~TaaRey OS - Love Remains Alive~

TaaRey OS- Love Remains Alive.

The 17th of December.One of the most cherished days in our lives.The day our souls met..the day our hearts created a path to be together..FOREVER.Here I was,standing on the terrace of my academy..looking at the starry sky..cherishing those moments with a smile on my face and salty tears in my eyes.Had she been there she would have wiped them and I would have teased her making her go red and pink.I smiled thinking how pretty she looked when she blushed.A part of me wanted her to wipe my tears and hug me tight.So I did what I normally do..when I feel the need to talk to Her.I closed my eyes..her beautiful face appeared before me.I smiled.Opening my eyes I began talking to the star i felt was shining the brightest in the night sky..

"Hey Princess!!Yaad hai aaj ka din??Tum kaise bhulogi yaar!Aaj hi ke din toh hum k hue the!Aaj agar tum yaha hoti na tumhara rang Tomato ki tarah hojjata!I am missing you today yaar..unn palon ko yaad karke..the happiness,the peace..kaash tum hoti yaha!Wow!Look i am falling short of words..Anyways i know tum bhi waha yahi soch rahi hogi right??I love you taani..And you know what i need you to be there tomorrow!Kal bohot important event hai yaar!!Aur.."

I felt a hand on my shoulders.I wiped my tears and turned around to find Sharon standing there.

"Hey Shar!"

"Kab tak Rey??Its been a 1 and Half years now!Look rey..we don't want to pressurise you but kab tak??"

"Kab tak kya Sharon??" I asked knowing what she would say now.

"Kab tak aise akele rahoge?Don't you feel the void only a life partner can fill?Do hafte baad meri aur Swayam ki shaadi hai..everyone has that one person who can make them feel special.Why not you??Taani bhi toh yahi chahegi na Rey.."

I took a deep breath.Why could'nt anybody understand??I decided to put an end to this..once and for all.

"Sharon,do you mean to say moving on means moving into another relationship??Moving on means trying to love someone else??Sharon when we lose a brother,or someone really close do we replace that person's place in our life?Kya hum unn memories ko bhulane ki koshish karte hai ya unhe yaad karke muskurate hai?We can't replace right?Then why do you think I can replace Taani with another girl in my life?Sharon i had made it clear i am fine.

"Rey,maine yeh kab kaha replace Taani?Taani ki jagah kabhi mat do kisiko..but atleast open a place inyour heart to someone else?

"No Sharon.Taani jitna pyaar mujhe kabhi koi de hi nahi sakta.Naahi main kisiko woh pyaar de sakta hun joh main aaj bhi sirf Taani se karta hun.Won't it be unfair?Main kisi uar se pyaar kabhi isliye nhi kar paaunga..kyunki i have lost my trust on this emotion.No Sharon.Love is the most beautiful emotion.I trust it with all my heart..coz my heart is filled with love for Taani.Main kisi aur ko apna dil nahi de sakta kyunki woh mera hai hi nahi.My heart,my soul,my everything belongs to Taani.So what if she is no more??Her Love can never die.I can never let go of my love for her.It isn't in my power.

I took a minute to wipe the tears which had started flowing again.I looked at Sharon.

"Memories never die Sharon.Love remains alive even when the person dies.Kyunki insaan ka sirf shareer marta hai..uska astitva,uski yaadein aur suki ruh ko koi mita nahi sakta.Mujhe Taani ki yaadon se,humari yaadon se taqat milti hai jeene ki.I find my strength,my solace,my refuge in her memories,in her smile.Our love was true Sharon.And true love is beyond any boundaries of time and place.It is timeless.My love for Taani is timeless.It does not matter if she isn't physically present with me today.For me all that matters is that she is with me.Mentally and Spiritually.She is like an angel supporting me from up there,being with me everytime and guiding me.She was my reason to live when she was alive.Today her promise and her eternal presence around me is my reason to be alive.I Love her Sharon..only her.I will till my last breath and beyond that.So please..don't think I am alone.I am not.I have Taani..safe in my heart.I am happy enough Sharon.Please understand."

I looked at Sharon.Looking at the tears in her eyes..i sensed she had understood what i meant to say.

Sharon's POV

I never realised how wrong I was when I believed Rey needed to move on.Today I understood what moving on is..after I heard Rey out.Its been more than a year since Taani's death and Rey hasn't even thought about moving into another relationship.But he surely has moved on.His eyes reflect peace and his face reflects happiness.He takes his strength from His memories with Taani..and moves about dancing,laughing,winning accolades and leading the D3 academy and team to victory constantly.Maybe that is what moving on actually is.As I looked at him smiling inspite of having tears in his eyes..I realised how his love,His Taani remains alive for him..being the cause of his tears as well his smile.I decided I would never talk to him about this again.Rey had taught me an important lesson in love.Love never Dies..its a fire which burns with purity and passion,eternally and peacefully.

