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awesome update!!..

Surprise update Aisha you brought Shagun to his house hope it twist to make Ishra love more strong . Is really Raman still have soft corner for Shagun like Ishu ask him or just his body never feel for the women for long time so react like that. Hope you will continue soon the story getting more interesting plus Ishu past slowly come to front soon.😊

Nice n superb update..but again shagun... 🤢 😲 😡 how someone can be so cunning n shameless...really worried..I think ishra are gonna confess... 😳 😳 Plss update soon...waiting..n thnx alot for the pm...

wow amazing

superb update
y again shagun
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loved jai...
waiting to c raman ans

brlnt awesome .loved it .ishu last qustn superb.poor ishu .shagun 😡 .cntnue soon eagerly waiting fr next part

Thanks for double dose 🤗

Aishaaa! Why oh why Shagun now. Aren't we being tortured already in the show. Please get rid of Shagun asap. Pleeeaaase! And update soon can't wait. I am loving your story and how things unfold. Well written. How do you come up with this story amazing. 👏

HERE IS ANOTHER 2 CHAPTERS. I HAD FUN WRITING THESE TWO MOSTLY BECAUSE I NEEDED THERAPY FROM THIS WHOLE CURRENT TRACK OF YHM 😆
NWAY I HOPE YOU ENJOY READING IT AS WELL. HERE YOU GO PLEASE LET ME KNWO WHAT YOU THINK AND HIT THE LIKE BUTTON TOO😊😊😊

CHAPTER NINETEEN

'Screw that contract I do not care about that. Look I was just trying to help her. She has a fractured hand and I was just helping her unzip.'' Said Raman

'There are three women in this house shouldn't you have called anyone of them. Four in fact including Mihika'' Said Ishita

'I know and maybe I should have done just that but I didn't and I AM SORRY.'' Said Raman

'If she had asked you to undress her would you do that, given as her hand is fractured.'' Said Ishita sarcastically

'Ishita just please...'' Said Raman

'I understand it is okay. Can I go to bed now.'' Said Ishita

'No it is not okay and I can see from the way you're looking at me that it is not okay. I AM GENIUNELY SORRY. I would never hurt you like that you know it. I admit I may have got a little carried away but I SWEAR I didn't mean for it to happen.'' Said Raman as he started to choke up a little

'I really do not know how else to tell you or what to do to make you feel better and not look at me with such disappointment.'' He added

'Do you love her?'' asked Ishita who had tears in her eyes

Raman looked at her and couldn't believe the question she had asked.

'What ' Said Raman

'Do You Love her?'' Ishita asked again

'No I do not I swear. Not anymore'' Said Raman

He watched as her eyes fell on the wedding band he wears and figured it out

'I wear it to remind me never to get back to that place. When she left me I destroyed myself for a woman who wasn't even worth it and in the process I almost lost my daughter. It is a reminder never to go back to that place. My children will always come first above all.'' Said Raman

'You do not have to explain yourself...'' Said Ishita

'No actually I do. You have this idea in your head that because I put on this ring it signifies some longing of love for Shagun but it doesn't. I have no idea why she steal wears hers and I do not care but this is why I wear mine. If it makes you feel better fine I am going to throw it away.'' Said Raman as he removed thering from his hand-

'What no stop it. Raman...'' Said Ishita

'If this will make you feel better fine.'' Said Raman as he arched back and threw the ring from the balcony

Ishita looked at him her mouth wide open not believing what the hell just happened

'Oh My God I can't believe you did that.'' Said Ishita

'Well believe it.'' Said Raman as he proudly showed her his hand

'Who said that is the reason I even asked you that question?'' Said Ishita

'Because everytime something happens between us, good or bad, you refer to that stupid ring'' Said Raman

'What do you mean'' Said Ishita

'Do not deny even after the kiss in the garden, you said something to me along those lines and I have a feeling that was what you thought and still think about what I felt after we kissed. You never gave me a chance to say anything'' Said Raman

There was a sudden silence between them almost as if they were not sure of this was territory they wanted to explore. Where they even ready to talk about it?

'Are we really talking about this?'' Said Ishita

'Yes, Yes we are.'' Said Raman

'Are you sure?'' Said Ishita

'I wouldn't have brought it up if I didn't want to talk about it.'' Said Raman and to be honest he was lying through his teeth.

