Pragya sat at the bench near the operation theatre looking at the door for what seemed like years. She didn't know what really happened. She was so happy, so content, today when Abhi asked her to go back with him she thought that maybe she could have the life she always dreamed of. She had decided that she will forgive him and go back. They could start afresh and make their marriage work but then what had happened in those 10 minutes. How had her life taken such a turn? Why had he lied? To her.. To her family. She was ready to let him go. To move on in life no matter how much it hurt but then he came back, showing, pretending that he wanted the marriage to work, that he wanted to be with her, but why? Why would he be so cruel? Why did he play with her feelings? Wasn't it enough that she was alone.. Did she need to be heartbroken as well? And Maa? What was her fault? That she was her mother.. What kind of a daughter was she? She could not do anything to stop him from doing all this? She should have known, he was always a cheat, people don't change, she knew that, didn't she? Then why didn't she realize it earlier? She could've stopped this.. She didn't know how but she would have.
Puneet threw him out of the hospital that day, warning him to stay away from his sister and his family. He tried to contact Pragya, Bulbul, Purvi, but they refused to talk to him, even his Daadi won't speak to him until after two days when Daadi told him that Sarla Maa had passed away. He was about to go to her house but she told him not to. She asked him to stay away from the entire family. That she didn't want him to show Pragya his face, that he had let her down. She even said that nobody would forgive him now, that everything was over now but the most hurtful words were when she requested that him to marry Tannu only after he gave Pragya a divorce, to take it as the only thing that she will ever ask him to do ever. Did she think that he was such a low life who would marry his girlfriend, after leaving his wife in such a condition? "That was the plan, wasn't it?" A small voice inside his head spoke, reminding him of what he had planned to do to his wife, what had he become?
He went to her house anyway, he needed to see her, to see how she was holding up but what he saw broke his heart all over again. There she sat looking lifeless, as if she didn't want to live anymore, as if even breathing was painful for her and that hurt so much. He wanted to go to her, comfort her, but he knew he had no right to so he sat there in his car waiting for her to acknowledge him, but when she came to him, blaming him, accusing him of killing her mother but it didn't hurt as much as her condition did. She said that she'd give him the divorce papers and his heart stopped, No.. No! He could not let that happen, how will he live after that, knowing she won't be his wife anymore, that he wouldn't be able to see her every morning, every day, that she wouldn't be there to fight with him, to make his blood boil, to make him feel alive, to make him feel like life was worth living after all. But then again, who was he to decide? He had the golden chance of spending a lifetime with her but he screwed up, God had sent an angel just for him, who brought heaven to his feet just by smiling at him and he didn't realize it until she decided not to be with him anymore, in his head he knew he didn't deserve her but all his heart wanted, needed, was her, to be with her. He wanted to tell her all of this but he knew she won't believe him. He wanted to tell her that he loved her and he loved Sarla maa, that he would never want anything to happen to her but then he heard Daadi, even she was so angry at him and then suddenly she fainted.
He stopped in front of the hospital and asked the staff to bring a stretcher. The doctor checked her and told us that she was ok and that she had fainted due to stress. So even his daadi is suffering because of his deeds, he thought self-loathingly. "Can we see her?" Pragya asked the doctor. "Well, yes but make sure she stays away from anymore stress, it can be fatal." Pragya visibly paled hearing this and then looked at Abhi. She just looked at him disappointedly and left for Daadi's room. She lied there looking so fragile with all the tubes attached to her, she saw Pragya and almost immediately held her hand out for her which she took and sat down next to her, "I know I have no right to say this, but please forgive me." Pragya shook her head, "Why are you sorry Daadi? It wasn't your fault. It was my bad luck." "No beta, I knew my grandchildren, I shouldn't have thrown you to them, look at what they did to you.. You were so, so good, I thought that you will be able to change them, make them better but they were too damaged and somewhere, it was my upbringing that made them what they are today, so yes, it is my fault."
After a while, Pragya left the hospital after promising Daadi that she'd visit everyday. She stopped to look at him for a second before saying, "Look after her, I still believe that you love her, so please take care of her, despite of what you believe, of all the people you've loved, she is the only one who loved you back almost as much, if not more, don't lose her." After saying this she left, she wasn't completely right though, there was another woman who loved him back so much more than he ever loved het, the woman who supported him even when nobody did, who took all the blame of his mistakes so he could be at peace, who made him believe that even he could love someone so much that he would not want to breathe the air that did not have her fragrance in it, if only she knew how much he loved her.
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