Abhigya FF:Night To Remember LAST ch PG 75 NEW FF LINK pg 1 - Page 52

Chapter 19

Slumping on the floor I cursed myself for trusting someone like suresh, who considered me just like his books. He was possessive about them and didn't share them with anybody similarly he was obsessed with me, something which my friends had noticed long time back but I'd turned a deaf ear to all their warnings. I wished I'd listened to them and stayed away from him then probably all that wouldn't have happened, I wouldn't have been bruised for life.

No matter how many times I washed myself but still I always felt dirty and filthy. Had balbir daadi not supported and understood me during that traumatic phase, I would have definitely ended my life.

Few days later I'd come to know that tanu's marriage had been fixed with none other than him. If at all there were any dreams left in my eyes, if at all any hope or aspiration resided within me, if at all my heart remembered to beat then with this news all my dreams, hope and aspiration came crashing down and my heart shattered into a zillion pieces. But then I realized that a lifeless person like me couldn't illuminate his life, with tarnished mind body and soul I'd nothing to offer him. So it was better to see him happy with the person he'd chosen for himself even if it was not me but my sister, at least she would give him that love he desired and deserved, all that I could never give. I thought she would give it instead of me so I really had high hopes from her.

On her wedding I'd wanted to gift her all my unfulfilled dreams along with my unshared feelings and love but she too let me down. That night she'd betrayed not only him but me too, she'd hurt the person who I loved immensely and broken that heart in which I wished to live, probably that's why it wasn't easy for me to forgive and forget what she'd done.

When we both got married I was absolutely clear in my mind that I would keep my distance with him but with the passage of time I was finding it really hard to prevent him from entering into my domain and then there were times when I myself wanted to run into his arms and cry my heart out, I wished to rest my head on his chest and soak his shirt with my tears but didn't do so coz after knowing the reason behind my grief he would be left heartbroken, which I couldn't bear to see.

Several times he lend his hand out to me which I desired to hold and move ahead with him ignoring my past but then that would amount to cheating on him which I couldn't do even in my dreams.

Looking over my shoulder I found him missing, turning around I saw him standing out in the balcony with his back facing me. He'd left just as I'd expected. Tears welled up in my eyes. I'd lost him once again and this time forever. I knew my past would destroy my present and my future but for how long could I hide it from him? How long could I ignore the love in his eyes and not tell him the reason why I couldn't give back what he wished for? Even if all my thoughts, feelings and dreams were conquered by him, even if every single pore of my being loved him to death still the truth couldn't be changed that I wasn't worthy of him. I was SCARRED!

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I looked at my open palms and curled my fingers in rage, he died accidently but I so wished to kill him with my own hands. I wanted to scream my heart out. I wanted to unleash the anger within me. The lava of rage was dying to explode like a volcano from my body.

But then looking back I found her slouched figure on the floor, he had hurt her really badly, sucked life out of her and infused bitterness in its place. Clenching my jaws I thought of the misery that he must have inflicted on her, how could anybody be so barbaric?

Turning my back to her I realized that not only he even I'd unknowingly hurt her, had I not stepped into her life she wouldn't have suffered so much and she not even once blamed me for anything. She'd paid the heaviest possible price for loving me and what did she get in return? a tarnished world because of him and a broken heart thanks to me who proposed to her sister instead of her and would've probably married her had she not eloped that night.

I slammed the wall with my fists firmly and thought, how difficult it must have been for her to come down in that state to attend the marriage of someone who she loved immensely and then live with that same person under one roof with the illusion that he loved someone else and not you.

I was living a dark, aimless and empty life, it was she who pulled me out of darkness and showed me light while she on the other hand preferred to stay herself in that darkness. She brought a smile on my lips and wept silently alone in a corner. She healed each and every wound of mine but hid her scars from everyone including me. She breathed life into me but continued to live a lifeless life herself. She preferred to keep her pain to herself and not share it with me fearing that I might blame myself for her sorrows. Had I not confronted her today she would've continued to live this miserable life and even today when she finally broke her silence it was not because she couldn't endure more but because she couldn't see me suffering.

Her love was and is selfless. People fall in love but she rose in love.