It freaked him talking about it but he knew this was a hurdle they had to cross and being honest there was something between them. Maybe they couldn't explain it but it was there everyone knew it, they knew it but no one was willing to acknowledge it.

'Fine I never wanted to drag the matter. You looked like you were regretting it. You had a look on your face that just didn't reflect what I had hoped that's all.'' Said Ishita

'What you had hoped? What do you mean?'' Said Raman

'Nothing I forgive you let us just forget this and pretend it never happened.'' Said Ishita

'Ishita you are not getting away from me today I will not allow you to and do not brush this off like it is some light issue. We kissed, we freaking kissed and never really talked about it and whether you want to admit this or not it changed the dynamic in our relationship. I have never really looked at you the same since then. Why don't you just talk to me honestly without holding back? I could tell you were hurt because I didn't say a thing'' Said Raman

'Raman different people are comfortable with different things and I am not comfortable talking about stuff like this with random people.'' Said Ishita

'What the hell do you mean by Random people. Oh now I am random people'' Said Raman

'That is not what I meant and you know it.'' Said Ishita

'Then what did you mean?'' Said Raman

'You and I don't talk about stuff like that. We make fun of them, taunt each other maybe but we don't talk about stuff like that.'' Said Ishita

'Okay fine looks to me like I am the only one who wants to make this work. I thought our relationship had changed but I am an idiot.'' Said Raman giving up

'Have you ever known a 29 year old woman who had never been kissed'' asked Ishita

'What has that got to do with any of it'' Said Raman who was surprised at her question but also getting irritated as this conversation wasn't going anywhere

'When you kissed me it was my first time so I didn't quite know how to react that is why I didn't kiss you back when you kissed me.'' Said Ishita

'Am not sure I understand.'' Said Raman who was taken aback by her statement

'I was scared because to be honest I didn't know what the hell to do or how to react to something like that. But then I saw you standing in front of me with those sexy beautiful eyes of yours and somehow my body just got a mind of its own and so I somehow managed to kiss you back.'' Said Ishita looking everywhere but him

'Wait what are you saying?' Said Raman

'When we got to the car you got so quiet it kind of scared me a little. I was thinking I must have done a really bad job that you couldn't even put it to words'' She said letting out a slight laugh before she added

'But then I saw you playing with the ring and I figured you were thinking about Shagun. So I put an end to it before it got worse. Besides in my experience offence is better than defense and in this case it was the easier option'' Said Ishita

'My God Ishita I had...'' Said Raman

'It is okay and in any case no one my age should really care about stupid things like first kiss right.'' Said Ishita as she desperately tried to hide her tears

'I am so sorry I didn't mean to make you feel bad about that. I just froze as I didn't expect you to do that and with the way our relationship was I didn't know how you would take it. I got confused about what to do but then before I could properly assess the situation you kind of shut it down.'' Said Raman

'Well what would you have done had you been in my place'' Said Ishita

'I don't know but not that...'' Said Raman

'In any case it is okay. You wanted to know how I felt now you know. It really is not a big deal.'' Said Ishita

'No it is not okay, it is a big deal.'' Said Raman

He walked over to where she was standing and said

'I honest to God didn't know what to do? You had kissed me, and it was REALLY GOOD but then it freaked me out because it was you.'' Said Raman

'Okay I am not so sure what I should make out of that statement. Is that a good or a bad thing?'' Asked Ishita

'No I mean... Okay... A lot was going on with Ruhi and then the garden was romantic maybe that was the environment, I was confused. I didn't know what to do or say and I was really scared that out relationship was going to change and that freaked me out. I kissed you Ishita and I swear I thought you were going to be mad at me or something I don't know... But instead you kissed me back, that isn't something I expected...'' Said Raman

'Why would I be mad at you'' said a surprised Ishita

'Maybe because I was the one who put up all theses stupid rules and then I turned around and broke them, you do something to me that sometimes I can't think I just act without rationalizing stuff.'' Said Raman clearly getting agitated

Ishita could tell from the way he was talking that he felt really bad about the whole scenario and couldn't help but feel bad for making him feel that way. It was a big deal that he kissed her but she didn't want him to feel so bad.

