OMGGG..no way !!
i had been hitting the refresh button and then i thought u weren't posting and i go to do something..and BAAM !!
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DAY 15! - The catch-up date!
"Ohh... I thought your heart.."
Finallyyy my manan are back and I can brag about them as much as I want! But I think before I move onto them, I would like to focus on some of the other aspects of today's episode!
Let's start with Cavya shall we. Well well... Cabir as Navya's "boyfriend"... not bad, not bad! haha But gosh I have to admit the look on Cabir's face was absolutely priceless when Navya's mum refers to him as her boyfriend. He really is such a fine actor and truly knows how to put life into the character of Cabir. So a little bit of a bad news... Navya's mum has found out about the baby and whilst I feel bad for Navya because she didn't get a chance to properly sit down and make her mum understand the whole situation, I feel it's better for her that the truth is out in the open now. It had to be revealed someday and I would say the earlier it happened, the better because it will give enough time for Navya to somewhat re-gather herself and fight for herself and her baby in this situation. If she had delayed it, I feel it would have been more stressful for her and the baby because at the back of her mind there would've been that constant guilt of not only committing this big of a blunder but also not having to tell her mum about it. Now that the truth is out, I feel there is enough time for Cavya's friendship to deepen and blossom too These early struggles will teach both of them to become independent in life as well as find a sense of belonging within the company of each other. We will also gradually get to see a sense of maturity and a realisation of responsibility from Navya's character which will assist in her journey of motherhood. I feel whilst 95% of Navya was ready to deliver and give birth to this baby, there still remained a 5% doubt purely because she didn't know how her parents and especially her mother would react. But now when the air will be cleared out, I find that even that 5% dilemma will be eliminated from her mind. She will be fully ready to give birth to this baby after this as she will have a clear idea that she needs and wants this baby for hers This baby, along with Cabir's friendship will becoming the new reason for her life, the definition of her happiness and the new means of a fresh start for Navya. She won't have to deal with the fear of society or her parents. Honestly, I beleive that while Cabir is a little nervous about having this baby being born in his house, this baby will in a way complete his life too. We can all understand his rather hilariously reluctant state-of-mind towards this baby but I can just foresee that during his journey with Navya through her pregnancy and afterwards, he will find that essence of happiness that somewhat lacks in his life. There will be the awakening of tremendous love for this baby in his heart which will introduce him to an altogether new blissful feeling. This journey is going to be very vital in terms of shaping both the characters into more matured, responsible and more sorted individuals. I look forward towards this growth of theirs.
Moving onto Mukhbi. To be honest I'm heartbroken for mukti. How I just wanted to tell her so badly that omg no please just look under the bed once, I really feel for the girl because whilst everyone seems to be making their way to shore in a slow and steady pace, she's still struggling with the high and low tides of her life. We were so happy for her last week and earlier this week because she had started believing in true love... she had started understanding the value of love and happiness and I was happy that she was experiencing it herself. But now I'm just heartbroken to see her back to feeling cheated and lied to. Obviously we don't know yet what Abhi has written in that letter and this story can go two ways now. One would be that he has just decided to leave the hospital because he knows chemo has stopped showing its effect and it's possible that he may have left an address or phone number for mukti. Or this can take on a totally opposite route where he has left with his final goodbye to her and doesn't want her to try and find him. Honestly at this stage I think it's too vague for me to make a final assumption because today's episode didn't explore their situation in too much depth. I guess we shall just see whether mukti gets hold of that note or not.
