the guests. Gauri was handed a plate and asked to share with Shiv. Both looked at one another and wanted out but all the young ones gathered around and asked for them to feed one another. Shiv rashly denied this but Dadi persuaded for him not to make it such a big deal and get on with it.

He grabbed a mouthful and guided his hand towards her lips. She gently opened and his fingertips made a contact with her lips, she trembled with his touch. Her hands rose and one of them tenderly held on to his and guided him. The chill finally set in, he'd rather there was no contact what so ever if he was not able to feel her. Gob smacked he stared while her hand reached unto his mouth, here we go, he thought, the unbearable skin alliance. His insides withered as her fingertips spooled his hot, soft lips. Taking it, he lowered his head deep into his chest trying to hide his disquiet.

I wud like to thank a few KMS loyalists who i have not come around to thank indvidually, who never forget to read and never forget to comment,, love u guys,, the list goes like this,,

KUKU,, ANISHA,,PRAB,,SUMERA,,ABHILASHA,,JIYA,,AKAUR,,SIMRAN..

thanx lovely ladies,,

And finally thanx to Andekhi for kicking my butt over this update I sure love reminders,,,,😆, forgive me guys, i sound like a tease now,, 😳,

Do enjoy and let me kno hw it was....

Edited by Iqbaladdict - 17 years ago
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Posted: 17 years ago
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Originally posted by: akaur

the update wz gr8
it wz so long it totally made up 4 lost time
but pls bring them 2gether soon



thanx babe, glad u found it good, I will try writing nex part sooner than later. hope I can,😃 cheers again

Originally posted by: Catwoman

omg u ended it there??? 😡 😡 😡 ....

Now please update us soon!!

Kat



Billo, sorry😳😳😳, That is all I cud manage, but will try the next part soon,

cheers for reading it,,

Edited by Iqbaladdict - 17 years ago

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