'Ishita I am so sorry. I didn't know, I had no idea and if am being honest I never would have guessed it was your first time.'' Said Raman

'Raman, it is okay. It really isn't a big deal by God.''

'Actually it is, it is a big deal and I am sorry I spoilt that. In fact if I am being honest I kind of stole that away from you and I am sorry.'' Said Raman

'No no its okay, it's alright it's not like you forced me or anything. Besides I would rather it be you than anyone else.'' Said Ishita

Raman looked at her and smiled because he couldn't believe this was the same annoying woman he had met almost 2 years ago. He never would have guessed she would be the same woman standing in front of him saying all this to him. She had changed a lot, in fact she had turned into a woman he would have given anything to spend the rest of his life with. The actual thought actually scared the crap out of him because their story wasn't meant to take this kind of road.

'Well either way I am sorry and just for the record I do not regret it and if am being honest, It was pretty amazing.'' Said Raman as he watched her face sudden light up like a kid's face on Christmas morning

Ishita was blushing so hard and couldn't even bring herself to actually look at him. Raman watched as her checks blossomed with the color of burgundy and couldn't help but feel warm inside.

'Okay how about we have a do over.'' Said Raman

' A what...?'' Said Ishita

'A do over...'' Raman repeated

'Raman you do realize we are kind of too old for this.'' Said Ishita

'Do-overs have no age limits. Everyone has a chance to do things differently, you know, start afresh'' Said Raman

'Start what a fresh...? Said Ishita who had suddenly started to stammer

Raman looked at her and then smilingly said

'Oh My God get your mind out of the gutter. I am not talking about the kiss''

'Okay then what are you talking about.'' Said Ishita who had started to get a little shy

'I am talking about us doofus'' Said Raman letting out a small chuckle

'Well sorry you can't blame me can you'' Said Ishita who answered smilingly

'Actually no I kind of get that.'' He answered smilingly

'So do over.'' He added letting out his hand

'Yeah do over.'' Answered Ishita as she let her hand out shaking his like they had just signed a contract

Raman looked at her and couldn't help but smile because whatever reservations he had in that moment they didn't matter. She saw smiling back at him which made him feel warm inside but then he could see her smile slowly fade as she looked at something inside the house.

He turned around and he could see Shagun through the glass doors tossing and turning in bed.

'Yeah I really am sorry about that.'' He said

'It is fine I get that. Your lonely she knows it making it, makes it a bad combination for me but a really good one for you.'' She said

'Yeah that will never happen believe me.'' Said Raman

'If I didn't walk in then...'' Said Ishita

'You under estimate the power you have over me. Have faith in me.'' He said

'You really know your way around words and the charm that comes with them,. You could convince a dog it's a cat it you were you for it.'' She answered

'Yeah well, any way are we good.'' He asked

'Yeah we are. Now come on open the door I need to get back in.'' She said

'Why you do not seem sleepy'' Said Raman

'I am not but I need to prepare for the kids and I think you patient kind of needs you.'' Said Ishita

'She is not my...'' he almost continued but he could see her smiling

'You are taunting me aren't you?'' he said

'Just a little'' She said putting her index figures together

'Okay fine I kind of deserve that one.'' He said nodding his head before he added

'Come on stay with me here, Neelu will take care of the kids.''

'You are asking me to stay here with you.'' Asked a surprised Ishita

'Yes I am now come one sit down.'' He said holding her hand as he sat her down

'Okay fine ...'' She said as she sat down knowing if she tried to resist she wouldn't win that fight

'I know it is none of my business but do you miss her...'' Ishita suddenly asked

'Wow that is out of the blue...'' Said Raman

'Your evading the question. Just tell me and do not give me those cheesy sugar coated answers that you think I want to hear, Just be honest'' Said Ishita

'Honestly it's not that miss her but rather I miss the idea of being her. It quiet fulfilling to know you're going to work and some back home to a nice meal, a beautiful family , and a warm body to hold at night. I ...'' He said before he suddenly stopped talking and looked at her, he really didn't want to hurt her feelings

'Don't I do that, I think I try and do that.'' She said

'I never said you didn't and I a grateful believe me but I am a man after all I have needs and desires, there are things I miss.'' He said

'I am sorry I wish there is something I could do because I am extremely happy and I feel bad that you're not.'' She said

'NO no I never said I am not happy. I am just a bit lonely and horny sometimes that's all.'' He said teasingly just so she could smile, and it worked

She threw her head back laughing not believing he had actually said that to her face without stuttering this time.

