VirMan FF - The Perfect Disaster [DISCONTINUED. Imp. Note Pg 29] - Page 22

Originally posted by: negha

Wish you all the best... for ur future...dear...

Please when u come back inform us...It was great and iam feeling happy that i read ur updates,,,,:)

Take Care..:)

Originally posted by: Stella_8D

HEY EVERYONE!!!

I know, I know. I really do get it. You can punch a pillow, or throw something on your computer screen hoping that whatever you throw would actually hit my face like SMACK! Or you can even curse... Do whatever you like to show how angry you are at me.

Just to get one thing straight, I'm not here to give plenty of useless excuses for my absence or for not even updating my stories that I promised I would update regularly. One thing you should know about me is that Stella is incapable of keeping promises. I usually break them. Promises are to be broken, right?

When did I last update? December? All I know is that it was ages ago. But here's the thing. I have a life.

My life, I realized over the last few months, does not revolve around writing, updating and what not. It's so much more than that. I'm going to turn 15 this year and there's so much I want to do, not just sit on the boring chair and keep on thinking of the days when I'm going to update, or think about what I'm going to write next. You guys are super supportive but I can't do something which I'm not willing to do.

I'm sure most of you aren't even sure what I'm on about so let me start from the very beginning. I started writing fan-fics when I was 12 years old and then all of this was like a whole cool new world where I could write anything and everything I wanted to write. It went on and on and I got addicted. Seriously addicted. I forgot what life was about... I refused to even step out of my house. It became that bad. I know, why should you guys even care, right? I'm writing this so that I can give you guys a proper explanation and not feel guilty every time I switch on the computer. I have time, okay? I have time to update. Of course, not always but then it's not like I'm even that serious about school work.

The thing is, I cannot bring myself to write anymore. All I see is the blank white screen.. not even one word on it. Last month, I felt inspired to write again but when I opened word.. it was like POOF! I tried and tried and tried but I just couldn't do it. Yes, I enjoy writing but right now.. it's like a compulsion. It's as if I HAVE to write because I HAVE to update when it should be I WANT to write because I WANT to update. But that's the truth. I don't WANT to write anymore. The words don't come to me like they used to. And sometimes, I feel really terrible because I want that flow of words. I want to keep on writing without stopping but right now it's the very opposite. I try to write but then I stop because of that I fail to continue again.

Call it writers' block or whatever you want to.

Right now, if there's one thing I'm sure of then it is that I'm quitting this whole writing thing.. only for sometime. Because even I know I can't stay away from it. I just want to concentrate more on life right now than on writing. And when I think I'm capable of writing again, I'll let you guys know. Of course, I won't start any long stories... just one shots because I figured I'm not really regular with updates and all.

So I think that's pretty much it.

For those who didn't read the whole thing :P Just know that I'm quitting writing stuff for a while. It may take months for me to start again. And I won't be continuing any of my on going stories. I just can't.

I'm sorry to all of those who have been waiting for updates and still want me to write. But that's the thing. I can't write. I have to force myself and if there's one thing I've learnt, it's that you just cannot force yourself to write. You can only write properly when you want to write. And as I said, I don't want to at the moment.

Apologies to everyone! You guys have no idea how extremely sorry I am. I'm just tired of disappointing all of you so I just decided to be out it with it.

Now I feel free. It's like a heavy load has been taken off of my shoulders.

To all the lovely people who have always supported me - Thank you. I really have no words to express my gratitude. I love you all.

To all those who are disappointed - I'm so sorry and I just hope you guys understand. Thank you.

To those who couldn't care less - It's okay :) Thanks for reading, anyway.

To those who despise me - It's okay too. Everyone has their opinions and if you hate me, well you can't force yourself to like me :)

To everyone out there - Thanks a lot lot lot! You all are wonderful, lovely people <3 Love you!

This is not a goodbye! If anyone wants to talk to me just PM or whatever. I'll definitely reply :) Oh and if you're disappointed that you couldn't know the ending of The Perfect Disaster... then just PM me, I'll tell you what I had planned.

That's all.

Take care!!

With loads and loads of love,

Stella

P.S. If you do send me a PM, then you'll have to wait till 23rd for a reply.

Originally posted by: Nandita217

Hi there. :) Reading your note, I really felt bad that you are not writing/ continuing this story any further, but then at the same point I respect your decision and also I respect that you honestly kept everything on the table instead of making any other excuses. Life is important. very very important & that shouldn't be taken lightly at any point in your life, otherwise you may face a situation that one day when you get up you will realize that you made great friends in your virtual world but in your real life...BOOM, there is no one which you can name as a friend or no goal out there. So yes if its disturbing your real life then you should not write, for the time being. It looks good & feels proud when you are locked up in your room whole day writing only when you are a professional writer & your book is one the way to get published :P

So go ahead with light shoulders, & concentrate on your real life and come back with more amazing shots😃

Good luck with everything. And oh yes I want to atleast know what you had planned for TPD, so the PM is right on the way, will be waiting😃😃