And now onto my final stopover before I move onto my beloved Manan. So Manik and Dhruv seemed to have had the chance to have a short-stop talk and there was both a good side and a bad side to it , in my opinion. It was quite disheartening to see Dhruv mock Manik about his fan-following and how he repeatedly scorned him for pre-booking the tickets. I actually had been thinking about this for the last few days and was rather disappointed towards Dhruv's absolute null reaction towards him and Nandini. I mean we all know that every member of the Fab 5 is aware of Manik's feelings towards Nandini and they do know to an extent that they share a bond so deep that they will eventually reunite. But I just feel that Dhruv has almost decided to pretend like he can see nothing and he can't hear a thing either. I understand that his frustration towards Aliya has seemed to trigger these volcanic eruptions towards Manik but I feel there is certain extend as to how much you can overlook the reality but at this stage, Dhruv seems to be in no mood to listen to anything in favour of Manik. Like seriously how can he just forget everything that Manik has done for him? Apart from the sacrifice, because he doesn't even know about that at this stage, Manik has always made sure to be Dhruv's shadow, his pillar of support and his ultimate protector so absolutely nothing can cause him any sort of pain. I find it rather daunting that how can Dhruv just overlook and simply forget all of that? He was that one person apart from Cabir of course, who I had actually hoped will help my Manik through this hard time and in fact motivate him to not give up on Nandini. But let alone share his sorrows, he didn't even try.*sigh* I wonder how many more test my Manik will have to go through. Well I guess that one thing good in their conversation was that when Manik tells Dhruv that they need to have a talk, Dhruv agrees to it. Chalo at least there is still some sort of a desire from his behalf to listen and converse with his friend otherwise I think we all know that Manik would've been heartbroken.
And now to the finale segment of my post. My manan! I've got to confess that when they paired up on-screen in today's episode, my heart found solace and my eyes finally discovered delight. The episode started and his car halted to a stop in front of her doorstep and I was happy. Then I saw him abandon the idea of hooting a horn and instead he smiled a small smile to himself thinking about how close he finally was to her and my grin grew. Then I witnessed his adoring care towards her when he says "must be sleeping"... my heart melted because today he was terminating and resisting the idea of meeting her because he didn't want to disturb her in anyway. He was willing to hold on to his need of seeing her, only and only so her sleep wasn't interrupted. But what happened next was the reason of my uncontrolled smile and overwhelming glee. To his disbelief she rocked up at his footsteps, knowing that he wouldn't have deprived her off just one glimpse of himself. She was confident and hence she had been waiting. She knew her hope, his hope, would drag him to the murthy's residence. His need to see her safe and protected, his specs of jealousy, his impatience of seeing just one glimpse of her, drew him to her window once again. And then he opened his eyes to what had been awaiting him for what seemed like an eternity for her. When he saw the lights of her excitement, when he saw the decor of her wait, when he felt the touch of her love; he knew he was home. He was tired but that just made the scene all so much more beautiful. His struggle with himself hardly lasted against his exhaustion. His heart was just too content to be with her. To see her. To hear her.
Manik: "You know I've had a long flight. And a very tiring one. So instead of coming here, I would've gone home."
Oh how just how he wanted to make it all too convincing to her but he forgot in the moment that perhaps he should've considered where he actually was standing.
Nandini: "Lekin, aaye tum yahaa"
She knew she had a clear win. Their hope had won again.
I just loved the way she made herself comfortable on the floor and straightaway started updating him about her day. Oh she really just knows him way too well. She knew his mind would restrict him to start with this catching-up session so she might as well do the honors. She knew the questions that were making errands all over in his mind. And so before he even had the chance to ask them... she answered it herself in a rather teasing manner. "And btw... before you ask about the panditji haan... unhone kuch nahi kiya... kuch bhi nahi". She knew she had sparked the burning a little. It effected him, it was the question that had been bothering him all-day long. And he had gotten his answers now. His smile assured us that.
He figured at that point there was no point arguing and denying her. There was no point denying himself. He had been longing for this alone time with her throughout the whole day so he might as well cherish the moments. His heart simply released his love, care and trust to flow in every vein of his and he again felt that heavenly homely feeling. I saw my manan being friends today. The friendship that was necessary for their love to bloom and grow to boundary-less extremities. He opened up to her about his whole day and she felt the warmth of being able to share his experiences. Of being able to share his happiness with him.
Oh how my Manik had missed talking to his Nandu. Just the pure pleasure of being able to share endless and countless conversations. There was a part of him that wanted to open up more. He wanted to talk about V, his past, his memories, his dilemmas. Dhruv... Panditji... V. It was all building up on him. "I'm tired". The truth was he wasn't just physically exhausted but mentally drained out too. This whole mind vs heart struggle was raising all kind of questions within him. Who was he to Nandini? Why was he feeling this sense of discomfort seeing panditji around her? What had triggered Dhruv to think so wrongly of him? What is that unnamed bond that always brings them together at the end of every day? He was tried of himself and of all the questions existing inside him.