'Well thank you for thinking my plight is funny.'' He said as he chuckled

'Sorry I just can't believe you said that out loud.'' She said

'Ahhh well you are my wife, I am allowed to say certain things without holding back.'' He said as he joined her throwing his head back as they laughed.

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CHAPTER TWENTY

'I am sorry I wish there is something I could do because I am extremely happy and I feel bad that you're not.'' She said

'NO no I never said I am not happy. I am just a bit lonely and horny sometimes that's all.'' He said teasingly just so she could smile, and it worked

She threw her head back laughing not believing he had actually said that to her face without stuttering this time.

'Well thank you for thinking my plight is funny.'' He said as he chuckled

'Sorry I just can't believe you said that out loud.'' She said

'Ahhh well you are my wife, I am allowed to say certain things without holding back.'' He said as he joined her throwing his head back as they laughed.

Ishita just nodded her head in affirmation and kept on smiling not believing how far they had come. They stayed on the balcony and talked about everything and nothing. They had never spent so much time together since they got married let alone talk to each other in that way

'So am guessing your favorite sport is cricket given how hard you tend to scream at the TV when India is losing.'' Said Ishita

'Well yeah I love cricket a lot but I also fancy football.'' Said Raman

'Okay so you is your favorite player.'' Said Ishita

'Sachin the king of course who else. He is the best'' Said Raman

'I wouldn't go for Sachin, I would say Kohli.'' Said Ishita

'What are you serious?'' said Raman

'Well yeah, he is a very good cricketer plus he had those sexy big eyes you just want to drown in them.'' Said Ishita smilingly

'Of course I am talking to a woman about cricket what to expect.'' Said Raman shaking his head

'Hahahaha I am just saying, he is easy on the eyes plus he had a nice butt.'' Said Ishita

'Okay husband in the room please, don't talk about another man like that.'' Said Raman smilingly

'Well why not, are you jealous?'' said Ishita teasingly

'Yes and it is my right to be ' he answered

'Oh Please, I do not complain when you talk about Deepika Padukone why should you complain if I talk about Kohli'' Said Raman

'Yeah she is beautiful...'' he said almost as if he had just realized it

'hahahahaha that's true'' said Ishita who was amused by his expression

'It is so easy to talk to you. Who would have thought and I am not say I am not one who talks a lot'' Said Raman

'Well I can say the same about you.'' She said

'Wait what time is it?'' She added

'It doesn't matter I won't let you leave this balcony.'' Said Raman

'But I really need to be helpi...'' Said Ishita

'No! I am saying today Neelu will take care of it.'' He said

'Okay fine... You are really persistent.'' She said

'Only with things I really want.'' He said smilingly

Ishita looked at him as he smilingly looked at her and she couldn't believe that they were actually sitting on the balcony together and having their own private moment. Unlike in the garden, today he seemed genuinely happy and this face had a glow about him almost as if after a long time he was at peace.

She in a long long time could genuinely say she was happy. In that moment with him looking at her the way he was, she was happy in fact she could say she was content. Ishita's life had changed a lot when the Iyers took her in and she can say they saved her life, but with a lot of emotional scars she managed to just survive and live but when with him, he made her feel like life had a purpose than just living through.

Like her body was possessed she slowly came forward and just embraced him, holding him like if she let go he was going to disappear.

Raman watched as her expressions suddenly changed and she started to tear up and yet she was just smiling at him. He was shocked when she hugged him holding him so tight. He figured with the day she had had may be she just wanted someone to hold her and so he put his arms around her and hugged her back.

When Ishita felt his arms around her she couldn't hold back and just broke down. It is like all the weight in the world had just suddenly dropped down from her shoulders and now she wasn't afraid to just be.

Raman could hear her sobs and sniffs as she cried but understood that maybe she just needed a good cry. Like a good husband he just strengthened his hold and hugged her tighter.

