...CHAPTER 6: FEELINGS...
"the way he looks at me ...It feels...as if...I know him closer..."
Suvreen
After spending her day at the mall with her best friends, Suvi drove her BMW along the lonely road accompanied by the pouring rain.
"Is Yuvraj still in the office?" Suvreen mumbling to herself
While waiting for the red light to turn green she was once again amazed by the wedding dress that was showcase behind the glass window of a bridal shop across the road. The thought of Yuvraj hesitating to introduce her as his wife to DJ appeared in her mind causing her to pull over at the corner of the road.
Stop! Stop it!!! Suvreen shouted when she faced her horrid flashback of getting hit by a truck.
Where did everything started? How did everything turned out this way?
It's already eight o'clock in the evening. I don't feel like going back to the mansion, Yuvraj is a mystery puzzle to me. He is a puzzle that seems impossible for me to complete and going back to that mansion means I must face his ignorance towards my question, awkwardness in our relationship and disappointment. As much as I hate to face those pains, I couldn't help myself from missing him and wanting to be close to him.
Yuvraj
Yuvraj is walking back and forth in his mansion.
Where is she? Why isn't she home yet? Is she okay?
This question keep on pestering me as the cloud turned dark and the rain start falling. I know what am I feeling right now is not because of the guilt feeling but it's because I care for her or maybe there is something more than care, something that I couldn't figure out.
After a while Yuvraj could hear the sound of a car approaching the mansion and the sound of the main gate moving assures him that Suvreen is home.
Mansion.
Suvi: "I am home" Suvreen said silently trying to avoid an eye contact with Yuvraj.
Yuvi: "How's your..." before Yuvraj could complete his words he found Suvreen is already on her way to her room.
Suvreen.
I couldn't face him. I have tried to convince myself that I shouldn't expect anything from a forced marriage. Was our marriage forced? I don't even know the answer to the question. I am lost but one thing I am sure about is my feeling towards Yuvraj is love.
How I am so sure about my feeling is something I couldn't explain even if I want to. There is a part of myself couldn't stop me from thinking about him. It felt as if everything about Yuvraj keeps on attracting me towards him, his gaze, smile and even his anger.
I realize what am I feeling is something insane. How can I fall in love with him? I'll end up in pain falling in love with someone who don't love me. I couldn't hold back the tears that try to escape from my eyes. This feeling..this pain...as if I have felt it before.
Yuvraj
What happen to her? Is she avoiding me?
This keeps on bugging me. I need an answer. As I turn around I saw Suvreen is there behind me and her eyes is red. Did she cry?
She walks across me as if I don't exist.
"Why are you avoiding me?"
Suvreen stops for a while and tries to walk away as if answering my question is not necessary
Yuvi: "Suvreen..I am talking to you"
Suvi: "I am tired" Suvreen answered silently
Yuvi: "Do you hate me that much?" Yuvraj said before he walks away
"It's because I am falling in LOVE with you" Suvreen said loud enough that Yuvraj could hear her.
"I've had enough! I tried my best to avoid this feeling and I even convinced myself that I don't love you but this is just too much! I don't want to lie to myself anymore!" Suvreen said firmly
"Suvreen...I...don't know...what...why" Yuvraj stammer
Suvreen walk towards Yuvraj
"Yuvraj...no...Yuvi..I don't know what happen in the past and I don't care what will happen in the future but one thing I'm sure about is I am falling for you and I'll make you love me!" she smiled cheekily
"I have decided...even if there is no future in our relationship...before the end comes I want to experience everything. What was life like, again? How does it feel to feel emotions awash you once again? What is it like to cry over a late night romantic movie's tragic ending? What is it like to dream over a perfect love story? What is it like to love?" Suvreen pours her heart out
What is this feeling? Happy? Amazed? This Suvreen never fails to surprise me; the old Suvreen keeps her feeling to herself and the lady standing in front of me boldly express her feelings. What am I supposed to do? But I feel happy that love is still there in her heart.
Yuvraj stood there clueless;surprised by Suvreen bold confession.
"You don't have to answer me now.When the time comes you'll know what your heart feels. Then you'll be able to answer me. I'll wait for you." Suvreen smiled and walk towards her room. After her confession, she felt lighter and her heart felt calm.
Yuvraj closed his eyes. "I am going crazy" he said to himself.
He opened his eyes and before he could react Suvreen gave him a peck on his lips and she whisper "I promise you I'll sweep you off your feet" she winked and run into her room.
"I am going crazy? She's definitely crazy!" He smiled at his thought.
:will she be able to sweep him off his feet?
Edited by vidya.G - 11 years ago
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