~Chapter 2~
Aaj Ki Raat
Fate! I have always trusted on it, these two years. They know the best for me! But, today I am meeting something because of my fate that I never trusted on, feelings! You know, why? They have always given me pain! Betrayal, the betrayal of world, of my memories, of relationships! Every time and I never trusted them again, completely suppressed them! But, why? I am meeting them again against my will! This feeling, I know how confusingly beautiful it is, but then no feeling is ever-lasting or true, just a trap of desire. I accepted my fate, discovered myself and went in that away, gained success and became complete! But, did I really become complete? Today? Me and my fate against each other! I don't know the choice! But, why do I don't know?
Was it a game or a choice? There we both stood in front of the night, the same night! The same night as that, that when I burnt her dhaba and the game started or the love started! A choice of our fate and we accepted it and loved each other till date, that's one night I will never forget, happy to meet her but guilty for what I did with her! There too I meddled with choice of happiness and guilt, here too I meddle with love and fate! Love was written in her fate, but togetherness wasn't! Here we are together, but love? I don't know! That's all I have been saying throughout my life! I don't know because I don't know if what I am is ever right! When Sanam came I realised I was capable of love, that I was good too, that I had a heart too, but she went away, still residing in my heart! But, then today I am feeling something that will move on from the feeling where I felt right? Just, I don't know!
The fire was set ablaze like never in the hearts, confused with the restlessness and yet a feel of peace, calmness that they had been missing for years! She seemed to feel chills, because of the weather or maybe me, just maybe. I wanted to give her my jacket but didn't, wanted to reach out to her but didn't, wanted to know her more, but didn't.
Aahil- The rain won't stop I guess tonight! We'll have to stay here only! I said without finding any other words to speak to her! Aahil Raza Ibrahim looked for words, but this had happened already, just painfully gorgeous it was and this time he didn't know.
I know that!
And I know that you know.
So?
Nothing!
Then why?
Why what?
Why did you even meet me?' I wanted to say, but stopped myself! Why the rain?', that must have sounded so stupid, but frankly my mind was in no condition to work.
Ya Allah! Kaisi ladki hai yeh?'
And she rolled her eyes with both going to sleep, bunch of grass kept between in the hut. But, seems like the night had other plans.
Shaam Hai Jaam Hai Aur Hai Nasha
Tan Bhi Hai Man Bhi Hai Pighla Hua
Chhayi Hai Rangeeliyan
Phir Bhi Hai Betabiyaan
Kyun Dhadakta Hai Dil, Kyun Yeh Kehta Hai Dil
Deewana Ko Ab Tak Nahin Hai Yeh Pata
Aaj Ki Raat Hona Hai Kya
Paana Hai Kya Khona Hai Kya
Aaj Ki Raat Hona Hai Kya
Paana Hai Kya Khona Hai Kya
***
It was still raining heavily. But, Saif had gone over to his home to be with his Apa for his Apa had called him. Tomorrow she was leaving Bhopal for some important work, so he had gone in the rain.
The rain seemed to share its tears with me of pain. The rain always roared when it had pained just like me, defeated everyone and came down to meet the earth, but, it never stays there only, just goes back to its place of heaven again and again. I want Aahilji, but Aahilji never is mine and I know it and I know it's not my place, my place is Saif, my heaven! I want to go with me, but Aahilji, he's my shohar and he belongs to me. Yes! He belongs to me! Mine, but the night had different plans for me.
Do Ghadi Mein Hi Yahan Jaane Kya Hoga
Jo Hamesha Tha Mera Bhi Mera Hoga
Kaun Kiske Dil Mein Hai Faisla Hoga
Faisla Hai Yahi Jeet Hogi Meri
Oh Deewana Ko Ab Tak Nahin Hai Yeh Pata
Aaj Ki Raat Hona Hai Kya
Paana Hai Kya Khona Hai Kya
Aaj Ki Raat Hona Hai Kya
Paana Hai Kya Khona Hai Kya
***
The voice call had only shaken me, to the core! My life, my mother! I have someone! Yes, I have! I have! And she's in Bhopal! These years, so much pain, all my tears started to fall down! I need to meet her now, question her, she shouldn't have left me? Why did she leave me? Did someone force her?
I'll know it today and everything will be fine from today! But, the night had different plans for her!
Aao Main Tumse Kahoon Baat Chupke Se
Rang Badlegi Pal Mein Raat Chupke Se
Aaj Ki Raat Hona Hai Kya
Paana Hai Kya Khona Hai Kya
Aaj Ki Raat Hona Hai Kya
Paana Hai Kya Khona Hai Kya
***
The night had started getting darker and darker, the storm more stormy, the heaviness in them more heavy, the feel more felt, the world more vanished, their world more flourished, and the time kept going, seconds became more moments, life became more confused but clear, love in their hearts more discovered!
The whispers of night were heard,
Tumko Le Jaaonga Phir Saath Chupke Se
Jaaoge Tum Kahan Dekho Main Hoon Yahan
Deewana Ko Ab Tak Nahin Hai Yeh Pata
What does the night have in store for them?
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Edited by Dil-E-Pagalpan - 10 years ago
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