"Rey..main samajti hun tumhe.I seriously have no words.I promise you main kabhi tumse iss baaremein fir baat nahi karungi.

He smiled.His motto was fulfilled..finally i had understood him.I hugged him tight.My best friend had a void in his life..but he did not mind it as long as no one tried to take away Taani's memories from him.After all everything of his,his smile,his dances..everything was for her and from her.I decided to leave him alone for a while.I needed to have a talk with the gang.

Rey's POV

Sharon bid me goodbye and left.I felt a sense of happiness envelope me as no one would ever ask me to move into another relationship now.Even Taani knew no one could ever make me love again.That's why she gave me some beautiful memories to move on with.I vivdly remembered that day..

Flashback:

I was standing with Taani on the terrace of our college.I had just given her a surprise..and she had absolutely loved it!!Oh!That glee and happiness on her face followed by the beautiful blush!I could do anything to watch this cute scene again and again!I looked to my side and found her engrossed in thoughts.Was she thinking..what I thought she would be??

"Taani??"

"Haan?"

"Kya soch rahi ho?"

I noticed her taking a deep breath as she turned her fragile frame to look at me.

"Rey..mere jaane ke baad aap kya karoge?Kaise rahoge?

I wasn't surprised.She always thought about my happiness and wellbeing.Now her concern was how was I supposed to survive after she left...Forever.

"Kisi aur se pyaar karunga!Aur kya!" I said playfully.

"Rey!main jaanti hun aap aisa nahi kar paaoge..islie toh aapko yaadein dekar jaa rahi hun."

"Apne sawal ka jawab toh tumne khud hi de diya princess."I said..moving closer to her.

She cupped me face..tears glistening in her eyes,

"Rey..promise me ki mere jaane ke baad bhi aap aise hi muskuraoge.Joh yaadein aapko dekar jaa rahi hun unse taqat lekar aage badhoge.Aage badhne se mera matlab yeh nahi ki mujhe bhul jaao.Meri yaadein aapke liye rone ka nahi,smile karne ka reason banengi..Promise??

I was touched.She was suffering from pain..and all she could think about was me.She knew i would never be able to love anyone else..hence she was giving me all she could to help me live on later.I took her palms from my cheek and held them within my palms.

"Meri princess..I promise.Our memories will be my reason to live and smile.To dance and laugh.I will live my life Taani..as you wish.Our love will be my strength.I promise." I said..holding her cheek with one of my palms..the other still in her hands.

The liquid flowed from her eyes as she hugged me tight.She knew she would be leaving a void in my life..but i promised myself to fill it up for her happiness.I needed to live on..for her and for myself.She seperated herself from me and we ended up getting caught in an eyelock.I leaned toward her and my lips touched hers..

Flashback ends:

I was sitting on the bench..tears in my eyes and a slight smile on my face.Her love and concern for me was beyond anything..her beauty beyond purity.A few months ago..i would have given anything to get those days back.But Today I felt complete..as her love flooded my soul and heart.All I wanted was to fulfil the promises given to her..and make her proud of me,for having loved me.I closed my eyes as her face appeared in my consciousness..this was something told by her so that I could feel and look at her innocent face..whenever I wanted to..

Flashback:

Taani and I were sitting on the beach..feeling the soft sand beneath our feet and the waves spraying water on our faces occasionally,watching the fiery sun turn the skies into a hue of orange and red.I turned to my side to find a beauty whose innocence was beyond purity..smiling cutely,her head head rested on my shoulders peacefully.Suddenly I wondered how was I supposed to look at her and feel this sense of peace and completeness envelope me..when she would be gone.

"Taani?"

She lifted her head up and looked at me enquiringly..probably wondering why i decided to break the tranquil silence between us.

"Haan Rey?"

"Kuch puchun?"

"Yeh bhi koi puchne waali baat hui?Puchiye na!"

"Woh..jab tum chali jaaogi..toh main tumhe kaise dekhun?" I asked haltingly.I observed her expressions changing from a happier one to a sadder one.Suddenly..I felt a bit bad for asking this question.

"Rey..aankhe bandh karo."

I was perplexed.

"Kyu?"

"Bandh karona!"

I had to comply to her command.

"Whose face do you see?"

There was a blur first.Then I saw a cute face emerging from the blur..it was taani's face!I smiled.