But then he felt the magic of her touch and the cyclone inside him seemed to calm down for sometime. He welcomed her fingers into his palm with the same ease that she had slipped them in with. It was exactly what he had needed at that point. The reassurance that she was there for him, with him. She waited for him yesterday, she waited for him today and will always wait for him at every step of life. She wanted him to know that no matter how tired he may be, she will always make him feel at home when he will return to her. She will never give up on him for even a single second. It was her way of promising that she missed him just as much as he missed her, if not more. And she will always continue to miss him whenever he leaves her again for a trip or visit like this. She was promising him that she will always remain his and he will always remain her despite all the joking and teasing. She was promising herself to him.
"I'm not angry. Gussa nahin hoon main... actually now it's not hurting that much." Her touch worked. Her balm of love and trust have almost healed him. I loved how just upon her one touch, he seemed to be feeling better. He seemed to be feeling calm about all of his inner-turmoils. He seemed to be confident that this time she won't let go of his hand again. And so he confessed that the pain and agony of betrayal had subsided. Again I felt the whole scene was much more beautiful with his half-denial when she teases him that she thought he was talking about his heart. "Hope karo... hope karti raho". He needed her to keep hoping because she was carrying his hope too. It almost seems that Manik has almost handed himself to his Nandu now. He is ready to go wherever she takes him, And why? Because he's started to realise that she had always trusted him. Her trust never wavered. So now he's begun to trust her trust again.
Now how can I absolutely end this response without talking about Manik's rather intensely aggressive side that surfaced today. She just loves pushing him to the edge doesn't she? And that's exactly what happened today. My manik flipped because his mind was still caught up in the words of panditji's question to him. His mind was going crazy thinking about the not-so-clear intentions of the panditji. "Waise... don't you think ki you're going to lose? Matlab... maan na padega, your hold on this game is slipping." Whilst she was referring to their hatred vs hope challenger here, he believed it to be in relation to panditji's challenge against him. While she talked about his hatred losing, he understood it as him losing her. While she meant it to be his grip on his anger loosening, he thought of it as him loosing her right on her. And hence the inner-volcano erupted. His hands pulled her towards him in the hope to make her realise that his firm on her is so strong that even if she herself wanted to loosen it, it was almost impossible. He wanted to make her realise that she wasn't some commodity that somebody could just win her over from him. She was a part of him and nobody without his permission could even touch her, let alone take her away from his life. His grip tightened today in the fear, the insecurity and the pain of losing her.
So as usual we have been left to witness the big announcement on Monday and I think I'm going to go crazy thinking about how he'll re-gain this position of his.
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This friday was like a Monday..Manan were back after two agonizing days !
And this was me ( really developing a love for animations..lol)
Cavya: Firstly, your section on Cavya was excellent. I doubt i can add anything, you did it too well. i have to say not the best way for the truth to be out but i am glad it's out there. Boyfriend ! lol, my poor Cabs. Loved his meeting with Navya's mother..haha. his fumbles, his stuttering..lol.But now Navya has learned not to jump to conclusions. She should have waited to see what exactly the conversation was about before she dropped the bomb. But i feel as thou she was so heavily weighted with the stress and guilt, that deep down even she is relieved. She is upset with Cabir, maybe she has a right to be but this happened for the betterment of them. But i am glad they didn't stretch it out. And you are right: now Navya can fully focus on bringing this child to the world. Cavya's friendship will be tested and they will definitely get stronger. I don't know if Cabs is about to become a 'boy-friend' to Navya in the eyes of Navya's mother and the father of Navya's child but i think that is what the mother shall think and Cavya might along with it. LOL. I see Hi-Larious written all over it..
Mukti: Damn, the poor girl ! Abhi despite his best intentions to stop hurting Mukti..he keeps hurting her. If she has chosen to stay with him till his last breath, then he can't walk away every time he wants to. Why ? Why ? Multi is right. Why is killing her in this way ? She doesn't deserve to be denied his presence until the end. He is being selfish and it's not fair. We will have to see which way their story goes according to the note but i am not liking the fact Abhi is dictating how their relationship runs. Bro, it's a two-way street, two people in a relationship and they make decisions together.
