He won't go - A harshika (part 1,2, 3-completed-pg 1,2 )

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Posted: 10 years ago

Harshad eyed the amber liquid and the golden glow of the glass-like cubes.He swirled the whiskey in his glass, listening to the chinking of the ice cubes, breathing in a fragrance that only years in an oak barrel can achieve. Already the worries of his day were beginning to fade, even before the first taste. Just watching its gentle vortex was hypnotizing enough. There was no one to go back to,no media to confront,no questios to answer..and no call to respond to; there was just aged single-malt direct from Scotland. It was his one vice and he intended to make a virtue of it, savour it, not race to the bottom of the bottle like he had after the party that night. When the liquid settled he brought it to his weather-cracked lips and let the amber fluid sit in his mouth a while before swallowing. He closed his eyes, dwelling only on the flavour. God it was good.And unknown to himself it had turned into his elixir ..a way of numbing out everything..But his peace was only shirt-lived..

Harshad could feel her eyes on hm. Her presence lingering in the air that enveloped them,but he didn't make the effort to look up at her,at leats not when he was trying his best to ignore her or rather forget her,but surprisingly the more he tried to go away from her,the more she'd turn up at every corner of his life.But then he culdn't have avoided her this time.Their trip was preplanned. They were bound to meet at the awards..during their stay in Kolkata-The City of Joy. City of Joy' A bitter laugh reverberated within his soul..'joy'? when desolation was all that was left in his life..desolation, disappointment, and ...

He brought the glass to his mouth, and tipped it..but even before he could drain the amber liquid, she snatched it away, slamming the glass down on the bar counter.

"Harshad..just stop it!Please..don't..do it.."

Her words were mere whispers,compared to the music in the background..but then it was loud enough to his ears..The silence that followed her words ,was the most terrifying part. Like before a bomb. It was a time for hope to grow or wither. It was a time for doubt to suddenly grow until its almost physical. The silence the most painful part, more painful as she wished for it to happen instead of endure the silence.When he turned at last to face her there was no trace of tears, not in his eyes or in track marks on his reddening face. His eyes were narrowed, rigid, cold, hard . In that moment Preetika knew he was already far away. Once more she was the enemy. These swings from most loved to most hated would be the end of her. His states had no greyscale, only the polar extremes existed. She drew in a deep breath, the burning hard stare would last only as long as it took him to think of the most brutally cutting thing he could tear me down with..but this time,she wouldn't let him.

"Leave me ALONE.."

She took in a deep breath, it was just like that night...he would once again refuse to take her help, he would once again..no...not again..

She brought her hands up to cup his face, not caring, about the rest of the world..

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Edited by AnnRosewood - 10 years ago

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Was supposed to update it in the morning..wrote the entire chapter,but somehow it didn't update..and now I ahd to redo it ..once again..So here it is..to all my wonderful friends and readers :*

Recap: She took in a deep breath, it was just like that night...he would once again refuse to take her help, he would once again..no...not again..

She brought her hands up to cup his face, not caring, about the rest of the world..

"Harshad..please...just listen to me"once.."

His eyes flickered for a second. But the pure anger flared and she couldn't stay away from him away. She wanted to help him. His eyes didn't widen, they unhurriedly formed into unnerving slits as he directed his lethal glare at me.

And without a moment's notice he jerked her hand away, with a force, strong enough to make her recoil and let her back to hit the bar counter.

"Leave me Ms. Preetika Rao..before I do something that I end up regretting.."

The poisonous silence seeped under their skin..it was a poison to them, for in that void of sound the shallowness of their conversation was laid bare..the poison seeping into the void of their heart.

"No.."

It was not long before, Harshad found himself dragged, hall way across the hotel back to her room...

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The door closed behind them, and she abruptly let go of his hand.

She was about to walk away, when he pulled her back, and twisting her arm behind her, Harshad anchored her to his chest,not realizing that he was actually hurting her in the process..

He let go of her, seeing her wince in pain...

"What do you want from me..?"

His words echoed in the silent darkness of the room and for some odd reason,Preetika was relieved that it was dark, it would save her from seeing the hatred and anger in his eyes, and would also hide her treacherous tears.

"I want my old Harshad Arora back.." she wonderd why she was worried abot her tears, when her voice could give her away at any point of time.

Preetika would always remember his laugh...and it seemed that it would ring in her ears for sometime.He laughed at her delusional state..

"It's always about you right Preetika..? "

"Harsh"I""

"Why do you bother, when you're gonna end up hating me like everyone else. Why do you care when you know that you're gonna go back to ignore me...,why do you want to stay back? Why do you keep coming back tome..when you are going to leave me in the end the way you left me that night.."

