When I was ready to submit to my Manik entirely, with all my trusts, with the dreams of the most beautiful future, the cruel world played us. The delicate survival of trust was shattered. His love for me was flipped to hatred by his heart. To the other side of the coin. And l came to know how hate tastes, when cooked from the heart of the person you love.
My Manik keeps me giving the taste, he wants to check whether I myself flip the coin or not. He still has hope on me. That gives me power to take in his hatred. That gives me power to walk side by side with that hatred. Sooner or later, he will flip the coin again. Sooner or later he will understand me.
Like an obsession, Manik keeps torturing me that tortures back to him. Then he himself keeps bringing the sugar. As if he does not want me to lose appetite with hatred. I see him very close to flipping the coin. I see him close to giving in to my patience.
Suddenly, what I witnessed today, what we witnessed today, the last thing I would wish for him.
Manik, the mighty monster, the protector of his five friends, was gravely defeated today. The one friend, closest to his core Dhruv, the advocate to his all inexcusable acts, made him taste hatred. Manik was too confident...He imagined he knew the bests for his friends. Dhruv, the special one, the silent observer, today gave him reality check. The one, for whom Manik sacrificed me once. His innocent child like buddy, who was slower in growth, had become grown up in a blink to him. And rebelled like an uncontrollable kid. The words from Dhruv's heart... despising his popularity, despising his control, despising his cares, despising his protectiveness, despising his sacrifices, made Manik see, a coin has flipped. The emotional bond, so much precious to him was misinterpreted. All his effort to protect him was in vain. His game was wrong. The mighty monster was defeated.
I know he will need me now. I know he will no more want me to taste the hatred again. I know the coin has been flipped. I should be happy. That's what I waited for. Did I want it to be this easy? But destiny had to play its own game. I sigh...
Now I am in the side of the coin I want to be... And my old test comes back... to be his protector... to make him strong again... to be his star ... to shine for him... this time it's harder than ever ... this time I cannot fail myself ... I cannot fail his trust...