Sighing deeply I turned around once again and saw her standing with lowered head. If till minutes back what I felt for her was love then now my feelings were far more deep and strong, I didn't wish to name them just wanted to feel them with my soul.

Walking in slowly I saw her holding on to my jacket. I wrapped my arms around her slender waist from behind, she got startled and clutched the jacket firmly, I tried to pull it from her hands as there was no need for her to hold on to her past, she resisted but I succeeded in taking it from her and dropped it aside. She attempted to wriggle out of my embrace but I held her firmly and closely she became teary and started weeping , soon her sobs became louder, she struggled to get out of my arms and then let out a loud cry.

Closing my eyes I felt that I could never imagine the extent of physical, mental and emotional trauma she must have suffered. My heart burnt and eyes turned moist. Her sobs died out slowly as she vent out the anger, the frustration, the helplessness that she'd held within for months. I softly pressed my lips against each and every scar on her back. I knew what she'd gone through was tragic but I wished if possible to ease out her pain. She gasped with every touch and her body melted within my embrace. I stroked her arms with my hands and rested my chin on her shoulder, she relaxed and leaned against me for sometime controlling her breathing which had become heavy. She turned around slowly and encircled her arms around my neck. Hugging her back I pressed her to myself and buried my face in the crook of her neck ensuring that she was mine and nobody could ever separate us. Nothing could ever come between us. What happened in her past would never affect our present and future. We were each other's shadow and would never leave each other. We were destined to meet, love and be together forever no matter what path of life we followed. Our lives and our stories wouldn't remain unfinished, we'd complete them together.

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He picked me up in his arms, I placed my head on his shoulder and shut my swollen, tired eyes. I felt him putting me down on his bed, a place that belonged only to him. He laid next to me and brushed his fingers through my lose strands tucking them behind my ear. Opening my eyes I found him leaning on me, he was so close to me that I couldn't believe. I always dreamt of a moment when there would be no one between us, no misunderstandings in the air, only love breathed between us and this was that moment.

With deep love in his eyes he gazed back at me, I raised my hand to touch him, to ensure that this was indeed true but stopped midway curling my fingers and wondered, did I have the right to feel him? He saw the hesitation in my eyes but didn't do anything to dispel it. He was mine yet I was holding myself back, the moment that I always longed for was just centimeters away from me. Opening my trembling fingers I brought them close to his face and placed them on his cheek, taking a deep breath I began caressing his face and he closed his eyes. I didn't know how to react when he held my hand and pressed it further, a smile crept my lips and my eyes turned teary. He came down on me and rested his head on my shoulder, bringing my arms around his back I inhaled his fragrance which was seeping inside me, there was certainly some magic in that moment. His touch was so tender that the more I felt it, the more I was losing myself to him. Turning my neck I moved my hand to switch off the bedside lamp, I wasn't scared of the darkness anymore, I had my light in my arms. His love would be my guiding light not just for today but forever.

There were no boundations between us and nothing could hold us back now. Lifting his head he glanced at me with a sweet smile playing on his lips, color rose to my cheeks when I thought that from now on my days would start by seeing the sun rising in his eyes and nights would end with engulfing him in my arms. My nights would no longer be moon less because the moon who I always admired would be close to me.

I guess he heard what my heart was saying and cuddled against me. Words hardly found a place in our relationship, our eyes always managed to convey the unexpressed feelings to each other. His lips and his hands followed their own path on me but wherever they went they managed to heal the bruises on my soul and body. The warmth of his love was breathing life inside me and at the same time evoking such beautiful emotions whose existence I was oblivious to.

He entwined his fingers with mine and nuzzled my neck, squeezing my eyes shut a lone tear of joy dropped and a trembling smile danced on my lips when our lonely hearts began beating in the same rhythm , when our passionate souls became one and when my incomplete story combined with his and became our eternal love story.

Resting his head on my heart he quietly listened to just the two lines which my heart wished to say.

" Meri Adhuri Kahaani , Lo Dastaan Ban Gayi.

Tune Chua Aaaj Aise, Main Kya Se Kya Ban Gayi."

The End.

Thanks a lot for reading and liking this story.this is the last part and there is no epilogue. however if you wish, i can start a new story.

Rose