Dhruv and Manik: Okies, what's is this man's problem ? like just tell me what it is. I am sort of getting past of the point of trying to understand his problem with Manik. When you look through the world with a certain lens, you are bound to percieve in that manner. So negativity if all Dhruv is seeing. He is aloof with Manik, distancing himself and not giving a damn because he resents Manik. He so desperately wants to be like Manik that he is forgetting what a special friend, a brother Manik has been to him. I feel as thou if an attack would be triggered for Dhruv, it would help these two out. Their emotional bonding. But at least they have decided to talk about it. For now, Dhruv pisses me off..lol.
What a homecoming ! Manik's home is Nandini Murthy so when he claimed, he could have gone home, he lied. He did indeed come to his home. And her sweet catch up date touched him. The cousy, romantic atmosphere brought that tiny smile to his face. The feeling of a loved one waiting for him to return. Seeing how she spent her time awaiting his return: that's such a foregin feeling. Such a good foreign feeling.She knows him too well, he is becoming too predicable.lol. I am glad that thou in a teasing manner, she did clear up about the Pandit, knowing he would be want to know, that's it's bugging him. Quite thoughtful of our Nandu, the reassurance she gives him.
And he sits next to her, unwinds, shares about his day because he is past the point of denying himself the pleasure of her presence. I agree with you, he did seem mentally tired, a tad reluctant to share with Nandu, but the important sentence: " She is just a friend, now" So we shall take it as such. Honestly, i am not very interested in Manik's past ( his love life to be precise). The truth, the reality is that Nandini is his present as well as his future.
She brought him to watch the stars. And star gazing he did do indeed. "You can't resist the stars." So right you are Nandini, he simply can't resist you. He turns to face her, and stares at his own shining star with a look full of love, her smile brightening his life again, her presence bringing peace to his heart. She reaches out and takes hold of his hand, and his entire being comes to life. That little twitch, that's him coming back to life. Away from her, he just exists but with her,he lives. He is alive. She is his reason for everything. For preponing the tickets, for coming straight to her after a long tiring flight. She is the reason for everything he does.
They played a beautiful song for Manan today. Apt in every sense.
Tujhko jo paaya aha
Toh jeena aaya
Ab yeh lamha thehar jaaye tham jaaye bas jaaye hum dono ke darmiyaan haan
With you, i have learnt to live. In every sense, Nandini has taught him how to live, taught him how to look at look at life with positivity, taught him to see the goodness within himself. And this moment, the moment of lying together under his stars, he wants to be in this moment with her forever, because that's all he needs from life: just her. Their love doesn't have room for a third person. Pandit's question is still haunting him but we touch on that later. But what i want to say that while the question still lingers at the back of his mind..for now, his inner turmoil is quietened. He is where he belongs, right next to his love, his heart is content.
"Actually now, it's not hurting as much." The heart is indeed healing, his anger is nonexistent now. I loved the honesty of Manik Matltorta, how he always tells her the truth within his own lies. Because somewhere in his heart, he wants to tell her, "I am not angry anymore, i have forgiven you, our love is past all that, my trust in you is rebuilding." But he can't, not yet. The heart may want to, but maybe the mind isn't ready for it. So instead he tells her to hope. Because her hope is his hope and together as they hope, they shall find their way back to each other. Manan don't really need to confess their love as you have said. Moments like these, coming home to his love after a long day, lying together to talk, sharing and being with each other..That's love.
Now..onto the aggressive Manik Maltorta. Loved the way you described and explained his reason for lashing out in the way he did. Last night when he was with her, the questions, the tensions, all his mental stress he was able to shed. But today, everything is back full force. the inner turmoil is back. He rushes to the music room, slightly out of breath worried his Nandu being alone with 'that Pandit". Nandini was being playful, she enjoys his jealously but she isn't aware of what is plaguing his mind. And you said it: she pushed him to the edge and he erupted. She isn't aware of the war that has been declared between Pandit and Manik. So the 'hold' isn't about their hope vs.hatred game, that game has ended already in a way. As much as Manik hopes for heir hope to win and for them to perform together. This all goes past that. This hold about his Nandini. He is holding her so tightly, he loves her so much that he know no one should even think about stealing her away. His is his life and he will fight for her and he will protect her. So Pandit, i keep warning you and you aint listening: watch out, older generation guy. This younger generation lad is about to kick your ass (figuratively and eventually literally)
Okies...i think i am done..Such a joy to be able to write my essays again.lol. Awesome-sauce as always, written to beautiful perfection.
- Reya aka Your Sunny <3
Edited by maankigeet4ever - 10 years ago
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