Arshi FF/ Saffron Fields #11//Ch. 32 Pg. 115/ Thread 12 link Pg. 1 - Page 6

"There were a lot of things in his past, he decided regretfully, he would've done differently if given another chance..."

Aww, that really broke my heart. The man is full of regrets about his past... Ah! but didn't some wise person recently say, that hindsight is 20/20?? 😉

"We look back at the past with the clarity of hindsight, we can even look ahead at the future and visualize it with glasses tinted with hopes and wishes".

"But present", he continued, raking his fingers through his thick, slightly damp hair, "You don't really see present beyond the immediate surroundings. You just live it. One moment at a time, one choice at a time, struggling to deal with, to cope with, whatever life throws at you."

So stop berating yourself Arnav, you just never know how things are going to play out in life, you deal with one day at a time & just hope that the decisions that you take are the best under the circumstances...

But meeting Lavanya was much more traumatic for Arnav than even he had thought it would be... Seeing her still living under the disillusionment of a reconciliation was downright a blow for him. The more he wants his freedom back, the more La is making it difficult for him & clinging on... Suggesting Muse to him was a monumental mistake on her part. She is driving that wedge deeper & deeper between them. Arnav lashing out at her was his pain & distaste of a marriage that is so repulsive to him that he wants the power to turn the clock back & be able to correct all the mistakes of his past... He desperately questions her pride & self-respect...

Reading this story made me feel so sorry for Arnav... I can feel his anger & frustration at being trapped like that. Which self-respecting person wants to be tied down unwillingly to a person like that??? No wonder, he cannot contain his anger when he talks to her now... No wonder he missed Khushi like anything...

"Miss you so f****** much that it's not even funny", his thumbs jabbed the message feelingly, "I'm just walking into clinic right now, will call you back".

And Lavanya, I felt sorry for her when I read about her falling in love with Arnav like that & dealing with unrequited love... And I would have continued to feel sorry for her had she lived with her unrequited love without doing all the other things she ended up doing... Maybe she started sleeping around after being rejected by Arnav just to get over him?? Maybe she was stealing a moment of happiness with her only love when she managed to sleep with Arnav who under a state of inebriation did not know what he was doing?? Maybe she really did not know that the child she conceived was not Arnav's... Maybe she was too scared to own up to Aarav's paternity to Arnav when she actually found that out later in fear of retaliation by Arnav...

All of that would have still been tolerable & I would have still felt some sympathy for her in spite of being so weak & deceitful in order to protect her marriage with Arnav... But what made me lose all sympathy for her was when she fought with Arnav constantly due to her own insecurities, even when Aarav was alive, when she blamed Arnav for wanting to see Aarav die, when she blamed Arnav that he did not love Aarav... That's when I lost all respect & sympathy for her... Yes, I do still feel sorry for her as a woman to lose her baby like that, but that's about it.

For all through this story, we have seen what a thorough gentleman Arnav is...

If I were to pick just one quality of Arnav to describe him in this whole story, it would be honesty. The man is honest to a fault. If there is anything that bugs the heck out of him it would be dishonesty, be it lying, deception or cheating. If that is his mantra for life, then how can you expect him to tolerate and live a lie?? He certainly deserves better. For Pete's sake, he even made Khushi own up their relationship to her parents at the cost of earning their ire but he would rather deal with their anger than be blamed for hiding things from them.

When Lavanya expressed her desire to further their relationship beyond friendship, he declined honorably because he was not interested in her that way. Then he was forced to marry her out of obligation thinking the child was his...

Even though, he married her out of obligation, he tried to compromise as best as he could... He had every desire to make the marriage work. Although, he could never generate feelings of love for Lavanya no matter how hard he tried, he was in the marriage for good. At least, that is what his intentions were. He tried being a good husband, & a fabulous father. His own feelings took a back seat. But then there is only so much he can do... If the other partner does not reciprocate in a similar manner then it is very difficult to make something as complicated as a marriage work.

It takes two to tango. Marriage is an institution that takes a lot of hard work. If either one of the partners is not inclined to take his or her own responsibilities equally & seriously, then there will be issues in the marriage...

So now with so much water having flown under the bridge, let the man go Lavanya... If he couldn't love you back when he was your friend, you certainly can't expect him to love you back now. Let the man go & at least salvage whatever little friendship you can from his magnanimity... Yes, it very true that when one is happy & secure, it is very easy to be magnanimous, & Arnav after all the acrimony that exists between the two was able to find it in his heart to be cordial to her... If she lets him go nicely without any more acrimony Arnav may find it in his heart to even forgive her. He is that much of a gentleman.

But will or does La have even an iota of sense in her, remains to be seen... I just hope she doesn't malign or blame Khushi for the break-up of her marriage. That would certainly be the last straw for Arnav believe me to tolerate. La has been testing his patience beyond its limits, I hope she sees sense before things get any worse.

Won't comment on Sujata yet, she still has to calm down. Her wound is still quite raw for her to see sense right now. Although, I would like to see her calm down soon, her daughter needs her trust & support the most now.

Good to see Chhutki's status being elevated in the eyes of Anderson Cooper (Btw, he is gay 😆), to Ms. Anita Gupta up from "Khushi's younger sister"... The man has begun seeing Anita as a separate entity & not tied at the hip with Khushi permanently. Progress even in small increments is always a welcome thing & this IMO is huge. 😉

Jenny frankly speaking, I am not really looking forward to the next chapter but bring it on soon & let's get done quickly with these blasted FBs... So that we can swing into the much more pleasant & scintillating present... What say?? 😉