"Tumhari!"

"Aankhe kholiye!"

I opened my eyes and found her smiling just as she had been when i had looked at her in my mind..with my closed.

"Dekha Rey?Jabhi aap mujhe dekhna chaho..mehsoos karna chaho..toh bas apni aankhe bandh kar lijiye.Main aapke saamne aajaungi."She explained as she held my cheek.

I hugged her to her my chest.I had not figured out how I was gonna live without her..but she had showed me a way of feeling her warmth..I touched my forehead to her as she held my face in her palms..

Flashback ends:

I was crying now.Today this path she showed..is my only solace of living.The pain of not having her by my side..was reduced to a great extent.I looked down at my hands..which held Lord Krishna's idol.The idol she had gifted me when she was taking her last few breaths in the ICU.Tears flowed down freely..as i went back to that day..

The Last Day:

Destiny had played a cruel game with us.With our love.Its said..true soulmates are destined to be together.But our destiny had chosen to play a game with us..we were going to be seperated forever in a while..As I waited outside the ICU..my eyes blank yet filled with tears.I was totally broken as I sensed her end was near.I was flooded with pain yet I felt numb.Had Swayam or Sharon not been holding I would have surely collapsed.Wait..I do not even know who is holding me in the first place!We were soulmates who were victims of The Game Life had decided to play with us.The doctor came and called out to me..telling me Taani wanted to meet me.I looked up at him and my feet involuntarily dragged me to her room.I had no strength left in me to look at her in that condition..but then I had to.For both of us.For this would be the last time.

I stepped inside.A look at her pale face and my heart wrenched.The tears seemed to be never ending.I slowly walked toward her..wishing time would stop here and she would never go away!I sat beside and cupped her face.No words came out of my mouth..as I was totally numb.All I could understand was Taani was going away..Forever!

She held my face and wiped the tears which were flowing with an aim of not stopping.

"Rey..please stop crying.I want to see you smile..only then will I rest in peace."She brought my forhead closer to hers and continued whispering in her fragile voice..

"Rey..you are my love.My life.My everything.Aap mere jeene ki wajah the..smile akrne ki wajah the.You stood by me in every step.Loved me in every phase and loved me for who I am.You fulfilled my wishes,helped me discover myself and my passions.You were my guiding light and you are my soulmate.Rey agar main chahti toh jis pal mujhe pata chala ki mujhe yeh bimari hai..I would have left you so that you could find your happiness in someone else.But I decided not to..coz I would have ended up breaking you forever.I chose to let you support me throughout this ordeal..because I knew you needed it.I know you can never love anyone else neither am I teeling you to do so.Rey..I chose to give you memories to cherish.I chose to spend my last few months with you so that you would be able to live on with these moments after I leave.Rey..thank you for everything you have ever given me!The unconditional love you showered upon me,your care,for being my support system and for being my soulmate.Rey,I need a promise from you.

Emotions had taken over me completely.Her words touched the deepest core of my heart.I still could speak anything.But I nodded my head asking her to continue..as i moved my face closer to hers..constantly wiping her tears as she did the same for me.

"Rey..you must promise me ki aap kabhi jeena nahi chodoge.Aap kabhi dance karna nahi chodoge.Main chahti hun ki aap best dancer bane aur aap D3 team ko Top dance teams mei No.1 postion pe lekar jaao.I want D3 academy to achieve the status of being among one of the best academies.I know your passion and world starts and ends with me.Rey hamari yaadon se taqat lo.Humesha yeh yaad rakhna ki Main aapke saath rahungi.Aasmaan mein ek taara ke rup mein ensure karungi ki aap khush ho.Aap jab chaho mujhse baat kar sakte ho.Zindagi ke har step pe physically aapke saath dene ki toh ijazat nahi hai mujhe...par as a light,as a star,mentally and spiritually har pal aapka saath dungi.Promise me you will always be happy?And you will never stop dancing?

I managed to gather all my powers and spoke to her..holding her closer.

"I Promise..I promise you Taani!Main tumhe promise karta hun..I will always be happy.I will never stop dancing. best dancer banke dikhaunga aur D3 team aur academy ko puri tarah se successful banunga.Meri zindagi,meri saansein aur mera passion sab tumse shurur hoti hai aur tumhi par khatam hoti hai.Main hamari inn yaadon ko meri taqat banakr jiyunga.Tum aage bhi mere jeene ki wajah banogi.Tumhe kiya gaya har vaada nibhaunga..I Promise.I love you Taani..I always will!