"Ignore you..Harshad ? You've been treating me,as if I don't even exist for you..do you even care how I feel when""

"It's over between us.."

Preetika was more aware of the pounding of her head than the layer of dehydrated saliva that coated her parched lips..

"no..no..Harsh..just listen to me..once..please..I"I can't let you leave like this..You need me Harsad..and I need you..Do you hear me.?" She grapped his collar and shook him,unapologetically.

"Do you hear me Harshad Arora...we need each other, and do you knw..why I"had to leave""

"Yes I do,Ms. Preetika Rao.. you left because we are two completely different person,who can never be together..two actors who have had to put up a faade of camaraderie..for the sake of a show.." he spewed out the words like venom- words which were intended to tear across her soul.

"I left because..I can't see you slowly lose yourself..and turn"into a someone you won't recoznise..this is not the Harshad I fell in love with..he won't ever chose his poison over me..He won't.."

"You know Preetika..you're just like them..so when do you plan to leave me..?"

She cupped his face once again,forcing him to look into her eyes...
" You want me to leave..I will..but only when I'll be assured that you'll do fine without me..the day I will know that I won't have to cry myself to sleep, because of losing you.."

"I need to leave..I'll.."

He was about to turn away..walk aaway from her-once again..

But this time she won't let him..

Preetika wrapped her arms around his torso,while her struggled against her embrace.

And it was some time,before he calmed down,and almost unwilling he wrapped his arms loosely around her.

Preetika dug her face in his chest, placing her lips close to his heart..while the slow,rhythmic ,tympanic beating of his heart,soothed her.

She felt him relax against her,not even slightly bothered that her tears were making his shirt wet.

"I won't let you go harshad..I need you back..I need my old harshad back,who could make me laugh even at the dead of the night, who would worry himself sick even if I was a bit late returnign back his call...I want to see that smile on your face..I don't have a problem with your friends harshad..but I have a problem with your habits..because Harshad..you're turning into someone you're not..I don't want to see you lose yourself..because Harshad if you lose yourself,I'll be lost too..and am not ready to lose myself.."

"Pree"Why are you doing it?"

"Because I love you..."

"I need to go""

Some say I'll be better without you
But they don't know you like I do
Or at least the sides I thought I knew

I can't beg this time
It drags on as I lose my mind
Reminded by things I find
Like notes and clothes you left behind

Darkness is a strange substance, like ice it has three states solid, liquid, and gas, but with a twist. Since it was a sort of mystical material, it didn't fall under the laws of science, only able to change states by the user. In solid form its almost completely black aside from a very tiny shade of red at its centre, like a candle in the dark, when a non-user touches it it's like getting winded, if hit by a sharp point it will penetrate and quickly infect. As a liquid its thick; sticky, and has a pungent smell of ink, it can act like quicksand or just plain coat and suffocate people. As a gas its quite strange it is able to pass through solid material with ease, suffocate, and eat away like acid. As a whole Darkness is an odd thing.

Wake me up, wake me up when all is done
I won't rise until this battle's won
My dignity's become undone

But I won't go
I can't do it on my own
If this ain't love, then what is?
I'm willing to take the risk

I won't go
I can't do it on my own
If this ain't love, then what is?
I'm willing to take the risk

So petrified, I'm so scared to step into this ride
What if I lose my heart and fail the climb?
I won't forgive me if I give up trying

I heard his voice today
I didn't know a single word he said
Not one resemblance to the man I met
Just a vacant broken boy instead

But I won't go
I can't do it on my own
If this ain't love, then what is?
I'm willing to take the risk

I won't go
I can't do it on my own
If this ain't love, then what is?
I am willing to take the risk

There will be times
We'll try and give it up
Bursting at the seams, no doubt
We'll almost fall apart then burn the pieces
To watch them turn to dust
But nothing will ever taint us

I won't go
I can't do it on my own
If this ain't love, then what is?
I'm willing to take the risk

I won't go
I can't do it on my own
If this ain't love, then what is?
I am willing to take the risk

Will he... will he still remember me?
Will he still love me even when he's free?
Or will he go back to the place where he would choose the poison over me?

When we spoke yesterday,
He said to hold my breath and sit and wait
"I'll be home so soon, I won't be late"

He won't go
He can't do it on his own
If this ain't love, then what is?
He's willing to take the risk

So I won't go
He can't do it on his own
If this ain't love, then what is?
I'm willing to take the risk

Cause he won't go
He can't do it on his own
If this ain't love, then what is?
We're willing to take the risk

I won't go
I can't do it on my own
If this ain't love, then what is?
I'm willing to take the risk