They stayed in each other's embrace for a while until he felt her loosen her grip on him so he did the same.

'I am sorry about that. I usually have a grip on my impulses it is just difficult when am around you I don't know why.'' She said

'No it is okay do not worry about it. Are you okay?'' he asked

'Yeah I am fine. I just ... I mean ... It is...'' she tried to say but couldn't put it into words

'Ishita, you do not have to say anything. I just need to know you okay that's all'' he said as he removed the tears on her face with his thumb

'Yeah I am okay thank you. I promise you Raman I will tell you about it someday, I just do not have the strength to do it today'' She said feeling guilty

'Come one it is fine. You need to stop apologizing to me, I am your husband it is the least I can do. Besides if you can take care of my kids and me with no complaints the least I can do is be a shoulder for you to cry on even though you think Kohli is better tha Sachin. Come on seriously'' He said as he tried to make her smile

She let out a small laugh as she said thank you. She then got up and went at the edge of the balcony just so she could pull herself together and just calm herself down. She had to admit she did enjoy being in his arms, it felt right.

Raman saw her standing up and figured hey, if they have decided to have a do over might as well be in everything else so walked over to where he was and said

'Hey do you trust me?''

'Of course'' she said rubbing the tears in her eyes

He then came forward and put his hands around her waist as the other hand removed the hairs that were falling in her face.

'Ram... Kya ...'' She tried to talk

'Shhsss ...'' Raman replied

He then pulled her into his embrace their bodies colliding together in the most perfect way. He slowly brought his head forward his one hand still on his waist and the other on the nape of her neck.

Ishita was having all sorts of emotion over whelming her at the same time, she wanted to run and yet she didn't, she had butterflies in her stomach and yet they felt like a mild ulcer, she closed her eyes as he felt him closer and closer.

Raman then kissed her neck, started to drop tiny kisses on her cheek, little by little until he got to her face. He then slowly kissed the tip of her nose, then her eyes one by one before he finally looked at her and he could see she had closed her eyes and was holding her breath. He chuckled because he knew he drove her crazy as she did him no matter how hard she tried to hide it or explain it as something else.

Ishita heard him chuckled then opened her eyes to look at him. He had a desire in him she had never seen before. This was different; this was perfect, this was right. She just looked at him and smiled before she leaned in and did the same with him. She stood on the tip toes and kissed his nose and eyes one by one before she finally came back down and looked at him there faces so close they could hear each other breathe.

Raman slowly got his hands to her face, holding it so gently like cracked glass as he caressed her lips slowly with his thumb. He came forward and she slowly arced back her head whispering

'Raman, please do not do something you will regret.''

'I know...'' he whispered back before he finally placed his lips on hers.

Ishita could feel his lips were so warm, so smooth and they brushed against her own. Moving his left hand up to the nape of her neck he seized her lips even more making this kiss so powerful, more passionate and more luring that it sent heat up to her cheeks, butterflies to her stomach and taking her breath away every time.

Raman tried to pull away thinking she needed to catch her breath but instead her hands moved to ball themselves into his hair as she parted her lips more to let his tongue explore her mouth and he obliged. She let him kiss her even more, her own tongue exploring the pleasure of his lips with his hand searching the small of her neck and into her hair.

Raman pulled her in even closer tasting her lips and exploring them as if finding out feelings from a kiss. He started to feel her body his hand on her waist as it made its way down feeling her butt dimples and he could hear Ishita had started to moan.

They finally pulled away both in dire need of breath as they looked at each other's eyes. Raman looked at Ishita her eyes filled with wild desires and he knew they matched his own. A smile crept up his face sending a stupor grin across Ishita's face as well.

'WOW...'' Said Ishita letting out a soft laugh

'Yeah WOW...'' Said Raman as he chuckled under his breath

'So what now...'' Asked Ishita

'Now we watch the sunrise together...'' Said Raman as he took her hand and planted a sweet kiss on the back of it before he pulled her into his embrace and they watched the sun rise together.

Ishita held Raman with her eyes a bit teary because in that moment she realized everything she had been feeling, everything she had feared, everything she put down as just loneliness was just a lie she told herself as it was easier. The truth of the matter was, she had fallen in love with him.

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