Finding no other words to speak..i kissed her..perhaps for the last time.I let her kiss my forehead.I kissed her cheeks,her cute nose,her forehead..like there was no tomorrow.Well,in our case..there was no Tomorrow!Finally I kissed her soft lips again..

As we pulled apart and tucked strand of hair behind her ears and spoke."I don't know how I am going to survive without you Taani.But i ensure you I will live my life.For You.For your promise.And for myself.Meri dhadkanein hamesha tumhare liye chalti thi aur aage bhi chalengi.Tab tak..jab tak tum mujhe apne paas na bula lo.

She put her hand over my mouth..nodding in a no.

"Aisa mat kahiye Rey..Aap toh apni zindagi puri tarah se ji lijiye.Mere liye aur apne aap ke liye.Aur apne doston ke liye."

I kissed her forehead assuring her I would.

"As you wish Princess.I Love you"..I whispered into her ears.I saw taking out something.

She gave me an idol of Lord Krishna.I was a bit surprised.This was the idol her mom had gifted her when she had left for the heavenly abode.

"Rey..maa ne mujhe yeh tab diya jab woh mujhe chodkar jaa rahi thi Krishnaji ke paas.Yeh idol mere liye sirf krishnaji ki murti nahi..yeh meri strength thi.Ismein mujhe apni maa dikhti thi.Iss idol se hamesha mujhe taqat mili hai.Aaj main yeh idol aapko dekar jaa rahi hun"

She kept her hand on mine and said..

"Isey sambhalkar rakhna Rey.I hope Krishnaji ke iss murti se aapko bhi woh taqat mile joh mujhe mila karti thi.Yeh mera aapko gift hai.Isey hamesha apne paas rakhna."

I realised the depth of her love for me yet again.I realised I would keep this idol closer than anything else..

"Main hamesha isey apne paas rakhunga.Promise."

"Ab ek baar smile kar dijiye pls?Mere liye?

I found it difficult to smile.But I managed to do it for.I knew it was necessary for her to depart peacefully.I touched my forehead to hers..my hand entwined with her hand.Her other hand held my cheek.With my other hand I held the idol of Lord Krishna close to me.

"I love you Rey."

"I love you taani.I love you!I will always love you!"We told each other..for the last time.

She closed her eyes.I felt her hold on my hand loosen.I realised she had gone.I looked at the idol in my hands..I realised..she would always be there.Not in front but forever with me.I looked at her for the last time..and left the room.Taking her memories and our love with me...

Flashback ends:

I was crying badly by now,holding the idol close to my heart.Today I had won the Best Dancer award thrice,Team D3 was ranked amongst the topmost teams.The academy was doing well and had earned the distinction of being among the most well known dance academies around the globe.But she Wasn't there beside me to share my success.But I knew wherever she was..she would be smiling looking down at me and jumping in joy at my achievements.She knew every success of mine was due to her and dedicated to her.The emotions in my dances were real..due to her.The pain,the love i portrayed, all of it came from the deepest corners of my heart.Once I had even portrayed our story as a play..and it had gone on to become one of the best plays.No one ever knew it was my story though..that was my secret!I had and was fulfilling every promise i had ever made to her.And this gave me a sense of peace.I knew I was incomplete without her..but our love completed me in her absence.My success seemed meaningful to me only because it was dedicated to her.She was no more.But her love lived on.In my heart.Untouched.Unpolluted.Undying.She will live on my in my heart till my last breath.Maybe that is what true love is.It never decreases with distance.It burns on..as a fiery fire..its power only increasing.She had taught me to love truly.She had taught to me live.She had given me my tale of true love.

Maybe that is why I have this piece I have written..framed in my room and in my heart.

Mohabbat zindagi mein khushiyan laati.Faaslo ke saath badhti jaati hai.Duriyon mein pyaar ka ehsaas hawayein de jaati hai..nazdikiyon me woh ehsaas tum de jaati ho.Jeeta hun to sirf tumahre khushi ke liye..tere liye.Marunga toh tere paas aane ke liye.Iss judaai ka gham hai mujhe..par tere pyaar ke iss taqat se isey bhi par kar jaunga..Intezaar rahega uss din ka jab hum milenge..aur humein koi juda kar nahi paayega.Tune pyaar diya mujhe..zindagi mein muskurane ki ek wajh di.Tera ehsaas mujhse kabhi koi juda nhi kar paayega.Teri yaadon ke chalte main muskuraunga.Sach pyaar karunga..Hamesha karunga.

I wiped my tears as I realised she would not like me crying.Keeping Krishnaji's idol in my bag I walked away..as 17th december came to an end..waiting for a new day to begin.A new hope and a new morning was awaiting me...as I carried our love into the next day.

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